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Name: Asia Prestigiacomo Age: 17 Gender: Female Location: Rome, Italy Occupation: student Marital Status: married Kids: No Hobbies: enlightement, meditation, reading, knitting, sewing with the machine, vegetable garden, animals, cooking, hiking. (Apologies for my elementary english because i'm a learner) My journey has started 3 years ago when i became a serious activist for enviromental issues. I've started to become an authentical zero waster, collecting all my waste in a glass jar, i've also started to raise people's awareness at school, to friends, teachers and family. In 3rd year of lyceum of arts, i met my best friend Valentina, a seriously awakened girl, who suddently became my spiritual guru. Thanks to her i learned about indian spirituality, karma and reincarnation, i became a vegetarian and after a vegan. I read a lot of books of Paramahansa Yogananda and Shirla Prabupada (Hare Krishna founder). My changes with religions were: raised as a christian child, atheist in middle school, agnostic in the beginning of lyceum, Hare Krishna and now spiritual. About 8 months ago everything started to loose meaning and now i am dealing with this problem, because i don't find much more satisfactiom in everyday life and passions, and my mind has an hard time accepting it. Last month Valentina has suggested me actualized.org and i started to watch Leo's lessons. I always say that when i listen to a lesson and it really vibes into me, i'm just listening to words that explains perfectly something that i already knew. I can say that most Leo's videos has caused this situation of "already knew" inside me. Expecially the ones about pratical life, and also something about god, karma and spirituality. Personal challenges I've overcome: - finding my man - eating healty and natural medicine - critical thinking - overcome 'having children to make sense of my life' What I'm working on now: - spiritual awakening - looking for the meaning and the truth - accepting deseases and other's death (- having my own vegetarian farm and vegetable garden to live in an indipendent way)

I just had an insight into what I think is the universal deepest fear and that is Eternity. I got this idea from watching Sartre’s No Exit play and the Good Place. Eternity robs life of all meaning. Death in a way is our salvation and escape from eternal boredom. I think there comes a point when our soul reaches the “I’m done” moment and wants to experience reality from a different perspective. Imagine that if your consciousness was locked into the human form forever, you as God would get tired of that. God cannot be omniscient if it blocks itself off from experiencing everything that isn’t human. This is why I think reincarnation might be true. Reincarnation is like beating one video game to play another. But eternity goes deeper than boredom. One of the reasons why people kill themselves is because they believe their depression will last forever, which of course is a self-deception. You born and die in self-deception. What do you think? Do you think eternity is our greatest fear? Of course a counter argument is that we wouldn’t fear everlasting, eternal happiness. But I would argue that even happiness would lose meaning without the experience of other contrasting emotions.

Okay. I don't believe in God. I believe there is enlightenment, but there is no God. There are just animals and aliens. I also have a strong opinion that the universe is a dangerous, sometimes very unfair and cruel place. For me death is sometimes desirable, other times it is really scary, the pain of dying and living or the pain of maybe even reincarnation. I don't actually believe in reincarnation. It is hard to believe in it when the fact is that my body and brain will never again exist which makes it impossible for me to exist. I never existed prior to my birth and even then I don't really remember that much. I don't identify myself as God, creator of reality or whatever. For me Consciousness is a form of power that moves everything in existence. Everyone is predetermined and consciousness is not even aware, but it thinks it is. It's just some form of power that moves dreams and people in it. Or consciousness is the dream matter itself, incomprehensible, mystical and magical like the sea. For me being reborn in a worse reality than this is scary, but why? Why does the universe have to be so fucking evil? Made my life the way it is and is gonna make another one even worse? Why not believe in the possibility of getting reincarnated in a better reality? My wishes never even became reality so maybe it is just possible to let reality do whatever it wants without me in it. I don't want to be forced to stay in hell for no good reason. Lastly, I feel abandoned, poor, ashamed, unacceptable, stupid.

