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Probably because the average person has an average psychology and circumstances so it isn’t so bad for them to consider suicide. And they’re attached to their average life so bad times are like passing clouds that dont shake that solid foundation and if it does it’s only temporary. I don’t think the average person is particularly “strong” so it’s a bit mysterious to me if they don’t consider suicide when things get really bad but I’m guessing it’s that attachment to their “life”(everything that is considered in having a “life) that’s one of the reasons. And having problems that have solutions. Also there’s a big difference between just having suicidal thoughts and vs going the length of actually trying to kill yourself so I’ve had a lot of suicidal thoughts but I’ve never attempted Yea those things are usually what cause people to suffer Yea you covered the most basic things with your reply. I’d agree

Notice that you are the one bringing this suicide talk to actualized.org right now. Not the other way around. You are inventing this black & white moral interpretation that either the devilry, slavery & suffering ends or you kills yourself. Why?

That’s deep. In this case, valuing survival & fantasy over truth shouldn’t be judged as a moral failing of some sort. In a sense, Jail breaking the mind is a good thing only to those who desire it. Truth would indeed look like suicide from a POV that has no desire for it. Desire/bias very much drives our values, how we act on those values and how we judge our actions (actions of others).

The alternative is to do what? Kill myself so that I no longer inflict slavery towards other beings? Someone said sometime ago that Actualized.org teachings are suicidal. And I couldn't agree more. All this talk you guys do creates suicide as the only alternative to end all this devilry and slavery and suffering! Honestly, suicide is the only alternative if I'd follow your reasoning and bias. I die and I no longer kill a chicken to feed myself, I die so that I no longer provoke suffering towards other beings and so on. I'd suggest Leo, and everyone else on this forum to check yourselves before you speak. Raising animals ain't no slavery. The alternative is to starve to death. You have no clue of that because all you do is go to the supermarket when hungry.

@Bobby_2021 yeah lol long time .. and I just saw the full thing, there's just too much evidence to conclude that this is not suicide, likely a murder of some kind .. I think its def more than vibes although yeah the vibes suggest murder as well lol .. Its just so hard to believe a company like OpenAI would do that. It seems she has a lot more investigating to do, so maybe we'll get our answer soon.

Normal people don't think about killing themselves. If life sucks, it just sucks; suicide is not their solution or a path they ever see themselves taking. Real suicidal thoughts aren't as widespread as you think they are. You see it as a constant option, someone next to you has never considered it. If you're suicidal, you're probably missing some very foundational qualities of life, like 1. romantic and friendly relationships, 2. mental and physical health, and 3. a sense of direction and purpose, to say the least. Other reasons might include being stuck in a hole you or someone else put you in, like trauma, learned helplessness, and stress. Ultimately, you have to solve your issue head-on if possible. It doesn't help to give yourself some long-winded reason for what the cause of your depression is; you need to be specific. When I was majorly depressed about 5-6 years ago, it was because of a girl, and I didn't want to admit it to myself. I had a months-long feeling of sadness and an absence of desire for any activities, which is what depression is.

@Bobby_2021 what's up man, about to watch this .. you really think its a murder? What frustrates me sometimes is not being able to figure out what is true and what is false. I listened to 5 minutes so far, and the mother seems very well versed in these matters, and it definitely doesn't make sense about the suicide (no suicide note, super accomplished dude) .. but why in the world would Open AI have him taken out? Just doesn't seem convincing. Not sure

Haha that's good ,me too. I was thinking that maybe committing suicide is stupid. If karma has dealt you a bitter pill, swallow it. Reality is the whole package, we have to open our heart to everything, understand that it is part of the path, integrate it and place ourself on a higher level. It is possible.

