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1) Intention My intention for this trip was to consciously re-experience and release something which was probably my birth process. I am not sure whether this was actually my birth process but it seems very likely if I compare my experience to Stanislav Grof's description of a perinatal experience. I chose that intention because this "theme" was occurring for at least six of my previous trips. It was clear to me that something important, unpleasant and dense wanted to be experienced consciously and released. I was not thrilled to do this trip because I felt pretty good and I knew that, like my past trips, this one will be very unpleasant, confusing and exhausting. 2) Preparation & come up I went outside and practiced different movements (pullups, capoeira etc.). When I arrived at home, I meditated for 30 minutes and then I took the tab. During the come up phase I like to do Yoga because it helps to transition into the psychedelic state smoothly. After half an hour of that, I sat on my bed and was wandering about who I am. I was looking for the "I" but could not find it. At some point I noticed a feeling in my gut that was getting stronger and stronger. 3) A very complicated feeling After a while I had to lay down because this feeling was now dominating my experience. I recognized this feeling from previous trips, so I knew what was coming next. It was a very complicated feeling which is difficult to describe. It felt like a mixture of the following: undifferentiated pain, struggle and suffering, a sense of enduring something very difficult, a lot of frustration, tension in the head, a "knot" in the stomach which was accompanied with small convulsions. Similar to my previous trips, I had a strong desire to move around in my bed, crawling in and out of blankets covering my head and pushing with the legs. 4) Those poor babies This struggle went on for at least one hour. After some time I also felt anger and the desire to bite things. Furthermore I have noticed a shift taking place. The feelings of suffering and pain turned almost into lust. Towards the end, I felt that the knot in my stomach was gone and I could finally breathe deeply into my belly, which was very pleasant. Later, as I was more able to cognize what was happening, I noticed that going through this experience as an adult is pretty rough but just the thought that small babies experience something like this, broke me into tears. After grieving a little bit, I felt love, a sense of proud and empowerment for being able to go through this. It felt like this birth experience or whatever it was, was finally released fully. I was laying still, just enjoying breathing deeply. 5) Absorption into the LSD sound As I was laying around, I became very introspective. There was an interesting sound which I recognized from a previous trip. (maybe a typical LSD sound?). As I listened to it, I became more and more absorbed and fascinated by it. The focus on the sound was so strong that I only noticed in retrospect that "I" almost disappeared while listening to it. Shortly after that, my normal cognitive processes reappeared and I felt almost sober. As I opened my eyes, I felt joy, harmony, inner peace and a general sense that everything will be alright. 6) I went outside and met my old Yoga teacher I prepared some fruit and went outside because the weather was fantastic. I went to a park nearby, laid around and practiced different movements like handstand and juggling. I recognized an old yoga teacher whose classes I went to a year ago, he was balancing on a slackline between two trees. It was funny to see him because I remember he once told us in class that he is doing yoga for over 40 years, but here he was getting angry because he could not stay balanced on the slackline without falling off quickly. Anyway, I went up to him, we talked a little bit and he let me try to balance on the slackline. 7) Psychedelics and movement I have noticed that it is much easier to learn new movement skills when you are on a psychedelic, because you get a very fine tuned feeling sense. Joe Rogan once talked about MMA fighters who microdose which helps them to "see the movements of opponents before they happen". It was much easier for me to practice handstand and I could stand a few seconds longer then when I am sober. I also was able to learn how to juggle with my left hand in just 10 minutes and as I tried to balance on the slackline for the first time in my life, my yoga teacher could not believe that it was my first time trying this, because I could maintain balance, walk forwards, backwards and do pistol squats on the slackline almost instantly. 8) Conclusion I am happy that this birth process thing is finally worked through. It has been three weeks since this trip and I still feel much better. What I find surprising is that similar trip reports are hard to find. I have never heard or read trip reports about birth trauma except in Stanislav Grof's books. Christopher M. Bache also mentioned having gone through perinatal experiences in his book. I can imagine (because it happened to me in the past) that for someone who is starting to experiment with psychedelics and who had only heard trip reports about machine elves, consciousness, insights and God, could find this experiences to be very confusing and disturbing. 9) What I have learned - A "theme" such as the birth process can last for several trips until it is completely released, in my case it lasted for 7 trips - A lot of times, if the "theme" is not worked through completely in one session, at the end of the session you can feel like something is not done yet, there may be no sense of release or natural conclusion which feels very uncomfortable. - Also, during the days, weeks and months after some of the "incomplete" trips, I was feeling worse, depressed, sometimes very angry, addiction behavior increased and I had a more negative and pessimistic outlook towards the future, which made it very undesirable for me to do more tripping.

