God Forgive Me Journal

[Optimized Life]

God forgive all my wasted times 

God forgive all my dead ends 

God forgive all my internet brain rots 

God forgive all my delusional insecurities 

God forgive all the time I spent online 

God forgive all the times i dind't approach 

God especially forgive the times I didn't approach the love at 1st sight type of women, of which have been several 

God forgive all the wrong people I trusted 

God forgive all the people I listened to 

God forgive all the times I didn't think critically 

God forgive all the times I started and dind't finish something 

God forgive all my regrets 

God forgive my bitterness 

God forgive the times I hated women

God forgive me for falling for all the modern traps many times, staring at screens all day, disconnected 

God forgive me for trying to get validation from women, that's a scam 

God forgive me for prioritizing money and business so much

God forgive me for judging peoples value according to their wealth, or career 

God forgive me for caring what people thought of me for so long, and god forgive me for deluding myself that I didn't care anymore when technically I still did at the bios level 

God forgive me for not studying history and how the world really works sooner

God forgive me for not developing my own voice and values sooner, always just going along with the "successful" people I knew, like a dog 

God forgive me for not taking mushrooms sooner 

God forgive me 

Edited July 2 by Optimized Life

[Zigzag Idiot]

Thank you for helping me to realize that the world is a nicer place than it was before 

Courageous yet benign expression of individuation

 Communicating from your hara

 

*Makes my heart soar like a hawk

You are a human being and know where the center of the Earth is 

 

*- Paraphrasing quotes of Chief Dan George

 

[Optimized Life]

39 minutes ago, Zigzag Idiot said:

Thank you for helping me to realize that the world is a nicer place than it was before 

You're in for a rude awakening then lmao, that was not the purpose of this post 

I asked for forgiveness of futile, delusional and tragic mistakes, like not approaching, insecurities and wasting time 

I dind't ask for the world to be a nicer place, or to be benign 

I'm actually dangerous, just dangerous and human 

[Zigzag Idiot]

Perhaps you are misunderstood, and I'm misunderstood.

Others are misunderstood as well and they misunderstand us and each other somewhat?

We're all dangerous.

I appreciated your expression, and I probably projected in some way which resulted in me being an annoyance. That was not intended.

I wish you well.

[Optimized Life]

2 hours ago, Zigzag Idiot said:

which resulted in me being an annoyance. That was not intended.

I wish you well.

You provided zero annoyance to me at all, hard to infer tone or reaction from written words

You are pleasant and polite, and that's appreciated 

I was just being honest that : I am not benign and the world isn't a nice place, nor is it becoming a nicer place, nor do I even need it to be anymore, I just need to make useful choices, cant much control if the world burns as long as I made mine count

Edited July 9 by Optimized Life