I'm working on a compilation of fallacies, tactics, and phrases that leftists use to defend their ideology. Here are some patterns I have detected. *** #1 - The Iron Man Fallacy This isn't a formal fallacy. It's not a term used by academics. But it essentially means that one is distorting their own argument, or an ally's argument, to make it sound more reasonable than it actually is. Example #1: Brie Larson: "If you're a white male and you didn't like this movie, your opinion doesn't matter!" Critic: "That's both racist and sexist". Defender: "Brie Larson isn't being racist or sexist. She is expressing concern over the fact that in the movie industry, there is insufficient representation of females and ethnic minorities within movie critic communities. Not only that, she is explaining how white males aren't the target audience of this movie. Each movie has a specific target audience, that's how marketing works. It is perfectly expected that if you are a white male, you didn't enjoy that movie." Essentially, you can be an ass, as long as you're coming from a woke position, and someone will defend you and portray your argument as reasonable and fair. Example #2: Professor Flowers: "I literally want all whites to be deported from the places they invaded. The USA belongs to the natives, not to whites. Same with Africa." Critic: "That's very racist, toxic, and hateful". Defender: "Professor Flowers isn't racist. She's a black activist! She fights for equality of race. And she is criticising the issue of colonialism. To this very day, third world countries suffer from it. And ethnic minorities suffer in first world countries. A lot of the injustices are inherited, for instance descendents of slaves. To this day, there is a lot of racism and she is proposing a solution for the issue which involves separatism." Doesn't matter if you're white, poor, working at Mcdonald's. If you happen to have been born in USA, your entire family should be deported. You disgusting white! Example #3: Feminist scholar: "I literally hate men. I believe toxic masculinity is a trait universal to all men. I have studied Feminism for years and I know what I'm talking about. I literally believe that in order to be a true feminist, a woman should never have sex with men. And women should always look at society from the perspective that their are the oppressed and that all men are oppressors." Critic: "That's sexist, hateful, and very reductive. I don't think all men are toxic." Defender: "This person is an academic! What degrees do you have in Feminist studies? This person is highlighting the SYSTEMIC - not individual - oppression caused by men. She isn't saying that literally every individual man is evil. She's just pointing out the ways in which men benefit in society and women still have issues to be resolved. She isn't saying all men are toxic. She's saying that toxic masculinity is INHERENT to men. Only men have toxic masculinity, not women. You're misrepresenting that scholar's ideas." *** #2 - The Association Fallacy This is the notion that whatever some idea or argument is associated with is more important than the argument itself. Example #1: Critic: "I agree with Elon Musk that free speech is important and that anti hate speech laws are going too far." Leftist: "What? You agree with Elon Musk? The multi billionair egomaniac who is supporting Trump?" This one is obvious. Both the content and the structure of the argument are associated with the evil right. Example #2: Critic: "I went to a Jordan Peterson lecture in person last year. I enjoyed it. He gave some good life advice on how to gain self esteem and find meaning and satisfaction with the work you do." Leftist: "You like Jordan Peterson? The Alt Right guy? Don't tell me you're an incel or something". This one actually happened to me. And in case you're curious, Peterson spent 99% of the lecture talking about psychology and self help. He only spent like 2 or 3 minutes at the very end talking about the woke stuff. But of course, because Peterson is associated with Ben Shapiro, the right wing, and all that, it means he's Satan himself. And everything he does and says is evil and stupid and wrong. *** #3 - Applied Scientism™ Scientism is basically a misapplication and/or a reductive way to approach truth, as though only science and rigorous academic scientific methods are applicable to discover truth. Example #1: Critic: "I'm concerned about young men. I feel young men are feeling confused and frustrated nowadays. People in my social circle, my younger brother, young men online, I see a lot of young men experiencing depression and anger issues." Leftist: "What's your scientific peer reviewed literature on the topic? Your social circle? Pfft how unscientific of you. That's a very small sample. Do you want to look at these statistics I found from a Feminist book on why men in general have life a lot easier than women?" So it doesn't matter if there's evidence. It doesn't matter if you have lived experiences. Direct evidence. It doesn't matter if you have anecdotal evidence. It doesn't matter any kind of evidence. The only evidence that matters is peer reviewed, from Harvard, from the Sociology or Feminist department. If you give them evidence, but that comes from a psychology author who "isn't an expert in social psychology", then it's invalid. Because if you go against the narrative in any way, you need 100% quantifiable, peer reviewed, double blind experiments. Even if you give evidence (say, statistics on male suicide) it will always be nitpicked. "Oh you're applying a lot of interpretation from this data. You can't infer this from these statistics". So it doesn't matter, the excuses are endless. Meanwhile, if there's one single study that says trans women don't have advantage in women's sports, to them that's enough. One study on puberty blockers. One study on DEI. One study or one statistic for this thing they agree with, in that case it's not worth questioning it too much. *** This is going to be quite the long list. What about you? Do you have a favorite leftist fallacy or phrase?

Thanks Sorry youre going through that. But hey according to the Tao guy pain isn’t suffering so if we could just somehow stop suffering the pain😹 Suicidal thoughts are like a cope. I remember having at least once suicidal thoughts when younger but nothing serious . Now it’s more serious It can be weirdly comforting to think of suicide. But I try to maintain a strong mindset as I said and it works sometimes.

Sorry to hear that. Me too recently i have this chronic fatigue and chronic pain and caught a flu or something two weeks ago and since then the pain got much worse. And then suicidal thoughts just come up often. But for me the funny thing is that was always my go to. Whenever i suffer i think of death and not wanting to be here. Like when i was 9 some stuff in my family happened and this horrible kid bullied me at school and then i basically threatened the school with suicide already at 9. But so far it has never really come very close. I just want an exit strategy.

I am still young and working through my unique developmental deficiencies and human problems, and i am dedicated to going all the way spiritually. It is such a long process, because the foundation needs to be solid. I have been watching Leo for about 8 years. I found out about spirituality 10 years ago. I'm just getting started. Recently i've spent time with Ayahuasca people. They are so full of self deception it's crazy! If it were not for (mostly) Leo's videos i would've been sucked into cults, gotten into horrible relationships, would've gotten deep into debilitating addiction, or even suicide. As much as i love advanced metaphysics, practical videos are welcome and essential, imo.

I don’t feel like that for my situation. I think about suicide all the time. I don’t wanna live like this. I feel so weak

I'd probably rather get castrated, have my eyes gouged out, have my ears cut off or something than commit suicide. It would be a terrible disappointment, the ultimate humiliation. Once again in my software.

