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  1. @Swarnim My dad runs a factory chicken farm. He currently manages a meat production farm that produces around 300,000 poultry birds every 8 weeks. Their growth time to maturity is about 6-7 weeks and there is a 1-week clean-out and reset period for all the equipment and barns. My parents are relatively uneducated immigrant farmers and this was some of the only work they could get when we moved out of the third world. I had to begin working there when I was about 12 or 13 years old. The first time I walked into one of those barns I choked and immediately had to run outside to take a breath and vomit. The first lesson involved learning how to cull new chicks. Thousands of adorable, fluffy little munchkins were running around over a seemingly endless expanse of fresh sawdust, heated to perfection by large gas burners with industrial fans to cool them down if they get too hot. We had to go in with buckets and find any sick, injured, or struggling ones and break their necks over the side of the bucket and watch their writhing bodies tumble down into the accumulating mass below. My mom didn't understand that you only had to break their necks and she actually pulled them clean off. I think I cried for about 2 weeks. For the most part, their lives are pretty happy and easy. Once they reach maturity and take up all the space in the barns then their suffering really begins. It's difficult to breathe, the heat produced by the biomass of bodies and the fermenting shit can cause them to die of heat stroke. The ammonia in the shit burns their legs, skin, and feathers and they can't sit down. They only get 4 hours of darkness per day so they spend as much time as possible eating and drinking which provides them with some relief. At this stage, you have to go in with a tractor each day to rotary hoe the manure to keep it as dry as possible. The stench and acidity can make it difficult to open your eyes sometimes. Their bodies are also much bigger and so culling them requires much more effort as you have to carry much more weight in your buckets. I found an efficient way to break their necks over my boot, as occasionally a head will fall off and blood will piss out everywhere, or they shit and piss all over you while they are floundering about screaming, it's best to keep them as close to the ground as possible. Interestingly, manure from factory farms is quite a crucial part of the fertilization necessary to run organic farms. I know this because my dad tried to quit this job and run an organic vegetable farm instead. There was plenty of suffering there as well, organic farms aren't the idyllic scenes of rolling prairies that people skip through with butterfly nets scooping up nature's bounty... He went back to farming chickens. I don't want to work as a farmer at all and have since moved on. I once had a trip on about 150ug of LSD where I left my body and entered a swirling vortex of consciousness pertaining to environments like this. I became a chicken living in the squalor, scratching at wet burning shit and then clawing at the walls of Auschwitz engraving 'God is going to have to beg for my forgiveness in the blood that seeped off my fingertips. I was then caught and my neck was broken as my body shook violently (my actual body) and I tumbled down into what felt like diving into a pool of cool rich volcanic soil in a quiet countryside. Fresh green plants grew out of me and up to the light above. I then traveled up to a hyperdimensional realm, somewhat akin to the ending of this video. Suffering is an intrinsic part of consciousness. I have experienced much worse in trips that will likely take me years to integrate. God's capacity for suffering is infinite, just like everything else.
  2. Survival Fundamentals In the beginning, I felt nothing, Then I said, let there be light.
  3. Tl;dr Buy a nice house and make it nice for yourself Watch nice porn Try stay healthy Do work you enjoy and are good at Don't manipulate too much Enjoy your hobbies Do what you wanna do Hang out with people who you can really vibe with and just cut out h8rs and drama cre8rs If you wanna paint, then do that, if not then dont Cuddle with your cat and get mad serotonin Dont let spiritual teachers suck you into hardcore practice or make you feel like you're a moronic normie for wanting the above. Bonus pionts for reaching God consciousness Put drugs in your bum occasionally and connect with God, but dont live your life that way. Don't be stupid and chase money and dopamine. Unless you have ambition, then do whatever. Try and be a good person, so you can sleep easy. Listen to good music but dont move in nextdoor to a raver.
  4. Gratitude flow Top tier stoner movies Pizza Running My Father My Brother My Mother My Sister My distant best friends Youtube Music Vacuum cleaners Pain My bed My PC The Internet WiFi Runescape The Grind Honey bees My Girlfriend My Grandmother My Car Uncertainty My bullshit persona Music again The Sun ...
  5. @at_anchor If you get yourself a digital copy of mathematics HL and the solutions manual, then make screenshots of each of the questions and worked solutions and create anki flashcards out of them, you will have a very efficient and effective way of going over a standard high school advanced math curriculum. This is basically what I did as I had very broken schooling. You can just chip away at a chapter a week, or month or whatever pace you want and the flashcard software will automatically show you stuff you're struggling with, or that you are about to forget. Once you have a good grasp of math, the sciences come quite easily. Math is really best treated as a foreign language than a specific subject that you either can or cannot do. You can still just make tiny gains in your understanding if you have other life stuff going on. Don't underestimate the compounding effects of time, that's something I would tell my younger struggling self if I could.
  6. Before you worry about good sources/methods/techniques, you need to address your belief that you can't do it. This attitude is going to kill you before you even start. Instead of telling yourself that it's impossible, tell yourself that it will probably just take you more time than other people. Start small and build your confidence slowly. It's more important for the journey than which app you use.
  7. Light Pink is actually the most camouflaged color in the sky. Basic Physics.
  8. I can't believe my luck on this account. A friend to help me grind out global deforestation. EDIT: Removed spam text.
  9. "Good artists copy, great artists steal" "Ceci n'est pas une pipe volée"
  10. By virtue of the principle of homophily, it's likely that many people on this forum are similar to you. Self-awareness is a great first step, and then self-awareness geared towards benefiting yourself and others with your 'uniqueness' is a great extension to that. I watched this interesting Vaush clip that specifically covered the theme of 'masking' that many people on the spectrum may do as a result of being subtly traumatized by the social milieu growing up: He makes a great argument for a Tarantino movie marathon followed by a Breaking Bad and Better Caul Saul binge. I might bring some DVDs out the to ranch with the guys:
  11. Here's an interesting online test to find out which movie/TV character your personality resembles. Unlike other online personality tests, it has an anonymous peer review option. Self-report test: Peer report test: These were my top 10 matches after mum, dad, sister, brother-in-law, brother, 2 besties and girlfriend had their say: My self-report match was dumbledore, so it's interesting to see the differences. DO AN EVALUATION OF LEO HERE: (I will update as more people do this) Current matches for Leo: