Spiritual Warrior

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #255 ~ Fri Oct 23 '26 Daily goals: Make bed: 79 Take medication: 96 Shower: 96 Groom hair: 96 Brush teeth: 96 Floss: 1 Kriya yoga: 0 Porn free: 2 Ejaculation free: 2 Brush teeth before bed: 2 Wash face before bed: 2 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 0 (XOO) Give yourself a haircut: 5 Do laundry: 11 Clean room: 11 Clean car: 11

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #254 ~ Thu Oct 22 '26 I am grateful that I am able to go to Vienna at the end of the year. I am grateful that there are restaurants and gas stations everywhere that can help us feed ourselves and ours cars. I am grateful for cars, for transportation, this way I can visit my friends and go to work. I am grateful for healthy food. I am grateful that I've found a job that I love. I am grateful that I can create whatever I want on this planet. Its 10:11 AM and I have to leave here by 11:30 AM . All I want to do is lounge around. I don't feel like practicing, I don't feel like getting ready, I just want to be lazy. When I feel like this, what should I do? It's 5:22 pm. I have a lesson very soon and I want to work on danielas choreography. I have a new strategy for how to build muscle. I have a girl now in my life. I love her. I am going to wake up at 8:30 am tomorrow. I REALLY want to get into my spiritual practice and also develop a good workout routine. I don't care as much for building lessons. Your goals don't have to be my goals. Find out what YOU want out of life, not the other way around. I want to find a way to regulate everything so that I am in control and grounded and I am solid and am someone that everybody can count on. Daily goals: Make bed: 78 Take medication: 95 Shower: 95 Groom hair: 95 Brush teeth: 95 Floss: 0 Kriya yoga: 0 Porn free: 1 Ejaculation free: 1 Brush teeth before bed: 1 Wash face before bed: 1 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 0 (XOO) Give yourself a haircut: 5 Do laundry: 11 Clean room: 11 Clean car: 11

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #253 ~ Wed Oct 21 '26 I would like to free write right now. I want to create a structure for my life, a system. I want to start writing down yearly and more importantly quarterly goals. I like the idea of meditating with a solid gaze, not blinking and not shifting the gaze in any way shape or form. I love the book "A Million Thoughts," there are so many incredible advice on how to meditate deeper in there. I enjoy teaching a lot of lessons at the studio. I want to average 22 for the upcoming quarter. Whenever I have a bad day or am in a shitty emotional state, I stop doing everything that I intend to be doing. It is very frustrating, and then I don't do what I want to do and then I become even more frustrated. I have come a long way in a lot of areas, I am more willing to stick up for myself and have boundaries, I am more masculine, I am a much better dancer, one of the best in the studio. I am making an income doing something that I love. I have a great relationship with everyone within the studio. I have gained muscle and have at times looked like a muscular, shredded man. My social skills have greatly increased. I have dated two high quality women in the past 3 years. One of them I am currently dating and I am doing a great job of that. I have been competing for the past 2 years with a dance partner. I won a solo event competition ( a competition amongst teachers.) I get much more attention from women. I have read a handful of books over the past year. I am grateful for all of these experiences. In a lot of ways, I feel like I don't set myself up for success in areas in my life. For example, am I setting myself up for success when it comes to cutting porn out of my diet? What about waking up at a consistent time? I am ALWAYS snoozing my alarm. Why don't you put the alarm clock across the room so that you have to get your ass out of bed and turn it off? Okay, I like that. I will do that when I get home. What are some of your goals? Teach 22 lessons a week until the end of the year Finish your mock test by the end of the year Express emotion in the formation that you are doing for Holiday Ball Don' watch porn until 1/1/27 Do kriya yoga and stretch every day for the next 30 days Things to do: Figure out passport Return shirts Daily goals: Make bed: 77 Take medication: 94 Shower: 94 Groom hair: 94 Brush teeth: 94 Floss: 1 Kriya yoga: 0 Porn free: 0 Ejaculation free: 0 Brush teeth before bed: Wash face before bed: 0 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 0 (XOO) Give yourself a haircut: 5 Do laundry: 11 Clean room: 11 Clean car: 11 When I get home tonight, set up alarm clock and im going to pack up my computer and bring it in here. In the mornings, I want to do my routine like clock work and not use my phone at all. There are certain limitations I'd like to put on my phone. 10 minutes on the sleeper app? Sure, let's try it.

