Beans

My brain hurts. Make love not war. And if you’re asexual I can offer a firm handshake or a hug.

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I’m sorry for stonewalling you. For not saying how I felt and shutting down. I didn’t realize how much more damage I’m doing. By not just being straightforward with you. Regardless of what happens. I want you to know how much I care about you, and genuinely love you. And how grateful I am for you and your family for coming into my life. Life is so difficult. And at the end of the day we’re human. Bound to make a million mistakes/happy accidents all throughout our life. Thanks for celebrating my 22nd birthday with me in such a special way. Thank you for always being here for me when I lost my cat, thank you for being here for me when I was homeless. Thank you for loving me. And for teaching me a different world out here.

It really really hurts, when you say hurtful things. When you’re frustrated. Especially in really vulnerable moments. Or even when I’m trying to be supportive. It still cuts very deep. It’s so difficult to even mention my feelings or to say anything when I am terrified our conversation will explode and then we go down the rabbit hole of our arguments. And then comments are made about no longer wanting to be with me. Or comments like having fantasies of others. I don’t say how I feel to guilt trip you. I say how I feel, because I want you to know how it’s effecting me. And why it’s effecting me. In moments like those. I feel subhuman. Like literally garbage. Like an idiot. In moments like those haunt me. And subconsciously in the back of my mind. A part of my brain devours it and says “I told you so.”

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Things that made Joy laugh MY UVULA IS ON FIRE - Ken Jeong TOO LOUD - Beans the tv was loud and so was beans srry thanks for being understanding we also had a similar situation just prior to this one

Joy was covering their face and I was wondering why, but as they get into bed suddenly their icy cold feet were on top of mine as I squirm around and do my best to hide my feet from them joy quickly placed their cold feet onto my back. I accepted defeat and we burst out laughing. Joy had a confession the reason why their phone was against their mouth was because of the huge grin behind the phone. Now if I would’ve seen that smile I would’ve knew instantly what they’re going to do. Moments like these are my favorite, once joy finally told me their grand plan I couldn’t stop laughing. I love you

I don’t give a damn

Hehe not ur inconsistencies silly identigo’s mistakes and bringing frustration into our home

I think your frustration is valid. Completely valid. People as you’ll continue to learn about are majority of the time inconsistent. Both in professional settings and personal settings. I do understand the importance this holds for you. I am excited for your progression with your name change, and I hope you’ll forgive me when my brain has its fill with the legality talks, and practices. In the future we’ll update my legal name change, however it’s not cheap at all. So for now we’re trying to be more aware of our finances. And taking our time with the process. One at a time. I love you. Thanks for allowing me to be on this journey with you

I had a headache with the complications coming from everything plus your perfectionism.Trying to have patience for what you’re going through. Sometimes I can feel your intense anxiety and frustration. I get tired of trying to be both understanding and to accept my boundaries of limitations when I’m feeling overwhelmed.

He looks like he has chlamydia

Five times virtually five more times irl (in real life) with the actual uno cards i am an uno God

._. He’s not welcomed here

This is factual