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Winston Churchill's take on human history. - "It's just one damn thing after another."

There are many negative aspects concerning porn. Suppressing porn from a moral basis will only aggravate and possibly increase the compulsivity by highlighting whatever practice or taboo falls under some kind of regulation. Many taboo practices fall into the category of 'not illegal'. Blatantly violent or malignant sexual practices which result in being illegal under the scope of what constitutes a crime in today's terms,,,,,, What am I tryng to say,,,? There are gray areas that need more definition within the judicial branch it seems but when "community standards" are brought into the argument. It becomes clear there are vast differences between worldviews. An increasingly sophisticated and educated population will resolve these issues in time. One which is more 2nd tier center of gravity. As a species we are over-sexed. Blame evolution if you like. Is there anything wrong with blatantly seeking pleasure? Especially if you pay your bills and taxes and don't impose your will upon others in a way in which they don't like,,,, In the video that was shared [thank you @LordFall}, it seems many of the panel were pinned down by their own lack of individuation. Specifically concerning the area of the Freudian super-ego in which their consciences are pinned down under the regulation of their childhood conditioning and the overly acquired values of their subcultures instead of a more natural organic perception that has not been subject to ridiculous amounts of shame,,,, Yet, they did good. It's not an easy subject to debate in public. The more conservative panel members seemed to imitate the authority that is present in moralistic adult contemporaries while the more liberal panel members spent most of their time in justification or being halfway apologetic. The panel did seem equal in terms of their ability to argue their own view. Unfortunately, the use of shame and guilt are necessary in regulating immature and uneducated, barbaric attitudes and as far as "red energy" or sex energy goes. I'm also reminded of Ken Wilber saying in regard to the male of our species in connection to when red energy is prevalent.- "Fuck it and kill it run close together".

Tami Simon interviews Robert Anton Wilson. As a rogue student of the Diamond Approach and other Teachings, that I Am,,,,,Anton’s commentary goes all over the place. Activating the higher centers/chakras and referencing them in different ways made listening quite enjoyable.

Rodeo Clowns / Bull fighters Having been around cattle all my life. I appreciate the skill, athleticism and self sacrificing that rodeo clowns embody. Many other attributes as well. The roll they play at rodeos are crucial. Distracting the bull after the ride. Sometimes running along side and untwisting the rope when a rider has become entangled. That takes a lot of nerve/confidence! They’re adrenaline junkies in a category all their own! I’ve been watching sports that contain high levels of violence in the last year or so. Professional kick boxers and such,,, I like Mona Kimura’s independent minded approach to kick boxing. I observe myself and see if I identify with some of the negativity that’s inherent at times anyway. In sports like this. It makes for some interesting self observation. Mixed in with it I catch my self deception at times,,, when certain aspects of myself start to feed on the passion of the violence.

