winterknight

I am enlightened. Sincere seekers: ask me anything

3,060 posts in this topic

2 minutes ago, Sashaj said:

It could be. I am afraid to let me ego run wild due to conditioning ie ego is bad and all that

Yes, sounds like your "ego is bad" conditioning has now in your case become the ego.

Quote

 

My last breakthrough came after extreme existential pain. Maybe I feel like I need the same pain to take me back to the peace that I felt last year?

 

Could be. It wasn't your pain, it was probably the fact that it forced you to let go.

Just now, Sashaj said:

I am feeling better now. Something must have cleared, for now

Thank you @winterknight, @DrewNows

Good. Since you mention being conflicted, I'd strongly recommend considering psychoanalytic psychotherapy (I've done it myself for many years, and it is useful for all seekers; it's different from just generic therapy). It specializes in helping move forward from inner conflict.

I see you're in Sydney. I'd suggest contacting the Winn Clinic and asking for a referral.


Website/book/one-on-one spiritual guidance: Sifting to the Truth: A New Map to the Self

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

@winterknight Wow i really got something when you said that instead of inquiring on the I feeling one could also "drop thoughts"

I did juste a bit of self inquiry a few months ago, got some glimses of the I feeling in the begining but fast wasn't able to self-inquire well becasue my mind was not focused enough (I think)

Although I feel like I can relatively well "drop thoughts" (for a brief moment at least, depending on how active is my mind) by just puting will on it, it's kind of weird like i'm pressing a switch mentally, and even not really like that, kind of feel more like dropping something mentally

 

Besides that, I feel like overall in all my meditation practices (I do vipassana meditation and kriya yoga mainly now), the point that is always holding me back or hurting my progress/result is that I have trouble staying focus to a decent level, so for example if I would sit for 1 hour and meditate (in any way), less than half of that time would be let's say half-focused on the 'practice' , meaning not just lost in thoughts, and in that 50% of the one hour, also less than half or a quarter of the time would be actually fully focused (not just half focused) on the 'practice'

What do you think about that and how you think I should go about it ?

Edited by Jordan94

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
6 hours ago, Jordan94 said:

by just puting will on it, it's kind of weird like i'm pressing a switch mentally, and even not really like that, kind of feel more like dropping something mentally

Sometimes I've found that button to press to turn off thoughts and that metaphor is really the best way to describe it. It's something you train.

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
7 hours ago, Jordan94 said:

@winterknight Wow i really got something when you said that instead of inquiring on the I feeling one could also "drop thoughts"

I did juste a bit of self inquiry a few months ago, got some glimses of the I feeling in the begining but fast wasn't able to self-inquire well becasue my mind was not focused enough (I think)

Although I feel like I can relatively well "drop thoughts" (for a brief moment at least, depending on how active is my mind) by just puting will on it, it's kind of weird like i'm pressing a switch mentally, and even not really like that, kind of feel more like dropping something mentally

 

Besides that, I feel like overall in all my meditation practices (I do vipassana meditation and kriya yoga mainly now), the point that is always holding me back or hurting my progress/result is that I have trouble staying focus to a decent level, so for example if I would sit for 1 hour and meditate (in any way), less than half of that time would be let's say half-focused on the 'practice' , meaning not just lost in thoughts, and in that 50% of the one hour, also less than half or a quarter of the time would be actually fully focused (not just half focused) on the 'practice'

What do you think about that and how you think I should go about it ?

Well, the bulk of not being able to concentrate often comes down to unresolved emotional issues. Looking at the rest of your life, are you being honest about what you want and pursuing it? Psychoanalytic therapy can be very helpful for this.

What is the nature of your distracting feelings? Are there any recurring ones? Pay attention to your emotions.


Website/book/one-on-one spiritual guidance: Sifting to the Truth: A New Map to the Self

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

@winterknight @winterknight

(missclick) 

I'm asking you as a human, not as a seeker, as he is part of Brahma. Feel free to skip whatever you want. 

1.What are some shadows, on which you're working?