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #252 ~ Tue Oct 20 '26 Daily goals: Make bed: 76 Take medication: 93 Shower: 93 Groom hair: 93 Brush teeth: 93 Floss: 1 Kriya yoga: 1 Porn free: 1 Ejaculation free: 1 Brush teeth before bed: 4 Wash face before bed: 4 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 0 (XOO) Give yourself a haircut: 5 Do laundry: 11 Clean room: 11 Clean car: 11

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #251 ~ Mon Oct 19 '26 I get so sick of myself just laying in my bed like a slurch, scrolling through on the Internet. OVer the past few years, this has gotten much better but there is still more to be desired. The frustrating thing is that my higher self wants to read books, wants to meditate, wants to have a clear head, but this lower consciousness mind likes to take over and run the show and it makes me do things that my Higher Self doesn't really want to do. I can see that they are pointless and by the way, not even that fun but for some reason I lose control and can't help myself. This is something to work on moving forward. Take a look at your wanting mind and don't give into the cravings, just observe what is going on. Things to do: Set up medication Take medication Shower / Groom Stretch / Kriya yoga Pack lunch / dinner Put clothes away Return shirts Daily goals: Make bed: 75 Take medication: 92 Shower: 92 Groom hair: 92 Brush teeth: 92 Floss: 0 Kriya yoga: 0 Porn free: 0 Ejaculation free: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 3 Wash face before bed: 3 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 0 Give yourself a haircut: 4 Do laundry: 11 Clean room: 11 Clean car: 10

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #250 ~ Sun Oct 18 '26 Things to do on Sunday: Stretch - do this at 11 am Yoga - do this at 11 am Read part of a book Leave by 12:00 to visit friend Shower Daily goals: Make bed: 74 Take medication: 91 Shower: 91 Groom hair: 91 Brush teeth: 91 Floss: 0 Kriya yoga: 1 Porn free: 4 Ejaculation free: 4 Brush teeth before bed: 2 Wash face before bed: 2 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 1 Give yourself a haircut: 4 Do laundry: 10 Clean room: 11 Clean car: 10

A Profound Problem with Consciousness Work: Realizing your own Selfishness What you will notice on your path towards Enlightenment or consciousness work in general is how selfish you truly are. This is a byproduct of the path. Before, you were not aware of the selfishness, you were blind to it, like an armadillo during the day time. I would like to give you an example: I am a ballroom dancer and we have these dance events in which we get paid for every "entry" that we dance with our students. One of my co workers had 7 more entries than me. This pissed me off, I thought to my self "how could she have more than me? I mean really, how?" I noticed this emotional trigger and kept digging, I wondered to myself, if my amount of entries stayed the same, but hers decreased significantly, would it make me feel better? And I am ashamed to admit that the the answer is yes, if she were less successful, I would feel better about myself and this is a person that on paper, I care about deeply. I mean what a fuckin' dick I am. I would rather this person be less successful so that I can simply feel better about my own success. I think that I'm this "highly developed person" yet I stoop to this level. I'm not ready to be a leader, not with this attitude. These are the growing pains and it is incredibly humbling. It puts into perspective how much farther there is to go to become a more tier two type of individual that is ready to truly lead others. "Sometimes its easy to forget that we spend most of our time stumbling around in the dark. Suddenly a light gets turned on and there is a fair share of blame to go around." - from the movie Spotlight Namaste.