Something I think about sometimes is what keeps people going through adversity. And about maintaining a strong mindset. This past year has been the worst in my life, and I have been having regular suicidal thoughts. Sometimes it’s so bad I’ll have suicidal thoughts from the morning I wake up until I go to sleep pretty much. I have like two sides of me. One that has some strength to keep pushing forward, and another that is “weak” , has no strength and wants to end my life. I don’t even wanna call it weak, I see it more as a reasonable reaction to the circumstances I’m in which I won’t go into here because it’s too weird even for this forum. Maintaining a “strong” mindset is so hard and I feel it doesn’t last long until it crumbles. What I mean by a strong mindset is a mindset that makes you persevere through adversity. The opposite would be a mindset that wants to end your life instead of persevering through the adversity. I manage to maintain this “strong” mindset for a little while, then it always crumbles and I’m back in suicidal thinking. And so it goes, oscillating between the two. I have wondered to myself what keeps other people going through adversity instead of ending it or at least thinking of ending it. I hear of cases worse than what I’m currently in wondering how those people keep going while I can barely stand my own situation right now. I have some theories. 1. Attachments. I feel peoples attachments could keep them going. For example being attached to their own family, and not wanting them to suffer if they die. This is something I lack, I’m not attached to anyone so no person is a reason for me to keep going. 2. Other attachments. I wonder if people have a kind of attachment to life itself. Or to themselves. They are attached to living, to being a person that is a part of the world, being a part of society. They have a “life” in the conventional sense, having friends, hobbies, partners, interests and they are attached to experiencing these things. 3. Good mental health. When people are dealing with physical pain but have good mental health then their good mental health is like a good foundation they stand on and the physical pain is something that bothers this good foundation but not enough so it crumbles and as long as they are able to maintain good mental health it’s a good enough foundation that gives them a reason to keep living. 4. Having a reason to go through the pain. Sometimes great pain comes from something great. So for example if a woman is giving birth and is in great pain, her reason for keeping going is that she will have a wonderful baby out of it. Also if someone has had a surgery and are in great pain their reason is that they are in the healing process. 5. Attachment to self image. Im going to use David Goggins as an example here. He has this desire to be “the baddest motherfucker” that is a self image he desires to have, and having this self image entails he preserves through adversity and in his extreme case ever PUTS HIMSELF through adversity (the extreme training) . So he needs to do those things to maintain this self image he has created for himself that he is attached to. He is even afraid of not achieving this greatness, of being old and not having reached his full potential. His case is extreme, but I’ve seen some cases of people having this self image of being “tough” and being attached to this image so this keeping them persevering through adversity. I don’t have this as I don’t have a desire to be “tough”. 6. Knowing it’s temporary. This one is a bit difficult for me to swallow. Some things for me are too unbearable to go through even if they are only temporary. So I’m having a hard time seeing how someone could have this as a reason to keep persevering. Because when something is horrible time slows down and it feels like forever. That is a very strong mindset to have, this mindset of it only being temporary. In my case I feel the only reason I’m alive today is that my situation hasn’t become “bad enough”. I don’t have a reason to live, there is nothing that I love, there’s no self image I’m attached to , nor a person, or other things. I don’t know if I would wanna switch places with someone with a “stronger” mindset, or who has attachments, because I hear about these horrible things people go through and I know myself enough to know I would much rather die than go through that. For example there’s this disease called trigeminal neuralgia which causes horrific pain regularly. Many people with that disease commit suicide apparently, and I know myself enough to know I’d be one of them. I don’t really understand those who persevere through that, but I can imagine that some of the reasons I highlighted above could explain it a little. Hope you enjoyed reading. Thanks