Everything is/has vibration. What is not spiritual? Are 'so called' 'spiritual' perspectives/attitudes a necessary element in the life of an actualizer? I don't think it has to be. But often is and more often than not, becomes a stumbling block that some never get past or integrated. Spiritual materialism, Zen devil characteristics, false humility, self-righteous narrow mindedness. Every one of these descriptions triggers an associated realization labeling me as guilty. I view everyone else as being my equal, if not worse, in regard to various kinds of self-deception. Being identified with whatever it might be. Worldview, gender views, loyalty to family, the results of childhood cultural conditioning, etc. Actualizing human potentials that are connected more with survival and materialistic aims do not require one to move into the more abstract, philosophical, psycho-spiritual areas. Or however you want to name it. In my view, the psychological aspects such as integration and individuation are really at the heart of reaching an area beyond the built-in flaws that are a part of all human beings born today which also vary in aspects and degrees depending on race, subculture, that kind of thing,,,. I've avoided joining more advanced work groups like those of the Almaas Ridwhan school or Ken Wilbers' Integral community. Being on the fringe of some Gurdjieff groups or at times being a student of some of the different lineages seems to satisfy me for the time being. It was taught to me by one Fourth Way Teacher. "One has to make the Work your own" once it has moved into one's inner world in certain way. Maurice Nicoll- INNER TALKING III “In this Work you cannot go far with pleasing self-made pictures of your own nobility or value. When you begin to observe yourself deeply enough, these pictures, these fantasies, begin to change. You know that you yourself are just as bad or worse than the other person. Then I am quite sure from my own experience that a great deal of your inner talking will stop. You do not seek to justify yourself.” V. 2, p. 776 RESPONSIBILITY FOR NEGATIVE STATES “If you are in a negative state, it is always your own fault, from the Work point of view. No matter what happened, what someone said, what someone did, we have to become responsible for our negative states—ourselves. . .When you feel the presence of negative emotions in you, as a foreign substance, as acutely as a stomach-ache, then youwill seek, for your own reasons, to work on yourself and transform your inner state for your own inner health...But this takes many years and requires a certain inner courage, an inner bravery, an inner determination, until something new is born distinct from life.” V. 2, p. 695 ON ‘NOT FIXING’ “As long as you externally consider another person with a view to trying to change him or her—that is, as long as you think the other person should be different—you are not externally considering, but internally considering. The basis of internal considering is that others should be different, and from this comes ‘making accounts’ against others...One thing is quite certain, and that is that the more sincerely we observe ourselves and what is in us, the less smug we shall be. And from this it follows that we shall be less satisfied to think that we know what the other person should be like.” V. 1, pp. 268-9 THE FEELING OF NOTHINGNESS “When the Work says that a man must come to realize his own nothingness before he can be re-born, it does not mean that he must humble himself and so on, but that he must by long self-observation actually begin to realize that he is nothing and that there is no such person as himself. The object of this is to get into a position, psychologically speaking, between the opposites...Why is it so important to get somewhere into the centre of the pendulum and not swing to and fro? Because here, between the opposites, lie all the possibilities of growth. Here influences from higher levels can reach us. Here, in this place where one can feel one’s own nothingness (and where one is therefore free from contradictions), influences and meanings coming from higher centres, which have no contradictions, can be felt. Not regarding yourself as good or bad, not priding yourself on being just or otherwise, not thinking you are well-treated or badly-treated, not being caught by either movement through identifying, you come into this mid-position. This is not easy! With personality active, it is impossible.” V. 1, p. 329

There's no fault in not knowing if you're willing to investigate further. The reading and study can be tedious. It can be extremely boring unless you're truly curious and willing to investigate. Investigating the term ego. A bifurcation is immediately encountered making a distinction between the ego of spiritual literature and the ego as defined in psychoanalytic theory or developmental psychology. I enjoy the glossary found in A.H. Almaas' Diamond Approach. The Ridhwan School,,,, https://www.diamondapproach.org/glossary/alphabetical?alphabet=5 Confusion About the Term "Ego" Here we digress to point out a source of confusion about the term “ego.” Readers who know both the spiritual and psychological literatures will find the term freely used in both, but with no general agreement on what the term refers to. This ambiguity often leads to confusion. The literature on spiritual development, on essential or inner development, on all matters of religious concern, generally uses the term “ego” to mean something which is seen as the barrier to spiritual realization. The literature on depth psychology, however, uses the term with a very different meaning. The ego referred to by Freud, and which ego psychology studies, is not the ego which is the barrier to spiritual development. They are two different concepts. The psychoanalytic term “ego” refers, rather, to the functional self, which is the site, organizer, and coordinator of the functions of perception, memory, mobility, and so on. There is, however, a concept in depth psychology and ego psychology that coincides with the ego of spiritual literature: it is called the “ego-identity,” and is sometimes referred to as the sense of self, or the sense of identity. This sense of self or separate identity is the main concern of ego developmental theory. This identity is, in fact, the acme, the most important outcome of ego development. It is ultimately the organizing center of the psychic apparatus. This psychic apparatus includes as one of its units the Freudian ego. In other words, the Freudian ego is part of the mind, is a structure or a structured process in it, while the self is a sense of identity and a center of action. The exact sense in which the ego identity is a barrier to spiritual development will become clear in later chapters. The Void, pg. 9 Interdependence Between Ego and Being To know that one is Being, which is not within the realm of images, is such a subtle understanding that it seems impossible for a child to have this knowledge. Enlightenment must wait for the maturity of perception, discrimination and understanding, since it depends on self knowledge. These capacities depend upon concepts. We can say then that ego is needed for enlightenment, since the beginning of conceptualization in childhood is inextricably linked with the development of the ego. So first the ego, which is needed for knowledge and functioning, develops; then the capacity for discriminating knowledge, among other things, leads to the dissolution of the ego. The final result is the life of Being, including the development of functioning within the realm of Being. This interdependence between ego and Being can also be seen in the process of inner metabolism. Ego on its own cannot complete the metabolism of experience and hence cannot bring about complete human development; Being is needed for this process to take place. On the other hand, Being cannot accomplish on its own the whole process of metabolism; it cannot dislodge ego when ego is defensive. From the perspective of the mind, Being can be resisted easily with a slight movement of ego; thus ego must first cooperate by relinquishing its defensive posture. Pearl Beyond Price, pg. 167 Have a nice day and stuff Enjoy yourself and all Being too serious is slow suicide The bumper sticker - Mean people suck,,, - Seems like a paradox to me.