@giglioWow, this guy's evidence is so anecdotal vs statistically based. The only stat he has is 20 complaints and his arguement about the 20 complaints is the most anecdotal I've ever heard. I won't entertain that. He uses words like a whole lot, many, most, vs. stats/hard numbers. He argues about the framing of the article versus addressing the meat and content. Also, I wasn't going to address this because it is irrelevant and a distraction, but I will anyways. At what point is a person no longer labeled a criminal? If you've ever gotten a speeding ticket in your life, then you are a criminal, using this man's definition. And no this did not address Ira Toles or the Leroy Martinez incident which Chauvin was involved in, but not the shooter. Here's what that looked like " Leroy Martinez, 23, was spotted running from the scene while brandishing a handgun and the officers gave chase, according to local reports. Terry Nutter, one of the cops, shot Martinez. An eyewitness challenged the police’s claim that Martinez was holding a gun when he was shot, according to Insider, which cited a report in the Star Tribune. Delora Iceman told the Star Tribune that Martinez had dropped the pistol and held his arms in the air before cops gunned him down." Yeah, I believe both cases need to be reopened. Anywho, I'm done with this thread. I've said all I need to say. Deuces!

@LaucherJunge Well it depends on how you look at sociopolitical issues. One could propose that the government is the very product of the people that exists beneath it. So the nuke would really be the citizens and the pistol the government. Also depends on how you think a government works. Naive people assume that government can just eradicate a population in mere seconds, not accounting for the deep complexity that goes into such an act. These things are not as simple as it is led to be believed. Would your statement not also suggest foolishness in trying to attack someone with bigger artillery than you?

@Jacobsrw I would be worried about people with actual means to create dangerous weapons. You are pointing at a pistol, while someone is aiming a nuke at your back. And the guy with the pistol is not actually aiming at you but at the people operating the nuke behind you.

I did not know where to post this, but I have one question: I watched Yogi on YouTube, doing a workout, he did some pistol Squats but called them a different name... He did not talk about this but after the video, I ended up thinking about: Can "what people in the west call: workout" be turned into a meditation? If so how? After watching that video, I don't think that working out is only for getting bigger muscles, it can actually increase consciousness, if ancient yogis did it...If so how?

Conservatism is total Garbage. It's about monopolising natural resources and the apparatus of the state, to externalise costs. I'd prefer Whigism. But they lost any major political force, when they dissolved into the Abolitionist movement in the USA pre-civil war and were replaced by The Republican Party. And in the UK post WW1 when women received suffrage, and their voting base was large killed. They did dominate in the Victorian era as the Whigs & Liberal Party, and under George II. If any President is that bad, there should be pistol duels, by members of the Senate, at least. Any judiciary can be co-opted by powers, both foreign and domestic.

@Bodigger Counter-intuitively owning any weapon makes you less safe overall so that argument is off the table. By having laws in place that allow YOU to own a gun to "protect" yourself and your family, you enable the crazy guy owning a gun as well and guess what this is a lot worse than neither of you having any gun. The latest las vegas shooting didn't have one AR but 21 suitcases of both AR's and lots of ammo. It is unreasonable being able to own AR's let alone such a quantity of them. Also, the Orlando nightclub shooting involved an AR. At the very least if you have to have a gun, a pistol is just fine you don't need such caliber type of weapon, it is over the top. If you actually investigate the biggest mass shootings they all involved an AR-type of weapon, this is a red flag. At the end of the day, guns wouldn't be a problem if you didn't have so many radicals fueled with racism and hatred in America. You see when the media and the president radicalize naive and ignorant people against Mexicans, gays and blacks, the fool sees it as a good move to go out and kill a bunch of those people. This is the root of the issue and the only longterm solution is quality education. It is no coincidence the average Trump voter fits perfectly the American stereotype of a Texas redneck

There's like a lot of universal qualifiers and in this post. "No" "always" "all". Drop them. Add nuance. Well a girl can walk up to you with a pistol and threaten to shoot you. In this case you'd call her evil and not amazing because you did think you were so amazing. There is very little use for words such as "always" never" "all" "none". And luck may exist but it is best to assume that it does not.

It's like saying: "I don't understand why I shouldn't shoot with a bazooka when you never even held a pistol." Only that with psychedelics it's way more drastic then this metaphor.

