Justin my mind

@Leo Gura sounds like my life in a nutshell, unpredictable about what could happen at any moment I don’t have the control others so they have over reality so surrender has been part of my whole experience lol

My first mushrooms trip I cried and released repressed truma it was great! But I've had truma after it. Neighbors that made me paranoid. That’s why I feel like I can’t handle mushrooms. They’ve been gone for six years and whenever I smoke weed, I feel like they’re coming after me. I don’t wanna do mushrooms to trip. I want to have that release again not for bliss but for clense.

Ive been thinking about trying normal DMT I am prone to anxiety but it's stuff from this dimension. I can't handle a 6-hour mushrooms trip. I don't want to do the to say I've done DMT, but to have an experience to make me appreciate life. I feel like I have more courage for 10 to 20 minutes then 5 hours.. I also feel like I don't fear death at least in the way other people do. I have cerebral palsy and feel like a old man in a young persons body and I want to see what it would be like to be outside of this appearance

I’m 23 I have cerebral palsy and I’ve been disabled all my life. I watched a lot of this content. I really enjoyed the encouragement to think for yourself, but I don’t believe in a lot of the epistemological stuff I try to practice, not knowing as much as possible that video has helped me a lot, but also hurt me breaking through the illusion of separation has kind of been disoriented for me being disabled makes me have to rely on others way more so I never got the illusion of having my own separate independence. There are things that are in my direct experience that I try to question all the time because I don’t want to look like I just believe in what other people say, I do stand-up comedy now and have a life purpose gonna try to make more YouTube videos what scares me about the illusion of separation. I know I’m the source of love and the apparent others are just reflections. I just get fascinated with some of them and it feels like a part of me is rejecting myself my therapist I should look for non-spiritual ways to ground myself and book recommendations or other resources. I’d very much appreciate it.

I have a cerebral palsy and my mind feels like it’s on autopilot. It feels like everyone is fucking with my mind. I’m seeing humans as part of nature and it feels like nature is hurting me and it’s not aware of what it’s doing through people. I just feel like watching my existence is like watching a big thunderstorm that never gets a lightning strike. The last instance I had with a female didn’t break my heart it fucked with my mind more than anything everybody please don’t take the sense of self for granted and the feeling for free will I feel like I’m just waiting for death now Life feels like it’s being fucked with by elves and inside my brain. Please don’t take love for granted either some of us don’t get to reflect that light with someone we love, even though we know that love comes from our being not from the other some of us never get time to feel fulfilled and that love space to begin with because of loneliness nature is doing weird shit

that Alex O’Connor Clip was kind of freaky but fascinating

I’m 23 I’m disabled loneliness appears a lot been trying to get out more though I use ChatGPT for shadow work and somatic stuff. I feel like it was made for people like me, which is the problem. I don’t want to contribute to the end of humanity and I hope people don’t become like CDs artist streaming now if that makes sense I feel like I’m using it for growth, but I have to remember. I don’t really know what the fuck I’m using in the first place.

Hindus love to play tag because they know there it

I have been going through a paradox been noticing in my dreams how spirituality has caused bypass. Been trying to reconstruct my reality. But at the same time, I've noticed not knowing even though it's made me dissociated. I have been able to open up to by my dad from a space of forgetting everything 2nd order my question is how can I stay embodied while also practicing not knowing and not go crazy. Thank you 🙏🙏

In my personal opinion, solipsism can’t be true in the non Dual Sense because it says only you exist, but there isn’t even you. There is just one filled of consciousness we all share I agree that most of what we perceive in others is just imagination like the Self but Solipsism in my view, still believes in an individual separate self. That’s just my opinion and I know a lot of people on this form, including Leo agree with me, but that’s just how I see it.

Having complete loss of self and other comes with relief but also some Existential terror don't know who the people in my life. Are Anymore. Have cerebral Palsy on one level so no separation has been there Even before the vale was Lifted, does anybody have an advice on how to integrate this and get some stability backbooks/ideas?

Someone I feel really drawn to said she wanted to take me on a drive and listen to music. I’ve always wanted to do that with somebody I’m attracted to. You could never predict what’s gonna happen in the appearing future, but I feel like it’s not gonna happen I feel a sense of existential dread and need to surrender to no attachment. I have spoken about soft white underbelly interview, and I feel like I could see the patterns unfold who knows she might get back to me you never know, but I feel a sense of sadness and the part of me that’s never been when the text appeared awareness knew that it was either something beautiful happening or horrible tragedy. I know this won’t last forever, but it’s been causing a lot of childhood trauma to come up and I know either. I’ll be with it in faith that’s something will happen or I will have to hold on to where this is leading me I have had cerebral palsy all my life and I’ve struggled with getting with people I’m attracted to even I was just friends and I have to accept that I may or may not get what I need. I’m trying to see the beauty and other things, but my inner child is screaming

I know you did a video on intuition in the past, but I feel like I could really use a video on intuition with some of your new insights. I feel like I need to watch the happenings or something bad will unfold. Thank you.

Wrote something out in day one app and ended it with a Wicca Seal does this work or am I just wasting my time?

I think I learned in my first ketamine trip is that drugs Is that drugs are interesting, drugs can make us feel more interesting then we actually are in the moment because they are interesting themselves and we take on their persona and it. Becomes who we are and the maturity can help us realize a sense of respect that can make trips easier