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #249 ~ Sat Oct 17 '26 I continue to notice how my own selfishness completely shatters my happiness. I compare my success with others. God forbid someone else's numbers are better than mine, one of my close friends nonetheless. I mean jesus christ, it baffles me sometimes to see how selfish I truly am, how I don't want success for other people. You think that you're high and mighty and you're not, you're just not. I have noticed the appeal to have a child in my life nowadays. This was triggered last night as I was watching the movie Chef. I find the 10 year old boy absolutely adorable and all he wants to do is spend time with his dad, so cute! Maybe I will have children with this girl that I'm talking to. This girl tends to trigger me, sometimes I don't want to be around her, its as if I feel like I don't love her. I started a conversation with her the other day and told her that sometimes I don't feel like she likes me at all. Maybe this is actually how I feel about her, not the other way around. Interesting... Continue to become aware of your triggers. Of your own selfishness. I have this one student and she is just got to be the most awkward person I have ever met. It makes dancing with her very unenjoyable as well because she's so stiff and tense. I don't know how to deal with her and it makes me not like her. I mean SO AWKWARD, so fuckin' awkward. Its like shes not even there. Her authentic is buried underneath a bunch of shit. And I have no idea how to dig out the shit. Not a clue at all. Is it normal to not want to be around the girl that you're dating sometimes? Its important to remember that the grass isn't always greener. I do feel honored that I am the man that she has chosen to spend her time with. Its just sometimes I am just so fuckin' selfish. All I do is think about myself and how other people are serving me, how I AM being viewed, this is ridiculous and I can see firsthand that it doesn't make me happy. And lets take some time to take a look as well at the lack of discipline in my life, I mean just take a look at the list below, sure there are some good numbers, but a whole lot of zeroes. I just want to not waste time doing shit that is not only pointless but is actually detrimental towards my health. I want to be hyper aware, HYPER AWARE. I want to be so aware of everything going on in my environment and in my mind and in my emotional states, that is going to elevate me so much and it starts with simply meditating. Just sitting there and BEING. That is the key. Now in order to unlock this you will have to train the disciplinary muscle and do the work so that you can reap the benefits. Its almost as if I only like this girl when shes serving me, when she is providing me with something and guess what, thats not true love. I have SOOOOO fuckin' far to go. Am I really going to be ready to have kids in just a handful of years? Having kids doesn't have to be this end all be all, you are still going to continue to grow, its not like you're digging your own grave. Speaking of graves, I am starting to almost look forward to my day of death, or more poetically, to my day of ultimate surrender. I will finally be able to let go and surrender fully to the pure experience of what God is. Ultimate that day comes however, I am going to suck as much juice out of life as I possibly can. Daily goals: Make bed: 73 Take medication: 90 Shower: 90 Groom hair: 90 Brush teeth: 90 Floss: 0 Kriya yoga: 0 Porn free: 3 Ejaculation free: 3 Brush teeth before bed: 1 Wash face before bed: 1 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 1 Give yourself a haircut: 4 Do laundry: 10 Clean room: 11 Clean car: 10

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #248 ~ Fri Oct 16 '26 Mark my words Mr. Rezendez, if it takes a village to raise a child, it takes a village to abuse one ~ from the movie Spotlight i have Started to come into my own authentic masculinity. I understand now what it takes to be masculine and why it is important for the woman. Through this understanding and embodying of the masculine, i have attracted a woman into my life. I didn't use pick up lines on her, I never lied to her, I never deliberately ran game on her, I was completely myself. This right here is INCREDIBLY fulfilling. Now I look forward to continuing to provide a safe place for this girl to allow her heart to open up more and more. She has been hurt in the past and that breaks my heart. i have started to value peacefulness in my life. The quietness of mind is so valuable to me and i will continue to build habits that attract that quiettitude into my life. I don't want a life that's filled with constant stimulation. I want peace. At just 31 years of age, all I want is peace. Daily goals: Make bed: 72 Take medication: 89 Shower: 89 Groom hair: 89 Brush teeth: 89 Floss: 0 Kriya yoga: 1 Porn free: 2 Ejaculation free: 2 Brush teeth before bed: 0 Wash face before bed: 0 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 1 Give yourself a haircut: 4 Do laundry: 10 Clean room: 11 Clean car: 10

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #247 ~ Thu Oct 15 '26 Daily goals: Make bed: 71 Take medication: 88 Shower: 88 Groom hair: 88 Brush teeth: 88 Floss: 0 Kriya yoga: 0 Porn free: 1 Ejaculation free: 1 Electronics free before bed: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 5 Wash face before bed: 5 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 1 Give yourself a haircut: 4 Do laundry: 10 Clean room: 11 Clean car: 10

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #246 ~ Wed Oct 14 '26 I am going to start working out more. Every chance i get i will work out. Im sick of having this flabby non muscular body, im done with it. Daily goals: Make bed: 70 Take medication: 87 Shower: 87 Groom hair: 87 Brush teeth: 87 Floss: 0 Kriya yoga: 0 Porn free: 0 Ejaculation free: 0 Electronics free before bed: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 4 Wash face before bed: 4 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 1 Give yourself a haircut: 4 Do laundry: 10 Clean room: 11 Clean car: 10