55: What keeps people going through adversity? Maintaining a strong mindset. Something I think about sometimes is what keeps people going through adversity. And about maintaining a strong mindset. This past year has been the worst in my life, and I have been having regular suicidal thoughts. Sometimes it’s so bad I’ll have suicidal thoughts from the morning I wake up until I go to sleep pretty much. I have like two sides of me. One that has some strength to keep pushing forward, and another that is “weak” , has no strength and wants to end my life. I don’t even wanna call it weak, I see it more as a reasonable reaction to the circumstances I’m in which I won’t go into here because it’s too weird even for this forum. Maintaining a “strong” mindset is so hard and I feel it doesn’t last long until it crumbles. What I mean by a strong mindset is a mindset that makes you persevere through adversity. The opposite would be a mindset that wants to end your life instead of persevering through the adversity. I manage to maintain this “strong” mindset for a little while, then it always crumbles and I’m back in suicidal thinking. And so it goes, oscillating between the two. I have wondered to myself what keeps other people going through adversity instead of ending it or at least thinking of ending it. I hear of cases worse than what I’m currently in wondering how those people keep going while I can barely stand my own situation right now. I have some theories. 1. Attachments. I feel peoples attachments could keep them going. For example being attached to their own family, and not wanting them to suffer if they die. This is something I lack, I’m not attached to anyone so no person is a reason for me to keep going. 2. Other attachments. I wonder if people have a kind of attachment to life itself. Or to themselves. They are attached to living, to being a person that is a part of the world, being a part of society. They have a “life” in the conventional sense, having friends, hobbies, partners, interests and they are attached to experiencing these things. I don’t really have this that much, because most of the time I’m severely disconnected from myself so it’s like I almost don’t exist at all. 3. Good mental health. When people are dealing with physical pain but have good mental health then their good mental health is like a good foundation they stand on and the physical pain is something that bothers this good foundation but not enough so it crumbles and as long as they are able to maintain good mental health it’s a good enough foundation that gives them a reason to keep living. I don’t really have this because of a reason I described before. 3. Having a reason to go through the pain. Sometimes great pain comes from something great. So for example if a woman is giving birth and is in great pain, her reason for keeping going is that she will have a wonderful baby out of it. Also if someone has had a surgery and are in great pain their reason is that they are in the healing process. 4. Attachment to self image. Im going to use David Goggins as an example here. He has this desire to be “the baddest motherfucker” that is a self image he desires to have, and having this self image entails he preserves through adversity and in his extreme case ever PUTS HIMSELF through adversity (the extreme training) . So he needs to do those things to maintain this self image he has created for himself that he is attached to. He is even afraid of not achieving this greatness, of being old and not having reached his full potential. His case is extreme, but I’ve seen some cases of people having this self image of being “tough” and being attached to this image so this keeping them persevering through adversity. I don’t have this as I don’t have a desire to be “tough”. 5. Knowing it’s temporary. This one is a bit difficult for me to swallow. Some things for me are to unbearable to go through even if they are only temporary. So I’m having a hard time seeing how someone could have this as a reason to keep persevering. Because when something is horrible time slows down and it feels like forever. That is a very strong mindset to have, this mindset of it only being temporary. In my case I feel the only reason I’m alive today is that my situation hasn’t become “bad enough”. I don’t have a reason to live, there is nothing that I love, there’s no self image I’m attached to , nor a person, or other things. I don’t know if I would wanna switch places with someone with a “stronger” mindset, or who has attachments, because I hear about these horrible things people go through and I know myself enough to know I would much rather die than go through that. For example there’s this disease called trigeminal neuralgia which causes horrific pain regularly. Many people with that disease commit suicide apparently, and I know myself enough to know I’d be one of them. I don’t really understand those who persevere through that, but I can imagine that some of the reason I highlighted above could explain it a little. Hope you enjoyed reading. Thanks

I relate to this. I’ve been suicidal for the past year. I feel too weak to handle my existence. Sometimes I try to brute force it with a strong mindset and it lasts for a little while but not for long until I slip back down and feel weak again. A strong mindset can only hold up for so long until it crumbles again . Sometimes it’s so bad I’ll spend all day researching suicide methods and have suicidal thoughts from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep and feel like my whole being has given up on life. There’s like two sides of me, one with a little strength left to push myself further, and one that has completely given up on life and succumbed to the bad circumstances I’m in. So I oscillate between the two. But it’s hard.

@NoSelfSelf So the thing about Go is, that the rules are kind of simple. Play: Each player takes turns placing stones on the intersections on the board. Black begins. Stones dont move, they only can be removed by capture. The player that has sourrounded the most territory wins. Capture: If a stone is sourrounded by stones of the opponent, it is captured. A group of same colored stones that is connected vertically or horizontally (but not diagonally) shares their liberties, so the whole group has to be sourrounded to be captured. Captured stones are removed from the board, they add points to the score of territory. Players cannot commit suicide by placing a stone in a way that it is immediately captured. Ko: No stone may be played so as to recreate a former board position. End: Two consecutive passes end the game. Territory is counted by the number of empty intersections sourrounded by same colored stones. The great thing about that simplicity is, that it allows for a really high complexity. Especially of you play on a 19 by 19 board, there are literally infinite possibilites for stone positions. This makes it impossible to develope a strategy by simply analyzing possibilities. Yet, in a way, each move makes all the other stones on the board change context, so its not at all random.

2 and a half days clean from thc Well the day has come and the girl I was seeing moved to Spain . I'm not so upset about that, mostly I'm upset because in the days leading up to it I got needy and pushed her away. But, and this is the magical God part, I finally manifested a wing literally the day I pushed her away. This guy is the perfect role model, he's a natural whose been with more women than he can remember. His rizz is simply off the charts and I see my progress skyrocketing with him. but we also talked about real shit, and he revealed to me some of his problems, multiple suicide attempts. And it put things in perspective and helped me to realize that having game isn't as important as I think. Which of course will only make my game that much better because I have proof it isn't a panacea.

