Max_V

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  1. @Torkys Damnn.. I was just listening to slim shady . Maybe not the most positive music but some of his songs really have that touch of pure motivation
  2. @SFRL True, that’s why I am working through it with a psychologist
  3. @SFRL This is surface stuff, it won’t affect the deep inner emptiness one experiences
  4. This problem of ‘lack’ or ‘emptiness’ has been a big one for me too. Inquire into who it is that is lacking. What you’ll find is that one doesn’t exist.
  5. @PretentiousHuman me too. But you gotta keep getting back up. 14 days has been my longest streak. Ready to break it this time
  6. Cool plan, awesome to see someone of my age also interested in spirituality and meditation. I’d say go do it but ( I don’t know about your situation so take my comment with a grain of salt) also feel free to just let go and go party sometimes. I’m quite the perfectionist so after dedicating so much time every day it can be also good to just give yourself a free pass and just relax. Relaxing once in a while won’t make you spiritualy unworthy
  7. It’s the moment one realizes he is the Truth. Do you know who or what you are? Is what you are a bundle of bodily sensations, emotions, thoughts, and perceptions?
  8. A lot of things are coming to the surface at the moment so I'm having quite a hard time. I am 17 now and I would really like to get better at talking to and attracting girls. I've had a girlfriend before but never with me being completely authentic. I was always hiding behind the mask I put on to get liked by others. Whenever I see a cute girl there is this inner dissapointment. " She will not like you", "You are not outgoing enough" ,"Girls only like people who are funny and loud", "You are not manly enough" Thoughts are delusive, I know, but at the stage that I am right now, they still pull me in since this insecurity is something that sits pretty deep within me. It is probably not the right time for me to get into a relationships because I'm fixing so many flaws that my ego has, but I still have a deep desire for love. I've never really hated anyone. I pretty much get a long with everyone and wish everyone the best, but that's not the same with myself. My mind doesn't allow my ways. How I move, how I talk, there is always this inner critique. I'm working on these things with my psychologist but I still wanted to share this on the forum because I like getting opinions from multiple perspectives. Feels good getting this off my chest.
  9. I'm at day 14 now for the first time. This energy rushing through my body is absolutely insane. Sometimes it almost feels like I'm having a full body orgasm. Pretty awesome. Also a lot of things like feeling lonely, insecurity, emotions I've never really wanted to experience are coming to the surface. It's pretty rough, but amazing at the same time because I can finally work on some parts of me that I've always resisted. The things that were numbed down before are now being thrown in my face.
  10. @phoenix666 Haha, yes we are. But let's make the best out of it! this is so exciting and fun
  11. @Harikrishnan That's because the fear arising is not in your control. When anxiety arises, did you consciously choose to have it arise? No ofcourse not. It's something that is happening to you. Don't condemn or avoid fear and anxiety. Observe them. This being human is a guest house. Every morning a new arrival. A joy, a depression, a meanness, some momentary awareness comes as an unexpected visitor. Welcome and entertain them all! Even if they are a crowd of sorrows, who violently sweep your house empty of its furniture, still, treat each guest honorably. He may be clearing you out for some new delight. The dark thought, the shame, the malice. meet them at the door laughing and invite them in. Be grateful for whatever comes. because each has been sent as a guide from beyond. — Rumi May you be well.
  12. @phoenix666 Well for me atleast lack of self worth is a big one. I’m probably urging to find someone to prove me wrong since I can’t do it myself. But I don’t think that’s all of it. I think this also has to do with believing ‘you’ to be a sepperate entity. That can be awfully lonely
  13. In the zen tradition, they say both in the morning and in the evening. Just find your own preferenc. There is no perfect time to meditate. Although in the morning can be pretty beneficial
  14. @Emerald Thanks for pointing me in the right direction. I'm currently working on my limiting beliefs with a psychologist. The deeper we go, the more painful it gets. All those old things keep coming up, which is really harsh. Because of that + me being on nofap for a while now, really reveals everything that is stuck inside. I can't even imagine there being any other way to live life. So you could say, I'm making my ego healthy and strong haha.
  15. @Emerald Thanks for your reaction. Maybe this also has some correlation with this deep inner need I have to 'find' love. It's an extreme sensation in my stomach that sometimes just hits me. I feel lonely and so ' far out of reach ' best way to describe it. I just really want someone to hold and have a connection with.