I'm doing the routine stack Leo posted in the mega thread, with the techniques from the Santata Gamana books:
 

Osho talks on Fragments From Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu
http://oshosearch.net/Convert/Articles_Osho/Tao_The_Three_Treasures_Volume_1/Osho-Tao-The-Three-Treasures-Volume-1-index.html
http://oshosearch.net/Convert/Articles_Osho/Tao_The_Three_Treasures_Volume_2/Osho-Tao-The-Three-Treasures-Volume-2-index.html
http://oshosearch.net/Convert/Articles_Osho/Tao_The_Three_Treasures_Volume_3/Osho-Tao-The-Three-Treasures-Volume-3-index.html

I am willing to share this valuable information as a gift to you all to hopefully learn more about the nature of reality and many more key factors of existence itself.
This private group session is awesome! Bashar was invited to join the Paul Lowe Workshop in Northern California and share his perspective with the participants. Monologue: Bashar explores the creation of a third reality. Why passion is important- what it's function is. He discusses In depth, the relationship between the higher mind, brain and physical mind and how to get them to work together so you can be in ecstasy. What is fear and why fear is your friend. What unconditional love really means. What is the core energy of creation? Your power as a Creator in deciding what things mean and what you choose to believe. The Four Laws of Creation. Darryl Anka(channel/medium) also explains how this all began and how it all works at the beginning of the session which is great for newcomers.
Part 1 https://drive.google.com/file/d/1lFLzxJGedyZVHDlvVb-ArDPfYRgY9CfT/view
Part 2 https://drive.google.com/file/d/12BQSVQ0_sC9B9yEwTUtxZd_OWLFfiN6U/view
Part 3 https://drive.google.com/file/d/19O9tLgyuXCXL3N-9w5tcFek9qUQhukwh/view
The files are quite old and have been damaged overtime and sometimes cuts out but most of the important information is within the first part and the first halves of the others where everything is still in order.
Q&A Include: Excitement and addiction. How you can discern and what addition is? Falling asleep listening to Bashar? What the effect is on your soul from experiencing life on Earth, since it is so difficult here? What happens if we humans as a species don't "make it"- is it a great loss and a shame? What are the repercussions in space? Quieting the chatter of the physical mind so the higher mind can do it's job. Learning to be individuals harmoniously within a group. Channeling as a "permission slip". What causes pain and how it is connected with resistance? Following your passion in your imagination vs. taking action. Feeling selfish for taking time to be introspective. What does 2012 mean for our planet? How a healer actually heals others. Despair caused by feeling a lack of meaning in one's life. Ways of dealing with chronic pain. Pain of her son's drug addiction and how she is responding. An in depth description of the negative, dark entities in the universe and how to relate to them. Child rearing tips from Bashar for raising children. Guiding children on following their passion and using their imagination. Why human's are so focused on sex. The many purposes of sleep and how it helps in healing. What does "you are your own reality" really mean? How to connect with other realities? Understanding the many nuances of linear time-space and making it more malleable . How does Bashar's government work and what activities do they focus on? Using "not knowing" to your benefit. Teaching children through experiential learning that is designed to take advantage of a child's strengths ect..
Who is Bashar?
Bashar is a multidimensional being, a friend from the future(so to speak) who has spoken for the past 34 years through channel Darryl Anka. He has brought through a wave of new information that clearly explains in detail how the universe works, and how each person creates the reality they experience. Over the years, thousands of individuals have had the opportunity to apply these principles, and see that they really work to change their lives and create the reality that they desire.
Hope it serves you tell. One Love

Here you go!
I put a ton of effort into these. Please put them to good use if you decide to download them. They can be used as a reference so you don't have to watch the videos again.
Good luck with the work on the path!
-Dan 
https://drive.google.com/open?id=1BxxULd4XeH8CzPIxDc2i7oHq1hFkLoE2

@Aimblack
1. I come from the southern hemisphere, so its the opposite for me.
2. Differences of opinion
3. Actually, Nimis is much more reliable than J.C. Stevens, every serious spiritual teacher will tell you that and if you do cntr + f and type in "24 breaths" you will see Nimis instructs you to (of Lahari's words) to start with 24. 12 is absurd, that wont get you anywhere, that's like 1 minute of work. "To start, you will practice 24 breaths. In time you will increase by 12." page 96
I'm not saying this to dispute you or argue, but to show you that your interpretation is not the correct one(mine isn't either), but a different one. I was instructed specifically by a teacher to face west because we are from the southern hemisphere, and my zen teachers I've had in the past had different views of what chanting was. 
I wont bother to continue my questions here, because I can see it will just turn into a debate rather than useful advice, but I'll just put this out here to show that just because someone practices a different branch doesn't mean they aren't following Lahari's teachings.

