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Everyone just repeats patterns that they have been conditioned with. It is survival. They do to others what others do unto them. To forgive means they did not harm the essence of what you are. To do that is impossible. They harm themselves; they do not harm you. Any evil directed your way is fuel for your awakening. We need to suffer to wake up. If we don't suffer, we see no reason to change.

Forgive them as they know not what they do. Also take not one piece more of their shit. Cut these folks off root and branch. Only then can life be meaningful and purposeful. First few decades of life we have no say in what passes. We have to insert a full stop and go our own way. It is going to take time to adjust, settle and heal. This is the first beautiful stage of the self-directed life. Hang in there, take your time and set your stall for the long haul ahead. If you do it right, life hits bottom and then only gets better and better.

Love is the only thing that exists. What us earthlings do is place apparent obstacles that block the reality of love like clouds that block the sun. We believe in them so we see them. They are apparent not actual. How to remove these obstacles? Withdraw belief in them. For example if anger arises, lay it aside and let anger no longer be an obstacle to love. Love is recognising that everything is love. Even the obstacles are love. But they come they go. Have them go quick. To do otherwise is to suffer.

Step 1 is, I am doing everything to myself. Take responsibility. The world isn't making me unhappy. I have a deep investment in unhappiness since it keeps this dream of separation alive. I don't want to give this up. I may be unhappy but maybe tomorrow I will be happier than today. You have to make a choice. You want this or you want that. Fear not that you will lose the body. You won't. It goes on until the final breath as it was sure to do. But body will serve a different purpose post-awakening. It will be a communication tool. It will be used by truth to demonstrate truth. You don't need to do anything externally to awaken. What you do is change your mind about what you see. Stop interpreting what you see. It's not bad; it's not good. It just is. Stop letting your mind run your life on your behalf. It has a selfish agenda. It wants to keep you here suffering for lifetimes to come. Take back charge of your life.

The unconscious mind is, I want to be unhappy, separate and special. The work is undoing these mistakes. Dissolve self, dissolve others, dissolve problems. They all exist because you are creating them. Undo them. Any tension in the body is a clue that more work is needed. In fact, all upset, irritation, disappointment, annoyance, frustration are telling you that you are not seeing correctly.

Let no goddam-mutherfuckas define your limits, do you feel me. Just you tell me I can't climb Everest and Ima do it barefoot to shut up your face. Had enough of do-gooding-losers for lifetimes to come. Rant over.

To be a man is to advertise being in lack. Woman means not-man in Hebrew. That is what he wants by virtue of saying he is man. I am incomplete. No you identified wrongly. Stop manning up; instead be the god that you are. You need nothing because everything is yours without being owned.

Thoughts and emotions go hand in hand just like perceptions and sensations. Thoughts are the set of possible things that can happen. Emotions are how each thought feels. Perceptions and sensations are locatable in the universe. Thoughts and emotions do not have to be. They are what could happen and so are in God's mind but not necessarily in our universe. A song is thoughts and some emotions go with it. If you feel an emotion, it is in you mind which is part of God's mind. But that's not in the universe.

I learned a specific spirituality. As a bonus I understand epistemology. I think it's best. Then it's not so abstract. It makes sense of what you are learning. For example I learned there is relative epistemology and absolute epistemology. Relative is understanding the world and absolute is understanding God. In the relative world, to give is to lose. In God's realm, to give is to receive.

No chair, no you. Perception of chair arises. There is only ever perception, sensation, emotion, thought. No separation, no controller.

Yes. I am not doing something. Doing appears and I slap an I-label on it. Spirituality is undoing this. Similarly you are not doing something. There is just undivided flow without centers.

How could simple pay the bills?

Survival is prioritizing me over you. I kill you first when needs must. Corruption is prioritizing me over truth, Sure I know truth and all that yadda yadda yadda. Forget that for now, man. This one here's gonna be top dog. Survival is original sin - another word for ignorance. Corruption the second sin. I know truth. I choose otherwise.

Hang in there my brother. I read most of everything you posted and you are a blessing and breath of fresh air on here. Don't do anything silly to yourself. The world is f'ed-up everywhere but world is just a means to learn lessons. It has no importance in itself. You have found the teachings of truth so don't squander that opportunity. I feel horrified about what your country is suffering. Israel and the US are piling up so much bad karma and the piper always gets paid in time. Future isn't bright on this small planet. In any case, we can still fulfil our function and achieve our purpose.

1. accept 2. recognise 3. realize, that I am not here. A body will continue as a wind-up toy on a pre-set course until it ends in the ground. Like Nisagadatta said, I am but I am not that. Spirituality is to realize before said body enters the ground.