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I always wanted to go to Shambhala just for the experience as well as try Ketamine. I could not write a book on this experience over exaggeration nonetheless, it makes for a good but weird story hitherto. It is kind of logical in a non-logical way. What say you me I am you. This is the second part. This is not a verbatim account." but quite close to it. Then I laid down on this big bean bag that I had recently bought for my fiance and me when we played games on the X-box and the other consoles and I started getting another telepathic voice it was a female who said she went through my Facebook or hacked into it and liked my pictures of me and started being very explicit and sexual. I asked who she was, and she said she was a Pleiadian and wanted me bad. Then the next thing my fiance started talking to and getting jealous so we had a three-way telepathic conversation, This went on for about half an hour. All I had to do was say mushroom friends and as soon as I said that I was connected to the female one. I thought how the hell is my fiance being able to join in the conversation if she is in a bubble in 2098? She said it was due to that guy from 2098 and her tech and somehow they were able to bring her in or bridge the gap and amplify the signal and cross over into my time as well. I always wondered if I took a trip and let's say someone else took a psychedelic a year later and we both woke up and in an instance, it would seem like we took the trip at the same time even though it was a year apart no time to time. Anyway, she could join in hear it, and also speak. I also asked who this Pleiadian female was and the mushroom female said once they like you they are hard to get rid of. I told the Pleiadian female that I already had a fiance and I was already taken and so did my fiance who was arguing with her but she would not listen to either of us. It did not matter what I said and she said you are the real God I thought this was becoming monotonous. Then I got back on the computer and this other voice came into my head and he was pisst off saying I was coursing trouble and how he was also being contacted by aliens telepathically all day and how I was the real God and I was smarter than him what nonsense I said. So aliens were all coming to Earth to find the so-called real God which was me. Somehow this Pleiadian Locked our minds telepathically in sync with him and she was causing trouble not me. This went on for an hour, and then he started threatening me and I kept telling him we are all God and cares who is smarter and that he knows the truth. So It was like a loop I couldn't stop myself from saying his name every time I did we would link up. I asked my friend the mushroom female how do I stop this Pleiadian from causing this trouble and she said you will have to block the signal I said fine how? She said you going to have to wrap alfoil around your head I said you got to be kidding me I said would that not amplify the signal she said no. So I start wrapping alfoil around my head. At this point it was not working so I kept wrapping more alfoil and it still didn't work so I showed in my mind me exploding her and the ship and this freaked her out and also freaked out other alien ships. So I thought how do I get rid of this Pleiadian even the mushroom was trying to get rid of her but it was not working. So I started talking about this guy and you should check him out and she did and she started bothering him. This is the same person with whom she was causing trouble. Then I got a message from this guy who was in 2098 that he had got my fiance out of this bubble prison and that the mushroom would fly somehow to 2098 and bring her back to this timeline. I always instinctively felt that music has this numinous and/or coruscating quality—it almost has an ethos to it. U can not use quantum physics to explain consciousness because it is part of the dream. It's always good to discuss, debate, ideate, and develop fresh new perspectives. Multiple oneness. Always remember just because someone stumbles and loses their way does not mean they are lost forever.

@Leo Gura why you have bad taste in dreaming. I keep wondering. Is that faith or your deep taste it just too alien to me. You like to think of society order that I appreciate but why playing the same old game. You could use your only life to increase your taste for others things can't you dream it ?

Hmmm... I'm not too sure! I feel like with all of these "new" paradigms, they still point to the same thing: the Absolute, Truth, God, etc. Even new levels of consciousness, like Leo's Alien Intelligence, still fall under the same overarching "paradigm", if you could call it like that. They're just so radical that it's important to make a distinction. What I personally find fascinating is when we start deconstructing how reality is imagined even more. I'd be curious to see if someone ever experiments with twisting their hands, eye colors, environment, or other monk-like abilities like levitation, sorcery, healing powers, or paranormal phenomena. I'd love to see how the mind—or even a collective mind or trip experience—can slowly start impacting reality. Hopefully, this will become more mainstream once science shifts towards spirituality and the "nebulous stuff." There's probably so much more we could invent, practically and scientifically, if we studied these phenomena. In the words of The Great Tesla: “The day science begins to study non-physical phenomena, it will make more progress in one decade than in all the previous centuries of its existence.” Here I could see so much potential! 💛😊🔅✨