Some Spiritual Thoughts I have been I suppose exercising a nondual train of thought because I feel like I resonates with it me an my values and because of how much peace and empathy it has brought me. I want to describe that a little bit more here today using the context of my processing of the Palestinian genocide. I wouldn't say that I have experienced god myself. I've just been trying this thing out for the past 2 years where I have taken some of the interesting ideas I have heard from Leo and from my class Understanding the Self: Eastern and Western Perspectives in regards to what God and Consciousness is and how I can embody that more. Nonduality and Consciousness We are all part of one consciousness and there is no separation between my consciousness and the consciousness of others. There is this illusion of separation, of duality, because nonduality is all encompassing, meaning it also contains duality as paradoxical as it can seem. The consciousness I have is no different than the consciousness of a Palestinian infant who has lost their family and is the sole survivor. It's no different from the IDF soldier posting thirst traps on TikTok. It's no different from the bystander in Germany who is going about life as if nothing is happening and it's no different from the consciousness of a person in the U.S. who has family in Gaza. And I think embodying this thought more allows me to view everyone as more human and even if they are not human still part of the same on consciousness, thus opening me up to more empathy and understanding because in the end of the day, it is all me. I am not my name, my body, the things I own, the things I experience, or the things I feel. All of that is relative to my material conditions. When you strip everything away, I am the consciousness. And if consciousness is God, I am God. And if consciousness is everything, then I am everything. And when you see yourself in everything, you walk with much more gentleness and empathy than if you were to separate yourself from creation. God is Everything If consciousness is in everything and everyone, and consciousness in each person is God's way of experiencing reality and his creation from infinite perspectives, why does god create atrocities like genocide? It's because consciousness, unlike ego, isn't motivated by survival as it know it's infinite. God created the Palestinian mother who lost everything because it wants to know what it's like to live that life from it's very conception to it's very end to fully understand and embody it. It's also how God becomes/is all knowing, because God lives in all perspectives. It's hard for our human ego to imagine why God would let such atrocities happen and let creation suffer as so because even the best of us have great difficulty to abandon survival fully to where we would be content being bombed indiscriminately in the same way that it's content living in a luxury penthouse apartment. God's desire to experience has no bounds because in nonduality all there is is consciousness. and therfore it embodies infinite forms of love. And if God is everything and is infinite, meaning it is boundless, there is nothing stopping it from creating boundaries and challenges, and individual egos. God loves the mass shooter and wants to experience reality from it's perspective in the same way that God has boundless love towards the victims of the shooting. To love is to take the interest of another as your own and the deepest way to do that is embodiment. And because God is infinite love, it loves even the ugliest parts of existance that is hard for any regular person's ego to accept, much less embody. Reincarnation And the whole bit about how when we die and consciousness stops, there might be a void but since there is nothing else to do, God comes back and continues to experience and embody infinite forms of consciousness, I believe explains reincarnation as well. I believe that it explains reincarnation in a nonlinear way. I might be soos_mite_ah in this life but maybe in my next life I'll be Harriet Tubman. Maybe in my next life I will be born as my mother, my best friend, or maybe a random person 500 years into the future. God will eventually experience every life and then keep doing it tenfold for an infinite amount of times for an infinite duration of time. And this experiences how God is all knowing as well because God has experience every perspective. For example, I can crack open a history book and know the general life story of Harriet Tubman from the point of view that consciousness is experiencing from soos_mite_ah. When consciousness is experiencing Harriet Tubman, it won't know her whole life story from beginnning to end as it did in its past life it experienced centuries into the future. But it will know the day to day minutia and embody the experiences that Harriet Tubman had from birth to death and even the forgotten points in between. Consciousness is all knowing because it has experienced Harriet Tubman for example in everyway possible. Everything in linear time has already happened and is happening simultaneously. It just doesn't seem so because of the way consciousness limits itself to take everything in. I bring this up because I guess a nondual practice I have to experience more empathy is to imagine that everyone I meet is a different part of consciousness and that I have experienced or yet to experience consciousness from their perspective. The thousands of people who have died in Gaza are a thousand different past or future lives my consciousness has experienced. And I imagine it as if I am the one who experienced these first hand atrocities, one because on a certain level I have, but two it helps my ego exercise a nondual mindset. And if that empathy feels like it's too much to bear and that it's too painful and horrific, I remind myself that God wanted to experience this from a high level because God isn't as limited as I, the ego, am with the desire for comfort and safety. And this experience gives me a visceral experience of empathy followed by a sense of peace where even though I haven't embodied God's love, that I get it to a certain extent theoretically. It's very humbling and grounding I would say. The whole point of life is to experience and that is exactly what consciousness does indiscriminantly. And the more we align ourself to fully experience, the good, bad the ugly, and fully embody both being completely present to where we even accept the experiences we have where we're not present, the less resistance we face because we are in line with the one fact in the universe, that consciousness is everything and is here to experience everything. I really hope all of this doesn't sound like spiritual rambling.