https://i.imgflip.com/9fmcge.gif I felt some bit of anxiety and frustration today from last night. My problems accumulating like dust on an old book. I have a long way to go and a long way into my emotional processing. One thing is to surround myself with supportive people and it is sometimes a struggle to maintain company between my problems, work, husband and family conflicts. It's like I'm stumbling and juggling at the same time. Some things are a part of life. You can't suddenly just get rid of them. Example - family. A toxic family is a huge drain. My husband knows this and understands this quite well. Some things I write about metaphorically. Because I like to be cryptic. Sometimes it's hard to be on the Internet. It can drain you a bit. I'm not saying it's a distraction - depends highly on how you use it. But it can take a life of its own and I don't think I'm alone in this boat. Generally for me to take up any project or work requires me to have an initial explosion of emotional barfing till I get it all off my chest. It's just how my neurotic brain works. Welcome. Lol. The internet has been amazing for my self esteem because I was dying in the dumps just rotting away not knowing when I will commit suicide. So the internet was a huge boon in regards to keeping me 1 minute away from suicide. Life was hard on me especially after my father died. It threw me into a downward spiral of depression because I intensely bonded with my father. I still deal with the loss and trauma of it. I hate when psychologists and therapists don't take this aspect of my life into consideration and treat it lightly. Sometimes you gotta ponder and ask yourself what is it that you want - do you want genuine company or do you want just validation for your own ego? That kind of contemplation helps. Some people can be mildly toxic, especially people who gossip a lot. They might appear harmless on top, that is from the outside but they kinda prove to be the gateway to more drama, like can openers (I hope you understand what I meant), I mean they appear to be completely innocent but not so innocent after all. They just gently push you over the cliff and then act like nothing really happened. You then wonder that they acted like starters of dispute. Like signalers. Usually gossipmongers think they are a smartass and tend to do this. Two years ago I told myself that I will never gossip again ever in life. That part of my moral and subtle integrity is perfect and intact. I never gossiped. Gossiping happens a lot in spiritual communities, what a shame. In that regard I like this thread. It helped me understand that others face similar issues. I also like this comment. Hmm well said there, I experienced this a lot, ever since I had my first awakening, I would observe and feel intense attraction coming from women, probably because I was more celibate at the time and not generating any sort of sexual need or energy, and yet at times when there was a potential union or mate, most would flee soon after, almost as if they were afraid of something so deep and intense. They rather continue to play with boys who aren't going to expose a lot of their shadows and darkness. They want the truth but only to a certain extent. I noticed this in spiritual circles a lot, everyone wants the perfect Christ-like man, yet they themselves are not christ-like. I like this sentence a lot. And it resonates with my thought. A lot of people in spiritual circles act like they are above everyone when they are not so Christ-like. Men can have commitment related issues. And women can have intimacy related issues. I noticed this. Women don't wish to open up and go deep suddenly. And it's perfectly understandable why. I myself feared going intense or deep with men. I had intimacy issues too. Like intimacy-phobic. I am getting better and better at opening up to my husband. But it takes some effort and time. Sometimes I just feel uncertain and aversion to opening up. Last night I opened up a shit ton with my husband, like two hours of communication. I must have exhausted him with my talk. Because it was so overwhelming for me, I had to get it off my chest and I did. And he appreciated that. This is the first time I opened up to him in such a deep vulnerable way. I really wanted to say what I genuinely felt, no holds barred. I'm in the mood to write a lot. A note to Whitney — If you carry a lot of emotional, mental and psychological baggage, this forum can feel like a thunderbolt of confusion. I'll describe in depth the honeymoon and relationship phase. If you appear selfish in a conversation, it's never gonna work. If you don't care about people's expectations, why even bother to talk to them. I have trust issues myself. I find it difficult to trust people so I don't open up much to internet strangers. If you come from a place of humility everyone appreciates it. Work on social calibration. Men should. Also women screen for woman-friendly or woman - safe behavior. This is valid. A woman's prime focus in many areas of life is safety. It's a key survival concern. I agree with Leo on this that people's behaviors are rooted in survival. I don't like to go too far into something if I'm not sure what I want to say. I don't want to jump the gun. Also strangers create an uncertainty in me which is valid. In fact most people have stranger phobia. According to me and my dating experience, men should work on four core things — woman-friendliness, social calibration, distance, comfort-space dynamic [creating a comfort space as well as giving space or room, Teal Swan explains this beautifully with her male containment video. I'll post about it later because I'm in the process of writing this post so I can't exit the screen while doing this] I don't want to be a free therapist to anyone lol. In fact I'm the one who needs therapy the most. Understand healthy narcissism. I need to integrate that a bit. Emerald on the forum once told me that I lack masculinity and that I need to integrate the masculine into me. And she is right and I absolutely agree with her. I always bring my microscopic radar out. I think my husband overthinks a bit too. If I like someone and really appreciate them, I want to have a very honest relationship with them, like anyone male or female. I want to keep it as authentic as possible. I'm more vulnerable when I know deep down I can fully trust that person and they will honor my needs.. Often I have acted like a doormat in my life and I want to discontinue that pattern.

I don’t agree with this statement. I think it’s been put out there far too long by the left. It’s difficult to measure something like this. What makes life easier or harder? If we are talking about economic mobility at a certain point in time, sure. Other than that it’s hard to keep tally on everything each person faces considering society is made up of individuals. Young white men have reported some of the highest levels of suicide and depression. I would not call that an easier life. And then the left thinks we want to vote for them after drilling and propagating this notion for decades. Times change. This is not exactly true anymore. Everyone faces challenges in different areas of life.