Hello everyone, I'm going to collect videos on Postmodernism and post them here during my YouTube explorations which are critical, celebratory and descriptive of the philosophy, and which explore the members who went into creating this movement. If anyone finds others, please feel free to post them
 

@HII  The best source that I've explored regarding going deep on it's details https://superhumanos.net/
Ken did like 30 years of research on it and just put it in 1 program as a summary of all his work on integral spirituality/psychology.  Although it's quite pricey

 

 

 


 

 
 
 
 
 

A special case of pluralism is the academic discipline of deconstructive postmodernism. It beliefs that it is impossible to defend any belief by proclaiming that all views are subjective and therefore legitimate since everything is relative. When relativism is carried to its logical extreme no view or interpretation is better than any other. All are equal.
Postmodernists believe that any metanarrative succumbs to the same subjective arbitrariness. They deny the legitimacy of all hierarchies and all hierarchical ordering. When Pluralists adopt this belief, they may be hypersensitive to perceived 
instances of judgment as “better” or “valuable” in human terms. According to Wilber, radical 
postmodernism leads to what he calls “Boomeritis (2003).” In the extreme case, postmodernists assert with absolute certainty that there is no position from which to judge anything. They do not yet recognize the inherent self-contradiction in their assertion. It is, of course, a form of judgment and hierarchical ordering of values as those who disagree clearly have a less evolved view from theirs.
YELLOW
Because of its global understanding and the long-term sense of oneself as part of ongoing history, this stage parallels the “integral” or yellow stage in Wilber’s AQAL theory. As mentioned earlier, the LMF 
emphasizes the cognitive move from linear to systems thinking as a watershed in meaning making while Integral theory focuses on the qualitatively new capacity to see the world and oneself through an evolutionary lens. The Autonomous stage is the first level that fully recognizes the need and value for the existence of all stages both in terms of diversity in society as well as in terms of one’s own development. At least, in the ideal. The human tendency to want to be among similar people and to affirm one’s own worldview can easily lead to new forms of feeling superior and pride as a member of a chosen or special “tribe.”
Autonomous persons realize that they may notice different conflicting aspects in themselves at different times and in different contexts. However, -- unlike Individualists, who may despair about ever knowing who they really are -- they are capable of “owning” and integrating many disparate parts of 
themselves. This includes integrating previously compartmentalized sub-identities, and rejected or 
marginalized parts of themselves. The experience of being part of interlocking systems rather than a 
bunch of separate agents changes one’s sense of responsibility in conflict situations. One sees how one 
inevitably is part of and contributes consciously or unconsciously to them. The self and the other can be
seen as both perpetrator and victim, giver and taker, product and process as actions, thoughts and feelings can no longer be isolated as was the preferred way of dealing with difficulties at the Achiever level. Instead they form a dynamic interplay. 
Loevinger called this stage “autonomous” because individuals can now make meaning autonomously, independent of conventional ideas. While one cannot change reality, one has the freedom to interpret it to serve one’s own preferences and to make choices about life and who one wants to be. This is possible now precisely because one fully understands that interpreting and evaluating is what human beings do to make sense of experience. We all tell stories about what is 
happening, who does what to whom, how we see life overall, and why we believe that we matter. 
Autonomous persons consciously commit to create a meaningful life for themselves and for others in the world through self-determination and self-actualization. They realize that the way they tell their life stories changes with additional experiences and insights. 
The crucial new capacity is to realize one’s power to generate meaning and to tell a coherent self-story by creating it. Unlike people at Stage 4/5 who are not able to integrate various parts of themselves, Stage 5 representatives feel empowered to do so. Thus, Strategist possess a relatively strong, autonomous self sense that is both differentiated and well integrated. It is different from the Achiever sense of authorship because it is much more aware of the limits of one’s control. At the same time, Strategists embrace the options for self-realization they have and see the limits to their power as part of 
what it means to be alive. With their sense of transformational mission comes set of broader, human principles one must uphold such as the right of all human beings to be treated with justice and mercy. 

