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So lately I have been (trying) to be as aware as possible of my inner turmoil. I am very sensitive to outside stimulus. When something doesn't feel right, it immediately is felt in the heart and stomach where it itches and hurts. I am conscious that it are my thoughts that are causing these feelings. I am always aware of these thoughts but not always in "control". It is extremely hard to dissipate the thought's energy. The energy of these thoughts keep floating around in the stomach and heart area. I suspect it has something to do with my chakras; that they are blocked in that area? When I meditate, I focus on my breath and on the heart area. Now; I have been more and more conscious about how fear is a leading role in my life; so everytime I feel like I am doing something out of fear; I try to be aware of that and not go into it. But sometimes I am not sure what to do. It is a game between authenticity and consciousness in a sense. When I feel something isn't right, but I know it is coming out of fear: Do I act on it or should I just be aware of where it is coming from and not feed it? Then I feel like I am denying myself. I am just confused on what is the best to do in a personal growth type of setting. If a situation bothers me; should I just look into why it bothers me and learn from that and leave it be? Or do I do that while addressing the situation? Giving into my possibly irrational thoughts? It is a confusing / hard balance sometimes. But I do feel that addressing situations lifts a heavy weight off my heart; but in a sense it feels like cheating. I took the easy way out.. again. Instead of facing those fears and working through them by being conscious; and handling them on my own, it seems much easier to address directly and be authentic about how I am feeling which lifts a huge weight. But that feels like it is not helping my personal growth since I depend on external sources. Any thoughts on this?

Chapstick for reference. Without it you wouldn't know how big it (the musroom) was Or was it a joke? In that case my bad haha

@bobbyward Sure. The main point is moving towards absolute simplicity. No concepts, no ideas, no rules, no systems. Everything points to awareness of the void. The emptiness, which contains all the richness in the world. First, it starts about being aware of everything you do in every second of the day and doing it in a fully conscious way Breathing, touching, sensing, seeing, speaking, listening, going to the toilet,... It talks about the 36 tattvas and how they have to be experienced fully consciously all the time. It talks about how everything should be accepted and experienced and nothing should be resisted since it's all part of the divine. Resistance creates suffering. (e.g. when trying to resist a negative emotion, it only grows stronger) It also talks about ascetics and how some of them spend all their lives in solitude practicing meditation, which in turn makes them disconnected from the world they live in and thus not living life fully consciously and in all their possible / potential glory. The practices are pretty simple: -Being aware of your ego-mindset and breaking through it as hard as possible. There's no room for gentleness. Face your fears head on in the most confrontational way possible. They will be shattered. -Meditation: be aware of the pause between thoughts, breath,... Every thought and its subsequent thought has a "space" between them, a comma. Be aware of the stillness, emptiness between each breath / thought. Doing this every day, constantly, will make you more aware of this emptiness / void and will make you less identified with thoughts -Do everything fully consciously, never take anything for granted. Enjoy drinking water in the most pure way possible, do everything with pure love and gratitude -Everything should be felt by the heart, during meditation also focus on heart. Everything starts flowing when the heart is activated (all chakras).

I am reading this book of Daniel Odier and I must say I find it amazing. So much of the teachings in this book resonates with everything that is being shared on this forum. Just wanted to share this with you guys; a real recommendation to read! It gives you a look into tantra and the theory around it as well as practices and explanations. It's beautifully written and the master that is being referred to in the book seems absolutely amazing. Have any of you read Daniel Odier? What do you think of his teachings?

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Oh I have been suffering with pure OCD for years now.. No physical compulsions; just obsessive thoughts.. Thank you very much for this read!

After you die. What means "die" here? Physically die? Your body that dies? Or the ego / sense of self that dies?

Who is the "I" here? Who loves the idea?

Very inspirational And you're sitting so still! I couldn't do that But I'll give it a try

Hi, I'm having a dilemma right now. Moving to Amsterdam (career) , or moving to Copenhagen (love). Which decision aligns the most with what's best for me?

@Leo Gura Wow. Super insightful answer. Great way to look at it in this perspective.

@Aaron p males don't become homosexual because they can't "get" females, that's a very old and conservative way of thinking and is not substantiated by anything. You can believe it though but you shouldn't state it as a fact. As for OP, I think people who are more comfortable with themselves embrace parts of themselves that they would normally push away / ignore. They stop caring about societal norms and standards (which is still very heteronormative) this becoming less of what is expected of them and more true to their real self

Will try to start again. 08/01/2019: Meditation for just +- 15min. 0-5 min: let my mind calm down 5-10 min: Counted to 100 slowly and paused between every number, focusing on the silence. 10-13 min: Energy seemed to have been accumulating in my body while counting. Suddenly I let all the energy flow through my body. My heart started to beat very fast and I started twitching. This lasted for approx 20-30secs. After this the energy subsided 12-15 min: Just sat in relaxation state for 2 more mins before opening my eyes and going back to what I was doing

Does anyone have any recommendations? Would like to start reading more about chakras

@voxun Thank you for the explanation