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #245 ~ Tue Oct 13 '26 Things to do: Figure out medical bills Return shirts - you have three shirts - can you return all of them? - ready to go Kriya yoga Stretch & work out Drink protein shake Record video for fantasy football Fill up water bottles I have until 12:30 to do all of these things, which gives me 2.5 hours. Daily goals: Make bed: 69 Take medication: 86 Shower: 86 Groom hair: 86 Brush teeth: 86 Floss: 0 Kriya yoga: 0 Porn free: 0 Ejaculation free: 0 Electronics free before bed: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 3 Wash face before bed: 3 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 1 Give yourself a haircut: 4 Do laundry: 10 Clean room: 11 Clean car: 10

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #244 ~ Mon Oct 12 '26 I am confused at times in regards to what to read. My schedule is all written out and I love it. But what is a positive thing to read right now? Should I just let myself drift towards whatever I want? Or would I like to have a goal of finishing a certain book by a certain date. How about this, I want to finish The Book of Not Knowing by the end of the year. Also, I'd like to read 12 books a year. AT LEATS 12 books a year. Some books that come to mind right now are: How to Get Rich by Dennis Felix (B&N Audiobook) The Book of Not Knowing (physical and Audiobook) The Four Agreements by Don Miguel (physical book) The Happiness Hypothesis (physical book & audiobook) Dark Secrets Women Don't Want you to Know (B&N digital) Memoirs to Her (Digital) My sister is a joke to me. She's afraid of EVERYTHING. She lives her entire life afraid of whats to come. She's incredibly anxious, a complete people pleaser. It makes not even want to be around her. Its like I'm disgusted by her. How have you gone 35 years on this planet and haven't dealt with this AT ALL. You should be embarrassed. You should be ashamed of yourself. Now I have to officiate her wedding even though she is not into it at all, she just wants to get it over with to shut her fiance up. They've been engaged for YEARS, like 3 or 4 years. I mean what a fuckin joke of a life she is living. Truly, its a fuckin' joke. I feel for her, but at the same time, I don't feel motivated to help her. She strikes me as not wanting to help herself. Why would I waste time on someone that isn't even trying? Daily goals: Make bed: 68 Take medication: 85 Shower: 85 Groom hair: 85 Brush teeth: 85 Floss: 0 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 0 No ejaculation: 8 No electronics before bed: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 2 Wash face before bed: 2 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 1 Give yourself a haircut: 4 Do laundry: 10 Clean room: 11 Clean car: 9