Awakening is opening yourself to the present moment. It doesn't matter anything else, any structure, knowing if there are others, if there is reincarnation, if this is a dream... it is completely irrelevant. It is only the present, now, deep, alive, limitless, real and wonderful, full of life, of joy for existing. Everything else are just histories

Yes the word is a pattern we created :D. From a cursory glance: From the 1580s, "to make a pattern for, design, plan" https://www.etymonline.com/word/pattern I am still gaining innerstanding of how the cycles of reincarnation are maintained while we are also an absolute being of everything at once. The pattern as I understand it is we relive these cycles perfecting them each time. There is no separation in lifetimes to consciousness, patterns just reoccur. Physics will tell you your body is an energetic pattern, a psychologist will tell you your behaviors are a pattern, an astronomist will tell you about the patterns of the stellar bodies, or a doctor the patterns going on inside you. Observed experiences are a pattern you experience in this life, you can see events and situations you encounter repeating in society around you and in yourself. If you have past life regressions you can see how these patterns were present previously, in different forms. I wonder if part of this is because we want to experience the same positive things we experienced in this lifetime again and again, and learn from the problems we face. To reality there is no separation between lifetimes, it's just another body(pattern) to observe these cycles of experience. When the pattern no longer serves us it is not run anymore.

Once a full openess is restored, experience of existence is even multi dimensional and sphericaI. Yes, bla bla bla...., It's beyond limitations of a tool of human mind and its subtool - human language. Therfore all pre-experience discussions about concepts of solipsism or reincarnation are somehow... pointless. And even after, it's still pointless😄. You are creator of your beliefs, assumptions, worldviews, your reality.

@Hojo You actually don't have to push it further, look to the animal kingdom, plenty of infanticide, and killing if infants by predators, and plenty of rape. Even look at other hominids, and early man, plenty of evil shit happens especially in tribal wars and in history, plent of examples of people doing evil anyway. Good reason why incarnation and reincarnation exists.

I disagree with this. We are only in a position to change the present and consequently the future, not the past. But the future is still in question. You can work hard for a project and still fail in it due to new variables unaccounted for. This is expressed in the phrase, "Life is what happens when you are making other plans. Karma is cause and effect, and rigorous logic is needed to understand this sequence. To think that failure is business is because of something one did as a nine-year old or theft is delusional thinking and will not determine the karmic sequence. Knowing my past lives was a great help for me to understand my present habits and patterns, and this understanding helped me to relax and work on my shortcomings better . Reincarnation was also a part of early Christianity before it was eliminated by the councils of Constantinople in 553.A.D.. Here is a thread I created on reincarnation ... https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/96135-interview-with-dr-brian-weiss-on-reincarnation/

If there is a past, present and a future, it is not unfolding in a linear fashion. Rather, the past, the present and the future are happening all at once. Simultaneously. You did not and will not live through everyone's lives. Rather, you are, right now, living as everyone and everything. Better yet, simply being everyone and everything. Not alive, not dead. Just existing. What happened is a thought. What will happen is a thought. That something good or bad is happening because something else good or bad happened at some other time is also just a thought. All just ideas. Ideas that if you reinforce and think about often and hard enough, they solidify and become beliefs. Past lives, future lives, karma... Those are all beliefs. To think that you are failing at your business now in your thirties, because you have bad karma from back when you were 9 and you've stolen some candy from your classmates... Or anything similar... Is just ridiculous. That's not how things work. In fact, things do not work, at all. Nothing works. Everything just is. There is no cause and effect. No A + B = C. No equation. No formula. No code. No sequence. It just fucking is. Not yesterday, not tomorrow. Right Now. Forever.

See my journals regarding this topic. Wealth of information in there. I talk about nightmares. Just yesterday I had one. It was a doorway into my subconscious and I also think a part of it is related to my past life. I have karmic burdens and debts and I made some karmic connections in this lifetime in the romantic sense that have caused me great personal injury and harm. I'm trying to get closure on that since a year now. Also I'm dealing with demons, psychic attacks, negativity. Leo talked about psychic attacks. I don't remember the post. He was talking about negaity entity removal and things like that. These things are disturbing, violent, rapey. I get very disturbing nightmarez due to pedophile abuse. I don't know if it's present or past. They unravel during sleep rem. Also if you are stuck in hung mode where you can't find karmic closure in this birth. Read about reincarnation. It means unfinished business. I'm trying to resolve my karma but this is not an easy path. I recommend self exploring in zen state. Sorry for the typos.

