Nemra

The trip made me aware that my life is like an extremely filtered-down psychedelic trip. Life feels like an escape from taking up full responsibility of your mind.

I forgot about that. I already feel sick just by imagining drinking alcoholic beverages while tripping.

@OBEler, experiencing eyes open is great. However, 5-MeO-DMT greatly affected how I felt. And there isn't an "eyelid" to stop feeling it.

5-MeO-DMT had transparent visual patterns, however, they weren't dynamic like the visuals of N,N-DMT and N,N-DPT.

Three hours in, and I'm still tripping. It suddenly reactivates when I think it's probably ended, though it's not that intense right now.

I don't close my eyes.

Yeah, that's too much for now. I don't know what will happen if I add 2 or 3 mg more.

70 mg is mind-blowing! Amazing! I'm melting on different levels. I cannot describe it. The visual geometry is insane.

#2 I plugged 20 mg. My mind was reacting negatively towards what was happening in the beginning because I was becoming doubtful whether I could handle the experience. What was making me depressed in the beginning was that I was noticing the ways that I had been avoiding truth in my life. I was unconsciously constructing negative meanings/scenarios, and it literally was becoming true. However, at some moment I realized it was being constructed just by becoming aware of it. I'm doing it. I couldn't differentiate between my mind and the experience. It was dreamy. So direct. Serious as hell. It was very energetic. People's lives and jobs seemed like little specks.

The come up is very gradual than 5-MeO-DMT. I like that.

True. I've plugged 60 mg and I cannot imagine what 70 mg will be!

Now, I plugged 60 mg, and yeah, it's very different than 30 mg. The headspace is weird, like N,N-DMT. 10 minutes feels like more than an hour. I'm surprised that it stings significantly less than 5-MeO-DMT when it's plugged.

I tried 30 mg of N,N-DPT today; however, the effects were mild. Minor visual effects: When I moved my eyes, I was noticing yellow/blue outlines around objects. There were some mild visual patterns. I was more alert.

Sure. I have to be more careful because I'm not at home, and won't be staying long there. I wish I had easy access to it. Gosh. The headspace was intense. These substances surprise me every time. Never thought that it could be intense without visuals that I get on N,N-DMT.

#1 At the first few moments, my heart started to beat very fast. I thought maybe my body would stop working. It was scary. I felt wanting to scream. But in retrospect, I think it was about not knowing how to react to what was happening. I have never experienced clarity that intense. The main theme was the acceptance of everything and basking in it. Being. My hands looked very weird to me, as if I were looking for the first time. I couldn't stop my eyes from tearing up. I sensed unconditional love towards everything. There were mild visual patterns. The dose was about 15 mg.