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wow this is really well done! thanks for sharing 👍

@EmptyVase I've never been into German Rap but wtf happend with Genetikk? Raping about God? I like it

It's good for integrating difficult trips much more addictive than other "psychedelic" substances

Yeah you can have breakthroughs on 20ug if there is little resistance. Higher dose or to smoke weed on the peak is the fastest way but can also backfire quickly... other then that you could work on your contemplation/meditation/yoga skills

You could look to unconventional therapists or other spiritual healers. For example, I know that there are Reiki therapists and breathwork facilitators in Italy. I think you can also find breathwork courses online. Psychedelics can also be helpful, but in your situation I would suggest doing this with an experienced guide to start with.

I only mentioned it because I disagree with that quote: 'Psychedelics don't work on stupid people'. I think Terence McKenna originally said it. Yeah, that's like after your first time thinking you are a sex god

It wouldn't help them to have this realizations, psychedelics work at the level you are at. So they're still very useful to low-conscious people if you guide them a little, at least in my experience. I think everyone can know God, especially with psychedelics. But many don't want to at the moment. Yes, that's exactly how you should do it. Psychedelics can be a kind of life companion that will keep you on the right track. IMO, if there was a little education about psychedelics, everything would change radically.

You should be very gentle with yourself now. I was also traumatized by an intense LSD trip once. What really helped me is taking low doses like 50 ug of LSD in nature. I usually trip alone most of the time but it didn't fully resolve until after 2 friends and I took a small dose of LSD and talked about everything. Also Ketamine and MDMA can be very helpful with integrating difficult trips. Thanks for sharing your insights 🙏

Serotonin is known to trigger migraines if you are prone to it.

I think you already know that none of this is your fault and that it's okay to feel that way. Now I want you to consider the possibility of an immediate change. From your posts it seems to me that you have already done a lot of theoretical work, but I think that you miss actualizing through techniques. (I might be wrong about that) For example, you could try breathing exercises or start a meditation practice. You have to get out of your head and get active in your life. I also know that you journal a lot and that's great, but you should also be talking to someone in real life. Speaking out loud will process your problems completely differently and you can move on more quickly.

This sounds like spiritual bypassing. You have fundamental problems that you should address first. I think the best thing for you would be to forget about spirituality for a while. Talk to someone in real life about your situation, preferably a therapist. More people than you would think are going through phases like this. In 5 or 10 years everything could look very different...

The Grateful Dead did it at the end of some shows in the late 60's I don't really get it though...

Yes I have experienced it once. I faced absolute truth and couldn't accept it... so I just kept repeating "no this can't be true" and at some point I think my mind just shut off. When I came back I was in a totalay different location and I didn't know how I got there.