I believe in reincarnation and karma as per your video @Leo Gura but my question is: Does moral living affect being reborn into "higher or lower" states [as we're led to believe in the likes of buddhism?] Leo, have your beliefs and opinions changed at all about karma and rebirths, kindly share if so Hope your well teacher

Informative article on Dr.Brian Weiss and his evolution from a conservative and skeptical psychiatrist to a believer in reincarnation. https://lifestyle.inquirer.net/165945/skeptical-psychiatrist-finds-proof-of-reincarnation/

Today I got a response from Dignitas. I feel like I could get everything good in life, health, financial independence, security, love, and all. But this is better than nothing. Even if there is no reincarnation, which I'm choosing not to believe in for the purpose of making a sound choice, I would still want this now because, hey, it's people. They can be monsters. The biggest monsters on earth live around me here. Because of them my life is as it is now and was as it was. I can't wait for death to help me escape from family, society, poverty, abuse, injustice, disease, and so forth. I can't wait to die with dignity. I might be exempted from paying basically over 12000 franks and maybe I get this. What do you think? I just have to sign some papers when I am able to leave the country. Finally, God and Freedom is coming faster than I thought I would have to wait for them to come:')

An insightful interview with Dr. Brian Weiss on the subject of reincarnation... https://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/life-style/spotlight/we-are-all-immortal/articleshow/16990083.cms

Samsara = Nirvana, as they say in Buddhism. Once you realize that the endless cycle of reincarnation IS the kingdom of God, you will have found the paradise that guys like Jesus have been pointing you towards.

If this fantasy allows me to enter the Christian Heaven, I am IN I see it as the way to break the curse of endless reincarnation

So you are sure about reincarnation because in some spiritual tradition is mentioned. Wow. look friend, everything we say about what is going to happen is speculation. If we say it knowing that it is speculation, everything is fine, a mental game, but if we think it is the truth... then you are entering the realm of stupidity. I hope that's not your case. We need some smart people, not the others

? spoken like a true Leo's follower. The matter of reincarnation is pretty clear tbh. You being here is proof of it. Or do you think you had a choice to stay in the formless realm and instead, you chose to take up this burden of a body willingly?

It is possible. There are plenty of people who have discovered that they are the whole universe and they still eat..shit . Piss ..have jobs ..dreams .etc To really get the conversation down to earth ..you need to stop spinning stories about what God is . Notice that you don't actually know for certain the things you mentioned like reincarnation. I think you need help from a therapist. Maybe @flowboy can help you .

@Yimpa Isn't the projecting about the system is identical to his own psyche more psychological than spiritual, or vice versa? If kharma or incarnation/reincarnation exists, is this a karmic effect of Russel Brand's evil actions? A self fulfilling prophecy? Rape, in the legal and moral sense is a serious issue and clearly a wrong to me, but let's deviate briefly and talk about the spiritual territory, like having sex with incubi/succubae, demonic sex, or even rough sex role plays. What are your takes on these, and sex fantasies involving rape?

Let's start a discussion of this post here: https://www.actualized.org/insights/zionist-self-bias On a relative level, is this conflict similar to the European/Spanish settlers vs the Apache/Comanche conflict, over territorial expansion? So, the greater the nationalism, ethnocentrism, and religious identity and ego attachments, the greater the self deception? If true, then is this why Samskara/reincarnation exists, so that most of the self deluded souls corrupted by others' lies can try again to realize deeper and broader truths, not just god realization? Was this also why Jesus Christ ended up getting killed, for trying to expose these deep leveled hypocrisies? Albert Einstein did warn them about nationalism. No arguing or heated exchanges. Let's be as non-judgmental and good faith as humanly possible.