I'm grateful for your graciousness in trying to understand women's issues so thanks for opening such a sensitive issue that is rarely discussed. A better relationship with period is quite difficult. I have heard a lot of men resent their girlfriends or wives when they're on their period. An empathetic approach might help. Understanding why some women act hostile and aggressive on period days might help. The aggression comes from experiencing constant physical pain and that pain leads to a low mood, extra sensitivity and mild to severe aggression. It varies a lot among women. Some women are quite lucky if their period is painless. I wish I had that luck. Thanks for trying to understand. However this is not the case with most men. They cannot be patient around their girlfriends on their periods. I understand the frustration. Men want the picture perfect girlfriend or wife and I wish life was that beautiful for us women to be able to give that happiness, joy and perfection to men too. Reality comes in the way though. Mother nature perhaps wanted it that way. I don't expect men to understand much because it's beyond their scope unless they have to experience it themselves. So I get the anger a man might feel if his girl is acting weird on her period. I don't know why I feel aggression towards men on my period. They didn't cause it. But maybe it's some form of envy that men don't have to suffer like this. Or that female sexuality exists to pleasure men. Sometimes I wonder if my life would be great if I were born a man. Then I wouldn't need to suffer physical pain. Also the aggression could be a biological response as in resistance to sex, so converted to resistance to men. Because sex and men are attached in the female psyche as much as sex and women are correlated in the male psyche. I mean I have heard men hate women if they don't wanna have sex with them. Let's say they don't want to submit to sex or feel some aversion to it and a woman begins to grind on them, I think the man is going to hate her for doing that because he is resisting the idea of sex in his mind so he doesn't want the temptation. Probably something similar happens in the female psyche when she doesn't want or need sex, she wants to be resistant to it, in turn she might be resistant to male attention or male glances or attempts to flirt with her. This is how I can best explain the aggression felt against men. Because sex needs equal participation and when that's not the case, the attraction can feel stolen, if you get my idea. I don't think a man will ever understand it. I don't even expect him too. In this sense I have empathy for men because it cannot be imposed on to them to understand something that they never had to experience. I similarly do not comprehend male horniness either. So I don't blame men. And consequently, I don't find it fair to share such things with a man because it's really not his territory. Ironically a lot of women don't understand either especially if they didn't have painful periods themselves. Trust me on this. I had a lot of women shame me haha. They would say things like — it's just a period. It hurts when a woman does it. Slut shaming and period shaming is done 100× more by women than men. If I wear a sexy dress, it will be a woman who will point it out first that there's a problem with it. I remember my sister thrashing and beating me when I was on my period laying in bed. I kept screaming in pain and she violently dragged me out. That was also my first suicide attempt because I was in unbearable pain. My mom confessed to me one day that my grandmother did not even teach her period hygiene. All that aside. I generally look up to women who are more sympathetic and kind and who give me the sense of true company. So they don't judge and offer a shoulder. In this sense my husband has been my biggest blessing. He almost acts like a nurse on my period, always gives me space and speaks comforting words to make me feel better. That's a great gift. I wish all boyfriends and husbands would do that. I appreciate you being supportive. My periods are very regular, almost to a perfection. There's something (I don't know if there exists a medical term for this) like an anticipatory anxiety that I experience with every period, right before the period, I know the date when it's approaching, so my body begins to tighten up or tense up a bit in anticipation and my mind gets nervous knowing it would be coming. I think women have a lot of period related anxiety, especially women who suffer difficult periods, these anxieties can be about the length of the period, socially embarrassing situations (hard to express this one but I have this fear that my clothes might get stained in public and the anticipatory anxiety of this embarrassing situation makes me avoid public outing on my period so I cancel doctor's appointments or events in advance.) I canceled many of my zumba classes before my period just out of fear of not being able to attend due to the stain problem. So there's that. A lot of men don't understand that women wish to stay absent on their period days and they assume it to be an excuse. I hate it when it's misconstrued like that. It's also partially women's fault too, because women make it sound like a taboo when such things are discussed openly. There is no disgust in explaining things that need to be understood especially by the opposite gender. Men shame this as well. I recently saw a thread in which I read this on this forum Overly feminist people. Too much of gender equality related content. Too many of shorts in which people are saving girls. Too many of sex and periods related talks using the excuse, "we are progressives", "we are liberals", "we are a cool generation ". I guess that's the difference between eastern and western men. Eastern men consider it a taboo to discuss period related stuff. Not trying to attack the user but just trying to make a point. In Eastern cultures, female sexuality is suppressed very badly and anything related to sex, women, period is shamed and tabooed. It's definitely progressive to openly discuss such topics and there's no shame or taboo or overly feministic about it. So such opposition of feminism is quite regressive Yea with time it gives me an idea when to expect my period. As well as what to expect. They have a strong correlation to how women react to sexual urges toward men at least in my perspective. I can't account for all women. But if you are asking for my individual opinion then my sexuality is definitely tied to how I feel hormonally. I'm grateful you opened this topic. Very few men care to understand the woman side of things so cheers for being the man to take the lead. Thanks to you too.

