Raphael

- 17/12/2025

Don't work 10 hours per day if there's no reason for. If you work in a job that requires to work 10 hours per day, quit this job. If you really want something or are passionate with something then you will work 10 hours per day without difficulties.

This is the place for Linux porn: https://www.reddit.com/r/unixporn/ People share their custom *NIX (mostly Linux) configuration.

No! I'm on Fedora but I used Arch and Ubuntu in the past.

The Nintendo Switch can run Crysis.

Linux is great for developers. It's my main operating system and I have been using it for more than 10 years now, I don't need anything else. I almost never use Windows or OSX.

Spiritual Reset I watched most of Leo's videos between 2015 to 2021 including the ones on spirituality, but I forgot a lot of things. I forgot a lot of things because I was going through a life crisis between 2022 to most of 2025. During this period, I preferred not to check this forum nor to watch more videos from him. These spirituality videos were too advanced for me; I believed in the concepts but I didn't experience them, so they contributed to a deterioration of my mental health. I had a lot of ego; I felt superior to know about these things where I'm now more at peace. I also feel that since Leo started to take psychedelics, it's more difficult to follow him as he can experience things that I can't. So... after a few years off, I decided to restart spirituality from zero. I watched some of Leo's videos on spirituality for beginners and started meditating again. I think that it's a great start. - 13/12/2025

I feel much better now than when I wrote this post. Thanks for your answers.

This was helpful, thank you.

My Struggles with Social Interactions Social interactions have always been the number one difficulty in my life. I turn blank when I have to interact with people. It's not that I have things to say that I don't say because I'm shy, but it's that nothing comes to my mind. I'm not instantaneous; I take time before I react, and I have to think about what to say before I talk. That's why I avoid conflicts with loud arguments because I simply don't know what to say and feel like an idiot. Interacting with people demands a lot of effort from me. I feel like I have to play a role, to imitate others; it feels unnatural. When I am authentic, I don't say that much because I don't know what to say. I'm often afraid of being unmasked, that people discover who I really am: a socially awkward, non-talkative person. I have always been extremely quiet since I was a kid. I remember when I was in the school bus, other kids would make a lot of noise where I would quietly look outside the window. Because of that, I have never been able to make close friends while growing up; I'm just unable to make the emotional connection. The two people with whom I am most comfortable talking are my mother and my sister, though I don't transform into an extrovert when I'm with them. My dad didn't give me the best example: he is antisocial with lack of good manners, very direct, and very confrontational. I couldn't count on him while growing up. Overall, I feel like my difficulties in interacting with people are a mix of genetics and trauma. 30/11/2025

Yes, I can but I'm keeping it to myself.

If I reflect on my life, I have never been really happy overall. I'm on antidepressant and my state is not a state where I'm super depressed but at the same time I'm not happy. I feel that I'm not living up my potential, I feel that I should be a better person, that I should be accomplishing more, that I should be changing the world but I'm not. My life lacks meaning and purpose. I thought in the past that being fit and healthy would make me happy but it didn't. I thought that meditation would make me happy but it didn't. It's hard to motivate me to do things: to wake up early, to work, to do some physical exercises, etc.

Happiness, where are you? I'm not a person who experiences a lot of happiness. I have never been a very happy person. I'm not super depressed but at the same time I'm not happy although I have everything that I need to be happy. I'm often indifferent to everything and I also feel that I'm not living up my potential. I feel that I should be better, that I should be accomplishing more, that I should be a better person, that I should be changing the world but I'm not. I lack meaning and purpose. In the past, I thought that being fit and healthy would make me happy so I went to the gym, I ate healthy but it didn't make me happy. I thought that meditation would make me happy but it didn't. It's hard to motivate me to do things: to wake up early, to work, to do some physical exercises, etc. Happiness is just hard to find for me. - 26/10/2025

Fear of entrepreneurship Though I want to continue as a freelancer, I experience a certain degree of fear. I already have an experience as a freelancer but it was a failure. I couldn't get paid properly because of self-esteem issues. Now I experience similar fears: I'm afraid of lacking technical skills: I know my limits but it can happen. I will probably sometimes have to create things that I have never created before which will require skills that I didn't have. If this happens, I hope that I will be able to learn the skills quickly. I'm afraid of not respecting deadlines: there are always unforeseen events in web development and deadlines are rarely respected. To respect them, I will have to take time in addition to the time planned, but even if I do so I'm afraid of going over the limits. I'm afraid of not being social enough: this is the weakest point of my personality; I'm not a social person. I usually don't have that much to say so I go blank during social interactions. I'm afraid of appearing weird, of not being able to create a social connection with clients and therefore failing to build engagement and maintain clients. Those are the three things that I'm the most afraid of and because of that I procrastinate. However, I will continue to push forward. - 24/09/2025

It helps but it's not essential. I had a boss who was successful but had a very authoritative, disagreeable personality.