judy's gratitude journal

[Judy2]

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[Judy2]

...not to say that i don't have a good deal of resistance to the concept of a gratitude journal - but i know that there's scientific evidence that this sort of practice can re-wire your brain and generally improve your emotional experience. 

so i thought i'd give it a go and make it part of my routine. can't hurt to try. 

[Judy2]

Saturday, 19 July 2025

i am doing my embroidery work and giving myself permission to rest, relax, and recharge

i cleaned my kitchen and did my laundry

i put on fresh bed sheets yesterday

i like my new gym clothes

i can see that i am fighting for myself and trying to help myself get better

i can see that i am trying to learn to love myself, and to be good to myself (mind, body, soul)

i have friends who i can talk to when i am feeling emotional, who validate my experience, and who are trying to support me 

i have friends who have loved and supported me for years, independent of what i looked like or what weight i was at during that time. (and also independent of how stubborn and frustrating i can be.)

i have some financial resources that i can use to facilitate my healing. i don't have to be anxious about money in the way many other people are. so i am privileged in that sense, because of my parents' financial support. 

even though i am still anxious about it, it seems like things are finally going somewhere with my thesis. 

i am grateful for my brother. a few weeks ago, he drove us up a hill near home where we went for a hike. the same day, we also cycled to a small stream to bathe. the following weekend, he allowed me to sleep at his place and visit him in Zurich, where we went for another hike, went swimming, and he showed me his lab - i am grateful for the fact that my brother was willing to spend time with me, and i truly love him.  

Edited Saturday at 10:56 AM by Judy2

[Salvijus]

I've been doing recently a similar course that involves cultivating forgiveness, gratitude, hopefulness and truthfulness in a systematic way. Nice to see you changing a tune. 

Edited Saturday at 07:08 PM by Salvijus

[Judy2]

@Salvijus(: 

it's taking some effort to leave out all the "but"-s in this one. usually, it feels as though all the "bad stuff" is cancelling out all the "good stuff"...so i sort of have to force myself to only mention the "good stuff" here, if that makes sense:)

how has your new practice worked for you? any insights? either way, i hope you've been well! 

[Salvijus]

1 hour ago, Judy2 said:

how has your new practice worked for you? any insights? either way, i hope you've been well! 

I've learnt an interesting thing how forgiveness, gratitude and hopefulness work together like one unit. It works like a vehicle that drives on a highway to God. 

Forgiveness is foundational to move forward in life, otherwise it keeps us bound to things and it creates like a yo-yo effect. You think you're moving outwards, then stop, spin a a bit, and are drawn back. 

Gratitude is a tool to become receptive to life's gifts and blessings. It's about affirming and claiming God's grace for yourself. And as you do so, that flow of energy expands and begins to manifest through you in a ever greater manner. 

Hopefulness is the fuel and the spark that propels you forward. It activates God's creative power within you. It's like a doorway or a portal. A small doorway can only pass small object through it. A medium doorway can pass medium size objects. But a unlimited doorway impedes nothing to pass through it. All of God's creative power can begin to manifest through you. Greater miracles/synchronicities begin to take place. 

"Where is your creative self? Deep down within, in some reclusive corner of your being? Have you given it gratitude? Have you unfettered it through forgiveness? Have you brought it the fuel of life, the light of spirit in the form of hopefulness? Think about carefully, for your creative self defines who and what you are."

 

Edited Sunday at 09:27 AM by Salvijus

[Salvijus]

1 hour ago, Judy2 said:

it's taking some effort to leave out all the "but"-s in this one. usually, it feels as though all the "bad stuff" is cancelling out all the "good stuff"...so i sort of have to force myself to only mention the "good stuff" here, if that makes sense:)

It's inspirational. 

[Judy2]

@Salvijus interesting, so that sort of tries to combine past, present and future:)

[Judy2]

Sunday, 20th July 2025

i went to the gym and wore my blue shorts and sports bra

i took a shower and it felt nice

i had a paid coaching call and while it was a bit all over the place, maybe it did offer some useful insights in some areas

i am trying to be kind to myself

prioritising sleep and rest - having the awareness that i need to prioritise these right now

[Salvijus]

1 hour ago, Judy2 said:

@Salvijus interesting, so that sort of tries to combine past, present and future:)

Wow, I didn't even make that connection. That's a beautiful insight. 

Edited Sunday at 05:35 PM by Salvijus

[Judy2]

Monday, 21st July 2025

this morning i had a quick call with my counsellor from university who was checking in with me. > i feel supported and like there is someone who knows what's going on with me, someone who i can reach out to whenever there's something challenging coming up. 

i also had a call with a friend's girlfriend to talk about her approach to coaching and trauma therapy.

i am doing my best to keep making progress with my thesis.

 

went to the library and worked on my sources for the thesis for two hours. it seems as though there is finally hope that this may be getting somewhere.

later in the evening, i decided to go to the gym on an impulse.

Edited yesterday at 07:49 PM by Judy2

[Judy2]

@Salvijus(: