flume

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  1. “The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: If there is any reaction, both are transformed.” ― Carl Gustav Jung
  2. Memories, Dreams, Reflections.
  3. Oh... Right in the feels <3 Reminds me of Khalil Gibrans poem "On Beauty" It goes like this: And a poet said, Speak to us of Beauty. And he answered: Where shall you seek beauty, and how shall you find her unless she herself be your way and your guide? And how shall you speak of her except she be the weaver of your speech? The aggrieved and the injured say, “Beauty is kind and gentle. Like a young mother half-shy of her own glory she walks among us.” And the passionate say, “Nay, beauty is a thing of might and dread. Like the tempest she shakes the earth beneath us and the sky above us.” The tired and the weary say, “Beauty is of soft whisperings. She speaks in our spirit. Her voice yields to our silences like a faint light that quivers in fear of the shadow.” But the restless say, “We have heard her shouting among the mountains, And with her cries came the sound of hoofs, and the beating of wings and the roaring of lions.” At night the watchmen of the city say, “Beauty shall rise with the dawn from the east.” And at noontide the toilers and the way- farers say, “We have seen her leaning over the earth from the windows of the sunset.” In winter say the snow-bound, “She shall come with the spring leaping upon the hills.” And in the summer heat the reapers say, “We have seen her dancing with the autumn leaves, and we saw a drift of snow in her hair.” All these things have you said of beauty, Yet in truth you spoke not of her but of needs unsatisfied And beauty is not a need but an ecstasy. It is not a mouth thirsting nor an empty hand stretched forth, But rather a heart enflamed and a soul en- chanted. It is not the image you would see nor the song you would hear, But rather an image you see though you close your eyes and a song you hear though you shut your ears. It is not the sap within the furrowed bark, nor a wing attached to a claw, But rather a garden for ever in bloom and a flock of angels for ever in flight. People of Orphalese, beauty is life when life unveils her holy face. But you are life and you are the veil. Beauty is eternity gazing at itself in a mirror. But you are eternity and you are the mirror.
  4. I once asked someone "How do I know I'm with the right person?" and he answered "When you don't ask yourself that question anymore."
  5. @Waves Alright, thanks. The over arching one for me would be self-reliance: Going all in in letting my intuition guide the way. Bein completely honest with everyone in my life. Becoming my most authentic, unconditioned self. Other than that: Healing: Finding new healing modalities through pulling lots of different sources together. Seeing connections no one has seen before. Help people understand themselves better and live a better life. Entrepreneurship. Being financially independent by doing so. Sexuality: Building high levels of trust and intimacy, becoming very feminine, releasing all shame and holding back around sexuality: Sex is nothing thats has to be hidden. Tantra workshops, more reading and just trying stuff out, talking to other people about it and sharing freely. Open-mindedness: Understanding why people are the way they are and therefore releasing all need to judge. Life-long learning through books, courses, seminars, etc. Stage yellow thinking. Self expression: Expressing myself through art, music, dance, style, decoration, writing, poetry, photography, etc. Taking lots of time for these thing and publishing them. Sustainability: Having my own farm, knowing everything about gardening and growing most of my own food.
  6. Is it only about financial investments? (Haven't seen the video)
  7. @somegirl Everything you shared about your mom sounds uncannily familiar. Actually had goosebumps reading the descriptions. We have/had a very similar situation. I'd be more than happy to chat. Yes I'm fresh off primal and I totally recommend it. But even if that's not an option for you right now, it can be very alleviating to talk to someone who knows what you're going through. Just send me a message if you feel like having a call and we can make it happen Stay strong girl! And in the meantime: Your feelings about the situation are real and valid. Don't make up excuses for your mom.
  8. Thanks Raphael!
  9. Oh! Thank you so much. That was exactly the intention when making this journal and I'm glad it's coming across That's the dream Goodness me! Of course! Dead Can Dance must be in my top 10 favourite bands of all time. The range of music they cover is insane, and it always takes you on a journey. They're the best!
  10. The Beginning Of Something New There has been quite a tug of war going on inside of me the past month. I still feel a little withdrawn and vulnerable from the Primal retreat. Some time is needed to get to know my "new self", the one that suddenly speaks up for her boundaries and feels equal to the people in her life. Coming out of this experience though, I feel more certain than ever that I want to "do my own thing" professionally. I'd like to help people break through limiting thoughts and emotions and realise why they're arising for them. There just comes a point in this whole "self actualisation" or "spiritual" journey, where you realise that more concepts and gurus are not gonna be the answer. If you don't learn to relate to what's inside of you, you're ultimately gonna stay unfulfilled, stuck and will continue drifting from one teaching or method to the next. "Getting real" was the real "growing up" for me; as in: finally taking seriously the intimacy my own inner world. Becoming the only authority in my life. Something started shifting then, something profoundly that I feel is responsible for the amazing people and circumstances I now have in my life. I'm beyond blessed, really. "Stop working on yourself. Start relating to yourself", as Matt Kahn would say. I'd love to find a way to guide people to do just that. So I've looked into coaching. I thought about taking a course, checking it out, to see whether I could make a difference in people's lives by doing that. Trying to retrace the path that I followed, I've actually been in the process of condensing all of the most important and helpful knowledge I've ever found in books, videos, seminars and trips. I'm currently going through all my notes and writings, digital and hand written, which feels like I'm digging for gold. I never looked at them much after jotting them down, but now it's like I suddenly know why I took all those notes. I know that there is something there, somewhere, that is useful and no one has found before. I can intuit that. I'm just not sure how I could teach that (yet). Or what it even really is. But it's definitely gotten my attention. The thing is, I have 0 skills in marketing and I don't know a thing about coaching. People tell me I'm smart, see connections quickly and they feel safe and not judged with me. So those are pretty good requirements. But all the practicalities have to be learned, so I'm down for investing into an online course. Wherever I looked, I felt turned off by the exaggerated marketing though. The quick promises and shady sales people really made me feel like I'm being pushed to purchase something that actually goes against my values quite heavily. I felt like I was about to sell my soul for stepping my foot into the entrepreneur scene of ads and manipulation. Maybe I'm exaggerating. Probably. But there's something there I really don't like. It feels wrong. And I've learned to trust that feeling. So I'm not buying a course until I've found something that feels ethically sound. The point of doing this is actually becoming a good coach, developing myself and creating a safe space for people to do the same. If I have to do anything shady for that, anything that is untrue, harms or exploits people down the line, I'm not doing it. It's not worth it. I don't care how much money it would make me. I've had money in my life. It means nothing at that cost. So that's where I'm at right now. Phew. Let's see where this road leads.
  11. Aw, thanks a lot I don't even know what DCD means to be honest Enlighten me!
  12. Oh I love that man Like nobody can He moves mountains and pounds them to ground again
  13. Best-man-I-ever-met-kind-of-guy
  14. You can make money with almost anything. The real question is: Are you deeply passionate about it?
  15. The Marriage of Heaven and Hell “The Giants who formed this world into its sensual existence and now seem to live in it in chains, are in truth the causes of its life & the sources of all activity, but the chains are the cunning of weak and tame minds which have power to resist energy, according to the proverb, the weak in courage is strong in cunning. Thus one portion of being is the Prolific, the other the Devouring: to the devourer it seems as if the producer was in his chains, but it is not so, he only takes portions of existence and fancies that the whole. But the Prolific would cease to be Prolific unless the Devourer, as a sea, recieved the excess of his delights. Some will say: ‘Is not God alone the Prolific?’ I answer: ‘God only Acts & Is, in existing beings or Men.” - William Blake https://the-inward-morning.com/journal/the-marriage-of-heaven-and-hell