As you know that I suffer from generalized anxiety. I was trying to find a way for doing exercise without gym because I got fired by my uncle. So once I tried to run and do pistol squats it ended up in a catastrophe which increased the level of anxiety and decreased the level of concentration and emotional intelligence. So I find out that I had to start all over again with concentration and meditation much more than I used too but I also realized that there are two types of awarenesses emotional and rational so now I´m gonna start balancing those two types of energies.

What has worked and is working for me is strength training 3x a week at the gym (mainly compound movements - weighted pull-ups, benchpress, pistol squats - with a few accesory excercises) and walking a lot while maintaining a healthy and permisive nutrition (I do eat chocolate everyday, even when I cut). After 3 months of following this kind of programme I slimmed down from 65kg to 55kg (15% to 9% bodyfat) while putting on muscle. Then, on the same programme I put 10 kg back on (5kg of muscle) in about 7 months then slimmed back to 60 kg (10% bodyfat) and now am at 65kg (10% bodyfat) going for 74 kg at a height of 175 cm. All of this meaning a replacement of 10kg of fat with 10kg of muscle in about 1-1.5 years. Gone from not being able to do 5 CHIN-UPS to now being able to do 5 PULL-UPS with 30kg attached . Gone from not being able to hold balance properly on one leg to doing 5 strict one legged pistol squats with 10kg dumbbells. 1. The biggest advice I can give from all my endeavour is to take care of your shoulders at any time when doing heavy lifting. The rotator cuff tendons are highly sensitive and can be torn with one simple but sudden movement. Before you attempt benchpressing of any sort, or doing any shoulder exercise, research the proper form online (10 TIMES OVER - and then 10 times more). - this also applies to any exercise you haven't done before. The risk of injury increases exponentially with the amount of weight used. 2. Also, don't listen to 99% of people when it comes to fitness advice. If the person doesn't look anywhere near how you would like to look, don't take advice from them. In case of older people, take advice only from the ones that had prior professional experience in the fitness industry. Use commons sense. I wasted a lot of years taking advice from the wrong people and thus limiting my potential. 3. Not all online fitness courses are scams. There are thousands of good and bad ones. Find the course that best fits your needs and lifestyle (I personally followed Kinobody's programs, to whom I owe almost all my gains) and STICK TO IT. 4. A healthy body is built 20% in the gym and 80% in the kitchen. No matter how hard you train, if you can't facilitate the body's recovery through healthy nutrition (including the appropriate amount of food depending on your goals) you will not see ANY KIND OF RESULTS. I wasted my first 2 years of lifting not making any kind of progress because I didn't know what/how much and when to eat. It's calories in, calories out. Research as much as possible. I could ramble for another 10 hours as I have made every mistake there is to make when it comes to fitness and nutrition, so I will cut this short and you guys can ask me any questions you want. I will try to reply ASAP.

GTITurbolover - lol - what an ignorant close-minded arrogant fuckhead you are. Ego is a concept. There exist no egos ultimately All that really exist is the non-duality of being. Nervous systems has the ability to seperate the non-dual pure 'Being' into duality. Duality is simply the seperation of pure 'Being' into: 1. the individual ego that thinks it exist (the internal world) ||||| 2. everything that that 'ego' doesn't define as himself (the external world)' This is the duality of life - living as an ego. The greater the seperation of pure non-dual Being into duality, the greater the created ego has a capacity to suffer. What does the seperation depend on? For all we know the seperation depends on the complexity of the nervous system. For all we can observe, it's the nervous system that creates the seperation of the non-duality into duality. The more complex nervous system, the more capacity there is for suffer. Now, imagine you self very hungry standing in a very beautiful garden. The sky is blue. The sun is shining. You are hungry. Surrounded by you in the garden is everything you could imagine putting in your mouth: - potato crops and crops with other food - trees with nuts - living cows, pigs, chickens who are standing peacefully around you - a pool with fish living in peace - trees with apples, fruits and so on. - bushes with berries There is an outdoor kitchen in the garden with everything you need to cook. Knives and so on. There even is a pistol so you quickly kill the animals to cook them if you want to. If you shoot them in the head they will die so quickly that they won't feel any pain at all. What do you do? Do you kill the pig lying next to you, taking a bath in the sun, so you can get some nice meat and cook it on the pan? Or do you simply go for the potatoes in the earth, the nuts hanging from the trees, the berries from the bushes, the fruits from the trees? I think most people would go for the vegetarian food. Yet, when we're in the supermarket, it's so fucking easy to buy the treated meat in the refrigerated counter. It's at least easy if you give zero fucks about how the meat got here in the supermarket. I guess most eat-meaters give zero fucks. And that's fine. Some people happen to give a fuck, somehow.