I think you are right my friends. 
It's just I've been chasing God for 4 years and been neglecting other domains of my life. 
Now when I realized how actually serious and real God thing is I want to be able to make it a priority in the future. 
For now I want to work on basics of survival. I need financial independence and I haven't fucked for a long time. 
It's just funny to have profound god awakenings and next day do the job that I don't like or think about girls I can't attract due to my lack of dating skills. I'm just 26 and I still have plenty of time. 

It's common for religious fundamentalists to lose faith in God when they experience deep suffering or loss. That's because they misunderstand what God is. God is not a personal force who cares about you like mother. God is the fabric of reality itself. God isn't a human, with human needs and concerns.
When a lion tears apart a baby gazelle, that's God. Humans do not appreciate this. It doesn't serve human needs. What ever human wants is God to serve them, to make things soft, easy, and pleasant.
You can't beat the game of life by getting everything you want. In the end you will have to surrender to God's Will. That's what spirituality is really about. Not obtaining superpowers.

On carnivore, all your cholesterol numbers will shoot through the roof. It gets pretty bad. So it's not sustainable long-term, even if it does improve autoimmune.

1) Confidence is gained through experience, and you still have much experience to gain.
2) Trauma is a thing. Psychedelics can help there. Also, Teal Swan has a good book on healing trauma.
3) Sounds to me like you're in a good place overall. You got some minor issues which can be fixed with basic personal development work. So you should feel optimistic about your situation. Don't worry about it. You will find ways to improve in those areas.

I was playing that up to make a point. And also being entertaining.
By my nature I'm a pretty judgmental person and I am working to correct that.
When I tell you to avoid something, it's usually because I suffered from doing it.
But at least I know what the wrong thing is, even if I haven't trained myself to fully avoid it. The real problem is when guys do these things and don't even understand that it's wrong.
I do plenty of wrong things. The difference is I become aware of it and correct myself.

@ivankiss Take some Maca and Horny Goat Weed too. You will become a sexual tyrannosaur
Work on your cardio too. Fucking 2 girls is a lot of sweaty work.

Contributing to open source development in a domain of your interest is a nice idea. It's a trend to some level of free work to establish yourself before getting noticed for big roles. 
Having lots of half baked ideas on different fields is a good thing. All of that will be useful somewhere in the future. Diversifying is a good thing. Especially early in your career. 
CS is too easy to be a degree. Unless you are digging deep. The standard subjects do not offer anything deep. Except for maybe Discrete Mathematics.
Good luck man. I love core CS and the philosophical aspects of it, although not proficient enough in the technical side. Hopefully Rust will save me.
Not an expert to give solid advice yet. Good luck. I can tell you are on the right path already so keep at it. 

That's the wrong thing to call it.
Men are basically autistic women. So there is def a connection between masculine and logical and stoic.

When you get so mechanical about it, it's gonna be an obstacle to love and acceptance.
You should not be grading your girlfriend on a rubric.

I don't rate girls. I was speaking in the common parlance. It's a bad idea to be rating your girlfriend.

Nah. You can find many softer dating advice courses and teachers if you want.
For example, David DeAngelo stuff. David DeAngelo sold more dating advice than all of RSD. And it's good stuff. Eben Pagan has some top-notch courses and seminars for relationship advice.

Leo often say to choose a career path that aligns with your values, and not doing so can be detrimental to your well being in the long term.
For me coding felt like a drag on my soul throughout my career. I even felt like coding was not for me even though I excelled in CS & Math at school. I really felt something was deeply wrong with me that I can't code. I knew something was really off. I even had to try some different career paths only to fail in them as well. 
But now I have found a language that aligns with my values and that is Rust. It's almost like I can meditate or listen to music while I write code in Rust. Rust was the language I was looking for. It perfectly aligns with my values. Rust is also the most loved programming languages as per leading survey consecutively for years.
Rust gives you low level control and superior understanding of what is actually happening under the hood and I just love it. It bugs me to death when I can't understand what a line of code is doing when I read it. But Rust teaches you all that. The code is safe and secure from memory vulnerabilities. For me Languages like Javascript are outdated and there are things in the language that are totally ridiculous beyond comprehension. It's stuff built in the freaking mid 90s and we are still clinging on to it because "reasons". Mostly money.
But not for me. Rust can do everything. It's rapidly growing. The job possibilities in Rust are not the greatest, but it will certainly grow in the future.
There are many people with a programming background on this fourm, so I thought it would be cool to share this and know what you think of Rust.
It's like finally finding what I was looking for the whole time.  I simply can't love Rust enough.

They can be developed but also that kind of job is not for everyone.
You should re-examine your top values and what you really want out of your work. Is leading people what you really wanna do? You won't be good at something you're not passionate about. Maybe you just like working on an individual project.

Just recognize that it isn't grounded in anything more than stories you were indoctrinated with as a child.
It's child abuse, really.
There is zero emprical evidence that God sends non-Catholics to hell. And it makes no sense why God would do such a silly thing. Do dogs go to hell for not being Catholics? Lol. Are we to believe that all the aliens around the universe go to hell because they aren't Catholics? This is a cartoonishly biased notion.
If you really believe in a loving God, then such a God would forgive you for mistaken beliefs, not punish you for it.

In general, women are attracted to masculine qualities and emotional stimulation.
Now stop thinking and go talk to some girls. Elaborate theories about what women want are not needed and counter-productive.