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #243 ~ Sun Oct 11 '26 I wanted to wake up at 9 am, this is going to be my new goal in general. Instead, I woke up at 10 am. I don't feel very good right now, I am sick. This girl that I'm dating really likes me. I am proud of myself for attracting her into my life. What do I like about this girl? I like her smile, I like her laugh, I like her jokes, I like our banter, I feel like we are on the same team, I appreciate that she checks in on me, I would love to be the man that provides her with a stable healthy relationship because thats exactly what she deserves. Its also been so easy, I've never had something with a girl that just made so much sense, and it feels so organic, like I don't even have to think about it or try that hard. I just want to be with her. Can I see myself spending the rest of my life with her? Yes, I think so. Are there any doubts? No. The only other alternative is to not be with anyone, I'm not going to meet anyone that deserves a good man more than her. Its funny because just two years ago, I was a virgin. Prior to that, I was lost, now I have the next 10 years of my life figured out for the most part. The only thing thats up in the air is how I am going to reach Enlightenment. How am I going to find the time to read the books that I would like to read. Also, how am I going to find the discipline to do Kriya yoga every day. And the really nice think is that I don't expect things from people anymore, I don't crave things nearly as much. I ain't perfect thats for sure, but I have progressed. I am rizzing this girl up, thats for sure. Is it just to get in her pants? Should I open to that possibility? I like to hold myself onto a pedestal... Maybe once I have sex with her, I want want her anymore. Should I be open to that possibility? Could I be that heinous? I really hope not. Since starting to read Mistakes Were Made (But not by me) I've been questioning where my integrity is really at. Am I as integris as I think I am? Am I as moral? Do I justify what I do so that I will feel better about myself? These things are difficult to comprehend and thats why I journal, thats why I want to have a kriya yoga habit. I have VERY high standards for my integrity. This is stage blue, I am finally maximizing stage blue. I also have to shower and groom my hair if I am going to check that off of my list. I'm thinking I would like to check out my calendar, make some minestrone soup, try to upload another passport photo. I feel like I'm above everybody else. Am I? Or am I fooling myself? Probably the ladder. I am self biased and I don't even know it. Monday: 9 am wake up, shower, Groom hair 9:30 stretch and do kriya yoga 10:00 eat breakfast 10:30 start cooking chicken, broccoli, sweet potatoes, and minestrone soup 11:45 leave house to pick up co worker 12:15 get to his house and then drive to studio 1:00 start work - teach lessons, work on certification, come up with fall festival plans for students 10:00 get out of work 10:30 leave work 11:00 work out with roommate 12:00 go home 12:30 Wash face and brush teeth, read, then go to bed Tuesday: 9:00a: wake up, shower, Groom hair, etc... 9:30 stretch and do kriya yoga 10:00 eat breakfast 10:30 relax, read books, get random things done, passport ID, figure out finances, list ebay items, etc. 2:00 leave house to practice with Izzy 2:30 practice certification 4:00 work 10:00 get out of work 10:30 drive to gym 11:00 work out 12:00 head home, 12:30 read and go to bed Wednesday: 8:00 wake up, shower and groom hair 8:30 meditate and stretch 9:00 eat breakfast 9:30 leave for dance training 10:00 dance training 12:00 more dance training 1:30 work starts 10:00 get out of work 11:00 work out 12:00 leave gym 12:30 read and go to bed Thursday: 9am wake up, shower, Groom hair, etc. 9:30 kriya yoga and stretch 10:00 eat breakfast 10:30 do whatever you want 3:00 get blood work done 4:00 work 10:00 work ends 10:30 head to El Santo 12:00 go home 12:30 read a book and go to bed Friday: 9:00 wake up, shower, Groom, etc. 9:30 Kriya yoga and stretch 10:00 Eat breakfast and journal 10:30 read books, continue to stretch 12:30 Head to work 1:00 Work 5:00 Event starts 10:00 Event ends 10:30 Go home, read and go to bed Saturday: 6:00 wake up, shower, Groom, etc. 6:30 kriya yoga and stretch 7:00 eat breakfast 7:30 leave for work 8:00 dancing for the event starts 2:00 event ends 2:30 get home and rest 4:30 be at the restaurant 9:30 party ends 10:00 come back to my house and sleep, probably with girls Sunday: 9 am wake up, shower, groom hair, 9:30 kriya yoga and stretch 10:00 go get breakfast 10:30 lounge around with girl 12:00 leave for friends house to watch anime, pick up a snack 4:00 leave friends house and come back here and relax and watch the rest of the football games 7:00 do laundry, clean room, grocery shop, all that, then start the next week Things to keep in mind: need to go over with Dana and Andy what I am doing with them things i need: kleanex Floss Daily goals: Make bed: 67 Take medication: 84 Shower: 84 Groom hair: 84 Brush teeth: 84 Floss: 0 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 0 No ejaculation: 7 No electronics before bed: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 1 Wash face before bed: 1 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 1 Give yourself a haircut: 4 Do laundry: 10 Clean room: 11 Clean car: 9

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #242 ~ Sat Oct 10 '26 What to do right now? Figure out passport, make bed, brush teeth, wash face. What am I going to do tomorrow? I would like to wake up at 9 am and then shower, meditate, and eat breakfast / journal. Lets see how that goes. I have to leave by 10:30 to get there for 11:00 am. And then I can come back and figure out more things in order to set my life up for success.. I can't wait to have sex with this girl. Sometimes I am concerned that she is going to blow this entire thing up, if she cheats on me its over. Just like that. I don't want her to do that because I want her to be the one that I end up with in the end. But only God knows my destiny... Daily goals: Make bed: 66 Take medication: 83 Shower: 83 Groom hair: 83 Brush teeth: 83 Floss: 0 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 4 No ejaculation: 6 No electronics before bed: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 0 Wash face before bed: 0 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 1 Give yourself a haircut: 3 Do laundry: 9 Clean room: 10 Clean car: 9 Other things to do: Get passport figured out Start ordination speech