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When I was in my early twenties (I’m 35 now) I remember told myself I didn’t want to live a life in which I didn’t know what cocaine was like. I wanted to try all the drugs. So I tried about all the “mainstream” ones. Coke, heroin, LSD, MDMA, meth, mushrooms, ketamine, DMT and some others as well. Ultimately while I’m grateful for my path and the experiences I’ve had, when I look back I absolutely think I could have done without the drugs. They gave me life experience and taught me things but there are so, so many better and healthy ways to learn about life. If you really cannot help it, at least be extremely safe, test your stuff, don’t take too much. But honestly, it’s not worth it.

I was once in your shoes. So desperately wanting something, anything, that would end the search, that would give me answers, that would be the “thing to end all things”. I was willing to do whatever it took. I tried the psychedelics, the therapies, the healing retreats, the meditation—for 15 years I was searching. I hear the desperation in your voice. I got so desperate that I tried the only thing I hadn’t tried all those years: sincerely praying to Jesus and asking him to show me the truth. So on the other side of all that I can tell you you that the only thing who can truly satisfy the human soul is the one who created it.

God tells us many times in the Bible how important wisdom and understanding is. These are not silly questions. God tells us wisdom is the principal thing, and with all of our getting, to get understanding. Proverbs 4:7. He also tells us that if we seek, we will find. Matthew 7:7. That’s his promise to us. If we want the truth bad enough, we will find it Good luck on your journey!

@Monster EnergyThat’s a good question and it’s not one I have the answer to. It does seem like, if God is so big and powerful why does he need a gender? And there are certain answers I could come up with that may provide some explanation. I think too, why wouldn’t he have a gender? Look at our world and see how powerful gender is in life. If we are made in God’s image as the Bible says we are, that to me says gender is something meaningful.

When I was 22 I sat in my first Vipassana retreat. At that point I had taken psychedelics a fair amount of times, during which I had encounters with what I thought was divine light (God). After the meditation retreat in which I had an awakening, I officially set foot on a spiritual path. I became obsessed with finding out what the answer to the mystery was. Fueled by plenty of psychedelics, therapies, healing retreats, etc. I thought I was getting closer and closer to finding the answers and healing I knew deep in my soul was possible. But with the high of finding out some new truth and thinking I finally got it, came a new layer of questions and going back to the drawing board. I so deeply wanted to find myself, to find peace, to feel spiritually satisfied. I knew this was possible because I had caught glimpses of this on my 14 year spiritual journey. But toward the end I was scattered, lost, confused. I had opened myself up to dark spirits and could no longer fight them off with the things I had learned on the path. Jesus was my last resort. He saved me from the evil I was involving myself in. He put my soul back together. He healed my depression and suicidal thoughts. He showed me how to enjoy life again. A spiritual path without Jesus is one of highs and lows that ultimately leads you worse off than when you started. And you don’t even realize it’s happening because it’s masked as love and light. But when he pulls you out you can finally look back and thank him for everything he’s done

Like it literally was God’s will they were healed

You want to go cold turkey? Or you still want to be able to use it? I feel like if you’re determined enough to go cold turkey you could do it and not use it at all. But if you still want access to it, it’s a little more challenging because yeah you’re stepping foot into the river and it’s hard not to get wet. So I bought a Brick device, which means I can lock my phone out from certain apps indefinitely, unless I have the tool to unlock it next to me. That really helps. And I also have two more buffers on Instagram. One of them kicks me out after I’ve been on for 15 minutes and the other one makes me take a breath and sets a time limit for me. This addiction is a challenging one, you basically have to be very determined. Also if you have a higher power that helped me a lot.

Haha can you imagine if a white person said that about “black people shit”

Well, you wouldn’t just dump your emotions on an adult would you? Children are humans too I think we forget that.

I believe that this exaggeration of emotions is done to (unconsciously) get more of a response back from the child. Since children are young they are taking everything in very acutely and they often don’t respond how adults think they should. Often times this looks like a blank stare from the child or some other response that to us seems socially unacceptable but really, it’s because the child is processing everything you’ve just said.

Do you think this is something I pulled out of my ass? (said with love)

Saying that everything is love makes sense in the physical world, but what about the spiritual world? There's a war between good and evil going on. A clear distinction. If it were all good there wouldn't be such a hard line between the two.

@theleelajoker You know the question: why dos God allow suffering? Is one of the biggest questions to ask and I’ll be honest, I still wonder about it. One of the things I think is: would it be perfectly loving and just to stop all suffering right now?

There are certainly times when drama stops instantly! But it is certain to come back. I don’t subscribe to a lot of the beliefs that circulate on here.