WonderSeeker

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  1. Hey y'all. My brother is 'partially truthful, but very absolutistic' in his worldview at SD stage green values (Cook-Greuter individualist stage); this is often referred to as "regressive Green" by Ken Wilber and Integral life. He is leaning towards Marx a bit exclusively. There seems to be no getting through to him no matter what advice I try to give him about growing yourself (logic), or even when I offer emotional understanding (empathy). Even when I put an arm around him and tell him how proud I am (he does have some strengths), he will appear uplifted, temporarily. I existentially accept my brother's attitude toward life, but still I'd rather see him not blaming "the corporate class" as a limiting belief to the promised land, but instead simply contributing his gifts. As of now he doesn't hold jobs for long and plays the victim and displays anger (in the Peter Ralston "feeling incapable" and "I will shut y'all out" ways). He's 20. I'm not in a panic: I think issue could turn around out long-term. However, if he's going to correct this so he can develop cleanly and integrally, I want to take part in giving him a hand. What do you all think about this? Have you helped regressive green see things differently before? I'm curious about how you can get to someone. Thank you
  2. Deal actualized audience, Try this little science experiment and see what happens: Goal: Go Meta on the forum. Deconstruct the forum. Notice how you use the forum. Notice how others are using it. Ask: "How often do I use the forum?" Ask "Is this really helping me develop?" Ask "Is the forum a distraction?" Ask "Am I using the forum wisely?" Ask: "Does arguing on the forum--even if you are 'right'--serve anybody?" Ask: "Am I using this forum to avoid learning real social skills?" Ask: "Am I adding value to the forum?" (Ah, here's a good one!) You probably assume that being on this forum helps you. But is this true? How are you using this forum? Notice how you resist taking up the idea of questioning what you're doing on the forum, let alone what the forum is. Qualifying note: I'm not implying that the forum is an 'evil' or all doo-doo. Your answers to these questions should be more nuanced than that. --------------------- One thing that I've become keenly aware of over the past couple of years in this community is just how much people are trying to ape Leo's life and be just like Leo. Nothing wrong with having a role model, but can't you see how this is a giant trap? Figure out your life in your own way, cross-referencing your unique capacities, preferences, and values with some of the great models that Leo has shared. Too many of us are going for the golden fruit of Awakening too soon. It seems to me that a lot of you are absorbing what Leo says as concrete facts to be stored away in your mental store-bin as a new paradigm to which you judge all other views. This is not real learning and understanding. Can't you see how this will fuck up your aspirations in a hurry? Even worse, it will distort what you think is worth while pursuing. It's a self-defeating strategy. (I know because I lived from this trap--albeit to only a minor degree, thankfully--for about a year.) This is your reminder to work on the lower-half of Maslow's hierarchy first! Even that will give you some satisfaction, as surprising as it sounds. A fellow fool, jp
  3. @Husseinisdoingfine Work on the lower half of Maslow's hierarchy for now.
  4. Core feeling: I am becoming more egoic through spiritual work. OR, could it actually be that I'm becoming more aware of ego, and therefore more able to dis-identify with it because now I see it? Or are the practices are back-firing somehow, causing egotism? I think over the long haul, the ego is very slowing peeling away, but I still go through what appear as spells of ego-mania! I feel ignorant in this whole thing in spite of all of the insights and wisdom. I've been contemplating this for over a year on and off and still have not a clue. (I have a hunch that it's a matter of timing and that I don't have enough 'data' to know.) I've been using binaural beats for one year and did a year of daily traditional meditation before that. I feel like I'm seeing more ugly in me than even in my life and I don't want to negatively influence others with it. That said, I've also had moments where I've genuinely helped others and felt grounded within my being too. It just all feels very polarized. Cheers
  5. Hope you had a happy time writing all that
  6. @flume Wow, inspiring! The habit-trackers and rituals made me laugh...they are quite fun but really do look insane after a while. After about 2 years, I'm slowly experiencing the 'becoming a kid again' aspect too. Letting-go and not being too serious about the work is so counter-intuitive because it looks counter-productive to the work itself. Cheers!
  7. @Husseinisdoingfine Look here, you've gotta do what's right for you. After watching Leo for a couple years, I've come to realize that not everything he says/does is suitable for me. If you like meditation and other classical techniques and they bear fruit, then keep on keeping on! Don't let Leo stop you, lol. Listen to your intuition. For me, I meditated daily for 14 months straight and then stopped because the insights and emotions labor got too heavy. So I switched to binaural beats for about a year. Now I'm considering jumping back into sitting as it seriously helped my mindfulness skills while I was doing it. To me, you cannot build serious mindfulness/concentration skills using psychedelics. Psychedelics will take you further, but they won't automatically grant you skills that other techniques can. Just my take. Still a noobie for the most part.
