Beans

The ketamine trip was so interesting my brain wanted to understand what was going on so bad. it was very analytical and very observant my brain felt so dark and when the ketamine hit it was like my brain started seeing colors very slowly almost like a computer turning on for the first time it was a great experience and I’d suggest everyone to try it

Nervous

Tomorrow will be my first time ever taking ketamine

https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/cj9r0eyw0jno.amp Ice has murdered Americans, wrongfully detained them, etc. all it takes is a simple google search. Trump had also killed innocent fishermen in Venezuela, bombing other countries randomly. he’s a fat lazy slob who can’t do shit, but ruin things. May all oppressed countries liberate themselves.

The files must be that bad it’s been 13 days since Congress has pushed to release the files and yet nothing for 13 days

Trump has bombed seven countries without congressional approval this is illegal watching the murder of innocent people like a television show whats stopping him from murdering innocent Americans who oppose him??

I was talking to Yimpa about this yesterday how there’s a big disagreement with Leo for me and his teachings. and partly is a huge reason why I don’t really feel connected to actualize I kind of feel like an odd piece in a sea of spiritual lovers. Recently Leo has been talking about disconnecting from love, yourself, God, etc etc. Though I believe in embracing your culture, because it has spiritual significance, in every culture. That it connects you into a spiritual realm. I only know of this, because of my culture. And because I am Mexican American. I believe you cannot get to point A without point b which is understanding your human form, healing, and advancing into true enlightenment. Sure you can have a glimmer of enlightenment, but you cannot and must not ignore the source and core. I wish I could describe my findings better, but I cant I hope with ketamine I’m able to explain better. my advice is to heal, and nurture your soul and wounds. there you’ll find the answers and light you are seeking.

But I can see in Elon a baby literally a child like innocence and it’s strange, because both sides of him exist. as a child, and as a “functional” adult. though to me I see more of the child aspect through him in videos, his speech, etc. and I think that’s why in some aspect I did love Elon. I can relate to the child like innocence. I can relate to having autism. I can relate to the love of space and the universe. Etc I admire him for awhile before he took his dark maga turn. I had hopes for his career and potential. disappointing.

Kind of hate how I have such a soft spot in my heart. When I think of homicidal leaders and imagine them as babies. What they must’ve gone through. I can’t help but to have empathy for their baby selves. Not that their trauma excuses the behavior. I don’t think monsters amongst humans are born i I think they’re created, enabled, etc throughout their childhood. the dark reality is anyone can be a Trump, Elon, Netanyahu, Hitler, etc though you have to choose not to be not to be cruel to others, not to lie maliciously to gain whatever, not to manipulate for your own selfish reasons, not to steal, not to abuse, not to sexual violate others, not to murder others, not to be genocidal etc, etc, etc In the end the story ends all the same. they know their days are numbered and just before they’re captured they kill themselves. I wouldn’t doubt Elon or Donald would do that. Even Netanyahu. Before they can be held accountable they’ll even try to escape that through death.

LOOVE I also crochet

My twin sister has bad postpartum right now. I called her up to check on her and I asked her what’s wrong. Almost immediately she began tearing up. Which made me want to cry. Healing twin powers 🤍

This was my attempt of playful teasing

Good morning everyone Yimpa’s breathe stinks right now