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he lost integrity real bad yeah

It's definitely not a magic switch that will make your life amazing i will tell you that for sure.

😀 some people literally answered you, but you don't want to read that i suppose.

I don't aim to insult you or whatever, but i just would like for you to wrestle with this thought as to why you are practicing bramachariya? Bramachariya is a path, but not the goal, one of many. You don't necessarily practice it to hold immense power, because what will you do with it, you are still in your mind trying to prove who is a bigger stone or you will simply get bored of this power because there's always more in this earthly realm! Maybe there is currently something you are trying to escape from in your life and you run after Bramachariya? Bramachariya in my opinion is only worth it if you care about the truth and not the powers. Maybe some siddhis and other powers, non-mechanical aspects will open to you, but you can get completely lost in them and not reach the truth. What if after 12 years you get nothing much or not at all other than regret? Then what? That existential crisis may have something more useful to offer for you though! Facing your emotions and letting them happen, experiencing them as they are, if you do it within reason is probably one of the best things to do within your meditation, but then, there are other paths. If you do meditation and samadhi happens, then energy rises and you don't have such big attachment to sexual desire, otherwise it's hard. Good luck and don't take me seriously!

I reject all labels like "social animal", "genetic", "human being" and leave them aside when I am able to. In my experience the human psyche is far more complicated and intelligent to hold contradicting ideas and live without almost any of the answers about life. These are very deep and basic assumptions to reason perpetual cycle of self-hatred, guilt about yourself and self-denial. So I will not use a genetic label, while in the realm of theory of biology it is a very useful label.

Don't expect anything radical, but here are the benefits: - feeling more completeness and less guilt around the opposite sex (90 % reduction, but it still does not solve your inner/outer game, lack of ambition to lock in a relationship); - You will eventually feel less horny, compared to relapsing daily, weekly etc., but you will feel horny... and it will pass, so the libido is not gone, but you are not hyperfocusing on it anymore by overstimulation; - I still have wet dreams from once in a three months to three times a month, most of the time it doesn't go to the point of ejaculation and you will be incredibly horny at the mornings, sometimes going to sleep or when waking up at night because your waking state and logic doesn't fully kick in; - I have just a little bit more energy and stamina to meditate, pursue my authentic and creative desires with more likeliness to follow trough something and implement something new while i watch my friends struggle, be more serene and clear minded troughout the day; - monkhood, hardcore spirituality, bramachariya is an open possibility for me, though sometimes i have fear of missing out - that also comes and passes; - 98 % less self related guilt, guilt that i am a man, guilt that i like asses, breasts, beautiful body, women that are taken etc..., but it also passes and rather quickly, I don't additionally need to feel guilty about it; - i also meditate regularly, i watch spiritual gurus on the net and i implement what they say, therefore maybe that is why I CAN abstain and not feel tremendous pressure and resistance, in that sense i feel fortunate, but I belive many many people can do it! So first and foremost, don't feel guilty about fapping, having sex, abstaining, liking women, liking what you like, enjoying sex and most importantly, don't feel guilty for what you have been shamed for, any and every incident, say "I don't need to feel guilty about it" at least 10 times. It's not the ultimate in any sense, but it's a great asset to get you organized, which is very significant in a compounding manner. You still have to meditate, inquire or understand something about your nature as the eternal deathless screen and silence itself looking through your eyes to carry forward with grace. That is my experience. Your benefits may be different than mine.

Yes, what is your question? I am 2.5 years on it.

Before you go to sleep. Just say quietly to yourself, but verbalize it. Whatever this Enlightenment thing is, whatever there is worth knowing, whatever this Nibhana, Nirvana, Mukthi, Mahadsmadhi, Moksha, Liberation, Bodylesness, breaking of the cycle of reincarination or whatever this is, I want that. Just repeat it as a sentence, however it may work for you to verbalize, feel the desire. Depending where you are, declaring and meditating with the idea that I am already free also could work, but this is your journey. Best wishes!

Hello or hey

That's a good one.

In my experience Benthino is not a bad guy, but idk if he is awakened. Tried some things of his. There is the truth somewhere, but not much radiance as i would feel from a traditional hindu advaita guru. Now what he does with the influence and power that is none of my business. Anyone who teaches consciousness will have problems in the society.

I deleted because I really liked the person, so I wish the best for her but I don't want to see her, argue etc. It's over. Let me move on.

I quit coffee.

I really don't underestand what selfish means in practical reality. I think the human psyche is far more complex to be explained or the first person experience of reality by the term selfishness. you can be selfish in anything. You can be selfish in expecting praise for helping people, even if you are a full time volunteer. You can be selfish to break free from the herd. Your selfish if you don't feel guilty for what society thought you should feel guilty about.

Why not to get a pension fund investment where you just place it in different stocks in the world? I wouldn't place in the US, maybe except for gold.