Autonomous persons worry most about having failed to observe those universal principles they value 
deeply such as the right of all people to self-determination and for being treated with dignity and respect.
With their expanded awareness, Strategist use even more channels of information to make their moves. They are often conscious of energy dynamics (physical and otherwise), and notice underlying patterns that only emerge over longer period of time. They also have a deeper appreciation than any prior stage of how challenging it is to be a mature, responsible adult and how rare their own capacities 
are compared with most other people they are in contact with. Thus, they may pride themselves of being in the know about themselves and about the larger issues facing the world. Whatever their personal 
expertise, it is likely enhanced by interpersonal skills and worldly savvy based on having learned from experience.

Strategist are often motivated and infused with a grand purpose and a vision of what could be. Unlike Pluralists and Individualists, however, their enthusiasm is based on high ideals as well as on a 
more realistic view of what it takes to change old patterns in self, in organizations, and in society. Strategists want to hone themselves therefore as instruments of change. They realize that they need to 
be the most they can in order to be of most service to others. Both servant and steward leadership are part of one’s care for the larger system and future generations.
Wanting to help others evolve is one of the strongest motivators for Autonomous persons. 
Humanists, developmental psychologists, coaches and consultants often inhabit this stage. So do Strategist executives and leaders who see human beings as precious capital and who take multiple bottom lines into account in measuring their organizations’ success. In the best work place scenario, 
tangible as well as intangible outcomes are taking into consideration by paying attention to the physical 
and mental health of the staff, to an aesthetic work environment, to a good work-life balance, as well as to serving the wider community. Strategists conceive of developing people as a valuable contribution to the individuals themselves 
as well as to society. When this need to have others “become the most they can be” encounters 
resistance, Autonomous persons may feel impatient with others’ pace of development and frustrated with their “unwillingness” to grow despite their efforts and support. This need to have others transform is one of the central flaws of this stage along with an attachment to knowing and being coherent. 
They also tend to be among those who are most convinced that higher development is “always” better and should be fostered at all cost. Higher is believed to be better because the more autonomous 
and insightful about their inner dynamics individuals become, the more they can claim that they have an objective (non-distorted) and realistic self-identity (Kegan, 1982). This is the case even though this is 
also the first stage that can see how all people have had to move along the developmental trajectory through the various stages to be where they are now. Autonomous individuals also understand, at least theoretically, that this happens at a different pace and to a different degree for different people 
depending on life circumstances and appropriate challenge and support. Developmental thinking is now an aspect of cognition, of being able to look back and see how one evolved from a totally ego-centric 
and self-protective, to an ethnocentric, to a global or world-centric perspective. 
Many Autonomous persons see life as an open-ended journey. They believe that there is no 
predetermined way to follow for all human beings. Each individual has to find and create his/her own life style and is responsible for his or her own self-fulfillment. Autonomous individuals are interested in 
psychological questions and how to come to terms with inner conflict. Unlike individuals at the 
conventional stages, seeking therapy, advice, or consulting from others, is not seen as a weakness, but as a necessity and an actual strength. Autonomous persons have faith in their own and other people’s capacity to make meaning out of challenges and difficulties. They can construe their own personal sense without having to impose it on all others. They may also invite others’ solutions to conflict and respect their needs for autonomy. 
Sometimes Autonomous persons find ordinary constraints of life stultifying such as making a living and working an eight-hour day. They see themselves as being destined for bigger tasks with a far-reaching impact different from ordinary folks. They would prefer to enjoy their passions for influence and 
power on their own terms with maximal freedom or a mandate to do so for the benefit of all. If leading an organization to greatness is one of those passions, it may be a fortuitous match.

