When you have mental illness, nothing can make you happy until you get it under control.
Happiness assumes health.

I always said that Actualized dot com can become a death cult for certain people. If you take that many psychedelics and zonk your nervous system and delicate balancing system of your body, it is only natural to become like that. Even if you are 100% healthy but he wasn't so the likelihood becomes even bigger. Conner got in the pic because he is famous and has eyes on him, but there are tons of cases where this happens in the silence of the night. And nobody will know about it.

A hoax or a genuine death - I will not be surprised either way. A tragic and sad way to go but Conor has been gone for a long time - we all know this.

He was seriously mentally ill. Bipolar disorder and more.
He had manic episodes. In those manic episodes he behaved very recklessly. If he mixed drugs in on top of that, that explains it all. He could not be reasoned with when in his manic state. He needed to be put on anti-psychotics, but he probably refused to take them regularly, which means the manic episodes continue, and now one finally got out of control.
I wish I could say I am surprised, but his self-destruction was well foreshadowed. I tried to help him but he was incapable of listening.

Why has it taken him so long to reveal this?
How does he dare to claim to be so healthy when he knows he has Hashimoto's and Hashimotos is an autoimmune disorder?
Baffling.

Level up your standards. Improve your game with girls. If you were 70 and virgin I would go with you to a strip club. But in your 20’s it just feels off

That is the contradiction of conservatives. None of them want to live in Afghanistan, the most conservative place on Earth. They are in denial that liberalism is more economically and technologically successful.
It is not an accident that Big Tech was born in Silicon Valley. Because the culture in Cali was cutting-edge progressive relative to the rest of the world.
Why is there no Silicon Valley in Russia? Because their culture is too corrupt and backwards.

Over the last few days major MAGA influencers have called for the elimination of the entire Democrat party and the left.
I'm tired of this gaslighting. MAGA is fascistic in its psychology and ambitions, even if they aren't exactly WW2 Nazis. They firmly believe the left is evil and they will try to eliminate it if given the chance. This not a hypothetical.

Yup. The highest states of Consciousness are so crazy they are unbelievable and very challenging. 
That's why people demonize psychedelics. They would rather avoid that work. 
The bad memories fade with time. Give it time and more positive trips.

It is easier to attract poor women from poor countries when you are rich. They will sleep with you just for an opportunity of escape. Of course they can fall in love too. But the wheels have been greased.

Women can only choose from the guys who are around, available, and approach. So her options are limited. She is not choosing from a hypothetical pool of the world's top men. She is going to choose the first decent guy who comes around.

Yes. That's why I don't like it.
Smoking any plant sucks. Pure chemicals are superior.

There is no mystery whatsoever as to what women are attracted too and why.
There is no need to guess or theorize about it.

@LordFall Dude i've done 2500 approaches and never got laid. I think an escort is the most effective route. Even though i don't know how it works. Do you recommend me mentioning this to my dad, as i would need him to help me find escorts and give me the money for it. 

Yeah, it was. Honestly, I can’t see myself having relationships outside of hooking up with Strippers and Escort Girls. That’s what really disappoints me! It’s a limiting belief, yes, but I don’t have my life put together very well, at the moment. I’m pretty young and I’m far from having a stable future. Work in progress! Also, as I mentioned above it’s much easier to pay for sex than to put myself out there and socialize. Putting myself in uncomfortable situations feels nearly impossible. I start to shake and my hands get sweaty. My heart starts to beat rapidly. I get racing thoughts and stutter as I talk. The thing I’ve learned about myself is that I won’t do something unless I know 100% that the outcome will be positive. Doing things like going to public places, night clubs or any type of social gathering seems a bit out of character for me. I’m very introverted and spend most if not all of my time at home. I was able to do hookups and go to the strip club cause I was working at the time and I knew it didn’t require much effort on my part to get laid through paying. I’m temporarily unemployed, right now. But I won’t lie. I am somewhat tempted to go back to sex workers cause it’s fun. Deep down I know it’s not what I want, really. 