- Prior to the first intifada the population was so passive to the constant abuse that israel barely used anyone to guard it, when they finally reacted in the first intifada israel responded with mass violence, that is when Hamas was formed and when the terror increase. That’s like saying if I am beating you and you hit me back if I start stabbing you it’s your fault. https://btselem.org/statistics/first_intifada_tables These are the casualties of the first intifada, note the amount of Israelis killed by Palestinians in the first and second year compared to the amount of Palestinians killed. - Then why are there hundreds of thousands of settlers in the west bank if they want to give it back? And the settlements increased under liberal Zionist administrations. Even the two state deals offered by Israel, aside from their many other issues, required leaving settlement blocks. - They haven’t done a suicide bombing in years (prior to the attempted one after Oct 7) and hamas was expelled from the West Bank, yet the situation just gets worse. - The Arab peace initiative was offered and still is, and Israel rejected it.

2025 January 1st - A tower, a spire, red and yellow ball creatures. Bad portent as "The Tower" tarot card, but more towards neutrality or positivity in potential. Year of upheaval and yellow (caution) and red (danger) thoughtforms in the collective psyche. A painting on a house, owned by a 'doctor' (possibly a negatively oriented Carl Jung) and a Minecraft pig. This suggests a message about what Leo calls epistemic pigs or an intelligence of malfeasance manipulating this New Year's day. A cardinal, representative of flight but also of the Catholic Church and rigidity, which will be a side character such as Squidward from Spongebob. Bubbles, jellyfish, Sandy, Spongebob. Significance of this day is that it is like a reef under water representative of the subconscious, leading to fields and rainbows of potential but with blackbirds portentous of trickery. Celebration and potentiality backdrop context for the upcoming year, characters preparing with this context as background. January 2nd - Black bird, yellow bird, birdbox, nails, camp, summercamp, temporal hyper-interconnection, eternity, The Sun, baby, wealth, happy. Geopolitical events related to money, religion, and Cairo. Trump will say something related to death, red for blood and box for coffins. Fixation on possibility of war negative but overall positive, like Snape. Accuracy of war possibility not happening associated with positive vibrations and well-built, but with minimally good objects, accuracy of it happening associated with aesthetically acceptable men with boots, but mostly paucity. Car crash deadly. Incidents related to Twitter, Bluesky, and SCOTUS. January 3rd - Piracy, crime, sex crimes, kinks, Michelle Wu (mayor of Boston), mountains, rivers, Mulan (androgyny?), buildings, family, chastisement, specific events related to frugalness of economy (so high spending but low prices or high prices and low spending), lions, girls dressed as lions, girl dressed as lion saying "I have a lot of money" where money is a metaphor for subtle energy expenditure, lions represent bravery and beauty / decorativeness. January 4th - Darker day, leadup to Jan 6. Trump on phone, making aggressive or neutrally confused call. Picnic on one hand. One woman and one male as well as me and one other person have some cosmic and planetary importance. There is a dark manipulator behind the scenes even as people try to use positivity as a context for the upcoming event-perspectives. The manipulator is associated with snakes. Leo will disbelieve the prophecy but believe as he reads on. It is too much for it to simply be random. It needs symbolic associative significance. January 5th - Pyramid shaped mountains. Suggesting energetic working upon Iran. Weakening of the IRGC. Ali's inevitable conversion to intuitive sufiism. Iran on path to become social democracy by 2050. On this day mountains of evidence of this inevitability or necessity in 89,000,000 Iranians. January 6th - Earth pleasurably massaged (like a prostate). Orion constellation triangle-shaped craft. Desert. Function. Nickelodeon playing frequencies that hush. Ra Egyptian related to human sexuality. Manipulator may be related to kundalini or root chakra. Images associated with manipulator: Trump, Vaush, my parrot, Jar-Jar, assassinated IRGC General Soleimani and assassinated Hamas leader Soleimani. On January 6th earth has special cosmic alignment, blackness behind sun, green happy and gleeful snake emerging from it. Word for certification of the vote: "Orionic". Big yellow bird, associated with ending of infinite intelligence descending into Israel on this day. No terrorist attack attempted on this day, though significant tension over possibility in collective zeitgeist. Small gathering outside Capitol. January 7th - White snakes. Fourth density positive birds. Snakes, juvenile playthings of gods. Swords. River running with blood, suggesting sexual connotation rather than literal violence. Extreme wealth and sexuality on this day for earth. January 8th - Darkness sopping. From Ukraine-Russia. Crayons suggesting creative diversity of events besides that. Trump losing weight, checking weight on scale to prolong lifespan and reign. The nature of the manipulator is a fourth density being, Gonzo from The Muppets (mental image form), which has attached itself to Trump, to me and my thoughts or paranoia, and through various emanations to the world. The only way to stop it is through violence against it, red (color of grounding and root chakra), purple (color of higher consciousness and unity and sight), mixtures of these colors, the root chakra and the chakra above the head. January 9th - Hot, heat, Ripley and Noot from Aliens, screaming, xenomorphs, attack, reality system