Cognitive: With the expansion of the 4th person perspective in time (historical) and space (global) Strategists are able to operate from multiple levels and perspectives. They have fully shifted to a systems awareness while appreciating the benefits of a traditional scientific linear view of reality. They can value and apply both conventional and postconventional practices without having to reject the 
former in order to feel like themselves. They also recognize natural hierarchies in life. They are no longer afraid of acknowledging that some members of society are better equipped for certain tasks, or more cognitively differentiated than others. The Strategist embraces the notion that all human beings deserve respect, but also knows that not all opinions and all perspectives deserve the same attention. 
Unlike Pluralists, Strategists can now prioritize among multitude of voices because they recognize that 
some views are based on better evidence as well as being more comprehensive and fruitful than others. 
Making informed strategic decisions is part of the Strategist leader’s power. She chooses who of the pivotal stake holders to involve when decisions have to be made on an issue that requires others’ input. Society sometimes recognizes as valuable the capacity of the Strategist to make difficult 
decisions and to compare and integrate multiple perspectives. Furthermore, Autonomous persons have become aware of the performative contradiction of the postmodernist’s position and assertion that there is no position from which to judge anything. They realize that assessing, evaluating and choosing are vital aspects of functioning and making sense of life. They distinguish between biased judging and wise 
discernment. Whereas one has to be on the alert to avoid bias and notice one’s evaluative preferences, judging itself is crucial in human affairs. 
It is at the Strategist stage, that individuals begin to see paradox and ambiguity as an inevitable 
dimension of living and to increasingly tolerate these. Autonomous persons become aware and fluent in using polarity thinking in order to examine issues and tensions. Complex and sustainable solutions often require that one pays attention to opposing but interdependent values. The most effective and healthy designs foster the wisdom aspects of both poles and the minimize their downsides.
However, the belief that one can at least approximate an accurate picture of the territory with
diligence and through dialogue and collaboration is still prevalent. Autonomous individuals are aware of 
multiple interrelated systems and how influences are circular, cyclical and often tapestry -like. They have beginning access to an understanding of life that can integrate psycho-logically paradoxical elements. Therefore, less energy needs to be spent on “defending.” This then allows Strategists to be more accepting and spontaneous than adults at earlier stages.

Emotional: For the Autonomous person inner processes are fascinating, complex and demanding to explore. As much as they need others, they also need privacy and time for self-reflection. The self is 
experienced as in transformation and constantly reappraised. Watching this “unfolding” of things is one of the main satisfactions at this stage. One’s precious life work consists in trying “to become the most 
one can become” in contrast to the goal of Achievers hoping to be the best one can be. In the 
Strategist’s eyes, good company, good questions, intimate relationships, and a meaningful occupation as well as chances for self-actualization and self-fulfillment are essential for a meaningful existence.
Others are valued as ongoing, vital co-actors in one’s own fascinating life drama. 
Autonomous persons become fine-tuned to their own psychological well-being and inner workings. They take responsibility for regulating their thoughts, feelings and behavior. They are responsive and 
adjust when required as part of different life contexts and career phases. Deeper life purpose and 
legacy issues become an important topics of concern. How does my life and my contribution matter beyond my life time and my immediate realm of influence? 
Relativism changes into personal commitment and responsibility for creating one’s own personal 
meaning. Individuals are now capable of rediscovering and owning parts of the self which have previously been disowned for being too confusing or too threatening. The shadow side of the self can be acknowledged to a greater degree and therefore a new integration and wholeness is possible. Although 
Autonomous folks experience role conflicts and dilemmas strongly, they recognize that these are inescapable and that ambivalent feelings are natural. Based on this capacity to integrate and take a 
metasystematic view of different parts of experience, they tend to be quite certain of themselves and their cognitive and emotional capacity for synthesis and integration.
Unlike individuals at the later, the postautonomous stages of meaning making, Autonomous 
persons try very hard to keep their act together and to come across as reasonable, mature, and knowing themselves well. They feel responsible for being able to orchestrate conflicting needs and different subidentities and generally appear more balanced than earlier stages. 
Strategists sometimes present themselves as exemplars of humanity giving off a whiff of 
superiority. Now even failures and missteps are presented as positive aspects of learning. While reframing and retelling one’s story in a more positive, self-sustaining light is a great strength of this stage, the capacity of owning some of one’s failures and foibles, can be used by the ego to bolster its 
sense of achievement and importance.  We call this the whitewashing tendency of the Strategist. “Look how well I know myself. I am not afraid to share even my less than stellar sides so you can learn." Although not inevitable, feeling powerful and insightful because one understands so much about human nature and the world can lead to self-inflation. The focus on “humility” that several leadership studies mention as an important aspect of good stewardship is likely a response to this observation. On the 
other hand, it is a great triumph over earlier stages, that at this level one can recognize that flaws are part of being human. Getting a perspective on them is a life-long invitation to deepening one’s self-
awareness and connection to others. 