  8. Has anybody read this enneagram book? If so, in what ways did it change your life? I've become a personality type junkie in the past few weeks and just got this in the mail. Ken Wilber has spoken highly of it. Just flipping through the pages I can see tooooonnnns of models which turns me on. Cheers~
  9. @museumoftrees Cutting away excessive screen-time is a mid- to long-term process. It's not going to happen overnight. Perhaps keep a personal log of how many hours per day you consume media. After a week or two you will discover an average. Slowly bring that average time down day-by-day until you reach a level that's healthy. But hey, if you are truly into entertainment in a way that is related to a potential life-purpose, then find a way to use what you are consuming rather than watching passively or in a neurotic way. Another piece of advice is to sit down and contemplate why you want to: Oh and of course, change is difficult and painful. This surface unhappiness you are experiencing is actually a sign that you're doing the right thing. If you feel at a deep level in your intuition that removing distractions is right for you but it stings on the outside, is is still the overall right thing to do. Don't let surface reactions fool you! Cheers~ ^ This too. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a0B_StY__Bg&t=772s
  10. Cykaaaa's "Hierarchy of distraction" What is growth to you? I agree, the forum can be used in more conscious or less conscious ways. But still you're talking about the forum paradigm. You don't necessarily need the forum because you can grow faster doing other things. @PurpleTree @ted73104 Bingo. A better way to frame it is like this: Working with teachers/mentors who are more conscious than you grows you faster than the forum alone. Working with coaches who are conscious makes your desire to come to the forum on a regular basis dissolve; you don't really need it if what you're after is growth.
  11. Not everyone will be into this, but it was pretty cool to find music that really brings in spirituality and psychedelics hardcore. The album as a whole reminds me of the hero's journey: start in ignorance, get thrown off balance, search for answers, get knocked down, realize it was you all along, become the grounded motherfucker you already are. Dark beauty at its finest. Three songs in particular are stunning to me. The first is track 3: Metacine. This one is an effort to reconcile decades of black torment with our current spiritual crisis and looking to shamanism/psychedelics for answers. Track 7: 4D, to me is basically a first-person perspective railing against one's own ego. Track 14: Aquamane is the grounded track. After going through the trials and tribulations of some spiritual purification, you come out the other end with scars, but also a stable groundedness. Just remember gems -- musical ones or otherwise -- are formed and found where the sun don't shine. Artist interview: https://www.passionweiss.com/2020/05/27/hindsight-20-20-is-very-psychic-an-interview-with-zeroh/
  12. You come here to grow. Yet, the less time you spend here, the more you'll grow. Visiting this place is nice because it's inspiring to see fellow actualizers going after it and sharing. But in the end, all of this adds another distraction to your mind and slows you down (even if just a little bit). Better to check out the forum here and there, without making it a crutch. Thoughts?
  13. @Vivaldo Yes because the way Leo presents is so blunt and sometimes emotionally disturbing for newbies. (Like it was for me. ) Most people won't take these ideas seriously (let alone do any growth) so it's a waste of time. The only way to share Actualized is to do it after slowly (over weeks and months) building-up a critical mass of interest in somebody who is already predisposed for this work. You don't need to share this channel per se. There are plenty of other teachers and books that talk about the same exact things.
  14. That's gonna be challenging! I stopped drinking over a year ago (never had a craving for it anyways). But recently I've picked it up just a little as it's impossible for me to keep up with drunk folk when out on the town. Literally all my friends do it so I've got no choice. Talking to a hyped-up drunk person is like trying to rap battle fuckin Eminem...you're on a totally different level.
  15. For me it's weed. I still smoke now and then, as it's a jarring way to alter consciousness. But anyways, for two years (Jr & Sr year of college) I smoked 5-6 days per week. After a year and a half of doing it intensely, I became disgusted by it. But I made friends over it, so giving it up took a clever strategy. In the end I was happy to go through the journey as it taught good lessons that eventually lead to self-actualization. In fact weening off weed was one of the first changes I made in Oct 2019 at the beginning of this work. Then came the spiritual rabbit hole starting in Feb 2020 just before COVID slammed us. I began to meditate a lot due to lockdown. Then became inspired to take a journey toward Truth--whatever the hell that is--at the year progressed. Then... Jan 2021: first glimpse of "nothing" on LSD (was terrified yet excited). Mar 2021: Sober awakening that lasted several moments. Since then I've been working with a coach on seduction/dating and showing up to the world in a more authentic way. To be honest this part of my life is more important than a direct spiritual path, even though I tried that. I can't speak for everyone, but I think this was Leo's best video yet. It addresses the human condition of being animalistic. I especially appreciate Leo's vulnerability and honesty about not being fully 'there' yet; I think sometimes we as students of self-actualization tend to delude ourselves into thinking that Leo is above it all, as silly as this sounds. Anyways, I burned through all of my weed. (Craving resolved!) What's a craving you've burned?