difference or divergence, Trump embarrassed but not so too too much less emboldened by reality, manipulator has been on earth for 64+ years, manipulator has morbid associations with reptiles in relation to death and stagnation and unencumbered darkness, high-vibration birds and electromagnetic highness are "concluding" counterbalance. January 10th - Basket of naan. I will probably eat Indian food that day. January 11th - Road, operation of "the devil" entity from my dream, phallic imagery. Dark day for the world. Emergence of warring entities upon the earth (attempt deflected). Entities that are so evil it's impossible for them to physically exist; that level of negativity could not physically have a body or be compatible with our physical reality. January 12th - "sick" January 13th - Ra, good guys hiding undercover, like Lando at Jabba's Palace. Manipulator in silly ridiculous form. January 14th - Good guys infighting. January 15th - Patterns and habits continue much as usual across the globe. Dark aliens energize and power above the glove but don't do and can't do and don't know about doing much. Progress with Iran and The White House in preparation for Trump. January 16th - Actualized.org becomes bastion of beauty. Randomness in relation to entities, needs extrication from bad reality systems and uptick towards beauty, protecting beautiful entities from poor environments, beautifying environments and entities. January 17th - Squirrels, representative of vital beings and parasite and buggers from the nervous world or the astral plane, clowns like cotton candy, rainbow curly hair, rainbow suggesting LGBTQ renewal in face of mockery or adversity, bridge to vital world, vital buggers stale tickets, meaning, meaning changes according to retrocausality and which year the meaning is selected according to. Trickster archetype. Anakin saying, "You underestimate my [WOER AAAAAAA" January 18th - Joaquin Phoenix shutting his eyes in scientological-esque auditing. Joaquin is symbol of actor, good actor, where good acting is realistic replication of personal and situational energy patterns. Negative side he retreats inward (shutting eyes situation). Positive side he exists in action-laden and -upcoming situation but with "conclusion" of sexual assault (a la Joker Volie a Deaux) leading down into the negative path (eyes shut). This transforms extreme energy and meaning to the negative path, extreme power. This is related to the archetype across the world in the form the trickster [or joker, if you will]. January 19th - As to whether Luigi would get jury nullification, image of shovels and spades. As to no, large pyramids. This is a contrast of local small tools moving versus nonlocal large tools stationary. Clarification: He will not get jury nullification. Likely will get mistrial, due to intensity of probability in meaning. Jan 19th melting glittery furnace light and lava. January 20th - Luigi will not be assaulted in prison, as this is not a full repeat of Volie a Deaux, or Volie a Deaux is not a direct oracular comparison, Luigi is more positive and Arthur Fleck is more negative. Jan 20ths curtains, theater, the show beginning, people in seats, Thomas Campbell physicist appears on JRE, Trump inaugurated, experiments with crystals continue above the earth. Infinite intelligence having casually restarted descending into Israel slows before stopping when Trump touches the Bible. January 21st - Obnoxious Trump speech, incompetent bumbling, nonsensical ineffectual transition as all competent people file out or do nothing. High schoolers' lives continue with new background. Image of soup with eyeballs, suggesting "Kronos" the Greek god eating eggs and sperm (eyeballs = eggs, soup = sperm). Humorous. I really can't figure out what that means either. It suggests a corruption or ridiculous-ification of reproduction and production in society due to Trump corrupting the human race's context (for the next four years). Positive souls make positive humorous use of it. Manipulator less powerful than deviations from truth due to Trump. There are two bowls of soup, a larger one for those who either duped or sardonically-satirically accept the nonsense and a smaller more sensible one for those who don't, who are serious and can't really handle it that much. January 22nd - Crucified Columbia angel. Recognition of Trump's foolishness sets in. January 23rd - Goldengate Bridge, represents suicide. January 24th - Looting, theft, burglary themes. January 25th - Trashy angels, clock, alarm clock, improvised biological alarm clock, injections and veins, RFK Jr., melting, Big Ben, Uri Geller telekinesis and foolishness, Uri Geller telekinesis despite delusional belief in Trump, grassy knolls, teletubbies (media?), The Sun. Connection to 2017. January 26th - Telekinesis, telekinetic practitioners, tele-whatever hills, telepathy and telekinesis baked right into the environment of a specific location in Himalayas. January 27th - Croc or alligator on Trump golf course. January 28th - Swimming pool seemingly abandoned but clean. January 29th - Trophy on end of pencil presented to girl for academic achievement. January 30th - Teen suicide, overdoses. January 31st - Candace Owens, pervertry, stupidity, goldengate zero (cosmic intelligence).

@Tristan12 You are probably the type who likes to overthink. Don't worry so much. You will probably be able to survive with the resources you have. Just be disciplined and do the work required. One purpose of doing meditation is actually to bring back control of your mind. The mind seems to overthink a lot. You can try to drown yourself with work or activities. The other way is to gain back control of your mind. If you think about it, people who committed suicide are mostly people who have lost control of their mind. Stop overthinking. Another way is to practice letting go.