Meaning You will come to your senses and discover yourself, when you finally and forever abandon self-pity and self-criticism. by Arnold Keyserling Truth Only that truth which is recognized by all can become a fellow-being. You should grow up around your grievous mistakes like a tree, and let them be, until one day they become a part of your strength, and they no longer hinder your ascent. Thinking is a force, feeling leads to new motivations. Remain receptive to both and truth will become attainable. Truth is that knowledge which becomes one with being. You will become one with being when all of your burdens and loves, objects and fears, sorrows and joys have found their place in the whole. by Arnold Keyserling An article by Ralph Losey regarding Integration and Individuation. A favorite of mine. I recommend to anyone who is interested in Actualizing their potential. https://schoolofwisdomcom.wordpress.com/laws-of-wisdom/the-problem-of-the-subtle-sybil-effect/

Dualistic thinking is an intrinsic part of being a human being/doing/being. What is knowing? The value of its result is self-evident. As most always, I awoke this morning as a walking dead person. In an ascending octave. "I" as "it" leapt out of my grave. The Automaton became a crow in peacock feathers. A persona to examine the world with. Accumulating incoming impressions consciously. This coats the Astral body. This is solar coating. Intentionality is required. The ability to direct one's attention consciously. Represented as the Kings in playing cards. The speed of this function is slower than Queens and Jacks; feeling and mechanical centers. blah, blah blah. Lunar coating is unconscious living as an unguided projectile or perhaps as an unguided Golum (Lord of the Rings character). We all have this pendulum on which we ride and awake and fall asleep to different degrees. 24/7 365 in our annual trip around Sol. The practical side of Zen manifests the idea and execution of a controlled accident. Growing up in a challenging environment produces something similar. Others self-deception seems to be more readily visible than one's own. It's an invisible something that can be used as a mirror to self observe one's own nature Through subjective analysis, good and bad bifurcates quickly and often reverses course, of course.

In the category of Synthetic Telepathy, Gang Stalking, Targeted Individuals or abuses in programs of Intelligence Agencies such as MK Ultra. The first videos give a good introduction. The last video is just 23 minutes. Attn. Moderators- This could/ should also go in the forum category concerning mental health issues because its effects are psychological and phenomena-logical hypothetically producing artificial schizophrenia essentially. I’m interested in the responses this might get. Private message me if you feel the need to communicate about this.

D I’m going to post these on the forum to see if there is much interest. Will probably have opinions and comments on this topic at some point.

Chocolate chip cookies and chicken for breakfast this morning. Utilizing what’s conveniently accessible as foodstuffs. Open-mindedness, flexibility, persistence and determination are qualities that I combine to utilize when ordinary discipline has been abandoned. Add to this a good dose of light heartedness and I’m prepared to face the world. Reminder to myself,,,,, Discern sensing from feeling. Put the mind in the heart so there’s a possibility of understanding others point of view. Throughout the day sense the physicality of the feet and lower legs to stay grounded in the body and away from being trapped in the mind with too much neurotic thinking. People will challenge you for different reasons. A part of them needs you to be patient for the benefit of everyone. This is alchemy. It’s often hot in the kitchen,,,, Have a nice day.

Drummer Frank Beard flew the coop to another Dimension