The hardest thing to love is unbearable pain. In fact, if it wasn't for that, a lot of problems in reality wouldn't exist. There would still be sadness and melancholy, which (imo) are good because they are profound and deep emotions that create a big love... but not harsh desperation and brutality. I got into personal development to get my things right with my social life, happiness, anxiety, friends, girls, my careeer with music and leo really helped me to solve a lot with problems. I found peace with meditation and understoo a lot about emotions, business, mental healh and truth. But there was this thing leo was speaking about which is the fact that "the truth is that everything is you" that I couln't really get at first. I was like "okay, but i don't get it really what does he mean" Now, after some years of videos I think I'm starting to get some of this. I have always been a loving guy, always moved for love. I love animals, nature and when i lost my first dog it really hurt me. I always wanted to fight for good in life and somehow be a hero (when i was younger). I was just very insecure because my dad doesn't like the fact that I want to make music, and in general he always hated my attitude towards life. He is a workaholic/rigid/very severe kind of person who doesn't like fun. So you can understand that doesn't go well with djing and electronic music nor Rap music, which are my fields... if it wasn't for my mom, I'd be a suppressed and desperate child, but thanks to her, I had help when I moved from house and wasn't alone. I've got the opportunity to receive unconditional love and support from her. So I am a kind of person that found Leo on youtube, searching for happiness and trying to get something right (because I had a lot of insecurities which led to big problems in my social life, with my first girlfriend I was very desperate and that led to the destruction of the relationship, and with friends I always had a hard time to get respected and to fit in). And I was very in line with a lot of things leo was saying. I liked the fact that he had a formula for things and that it was true! I always cared about truth... until I really started to get it. I was a scientific minded person. atheist. with leo i shifted this and accepted spirituality. I mean, that I understand when he speaks about emotions and love and how things really work ion reality, and that science is just measurements that get confused with the thing itself. which is, apparently, immagination. What really became a problem for me is, that i hate torture on people or animals in general, and always feared it on myself. I am very sensitive. And I had a lot of trouble when i discovered things like human trafficking, deep web, red rooms and hardcore criminal activities like snuff movies. I was traumatized, kind of, when i first heard of these things. And I didn't even know the truth yet. Now it's really becoming a serious issue since I grasped the concept of immortality. Now it really can't go away. It's a permanent fear in me, that things are not going to be well. Immortality is a continuous cicle of consciousness and unconsciousness and nothing won't stop it. Not even leo and gurus all around the world, even if we realise the truth and love and that that is the only direction fo life... still. unconsciousness will occur, like it's always been, and we are going through every life. cause this separation betwenn life and non life... honestly it's just stupid, there is no difference. now i get it really, it's all conscious so, let's say you can become the rocks, the woods, the planets.. depends on the point of view of the consciousness and its perspective... and this is a thing i still don't understand... why is consciousness frammented and isn't whole? why does it have a perspective? a point of view? from which you can't be conscious of the whole consciousness itself? but anyways... I'm having a really hard time to accept that I will be tortured to death many times forever.... and that sometimes I will have some "peace" in between... I feel like i loved my life before so much and had hope.. now with this truth, the hope has gone. I will still fight for love forever and follow the teachings of leo.. as i said, i am like minded somehow... but I can't get over this thing of infinite reincarnation. I feel like this life is a "pause" from the suffering. there i no safety and eternal peace. If I'm getting this right. I will be any animal, creature, conscious thing in reality which means everything possible. I'll be a dog, I'll be a rock, I'll be an atom... and who knows how much suffering there is there. I see the higher the intelligence, the higher the pain that can be inflicted. humans really are the scariest thing of reality I know. Cause they are at low consciousness level. and who knows what other horrible things can exist and WILL exist that's a promise. that's the doom to me. I can't get over it and accept it and I am living in fear and anxiety since I understood this with the "immortality" episode. Why does pain exist. why is it possible to ruin yourself like this. Not that I can change it... I can just do my best in this life until i'll have to let go and who knows what will happen.. I can give my contribute to reality but I look at it and see how bad the thing is. suffering is so big and selfishness is so high everywhere in animals and in humans... to a level where the bad things seem to be stronger that the good things. I mean, all of this suffering... just for a delusion. there is no victory in the other end. when a girl gets raped, an animal gets eaten, a kid tortured or an animal... that is just to serve someone who... isn't really getting anything good in the end. it's very difficult for me to love reality now that I am impersonating with everything. I feel like it's not right, something's wrong Thanks for your time

@Hardkill Elon Musk is the reincarnation of Griffith from Berserk, it's to be expected he's that egotistical and power hungry. Billions of dollars and a deep belief in your vision, ambition and drive unchecked with reality can lead to something like a Narcissist billionaire.