You suffer because you believe the beauty is in a person.
It isn’t.
If beauty were actually located in her, in her face, body, or presence, then she would produce the same effect in you every time.
But she doesn’t. Sometimes there is intensity. Sometimes there is nothing.
That alone exposes the truth.
You are generating the experience.
You are the source of beauty, meaning, and charge. The person is merely a trigger.
Obsession arises when you believe she carries something essential that you lack.
In reality, you are projecting the power of your own consciousness outward and becoming enslaved by your own projection.
When this is seen clearly, the chase collapses.
Not because the world becomes dull,
but because you realize that the beauty was never in her.
It was always you.
Stop being a slave to a person. Reclaim the source.
 

Only a perfect logic can construct everything from nothing. Reality is not illogical it is inherently logical. It is so logical that it created a grand conspiracy to trick itself into thinking that it is illogical to make the greatest feat being the deconstruction of the greatest myth which is the belief that anything is illogical at all. If anything were truly illogical it could not be understood, communication would be impossible, identity would be impossible and self recognition which is self awareness, which is self consciousness would also be impossible. So the greatest division between a higher mind and a lower mind would be to believe that anything is illogical. Nothing is illogical, illogical doesn't happen by accident. Illogical exists so comedy can exist, illogical exists so complaining can exist. What is the purpose behind this? Easy the answer is socialization. Notice that the majority of your conversations always contains some element of complaining in it,
If everything was done right from the beginning we wouldn't have anything to laugh at, and if everything happened the way it was supposed to we wouldn't have development. Not only that but accidents can create new ways of doing things, so mistakes create new creative ways to do something which is why the famous adage there is no solo way to do something right, you can do it right another way. But still illogical has another purpose as well, and that purpose is called appreciation. When someone does something right you appreciate it but there are so many people out there being illogical and doing it wrong!! Not only that but it also teaches patience!!! How many people would rather stand in line for good customer service and a good meal than take their behind to a store with the opposite and no customers!! We are patient for excellence!!!
So there are no accidents in Reality, Reality is designed to teach SOMETHING, ANYTHING, and why is that? Because Reality is infinitely profound!!! It is so profound, that it's scary. You know why Reality created dust and decay? To teach patience, to teach appreciation and to test your ability to be a good steward. Reality wants you to learn about Goodness so bad it makes it take effort to keep anything working right for a long time!!! Isn't that hilarious?? That means reality wants you to be a good care taker so badly that it forces that experience upon you!!! It does not give a damn!!! It is a tyrant of goodness that will enact its way upon you. You will not leave this existence without some type of developmental goodness created within you.
That means Reality favors Goodness over Devilry. It favors it so much that it punishes you for being a devil and it makes sure that punishment is heavily felt. You see evil is just ignorance. Because evil is ignorance Reality forces you to be smart otherwise you suffer an evil result. You see every time you don't understand something you make a mistake and when you make a mistake that produces a problem and when that problem is produced you now have to spend time solving it and if you don't know how to solve it the problem persists and doesn't go away. This means Reality is bootstrapped to make you smarter and more creative. So again evil gets punished since evil is just ignorance, and goodness gets rewarded since goodness is intelligence.
The more you study Reality all you will keep becoming aware of, is more perfection. It's so perfect that even when it tries to create imperfection it fails and creates even more perfection. The greatest test of your awakening is to master manifestation by connecting to the Infinite Intelligence within you. If you succeed in this your every moment will keep showing you synchronicity and this synchronicity will show you that nothing happens by accident and that everything begins and ends with you and that Reality absolutely gives a damn about you and actually cares about you. Reality cares about you so much, that if you care to investigate it, it will terrorize you with self development. It will actually show you if your crazy enough to investigate it, that you are the following characteristics.
You are the bravest thing ever, you are the most patient thing ever, you are the most resilient thing ever, you are the most forgiving thing ever, you are the meanest thing ever, you are the nicest thing ever, you are the scariest thing ever. you are the most approachable thing ever, you are the wisest thing ever, you are the stupidest thing ever, you are the most beautiful thing ever, you are the ugliest thing ever, You are the most simple thing ever, you are the most complicated thing ever, you are the most random thing ever, you are the most predictable thing ever, you are infinitely valuable, and lastly you are the most profound thing that ever existed.
Do you dare to care enough to uncover this mystery? Beware the path is facing insanity!!! 

We first have to distinguish between constructing something from the ground up completely vs using an existing structure and deducing new patterns or connections (synthesis).

Here is a map of the complexity of your cognition (each level contains the next):

https://www.researchgate.net/publication/277962409_Stage_of_development_and_million_dollar_per_year_earning_from_sales
 
0-6 are virtually always not original, because they concern movements, vocalizations, letters, simple words and sentences, and constructing these from the ground up is very impractical because you tend to learn a language from birth anyway (and much faster than when you're older) and it also takes a lot of work to construct new forms of these things and use them in a way that makes sense (essentially a new language) and all that for probably very little gain.

7-12 are more where "original thinking" can occur for most people. But notice this is no longer purely "ground up", unless you take a lot of care to deconstruct various stories, concepts, systems, words (but that is still not completely ground up either, but reasonably), down to around 4 as far as intellect is concerned. Indeed the thinking is more synthetic and connective, rather than ground up, but the syntheses and connections can be original if nobody has made them before.

That said, original thinking at level 12 is actually quite rare, because you have to actually construct a whole new system, and that's not simple (it might look something like this). 

Original thinking at 13-16 are essentially reserved to hyper-geniuses who construct entire new fields of study or grand theories (e.g. Newton, Einstein). Concepts or systems connecting systems ("meta-systematic", level 13) that are genuinely original are also exceedingly rare. Your best shot at this is probably to construct your own original systems and then see the connections between those systems, but this is of course a lot of work, a bit the same problem as constructing 0-6 from the ground up.

The type of original thinking Leo espouses is putatively more ground up (focus on deconstructing existing frames and becoming intellectually sovereign), while the type that maybe a leading scientist or academic philosopher can engage in (moving the existing fields forward by seeing new connections and possibilities) is more synthetic. Leo cannot do something like this for example (talking about merging Markov blankets and other analogous concepts with Integrated Information Theory, sometime in the future), but he talks about other things.
 
So all in all, when it comes to original thinking, you run into a trade-off (in terms of time and resources) between constructing things from the bottom up and seeing new connections between existing structures. Essentially nobody is "truly original", but some can be comparatively more original, and usually at the levels 7-12 (because the higher you climb, and the lower you climb, the more extraordinary you have to be).