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Thanks for sharing.

Yeah, I hope it works for me. It's the last option that doesn't require hospitalization. Hopefully they won't force me if it doesn't work. My hallucinations are very treatment resistant.

Leo really likes this guy.

That's great. It used to be my favorite substance before the problems.

Update: the new medicine didn't work, so now we will be trying clozapine. The strongest antipsychotic there is. He said that if that doesn't work either there are things like electroshock therapy, which I definitely don't want to try.

If you can take time off work please do, you don't want to spend half off what you have left working. I am probably just stating the obvious.

Ok, so thc-x makes the undesirable hallucinations flare up for me. Not good. I have to find another substance (I have schizophrenia)

Practice.

Being good alone isn't enough. I am literally at Robert Monroe's level at astral projection, yet it's my worst performing business - I literally haven't made a cent from it. I am bad at programming, yet I get clients, weird how that works.

Yeah definitely, haha

Yes, it was a good read. Although I think he would have gotten better results if he used a different meditation technique. Like the fire kasina. He used mantras. His goal were hallucinations/meetings with deities. Mantras alone are much slower than the fire kasina in this regard. It definitely awakened my desire to lock myself in a cave/monastery.

Just finished reading, thanks for the reccomendation.

How many hours a day do you meditate? This is a high quality thread.

I regret taking so much LSD (mixed with shitty genetics, it wasn't really that much) that I fried my brain and now have permanent hallucinations. It was 15 tabs in total, taken within a short time period. Mind you, I was mainly taking 1/2s and 1/4s. I took them all within a month or two. So yeah, shitty genetics.

Update: the doctor ended up reacting well and he prescribed some new meds. So no hospitalization, which is great. I also wont be able to come to work for at least a month. Which means I will be receiving 60% of my pay. I also got some new freelance work, which is great.