Zigzag Idiot

I’m out of touch with technology so far as practical applications go, but I enjoy learning about break throughs and the potential impacts this will have on our lives in the near future, 1-5 years,,, The potential impact quantum computing will have on humanity makes artificial intelligence seem like no big deal,,,, As always, take this with a grain of salt. Yet I always exist on the side of optimism and gullibility with the habit of everything going into the as-if-it’s-true mental file folder until it’s determined without a doubt to be complete bullshit.

Self-similarity over scales. A contribution to understanding the Cosmos from out of Chaos Theory with its four base attributes or attractors. Bear with me. I'm just abstracting here for a bit. I'm seeing a human being comparative in some way to a solar system. Its system of bodily organs correlating to the planets and their particular energies with the Sun comparative with the human brain/heart combination of particular concentrations relating in some loose way to intellect/feeling - being. I'm not talking about astrology here. Although there may be some synchronistic correlations. An atom with its rotating electrons makes a nice replica of the solar system across different scales. Can groups of solar systems correlate with molecules. Or maybe galactic clusters are similar to molecules in a greater scheme that has a single rotating galaxy matching in some way to that of an Atom or molecule or cell in an organized unrealized larger body???? Throw in the concept of dimensions that surpass our understanding of space/time. The Universe is really vast! Doesn't that sound like an understatement,,,,,? I'm pondering the difference in consciousness between a scorpion and a highly educated, comedian philanthropist.

This is a topic all on its own. Your story of awakening is not that special. https://youtube.com/clip/UgkxQr_T6moZwmWDltYXCIzS9tzUBxF8xuHR?si=Ip7U3mXxsB1tuAcZ from

I’ve recently had a realization concerning virtue signaling. It was a topic discussed some here in the forum around the time I joined in 2017, I think it was. It’s really such a simple phenomena/concept to me now. That informs me that it was connected in some way to my psychological blind spot. I associate it with being insecure and the need for reassurance. Looking at actualization of potential in terms of states and stages of consciousness really broadens the frame of reference to where one can view one’s deficiencies in contrast to one’s strengths or virtues. Along with states and stages of consciousness,-lines of development- can be mixed in to study where one is at and just as important is the question- what or how do you want to improve? What capacities? I really don’t care about my public speaking ability or a display of charisma. If someone only knows me through my writing on this journal. They will probably be completely disappointed meeting me in person. I’m very deadpan and non-expressive for the most part. But then again, my personality will morph depending on the company I’m with. To a degree,,, IMO- Human beings have an expansive latitude in their possible display of multi-dimensional characteristics. Shallow or surface level, specific, deep, paradoxical, serious, average, complex, light hearted, paranormal, or maybe just simple and easy going.

The following 1 minute clip is Hamilton Morris on Joe Rogan’s podcast. It speaks for itself,,, He mentions virtue signaling. Virtue signaling was and probably still is mixed in with my psychological blind spot at times,,,, https://youtube.com/clip/Ugkxvhu2eGx0iBNdp7gdX3B9scV4kZu9KuEw?si=gtd0dGZxkrwt8Dup

https://youtube.com/clip/UgkxHPyTD08AggMTduoYtXcOerjN9Ngr4bOl?si=pD7XHW59dHER3XRO

Does a heart have a voice? Does a heart have a mind? Do you let your mind rule your heart always or sometimes? Have you ever been lost somewhere in that mixture? Of course. We all do that. From the depths we each emerge with something unique along with a degree of being.

At least the dry spell has broken. It’s raining outside. I’ve eaten breakfast and it’s still dark. I’m full and sleepy lying in a warm bed. The window is open. There is a cool breeze. Listening to the rain, I feel at peace and I am thankful. I can tell that I’m going to drift back into some sleep. If I were to say anything more about how I feel right now. It would ,,,, If you’ve ever escaped from a hell. Experiencing the contrast of its absence. Tears flow,,,, How could I ever describe what I realize at this moment. This torrent of scenes visualized with feelings of distilled intensity containing a knowledge that I find impossible to convey because of its richness.. This feeling/knowledge comes to me again. It’s in the memory of specific people and the look in their eyes of a heart relation that speaks to something much greater than me.

Morsels of information for those who want to abstract/ponder or ponder/abstract planetary evolution and the idea of singularity or eschatology,,,, yeah man,,,

I got kicked in the head by a horse when I was about 10 years old. I was over at a friends house and we were sledding down the hill on a mixture of sleet and snow. I had found a piece of Formica (countertop material),,, You can imagine what a great sled that made. We punched a small hole in it close to the edge and tied a hay string through it so one side could be flared up. That was the front of the sled of course. It couldn’t really be steered though. After a while some horses had drifted into our side of the hill we were sleding on. I should have known better but I slid right into the group of horses and one of them kicked me in the forehead. It knocked me unconscious for a minute or so. My friend Greg ran down to see how I was and he helped me back to their house. His dad picked me up and put me in a vehicle and took me to the hospital. I had bump the size of a goose egg on one left side of my forehead. I may have shared this story earlier somewhere in my journal. I tend to repeat myself somewhat. They x-rayed me me at the hospital and sent back home. Watching the YouTube below today triggered the memory of that event. It hurts me to watch this. The first scene here is the worst,,,

@Dayo Thank you for starting this thread! A good number of people come to A Course in Miracles through introduction by their psychotherapists. In large part due to their having a tenacious grip on some trauma they have endured and are unable to let go of their victimhood. What is the eventual fix needed here? Dis-identification or the ability to let go. In another word, forgiveness. ACIM is a work that came to fruition through a woman who channeled the historical Jesus Christ over a five year period in the late 1960’s. She was a secular Jewish psychotherapist named Helen Schucman. The text reads very much like the New Testament but with modern terms like ‘ego’ mixed into it. This paraphrasing of the Bible is absolutely hilarious. God Is Disappointed In You came out about 10- 15 years ago. Its genius quality is in its ability to dissolve false seriousness that seems to be a plague on Christians throughout the ages.

@Yimpa Well,,, yeah kinda everything goes into a as-if-it’s-true mental file folder. This story is still going with different variations. Little ole gas lit me saw it made the Drudge Report earlier today.

Do you mean fake news? I’m a fooled fool, still. Looks exciting!

I’ve heard it said that a fully awakened human is incapable of violence. Maurice Nicoll, a Scottish physician and a Teacher of Gurdjieffs system related a vivid dream he had. There was a man who was being harassed by some people but he seemed to be not affected at all. He remained passive and calm in the face of their taunts. Nicoll referred to him as a man of no violence who possessed a curious power. He tells the story better than I do. I recommend the Psychological Commentaries on the Teaching of Gurdjieff and Ouspensky. It’s a very comprehensive yet readable set of 5 volumes containing around 4500 pages. His lightheartedness and sometimes blunt statements makes for enjoyable reading. Bye