Judy2

where would you like to go to war?

yes, that's also what came to mind for me when i started reading your post. i guess both are valid. LSD feels a bit like the opposite of being drunk - it feels almost like you're too sober. but i believe sleepiness is a valid state as well and comes with its own insights - particularly because cognitive function is impaired a little bit, so that can open up different channels.

yes, i mean i am aware of the times of the day when i do consume caffeine:)

no, there's no mold. it's generally ventilated pretty well, thank God. however, my heat keeps cracking at night and i can hear it when people in the surrounding apartments flush their toilets and so on. i asked the landlord about the heat, but nobody wants to take responsibility for it and apparently they can't do anything to change it anyway. i also don't have a couch or anything, so unless i want to sit on a chair all day (who does that?), i do spend some of my free time lying in bed even if i'm awake. for example when i read or listen to audio books.

aaaah....i'm not sure i want to, for now. but you're technically right:)

i don't know...maybe this is tricky because motives can be mixed. there can be unhealthy aspects intermingling with authentic, healthy desires for self-expression. self-expression should ultimately be a good thing, i believe.

yes, i think i used to do this in the past. most of it happened in my private (offline) journals, though.

@UnbornTao just out of curiosity, what counts as daily exercise in your books? i go to the gym on three days a week and jogging on one day, but i need some rest days inbetween. although i'm not completely inactive during these....i still go swimming, cycling, or at the very least for a walk. does that count?

is it an option to inform the authorities so they can keep an eye on her? a mental illness is not an excuse to threaten people. if this is related to her illness, she may need treatment for that...but she shouldn't have a free pass to simply insult and threaten everyone around her.

@gettoefl thank you:)

thanks for the list:) i have a couple of objections to each point but maybe they are irrelevant.

unfortunately i've conditioned myself to believe i need caffeine to give me energy when i exercise

i have to study a lot for exams this summer, and find that i am very happy listening to NotebookLM-generated podcasts - and very reluctant to sit down to read the scripts, let alone the long chapters with lots of details. the only problem is that NotebookLM can only generate short podcasts that help with overall understanding, but they do not include every little detail that i need to learn by heart, even if i explicitly ask the AI to include them. can you recommend any other free AI tools that can generate study podcasts with more details? can you recommend free tools to turn entire pdf.s into audiobooks? as far as i know, you'd have to pay extra for all of these? bonus question: is it wrong that i am more of an auditory learner, or would you recommend i force myself onto the visual path and get used to reading more? when i listen to study-related materials, i do like to write important things down on my own time - but i find it really cumbersome to read what other people wrote, if that makes sense. it's really odd that there is such a huge discrepancy because listening to the podcasts feels almost like a hobby, whereas if i have to sit down and read about the exact same contents, i start procrastinating.

okay, thank you for explaining...i will try my best.

yes, somehow naps increase the likelihood of having vivid dreams and sleep paralysis....