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  1. Will try to start again. 08/01/2019: Meditation for just +- 15min. 0-5 min: let my mind calm down 5-10 min: Counted to 100 slowly and paused between every number, focusing on the silence. 10-13 min: Energy seemed to have been accumulating in my body while counting. Suddenly I let all the energy flow through my body. My heart started to beat very fast and I started twitching. This lasted for approx 20-30secs. After this the energy subsided 12-15 min: Just sat in relaxation state for 2 more mins before opening my eyes and going back to what I was doing
  2. Does anyone have any recommendations? Would like to start reading more about chakras
  3. @voxun Thank you for the explanation
  4. @voxun soo could you please tell us something more about the retreat? Did you make good progress there?
  5. @Nahm I don't understand this to be honest. I thought God is love? But now you're saying that's what leaders want you to think to trigger a chemical reaction? And what do you mean with a you're a "program" playing out? An AI programmed to play chess is pretty dumb.. It only knows how to play chess. Nothing else. Feel a bit confused with this post
  6. @James123 pff sounds heavy. Maybe you should seek a spiritual master / teacher that can help you
  7. @James123 damn. So how are you feeling these days? Still empty? How do you function?
  8. @MAYA EL I didn't understand what you meant with: Do you mean you pay attention to your thoughts while meditating? Because they keep coming back they must be "important"? But what do you get out of paying attention to them. Do you go into them? Understand them intellectually? I would think going into the thought is the last thing you'd want because more and more thoughts will come (I have ADD that's why I'm asking)
  9. @MAYA EL then why did you state it in the first place if you were not going to elaborate. Very annoying
  10. Probably not related to your question, but I am interested to where you stand now in terms of emotional mastery?
  11. Thank you so much for this great and wonderful post! I should print it out and hang it in my room to remind myself. Gave me answers to some questions that I've had but never fully got them answered as clearly as you did just now. PS: it's funny but letting to technique doesn't work for me at all. Everything I am supposedly repressing, comes to haunt me in my mind. It's good in a way because I know exactly what situation or what things are making me feel bad. But, on the other hand, this can haunt me for days, weeks, months and I'd have no way of knowing on how to let these thoughts and consequently feelings subside. It's like I wish I could forget it or suppress it even. That's why I'm always trying, with all my power, to accept everything as it is, but then I realize I didn't really accept it deeply enough because it still comes up? So, for me, it is more the matter of how to REALLY accept everything as is, so that I am not haunted by some situation for weeks on end where I am unable to understand/grasp and therefore accept. I'll try this out A lot of love
  12. I don't understand how one of the highest Zen masters, as you said, Doshin Roshi, could have OCD? OCD is really a mind thing, lack of letting go, creating a thought loop. I would think that a Zen master would be able to be above that? Knows the tricks the mind plays for you to draw your attention to it? Or do you mean he had OCD and ADD and still accomplished what he did? Because claiming that he is still suffering OCD and ADD just seems very strange. Certainly since OCD also happens when traumas are not well integrated / resolved, or you as I said the inability to let go. Could you clarify this a bit more?
  13. @pluto Thanks! Needed to hear this! @Raptorsin7 Thanks for your input <3 Doesn't matter if you are enlightened or not. There is no one to be enlightened anyways.