andyjohnsonman

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  1. I have questioned this duality as i have also questioned non duality. I haven't had any mystical states or non dual experiences although i had some intense mushroom meditation trips that gave me a feeling that there's more. I'm basically saying that the stories the mind creates can be very deceptive and maybe even the subject-object duality being an illusion is also a story. I would love to be wrong tho. As of now i sit as an agnostic like a scientist but the difference being I am aware of the dogmas of the materialist paradigm.
  2. I have questioned this duality as i have also questioned non duality. I haven't had any mystical states or non dual experiences although i had some intense mushroom meditation trips that gave me a feeling that there's more. I'm basically saying that the stories the mind creates can be very deceptive and maybe even the subject-object duality being an illusion is also a story. I would love to be wrong tho. As of now i sit as an agnostic like a scientist but the difference being I am aware of the dogmas of the materialist paradigm.
  3. that's also a story 😄
  4. Yea I agree his videos are exceptional for motivation in doing the work. But how can you realise anything when all realisations are thoughts? Thats what i'm trying to tackle. It seems that all we have is awareness of what is. So how can you make claims that you gave birth to yourself and consciousness proceeds materialism, all of that is a thought/story.
  5. I'm not having a dig at Leo or his videos I love them both.
  6. So when Leo talks about all these highly advanced topics on what consciousness is, what god is etc they are essentially just stories created by his mind. We have to just be aware and as soon as a thought arises it becomes a story, hence a lot of what has been taught about the truth is a thought and therefore we don't know if it's true. Which would be the same if your mind comes up with "truths" based on thoughts after awareness.
  7. Surely saying you dont know anything includes within it not knowing whether that statement is true?
  8. Leo talks about understanding that he is everything and that he gave birth to himself - he is his mother as everything is consciousness. If direct experience is just awareness free of thought how can he know those things for sure when they are stories created by the mind? Seems paradoxical. I'm not having a go at Leo, it's more of an epistemological question as to how we can know anything. I'm sure many people will answer, "because you are looking for the answers from the mind not from awareness, if you look directly just from awareness then you will see." Well how do we know that is the way to see things and not from thinking. All I've come to realise is that the mind creates stories and that being present in awareness is free from stories and therefore there is no knowing. Thoughts?
  9. Well I read the shadow dance on Leo's booklist and it has exercises in it like listing traits in family and friends that frustrate you these being your shadow. I also find as you become more aware of your limitations and accept yourself for these you can really see that you have the potential within yourself for any low vibrational actions and therefore wont judge or demonise. I think the key is to be mindful of the truth of both sides of what you are while watching out for self deceptions, as well as making lists like i mentioned above.
  10. I am really starting to think shadow work is the most important aspect in this work as if you cant own the unconscious dark side of yourself then you will become a preacher and moralise all of these teachings from actualized.org onto others. It's not until you truly realise that you have the potential for all of these low conscious values, then can you work on yourself and not project onto others. I'm not sure if Leo has already talked about this or not as I kind of discovered it myself but in my opinion it is the most vital part of spirituality. Thoughts?
  11. Anyone tried Tai Chi as a meditation? Is it effective? I'm curious to do try
  12. I just did a 50 minute Kriya session and during Navi Kriya I started laughing uncontrollably for about 10 minutes hysterically. What does this mean? Could it be that in my daily life i have been suppressing laughter and not fully expressing myself?
  13. I was thinking about even though it is an illusion it appears real. To the ego family, friends, hobbies, travel, computer games and the whole of the material world is life and even though you are attached to these things as an ego, not being identified with the ego and all the things that comes with it, is synonymous with death. The part that confuses me is that your true Self is nothingness (which would be death) but also everything (which is life). I suppose this just can't be grappled with using language and rationality but my mind is dying to know the answers to these rationally. I can see how religion has so many dogmas as the power of the mind wanting to know these answers without having the answers leads to just settling on an answer and belief systems.
  14. @dimitri Im using JC Stevens book and thats more than enough for a beginner. Its nicely detailed. After a year of JC Stevens I plan to move on to add some advanced techniques from Gamana's book like the Breath of fire.