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Dibs on the audiobook narration 😉 🥸

Yikes 😬

I saw that haha it subconsciously lead me down the path towards watching that film last night and having an existential shock

My pleasure mate!

I'll check em all out cheers 🥸

Oh I forgot to mention I do have one very distinct personality that has mostly softened called Jimmy (my mates call him that) who is almost like the hedonistic, animalistic version of my baseline ego. He's verbose, vulgar and as equally as annoying as he is entertaining (from what I've been told, it's not fun actually being Jimmy). Jimmy has caused most of the problems in my life. Ironically, Jimmy is ME, I just hadn't integrated him. Now we're sort of at peace and I am no longer addicted to drugs (experientially, in my mind I feel like I am on drugs all the time and pursue sober activities that produce the feeling of drugs like rock climbing, playing music, writing, voice acting etc.) I am fairly certain that if I didn't actually discover psychedelics, this work and meditation I would have ended up as a criminal, homeless or worse.

I always related to this a lot as a kid:

Funnily enough I started watching Split last night and it was scarily close to home haha I've not seen the other one's.

We'd love to do it. I'm going to visit him in person and do a talk someday.

Infinity 🤓 jk, at this point in my life I have mostly stabilised into an amalgamation of all of them, but some days I slip into that of something different without even knowing it. There is a manic identity that sometimes emerges "randomly" (I don't think it is random but experientially it feels like that) but I have learnt to control/alleviate that through meditation. The other week I slipped into some strange identity that resulted in me walking through the forest naked in the middle of the night because it felt like what I had to be doing in the moment (something "normal" me would never do). This was all done consciously and I didn't disturb anyone. I have thankfully tapped into how to alleviate my DID by healthily channelling my various other identities that emerge, rather than suppressing them. Suppressing them is what has caused the bulk of of my suffering in life.

Really appreciated your latest blog post @Leo Gura it was especially illuminating to further understand my condition ✌️

Nibbas tryna gaslight me into not thinking I'm God n shiet 😔

Me too! Medical buds have been a lifesaver for me. I was addicted to ketamine (makes sense considering the dissociative angle) for a long time until medical ganja allowed me to tap into a lot of my psychological problems and also allow my body to relax. Glad they work for you mate 🍻

Regarding psychedelics, I'd agree that extreme neurodivergents like myself and schizophrenic types should be especially careful with psychedelics, but if you can wisely and healthily interface with them, they are genuinely the best way to understand your condition. My friend xoradmagical is a schizophrenic content creator and he has a plethora of psychedelic experience which helped him be at peace with his hallucinations.

Interesting! How would you describe the people you meet with DID, like what sort of behaviour do you observe/intuit? I'm more interested in awakening-coded people's opinions on the condition than regular society haha normies aren't very helpful. I haven't pursued treatment because my whole life has been self-treatment with meditation and psychedelics.