Obviously you are.
Even your super-yogi cannot outrun a kangaroo.
Humans are finite. This should be completely obvious. But again, spiritual fantasies have convinced some humans that they are infinitely free. No you aren't. Not even close. You can't even stay awake for several days without approaching death. You cannot will your way out of reality.
What you're doing is surfing the waves. The waves can crush you at any time. You don't control the waves.

That's part of it.
Extroverts actually feed off social interaction. Like energy vampires.
Whereas introverts are drained.
One of the biggest predictors of your lifetime lay count will be your introversion/extroversion score. The higher your extroversion the higher your lay count.

It's not that.
The best guy in game who I ever met was a natural. He didn't even know about pickup. But he's better than RSD pickup coaches.
I tried teaching him some game concepts, like state. He said, "What's state?" I explained it to him, and he said, "Oh! I'm in state as soon as I get in my car!" This guy was a natural salesman. He could sell condoms to a nun.
He told me he hated his mother and didn't trust any women because she was a selfish bitch.
It's not about parents. It's about extroversion genetics.
If you look carefully, all the best pickup coaches are natural extroverts. That's the secret to game which they don't tell you. The introverts will never have as good game, no matter how much they practice. The more introverted you are the harder game will be for you. Your brain is just not wired for it. However, your brain is wired for other better things like contemplation.
Owen modeled his game after naturals. Then he sold everything he learned from naturals to chumps through RSD. I met the natural Owen modeled his game from. This is why Owen's game is not the best. His magic was not in game, it was in selling you desperate chumps. Owen is a marketing genius, not a game genius. With that said, I'm not saying his game is shit. So don't misunderstand me.
Now you understand the whole secret to RSD. Owen used his marketing genius to selling natural game to millions of desperate introverted guys. Not because he was great at game, but because he was great at marketing.
Ta-daaaa!

I don't trust any woman who finds me attractive

The core fundamentals of game that RSD teaches are valid. I've never said otherwise. Owen has done pioneering work in the field of "natural" game. His work back in the 2012 era was next-gen stuff.
You have to be more nuanced and careful.
Just because I have a few criticisms of Owen doesn't mean the fundamentals of RSD theory are wrong.
I'm sure Owen's game is good when he's in the zone. But you have to understand that Owen does more business than he does game. Owen's top shtick is running RSD. He's not out there purely gaming like Julian was in the early days. Owen has a business to run.
I know from insiders that Julien had a much higher lay count than Owen and Julien's game was much better. But again, this doesn't mean Owen isn't good at times or that his teaching are false.
You have to remember that Owen is/was a hard case newbie autistic introvert and pretty weird and socially awkward. Owen is not a natural and his game will never be as good as natural. The best PUAs are naturals.
I've met real naturals. True naturals are even better than professional PUAs. Professional PUAs are just aping naturals. I have a natural friend who knows nothing about pickup, but he's better than RSD coaches.
Jack Black is not a PUA. So relative to a PUA he doesn't get laid much, I would assume.
Again, looks STILL matter. Just because Jack Black is a charismatic beast does not mean he will get infinitely laid. It just means that he will get laid more than a whiny incel with zero frame.
I was just using Jack Black to demonstrate charisma. Of course Owen has charisma too and you could make a video of Owen's game and use it illustrate the same point. But I wanted an example that was outside pickup. This is an issue which transcends pickup. That's what I was trying to highlight. Guys get so stuck in gaming girls that they overlook something more fundamental.
I also used Jack Black because he's fat, short, and not good-looking.
My criticisms of Owen mostly come down to the immature aspects of pickup which I want to see him outgrow. And Jack Black is free of that, so I got nothing to criticize him for.
Yes, of course. And that's the gold in his teachings. I've never criticized him for that part.
Owen's 2012-ish RSD content is the foundations of game and I have always recommended it. If he hadn't deleted all his old YT videos, I would be linking them.
My criticisms are more about 2022 Owen vs 2012 Owen. Part of the criticism is that I expected Owen to outgrow some of this shit by now. But as I have said before, there's much you can learn from Owen and his work should be respected.

@Yali Fantasies.
You cannot even begin to comprehend how bad the suffering can get.

BS. These are clever excuses from facing Truth.
The entire notion of socializing is BS. How much fucking socializing will ever be enough for him?

Autistic people lack the intuitive awareness needed of other people's perspectives and they operate too much on logic and not enough on just vibes.
In order to socialize well you are not allowed to think, you must run spontenously off vibes and just be intuitive.
I retrained my mind to run off vibes and intuition without thoughts.

I see a handful of massive companies like Google, Microsoft, Amazon, Apple, Tesla, etc using AI to become such massive monoplies that they buy up everyone and everything in the field of tech, sucking up tens of trillions of value while little people are left with crumbs.
That's the real danger.

Love? Good lord! This isn't love.
Girls take time to build investment in you. You are overly invested in her and she barely knows you exist. Because girls build investment through emotions and sex.
What you need to do is build your emotional connection with her. Not via text but in person. Make her feel some connection to you, to experience your masculine energy. And then ask her out for a drink.
The reason she isn't responding to your texts is because she lives in her own bubble and your texts are meaningless to her. She will start responding when she starts getting invested in you.
You are lucky she responds to your texts at all.
Ideally what you could do is set up some fun group social events and use text to invite her out. Not as a date, but a fun social event. Then you flirt with her and build up a connection. Then she will want to fuck you.