Raphael

Smoking and drinking alcohol. Many high school kids start to drink and/or smoke to be perceived as cool/as adult.

Sport (weight lifting + running) Meditation Reading I also go for walks with my dogs

I lost it three years ago. I had a psychotic episode and was sent to the psychiatric hospital. After that, I was depressed for at least two years, I feel better now even though life is imperfect. Yes, the projects that I worked on were all for other people but I wasn't in contact with them directly. Ok.

The issue I have is that it feels like a waste of time. I know that I can help many people by creating a website or web app but at the same time I will don't think about technical stuff on my deathbed. Claude Code made the work even less interesting imo.

I noticed that I can't appreciate life properly. I always find something wrong with what I'm doing. When I'm working (I do web development), I don't find it fulfilling and tell myself that this is too technical and lacks human connection. When I'm with people, I tell myself that I'm not very social and that I'm better alone. What to do to appreciate life?

This woman feels very yellow. https://www.sonaltherapy.com/

The desire to succeed and to become a great person who will be remembered is the essence of Orange.

Life in space is pretty interesting.

I'm proud that I never smoked a cigarette. I'm proud that I don't drink alcohol. I'm proud that I'm able to maintain a clean diet. I'm proud that I haven't watch porn for more than a year. I'm proud that I have almost no addictions (except the internet). I'm proud of all the work that I did to heal my childhood traumas and young adult traumas. I'm proud of the maturity that I gained over the last five years.