Interpersonal: Even more than at the Individualist stage, experiences of all kinds can be welcomed and accepted for their immediate qualities. Distressing emotions become more tolerable and offer insights that can be heeded. Strong positive and negative feelings can be acknowledged within oneself 
and shared with others. 
Self and others are accepted as complex human beings with both positive and problematic traits and dispositions. There is an infinite variety of unique expressions of being a self. Only the dynamic and intimate exchange with others makes it possible to get in touch with aspects of one’s behavior one 
would otherwise tend to overlook. Good feedback makes one aware of what one is defending or blind 
to. Feedback is vital for continuing development and for gaining ever deeper self-knowledge and wisdom. One needs both the caring and the critical presence of others to optimize oneself as an 
instrument of change. The deep sense of interdependence creates a need to be mutually supportive and challenging. Strategists may feel responsible to help others transform in order to fulfill what they intuit as other’s potential.
The “transformational” or “evolutionary” fervor of this level is occasionally blind to the transformer’s own identification with and self-importance in being a “transformer.” Many well-meaning change agents 
are not aware of the potential disregard for the needs and capacity of the recipients in their efforts to help others grow. Strategists can sometimes show impatience with others’ slow development, and frustration with their perceived resistance to grow. Notwithstanding, many seasoned Autonomous persons are ever more capable of expressing tolerance and non-possessive love (or being love) because of their profound appreciation of other 
people in their own right as unique individuals and as adults with a growing consciousness as well as fellow human beings with whom one shares the human plight. Others are seen as actors in their own life dramas, which are deeply moving and fascinating to participate in. Beginning with this stage, 
benevolence towards others and increasing compassion for oneself can become an abiding attitude. 

Emotional: Autonomous persons have now access to a wide range of different emotions and 
different states of awareness. Their emotional tone is different from that of Individualists. It is often less cynical and distrusting, more upbeat and also again more certain about oneself and knowing. Feeling into various sensations and emotions is one of the ways one approaches any experience. Rational 
deliberation and objective analysis are fully integrated into a comprehensive approach to problem definition and solving. Strategists can also recognize subtle distinctions among similar feelings. Thus, they would likely distinguish between various kinds of sorrow, grief, regret, disappointment etc. Overall, 
they seek to claim an authentic, truthful and adaptive self. Authenticity, is therefore an important value in the Strategist’s value repertoire.
The greater awareness of their inner depth also allows Autonomous persons to use dreams, fantasy, and imagination much more freely than earlier stages. Their thoughts are allowed to take off. 
Strategist seek creative, integrated solutions to large-scale and long-term problems. More even than Individualists, they can think outside the box. Their imagination is no longer constrained by conventional 
approaches while these are taken into account and not ignored or resisted as at the previous stage. 
Strong feelings are becoming of interest as indicators of something important to observe in oneself and others. Autonomous persons can see difficulties as a natural part of the human condition -- inherent 
in the dynamic interplay of multiple systems and of complex human interactions. Thus they are often more skilled at negotiating impasses and conflicts because they are not as likely as all earlier stages to 
use blaming as a defense. They can identify with others and appreciate their vulnerabilities as well as their unique strengths. Because they are aware of their own many shortcomings, hang-ups, preferences and less than ideal habits, they can express light-hearted humor directed at our general folly as human 
beings. 

Moral: Strategists genuinely feel principled anger and righteous indignation towards the injustices of the world. They will stand up against society to express their personal convictions or to uphold their 
higher, overarching principles regarding human rights and well- being. They are willing to go on the barricades and risk their lives and reputations in order to fulfill the aims of their convictions. Their anger does not usually seek a victim but is geared towards rectifying perceived ills. Because of their capacity 
for the long-term view and they often express a deep concern for the well-fare of future generations. 
They feel a challenge and the obligation to make wise decisions that will serve beyond their own time and region. Self-less sacrifice for the greater good can thus be part of an Autonomous person’s positive 
self-identification.