2. What is your opinion on the subtle and casual dimensions of existence - the yogi "kosha"s;

3. Have you had mystical experiences in which an infinite shift of perspective happens (e. g from a global systemic view to it suddenly turning towards the very essence of samsara and creation (in the form of the ego))?

4. Do you intellectually serve Spirit? (an intellectual expression of spirituality) 

 

btw thanks a lot. some of your previous responses were part of my journey - the psychoanalysis advice directed me to shaking of the duality of spirituality - samsara (aka I freely evolve) 

Edited by Ero

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
10 minutes ago, Ero said:

@winterknight @winterknight

(missclick) 

I'm asking you as a human, not as a seeker, as he is part of Brahma. Feel free to skip whatever you want. 

1.What are some shadows, on which you're working?

2. What is your opinion on the subtle and casual dimensions of existence - the yogi "kosha"s;

3. Have you had mystical experiences in which an infinite shift of perspective happens (e. g from a global systemic view to it suddenly turning towards the very essence of samsara and creation (in the form of the ego))?

4. Do you intellectually serve Spirit? (an intellectual expression of spirituality) 

 

btw thanks a lot. some of your previous responses were part of my journey - the psychoanalysis advice directed me to shaking of the duality of spirituality - samsara (aka I freely evolve) 

For #s 1 and 4: these questions are based one way or another on an egoic perspective. That may be necessary for certain contexts, but in the abstract these kinds of questions don’t really make sense, and I don’t think they’re particularly helpful for seekers. The answers are misleading. 

Take this idea of “as a human.” A human is a concept, and it is not true. A “shadow” is another not true concept. So you’re asking “from a perspective that is incoherent and false, what is the answer to this question whose terms don’t make sense?” 

Again, there are certain times that game could be played, and it might be fun to play it, but I don’t think it’s a service to seekers to do that here. Gives them false expectations.

That’s why I generally shy away from talking about “my” experience and path. 

For 2: the koshas are all false, useful only to be discriminated away as “not the true I.”

For 3: I don’t know what you mean. There is nothing “in the form of ego” actually. 


Website/book/one-on-one spiritual guidance: Sifting to the Truth: A New Map to the Self

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

@winterknight @winterknight

Yes, those are mirages. By "asking you as human" I meant exactly playing the game of shadows on the wall. From the view of the egoic self. Language by definition is a concept, but using it doesn't stain or hurt Brahma, of which one is always aware. If I look more deeply, they will vanish as shapes of smoke - I have a constant feeling of their texture/essence. I was asking within samsara. Within the manifastation of "winterknight" :D. I respect your choice. 

Thx ❤️

 

Edited by Ero

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
1 hour ago, Ero said:

@winterknight @winterknight

Yes, those are mirages. By "asking you as human" I meant exactly playing the game of shadows on the wall. From the view of the egoic self. Language by definition is a concept, but using it doesn't stain or hurt Brahma, of which one is always aware. If I look more deeply, they will vanish as shapes of smoke - I have a constant feeling of their texture/essence. I was asking within samsara. Within the manifastation of "winterknight" :D. I respect your choice. 

Thx ❤️

 

The difficulty, of course, is that there cannot be said to be any game of shadows on the wall. There are no mirages, no "within samsara," no "view of the egoic self," no manifestation of winterknight, and therefore no "choice" of winterknight to either play that game or not. :)


Website/book/one-on-one spiritual guidance: Sifting to the Truth: A New Map to the Self

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

If I accept the idea that I am already enlightened and I'm satisfied with that, am I being ignorant or wise?

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
12 minutes ago, ryuzaki said:

If I accept the idea that I am already enlightened and I'm satisfied with that, am I being ignorant or wise?

Wise if you accept this idea as a way of living that will help you burn away your ignorance; ignorant if you believe that this is by itself the end of your efforts.


Website/book/one-on-one spiritual guidance: Sifting to the Truth: A New Map to the Self

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

I've had lots of awakening experiences, I know It can't be called an experience, but anyway it's better to describe this way. Sometimes it will be hours without random thoughts appearing, a complete stillness and emptiness, all the questions vanish, because there's no one to ask questions anyway, but eventually, I fall asleep again (the ego comes back). It has happened lots of times already, and I ask you, why do you think it is not permanent yet ?

