Zigzag Idiot

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  1. @phoenix666 Falling down then getting back up while self criticizing describes a definite aspect of my personal history that has run continual. Leaving out the self criticism and just observing my continual failures feels like a step up. Even though I feel remorse of Conscience at times, I'm not as divided against myself compared to the past and sometimes I'm actually able to resist temptation in speaking when I shouldn't or doing something that's not good for me. Slowly growth happens.
  2. I thought that's what you meant when I watched earlier. It was good to hear you speak. I think your spoken English is good also. You've got me interested in watching Annihilation,,,,
  3. We Have Betrayed Ourselves When we are genuinely interested in the truth, the whole truth, we realize with a greater sorrow that this betrayal from the outside is less terrible than another betrayal: we come to understand that we have betrayed ourselves. We realize that when our environment betrayed us and abandoned us, with varying degrees of insensitivity, we felt alone and abandoned, with no one relating to us. To be real meant being isolated from the environment, living in another universe, a universe not seen by our parents, not acknowledged by them, even not known by them... so we learned to pretend, to be like them, to join them in their world, the world of lies, the world of the shell, the conventional world. We became what they wanted us to be, what they paid attention to in us, what they preferred in us, what made them relate to us. Through this process of accommodation, we abandoned and rejected what they could not see, the parts of us they did not relate to. Since our Essence was the element they recognized or understood least, our Essence was the central element we disowned. We ended up abandoning and hiding our most precious nature. We hid it finally even from ourselves; most of us eventually forgot it altogether. The Point of Existence, pg. 319 The watch of the heart Meditation has helped my capacity for forgiveness. Letting go of thoughts in meditation is good practice for letting go of grievences. The same inner movement in forgiveness. . I know how quickly I can get drawn in to being identified with a particular perspective on any day though. How quickly the passion of anger can appear. I really don't know much about Eastern Orthodox Christianity. It has a similarity to A Course In Miracles though in its focus on the possibility of realizing deep peace through forgiveness but just as important is the ongoing 'watch of the heart' as it's referred to by some. I'm not a bit interested in Church or Religion or any kind of group activity. Small quotes from an article by Cynthia Bourgeault. This first is her quoting modern Sufi Master Kabir Helminski -- "We have subtle subconscious faculties we are not using. Beyond the limited analytic intellect is a vast realm of mind that includes psychic and extrasensory abilities; intuition; wisdom; a sense of unity; aesthetic, qualitative and creative faculties; and image-forming and symbolic capacities. Though these faculties are many, we give them a single name with some justification for they are working best when they are in concert. They comprise a mind, moreover, in spontaneous connection to the cosmic mind. This total mind we call “heart." "The heart,” Helminski continues, is the antenna that receives the emanations of subtler levels of existence. The human heart has its proper field of function beyond the limits of the superficial, reactive ego-self. Awakening the heart, or the spiritualized mind, is an unlimited process of making the mind more sensitive, focused, energized, subtle, and refined, of joining it to its cosmic milieu, the infinity of love." “Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.” In this one sentence, the whole of the teaching is conveyed. What remains is for us to come to a greater understanding of how this purification is actually accomplished: a critical issue on which Christian tradition is by no means unanimous." From -- https://parabola.org/2017/01/31/the-way-of-the-heart-cynthia-bourgeault/
  4. This is a picture of my television screen from a few months ago. A DVD of Nassim's about what you mention in your post. It was a difficult thing to wrap my mind around idea of the mass of the universe fitting into the empty space of a proton. Its got a catchy title though.
  5. No, I've never worked in marketing,,,
  6. First sentiment - peace to everyone You guys are so misunderstanding this place.. How is this Title not a projection in itself? I just throw this out as a rhetorical question,,, Not meant as an attack @DrewNows I feel like when we have toxic people in our life we are often unknowingly a match to them. And the only way to change them is in changing ourself. By doing this they either leave our presence or change for us to be aware of the attention we feed, and the reactions/judgments we have that’s a good start to self reflecting instead of simply pushing people away possibly out of fear or anger This matches an aphorism in the Work - Our Being Attracts our life. last sentiment- peace to everyone
  7. Just finished watching it. She gives a nice discourse on superego without ever using the phrase superego. Which is probably a better way of going about it. Thanks for sharing,,,
  8. I just realized how a lot of the things I post on here are horribly depressing if not offensive from certain perspectives. Like the Ouspensky and Gurdjieff stuff. Or Martin Butlers dim view of the financial elite. And the time devoted to meditation, self observation, Inquiry, etc., seems really impractical. Also from certain perspectives. I can really understand why there would be no motivation for doing this if one were emotionally balanced and relatively happy. There are different kinds of stresses now in the world than there was 50 years ago for sure. Even 20 years ago. In the form of existential angst and meaninglessness,,,, maybe? I understand the value of work on self esteem. The real need for it in a practical sense. Some of the views in the work on integration and transcendence would almost seem to be mocking those who are doing work on self esteem and that is a shame because it's only a perception and a mistaken one. Ken Wilber makes the case that with our complex subtle energy centers which allow for a real possible higher development there exist the other side of this coin. The Human has possibilities for beautiful higher potentials but these complexities are also responsible for our really potential messed-up-ness. They keep spitting out these jewels and so here is another one for those who are interested and following this path. The audio on this one is worse. It has the quality of an automated robocall but whoever is editing and putting these together are really doing a fine job in how they arrange the material IME.
  9. @Arcangelo Hahahahaha 😂 Beautiful!
  10. @Truth Addict I agree with what you say in your opening post on this topic but I just don't take Leo in this way. In the above quote. On 5-22 @Shiva said - Ok here's one for you: Stop wondering if what Leo says is true or not. He's presenting a possibility for you. If it inspires you, good, pursue it. If it doesn't, don't waste your time criticizing and arguing. In the end, what Leo says is just poetry, until you find out it is not. Or who knows, maybe it is just poetry and nothing more. Also fine, at least enjoy the poems.
  11. Great! 🙂 Yep. Lunar Venusian. The Lunar type is said to be willful. 😊🙋‍♂️
  12. 🤷‍♂️ 🤔 🎵➕🎶 🤔🌴 🚶
  13. I wish these short videos had been around when I first started trying to learn the system. I know for sure they are helpful in refreshing my past learning and reminding me of different aspects which are interconnected. To say the subject matter in this one is relevant to everyone here and also the tone of the forum at the moment would be one hell of an understatement. 7:57 minutes
  14. Yesterday 5-23-2019 38. Separating/Opposition 5-24-2019 31. Influence. Lines 1 and 6 13. Associating with People A small piece of the council from Line 1-- "before acting, a person needs to empty his mind of all petty likes and dislikes that make him look down on Nature and on his body. The correct influence comes from inner stillness, which both attracts the Cosmic Helpers, and enables the correct spontaneous response to arise from one's inner truth." from line 6 -- "A person may believe that what he says lightly in idle conversation, or what others say about him in this manner, produces no harm. Nevertheless it is mostly through idle talk that projections, spells, and poison arrows are created. It is a person's Cosmic duty to take responsibility for everything he says and thinks, and to realize idle talk and thoughts often create great harm." Zigzag Idiot opinion/insight -- Many thoughts are not self produced, they just appear seemingly out of nowhere or out of the stimulus response mechanism of the body which is just a meat computer. Being responsible for such thoughts means just letting them go.
  15. That's great! You seem to have a positive momentum going. I appreciate the honest objective tone of your Journal. 👍🙏