A Strategist’s standards for living a meaningful life are elf-evaluated and internalize. “To walk the talk” becomes an expression of one’s moral character and authenticity. One’s behavior becomes an 
expression of one’s moral principles and convictions. When irreconcilable role conflicts are discovered, there may be a deep unease and yet also a greater tolerance for feeling dissatisfied, ambivalent or confused than at earlier levels. 
One must qualify this statement because total acceptance of what is, is not yet part of the 
Strategist mindset. A serious effort towards even greater self-knowledge and self management skills remains a facet of an Autonomous person’s ideal self-image and drive towards human perfection. When they seek to become enlightened, they may make an enduring effort to “achieve” that goal with great 
seriousness and diligence. They may spend years in regular meditation practice, attending retreats, and following a particular spiritual leader or contemplative school. They may not fully realize that their very 
efforting is in contradiction with accepting what is. The tension between effort towards achieving a goal, 
even a spiritual one, and acceptance of what is may intensify at the next level of development. 
Some Autonomous persons become charismatic moral leaders who inspire others to follow their great vision of an ideal world order and a world fit for generations to come. When they defend what they 
believe to be a worthy cause, they can be courageous and disregard negative consequences for 
themselves. But they may also be overly forceful with their convictions especially when they are fueled by principled anger. The combination of charisma, moral conviction and interpersonal skills can be a dangerous combination if not kept in check. Followers often do not have the wherewithal to see the limitations and possible self-serving aspects of such a leader and his or her inspiring ideas.

Depression: Autonomous individuals become dissatisfied with their lives when they feel they have not fulfilled their unique human promise or when they have not lived up to the greatness they expect of 
themselves. Loss of courage as well as loss of a sense of self-agency and power can become great stressors. When using defenses, healthy Autonomous persons use mostly mature ones such as suppression, altruism, humor, and reframing. When they use less mature defenses, they may realize it as momentary fallback. They may therefore be able to see this behavior as context-dependent and are 
able to forgive themselves and move on. However, when they think they have failed in their precious life work and mission, they can despair and feel a deep sense loss of self. 
This shift from feeling in one’s full power to feeling no longer needed is especially common when Strategists approach retirement. There has been much ongoing gratification in being successful in their 
métier, in having raised a family (whether as a personal one, as a thought leader, or as a leader of an enterprise), and in feeling one has made a difference in the world. The question of one’s worth in one’s older, less engaged years looms large. Did one get the rewards and appreciation one was hoping for 
and if so, will it remain? How does one relax and trust that the next generation will reign as well and as consciously and learn from their mistakes along the way? One way of dealing with these questions is to 
take on the role of mentor or steward of younger leaders or an organization. When less well navigated, the perceived lack of engagement with others and/or the lack of a sense of being as loved and admired as one expected, can lead to sadness or even bitterness. Ideally, the sense of disappointment can be 
mitigated with self-compassion and an understanding of life’s whole trajectory – with its inevitable ups and downs, triumphs and losses, and with its beginning, middle and end. 

Interpersonal style: One takes responsibility for relationships while also requiring autonomy and personal space. Relationships are seen in terms of inevitable mutual interdependence. One can tolerate and appreciate others’ autonomy and their different solutions to conflict. Non-hostile, existential humor is 
beginning to be available in tense situations. 

Cognitive level:Conscious preoccupation: Strategists are concerned with self-actualization, self-fulfillment, and legacy issues. They are interested in the psychology of self and coming to terms with their preferences and conflicting needs . 

Chief anxiety: a) not to fulfill one’s personal potential, b) not to self-actualize, c) not to live up to or neglect those global principles of justice, tolerance etc. one holds dear above any others, and d) loss of 
courage.
 
Defenses: Mostly mature ones: suppression, positive reframing, altruism, and non hostile humor
When using less mature defenses, one can be forgiving and understanding towards the ego

Representatives: Charismatic individuals who are ready for personal sacrifice in order to defend through personal example the moral principles they believe in. Visionary leaders with the capacity to see 
how systems interrelate and are aware of the long-term implications of their choices.

Language clues: Autonomous persons use a complex, flexible syntax; with a wide array of topics and concerns. They try to do justice to the complexity of life in their verbal expressions. They try to present a coherent exposition of their thinking and themselves. They use differentiated psychological 
vocabulary and understand circular causality in human relations. “Authenticity, evolution, transformation, 
higher principles, life purpose, authenticity and self-fulfillment” are among favored concepts. “Both/and” as well as “either/or” thinking is used in combination or alone depending on the context.
Source: cook-greuter.com 
 
 
 