* I don't do any practices anymore.

Edited by Dumb Enlightened

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
2 hours ago, Dumb Enlightened said:

I've had lots of awakening experiences, I know It can't be called an experience, but anyway it's better to describe this way. Sometimes it will be hours without random thoughts appearing, a complete stillness and emptiness, all the questions vanish, because there's no one to ask questions anyway, but eventually, I fall asleep again (the ego comes back). It has happened lots of times already, and I ask you, why do you think it is not permanent yet ?

* I don't do any practices anymore.

You’ve answered your own question at the end. Experiences are not enough. You need practices to return your mind to them in the waking state over and over. Otherwise your latent tendencies will re-arise. 


Website/book/one-on-one spiritual guidance: Sifting to the Truth: A New Map to the Self

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
14 hours ago, winterknight said:

You’ve answered your own question at the end. Experiences are not enough. You need practices to return your mind to them in the waking state over and over. Otherwise your latent tendencies will re-arise. 

Well, the only practice I do, I don't know if I can call it practice, is trying to be aware of all the thoughts all day long. At the beginning it requires a lot of effort, but sometime during the day the unconscious thoughts stop, and this "state" of being (completely aware) arises, without any effort anymore. But then after some time, I go back to "sleep".

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
2 hours ago, Dumb Enlightened said:

Well, the only practice I do, I don't know if I can call it practice, is trying to be aware of all the thoughts all day long. At the beginning it requires a lot of effort, but sometime during the day the unconscious thoughts stop, and this "state" of being (completely aware) arises, without any effort anymore. But then after some time, I go back to "sleep".

This is a good start, but you go back to "sleep" because you are not getting to the root of the problem. You need to investigate the "I" that "wakes up" and which "goes back to sleep."

So try self-inquiry all day long. And more broadly, follow the path.


Website/book/one-on-one spiritual guidance: Sifting to the Truth: A New Map to the Self

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

If I keep meditating for one hour a day and take psychedelics from time to time, will I obtain and maintain enlightenment?

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
30 minutes ago, CreamCat said:

If I keep meditating for one hour a day and take psychedelics from time to time, will I obtain and maintain enlightenment?

No.

The question comes from a lack of basic understanding about the meaning of enlightenment.

Enlightenment is not really something to be "obtained." You are enlightened already; the goal is simply to remove the obstacles to seeing that.

Meditating an hour a day is not enough. Your very nature is meditation: the point is to realize that. To do that, you will have to direct your search for longer and longer periods of time -- you will have to meditate while you are doing every other task in your life. A waking meditation of continuous self-inquiry.

You need to educate yourself: follow these links and do a lot of reading

Edited by winterknight

Website/book/one-on-one spiritual guidance: Sifting to the Truth: A New Map to the Self

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites
51 minutes ago, CreamCat said:

If I keep meditating for one hour a day and take psychedelics from time to time, will I obtain and maintain enlightenment?

If you go deep enough, you can't not meditate every single second of your life.

And that would still not be enlightenment lol

Edited by Shin

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure
- Marianne Williamson

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

the indivisable is being this is where my self-inquiry has led me. at all times you are nothingness itself. its like the whole point of enlightenment is to reliquish your doership or seperate self

true or false?

i'm not actually looking for an answer, there is nobody who is asking the question. i just wanted to express my excitement and so i hope you can engage in a brace the question with the full might of your being. and express it in which ever way you feel like you can express it, with your being. 

like the jello lol, it was a good expression of it. you are inside the jello, but you can not see how you are it. 

Edited by Aakash

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

@winterknight I've read your post about being honest with myself...then I started realizing what I really wanted all the time. It may sound weird, but I've always wanted to be successful with picking up girls. 

After 2 years of trying, I gave up a few years ago. I'm still doubting if that would be a good activity to follow, but I just can't help thinking about it...

Share this post


Link to post
Share on other sites

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!


Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.


Sign In Now