Lazarus93

I haven't had a nightmare in so many years now, but a few months ago when I had the flu and my sleep schedule was completely out of whack, I was sleeping and thought I had woken up after only 2 hours. I then realized I was 'paralyzed' and couldn't move, but I really wanted to get out of bed because I wanted to get on my computer. I would then repeatedly fall off my bed trying to get up from my bed, then 'wake up' again paralyzed in bed, all the while getting more and more pissed off that I couldn't get out of bed. I made it out of my room in some of these loops, just to wake up back in bed right after I would notice something strange or different about my house. This process then repeated 9-10 more times. Each time I would 'wake up,' I would think that I was actually waking up, until I finally actually woke up for real and realized I was literally dreaming all my false awakenings, falling off my bed and all, and that I was actually experiencing sleep paralysis in my dreams rather than in the waking world.. That was quite the mindfuck.

That's not Leo Gura thats Geo Lura

DXM in C tier but DPH in B tier? interesting..

I would recommend a dissociative like DXM or Ketamine. DXM has allowed me to get over all my fear and anxieties. I haven't done Ket so I can't speak on it, but DXM is powerful enough to dissociate you so much that you can completely separate yourself from any negative emotions during the trip, and that experience can help you for the rest of your life. Psychedelics can help too but they can be a scarier experience, but if you can muster the courage to face your fears and anxieties during the trip they can help. A 3.5g shroom trip helped me completely get over my DPDR. DXM + SSRIs can interact negatively though, so I would not do DXM if you are on SSRIs. If you do decide to do DXM though, I would recommend starting with a low 2nd plateau trip, and experiencing higher 2nd plateaus more as needed. Do not go into 3rd plateau or higher unless you feel ready.

Consciousness imagines a brain, a body, and a world. When someone hits your skull with a hammer, consciousness is imagining that. It is also imagining every consequence of the brain being hit by a hammer. So if you end up 'unconscious' or in a coma, notice that first of all you haven't fully died yet, but rather, you eventually wake up and realize what happened (i.e. consciousness imagines that the event of getting hit by a hammer happened, it imagines the passage of time during the period of 'unconsciousness,' etc.). Similar to what happens when you wake up from deep sleep. You never went anywhere, you just stopped imagining a brain, body, and world for X amount of time. There is a massive difference between being in a coma or being temporarily unconscious and what happens after your body actually undergoes physical death. A coma is just 'pausing the game,' physical death is quitting the game altogether and becoming your true self, what consciousness was before imagining your current brain body and world. In fact, if you awaken enough, you will realize that actually consciousness was never inside a world or in a brain. After all, a world and brain exist in space, which only exists when imagined by consciousness. The state you were in pre birth and the state you are in now are in fact made of the exact same substance (Nothingness). The only difference while alive is what this Nothingness is constructing (Being 'alive' just means this nothingness is constructing your current configuration of reality. Death is when this nothingness is not limited to constructing this experience right now, and you become unlimited by definition). If you want a more in-depth argument of how brain damage works with consciousness in an idealist framework, take a look at Bernardo Kastrup's answer to this problem.

Great explanation man. I love Leo's how to do self-inquiry video. You can definitely awaken from self inquiry alone, although psychs or dissociatives help 'pause' the ego which can help people do self-inquiry from a more clear and less delusional mind space. Self-inquiry by itself is hard for a lot of people due to most people in the modern age having extremely overactive egos shaped by the culture of materialism that runs our world right now.

Think about what divides/separates the multiple POVs inside the one awareness. Is this division real or imaginary?

Ease of access mostly. I do know where to get salvia/dmt/lsd/etc but haven't tried them yet (Yes, I do plan to get skullfucked by Salvia once in my life, lol). I do plan to try a lot more psychedelics in the future, but right now I'm trying to focus more on the survival aspect of life: making money, having a good routine, etc. My past shroom and DXM trips helped me get over a lot of my traumas and fears, as well as making me conscious of what the ego/reality/mind/self/God actually are. Only reason I did shrumfuzed yesterday was because I've had them for months now and wanted to see if they gave me a powerful trip in case I want to use them in the future. As of right now though, no psychedelics or dissos for a while as there is no need for me to trip right now. Something about hanging up the phone once you get the message, lol. I'm sure there may come a time in the future where I will want to trip again, and I will probably venture into other psychedelics then.

I am not sure. Psilocybin is the only psychedelic I've done and the trip yesterday was different than a typical shroom trip. From what I've read online it's either 4-AcO-DMT or 4 HO MET. But I haven't done either of them so I can't really say. It was a shorter trip, lasting around 3-4 hours, but was very intense. In contrast, a shroom trip for me typically lasts much longer.

I tried 2 gummies yesterday night. Holy shit they do pack a punch. Felt like a few hours of my entire body just being cradled by the Universe and being filled with pure Love.

Dude, you can't just generalize any group and apply that generality to every single member of the group. Doesn't matter if its hot girls, a race, a religion, etc. The majority does not represent every single individual who is part of that group. That is a very low IQ way to think.

Sounds like exactly me, honestly. Psychedelics/dissociatives are the answer.

Do you have a playlist for when you are tripping? This is mine: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0B9z2HBoKKmTRD38wQhoJK?si=1nCBgVUTRlW4KhotBE37rg

Out of curiosity, what was your IGN in league and what seasons were you high elo? I used to be grandmaster and did a bit of boosting myself, interesting that we are both on this forum lol

Don't worry, we are all just waiting for you to wake up.