CONCEPTUAL TRUTH = MISTAKING YOUR CONCEPTUAL SYSTEMS FOR EXISTENTIAL TRUTH -- CONCEPTUAL TRUTH IS THE KING OF ALL TRAPS
I’m gonna tell this thought-story one more time here, hopefully it’s clear haha.  That depends mostly on me.  It’s hard to be clear as a Communicator.  You gotta take pains to be.  And of course my intuition of clarity emerges out of my Perspective, right.  How unwise of me to assume that others share my Perspective.  I know I’m a different kinda dude, so that’s almost guaranteed haha.  We’re all different and should therefore appreciate and embody Perspective and the ‘Difference Model’.
Can you see the difference between Existential Truth and Conceptual Truth yet?  Existential Truth is pre-conceptual BE-ing.  Conceptual Truth is a paradigm in a Perspective’s Conceptual Understanding that basically tracks Tier-One Epistemology.  So lemme explain what Tier-One Epistemology is.  Tier One Epistemology assumes two paradigms and I wanna add a third.  Let’s start with the first two — the concepts of an External World and Conceptual Truth about that External World.  So, Tier-One Epistemology is really about meaning because it’s about trying to encapsulate Truth in thought.  Now, I wanna add a third paradigm, and that’s the Ego Paradigm.  I’m not gonna say much about the Ego Paradigm and it’s not that relevant to this Discourse.  I just wanted to note here it so I can deal with it later.
Existential Truth is never gonna get encapsulated or captured by Conceptual Truth.  This is what you discover when you become Enlightened, and then you embody this fully.  Existential Truth must be located through a process of seeking Enlightenment.  So, you see, Enlightenment is required to reach Tier-Two Epistemology and to discover Existential Truth. 
 

WHAT’S MY CURRENT VIEW ON THE EGO AND THE MIND?
Mind is a useful shorthand to explain things, but doesn't technically exist.  Ego as it's commonly understood is too slippery of a concept.  I wanna suggest that we use Ego primarily in two senses.  The first sense is roughly synonymous with self-image, the second sense is an emergent property of a complex adaptive system.  I think both of these senses cover 90% of the usage of Ego as it's applied to people -- let's call them Perspectives.  Now, keep in mind that these conceptual systems are just thought-stories, models.  The question is always, what utility do these thought-stories have to you, ok.  So, don't limit yourself by these models, these thought-stories, these conceptual systems.  Are you starting to get my style of thinking?  Existential Truth is not limited by conceptual systems.  This is the reason why thought-stories like Freud and Jung can actually hurt you if clung to too tightly -- it can cause limiting beliefs.  You gotta be careful with psychology!  You do psychology, don't let psychology do you.  For people that are still living within the Ego Paradigm, the 'Mind conceptual system' is gonna resonate with them more than a dude that's been on the path for a long time.  The unconscious and subconscious are thought-stories -- are they useful, yes.  Do they mislead people too, yes.  You gotta draw a bright-line between Existential Truth and the Conceptual Understanding.  Can you do that yet?  That's called not conflating thoughts and awareness -- you gotta know how to make that separation.  That Enlightenment.  Enlightenment is being able to make a clear distinction between Existential Truth and the Conceptual Understanding.  Thoughts exist in reality, thought-stories not so much.  But thought-stories are our greatest tool too, see.  We're a system-building animal.
 

I bookmarked this.  I’ll edit this tomorrow with a response.

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Dear Nadosa, 
I haven't yet posted on this forum. I've been spying around to gather necessary pieces for my development, but when I was reading your post I felt a very strong urge to share some of my thoughts.
I've been feeling the same way for almost a year. I was constantly torn between all the polarities, with-in and with-out. After what seemed like a very profound time of my life and my old paradigms were shattered, I seemed utterly confused. I wasn't able to maintain balance in any of the aspects of my being. At one moment I would feel miserable and the next I would experience the most gentle joys of life. I've had rare occasions where I was being pulled away from my body, but because of my physical and mental imbalance there was no way to maintain such high states of energy. One specific time it happened, about 4 months ago, it was so intense and terrifying that I pulled the plug. I told myself, 'I'm done with all this enlightenment bull... It gives me nothing and yet I'm suffering for it.'.
I gave up all of my spiritual aspirations. I decided instead of destroying the ego, I would nurture it. I started exercising, attending more social events and be more involved in my relationships. This is when I noticed that my ego was not just my enemy, it was also my friend and it should have been all of my life. I had an unhealthy ego when I started doing spiritual work, which is how I unconsciously picked up a very nihilistic undertone. 'If there is an absolute, then I have nothing to do here. All is done. All is good anyways.', but that's all a bunch of non-sense. There's plenty to do, in fact, there's everything to do.
The main problem I was having was that I didn't know what I wanted from life. After coming back into contact with my ego, pondering new studies, working out and reading several books it became clear to me that I have little to no desire for any external pleasure. All the pleasures in the world wouldn't satisfy me. The only thing that really fulfills me is to feel limitless, one and devoted to 'that which is not'. Now, I'm back on track with my meditation and yogic practices. This time with a new and improved engine!
My advice to you is, don't worry, you're doing great! Do what you love and embrace ego. Don't reject it, because what you resist, persists! And when you've gathered enough positive energy in your life spiritual development will happen naturally. 
Yes, life may be meaningless, one big cosmic joke. Yes, at times you would wish you'd forget everything you learned about this metaphysical circus that people are trying to properly communicate to the world. But thoughts like this won't help you, unless you'd rather fall instead of fly. Walk lightly and be as grateful and mindful as suits you. 
 