I would have continued seeing escorts but the biggest letdown for me was the lack of connection that I was seeking. The interactions were mostly awkward, robotic and fake. Some advertised themselves as providing a "girlfriend experience" but this was far from being the case. Having said that, I do not dismiss the value that escorts provide. There were some moments that were fun and enjoyable. They fulfilled my sexual needs, at least temporarily. If you don't want a girlfriend then seeing escorts is not such a bad thing as some people portray it to be IMO. Do what you feel is best for you at a given moment while also considering the potential risks.

I've been an escort before, there's a lot you can learn from them if you find the right one. If you want sexual liberation, who do you think is going to know more, a random potential girlfriend or an escort? 

nothing wrong with this per-say. society has partially given sex work a bad name and labeled it as something desperate and lonely individuals partake in. I think it could be energetically draining and unfulfilling though. probably a better investment of your time would be looking for a self actualizing girl like you mentioned you want. if you have the opportunity to engage in ethical sex services it shouldn't get in the way if you do it occasionally and don't see it as shameful. 

I think we need to invent a new term to make better distinctions.

Recently, I've noticed that my imagination generate contest, meaning and satisfaction from "lust" waaaaay better than any porn could. It's hard to explain, but watching porn almost feels like something drains energy from me. It's a body awareness thing that comes with experience. 

HOWEVER,
If I use my imagination with women I know IRL, Or read a spicy story with a decent plot, Or just look at some pretty cosplay pictures my mind starts to plot stories. Tbh, the only porn that I have left are 2 movies (almost 2h long each) and a few amateur stars that I check maybe once a month. What is also funny, that my "favorite actress" spends like 2/3 of the video talking.

In short, imagination = great, traditional porn = meh, mental masturbation = good name for the term, but has bad conectaiton. Any ideas for an alternative 

That's right.
The women are usually more professional. They know why they are in this business (money) and why they aren't.
 It's the guys that often end up cracking in these scenarios and catching feelings.

Why would you choose "confidence, humor, Detached, adventurous, and good sex" above "social status, loyalty, good looks and finances", if the latter affects survival much more. Do the first 5 subconsciously signal the traits of survival even more? 

@Xonas Pitfall I think you're making this way too complicated. First off, the idea that attraction has changed throughout history is nonsense. It's not even reasonable to compare how mating worked 100 years ago with how it works now.
Now is actually the best time to analyze female psychology and how women select mates, simply because this is the first time ever in human history where dating is a market, where men and women are basically shopping around. The qualities and traits that women find attractive are the same, regardless of culture or the time we're living in.
We've kind of moved from socialism to capitalism in dating. In the 1950s, it was much more regulated, with stronger social norms and family involvement limiting people's choices. Today, dating is far more open and market-driven. In many ways, the 1950s were more comparable to how dating works in countries like India or Pakistan today.
It's only been in the last 40 years or so that men have started to discover what truly attracts women.
Postmodernist and pluralistic views aren't going to work when it comes to mating, simply because it's so essential to our survival. I'm not saying there's no value in those perspectives, but if we want to solve the current dating challenges we men are facing, pragmatism is absolutely necessary.
 

In the context of this thread, men are the providers, which is why women are judged on their beauty and not on their ability to provide.
No man rejects a woman because she can't provide materially.
Women are not called to be "providers", men are. If a man fails to do it, "something is wrong with him". If a woman fails to do it, nothing is wrong with her.
Let's not act like this standard doesn't exist.
This explains why women date up. It screens out those who can't provide. It is easier to provide when one is near the social top. That's why women are attracted to men near the top.

Men can also be attractive on their own merits.
But, since women need men for survival, they want a man who is better at survival, and survival for humans usually involves higher social standing.
Men don't depend on women for survival aa much (excluding reproduction).
So yeah, it is asymmetrical.

LOL.
It DOES if you have a pussy. 
A pussy cannot afford to not care about social standards. Social standards are life and death, not a silly game.