If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to pm me or ask for my personal email. Wish you all the best! Take care! <3
With all the love and light,
Steve

@now is forever I don't think that there is any 'wanting' involved. It is perfectly mechanical and 'will' is just a manifestation of its operation.
I also think that there is no way to train ego to do anything, as ego doesn't exist.
Ego is like the periphery of your vision. The boundary between seen and unseen.
It is in effect when you miss that you are all of it - the seen and unseen.
Everybody, always, misses that. Even the nondual, enlightened folk.
When you look at a cup to examine it, you are not aware what is at the other side of the cup.
If you turn the cup around, it always has the other side that you don't see.
You can stand in front of a mirror and look at the other side, but you are now looking at a mirror, not at a cup.
Even worse, you are not looking at both sides simultaneously. You can still look at one side at a time.
If you align a cup in a way that it would show you both sides at the same time - you will obstruct its reflection in the mirror.
You always, necessarily look at something from a certain perspective.
Even if you employ a mirror, which is a metaphor for self-awareness/the mind.
So, you are always stuck at a certain perspective even if you know, that there is the other side.
You may think that you're smart and know that there is the other side, but you never know how it will manifest itself, so you cannot take account for it.
When you have a plan that accounts for your truth/perspective, the other side will manifest itself.
If you greet it with curiosity and openness - you have to let go of your plan.
If you greet it firmly and try to conquer it - you have to let go of the results.
Knowledge will not let you recognize the other side. Intuition will. It is always different.
It always goes meta on itself.
There is no way to outsmart it, as you are it.
@Preetom has experienced it as a dead, mechanical thing that runs. That is correct.
The alive quality of reality comes from the fact that you defend yourself against the other side.
The moment that you start to think that you are smarter than reality, it stops being dead and starts to be alive.
The game is on and you are the prey. It will remind you of your place.
It will dominate you and show you how insignificant your spark of consciousness is.
The sharper and smarter you are, the smarter and sharper it is. It's in perfect balance, as the seen and the unseen are symmetric.
You can only witness intelligence in its dead, mechanical, nature if you submit to it and help it. Not the other way around.
Then, there is no benefit or utility in using it, but there is only beauty.
The less you that benefits and controls is, the faster and faster it runs.
The more beautiful it becomes. Pure bliss.

There are always 3 stages of this game:
I don't know what I'm doing. I know what I'm doing. I try to use my knowledge to conquer the game. The first stage is when you feel lost.
The second stage is when you feel progress.
The third stage is when you suffer because you don't know that you play a different game.
When you know the rules of the game (like you laid them out in the OP), there is only the stage of conquering and suffering.
It signifies the moment that you should know that you don't know. To return back to square one and feel lost.
This is done by surrendering to your suffering. To give up.
If you give up so thoroughly that you give up yourself, you become the spectator.
You can enjoy the irresistibility of your suffering. The game just goes on without the player.

Playing is pointless, but there is fun.
Using is problematic, but there are solutions.
Solving problems is the greatest fun.
Pointless fun is the greatest problem.
Reality is perfect.

When you play to win, there is no reward.
When playing is rewarding, there is no you to win. 
No rewards means no losses.
No you means no suffering.
You are being a playful being.

Thoughts come and go.
If you wish them to come, you regret that they go.
If you wish them gone, you regret that they came.
Thoughts wish and regret.