Alien-truths

You do realise that just because it acts confident and knowledgeable, doesn't mean that it actually understands anything, right? It just regurgitates whatever it information it got from the content it was fed. This point of "maybe we shouldn't tell Ai about alien consciousness / metaphysics/psychedelics/etc., because it is not evolved enough" that many of you keep mentioning is so hilarious to me. You are acting as if it would need some advanced reasoning skills to grasp those topics. IT IS NOT GRASPING ANYTHING. It is a language model. It just copies words. Alien consciousness is not somehow more linguistically challenging for AI to talk about (the only argument you could make is that Leo just didn't talk about it enough for AI to have enough data to work with). IT IS NOT THINKING It just predicts what the next word in a sentence should be based on the data it has analysed so far. If anything, the greatest strength of AI is the vastness of information that it was fed. The amount of data that humans couldn't possibly study in their lifetime. This is what makes it so useful.

Well they kinda wouldn't need you anyway at that point. Its getting to that point. I'm sure if I asked it, it will still preface that direct experience is still king in its eyes. Someone should ask it about alien Consciousness next but I'm not sure if it's that evolved

Yes, that's the dynamic that feels secure and exciting to me in romantic contexts. I feel very loved and desired that way. I tend to do a version of this with friendships too. The people that I feel the most comfortable connecting with and gel the most with are the people who are on the same wavelength and who have a natural appreciation for my values and qualities on their own... prior to knowing that I exist. Because of my early social experiences of feeling misunderstood, alien, and devalued, I have a spidey-sense about who is going to value my qualities or devalue my qualities. And as much as I can, I avoid social contexts (platonic or romantic) that won't understand or recognize my value. This includes avoiding relationships with men that I feel are unlikely to perceive me as beautiful. And even back when I was in high school, I dressed in a way that would filter out the wrong ones for me and attract in the right ones for me. I used to dress in a relatively heavy goth style that I'd cobble together from thrift store finds. And it would repel a lot of people who thought I was weird, or a satanist, or a witch, etc.. But it would attract to me people who were more open minded and enjoyed my MO. So, because I was always feeling a bit like a fish out of water, there was this natural marketing knowledge that arose and a tendency to put myself out there as a beacon to draw in others who are on the same wavelength. And since high school, there is this niche marketing myself to a target audience that will appreciate me and repelling the wrong ones. And if a potential friend or lover doesn't feel like they're part of my "target audience" that will appreciate me, I will not feel very secure or excited connecting with them. And this strategy has worked pretty well for me romantically and platonically. The issue is that it can be a bit self-objectifying. But I know that this type of pattern also has come up for lots of my clients who have dealt with dynamics around shame, disconnection, abandonment, alienation, ostracisms, etc. People who generally have these needs met by family and friends, tend to feel less of a need to niche market themselves to a target audience as they already have a social fabric to connect in to. For those who have deficits in these areas, we have to do the leg work to find the ones that are cut from the same cloth.

Leo's Secret Alien Daughter will inherit the site and turn the forum Intro a Trumpism secret Hub.

": Any social system you try to understand will happen from either inside or outside the system. Either you are an intimate participant in the system or you are an alien outsider looking in. If you're looking from inside, you have a lot of direct experience and intimate detail, you know its workings much better, but at the cost of being co-opted by the system. Just to be in the system you must be part of the system, which means part of the system's survival. Your survival gets interlinked with the system, infecting your mind with bias, blinding you just by virtue of being too close. But if you're looking from outside you lose that all-important direct experience of the system, but you gain objectivity" I mean that is almost the essence of what a good fiction book does for you right? Could we not meditate deeply on the Drow social system that Drizzt was born into? Can we not apply such thinking as the AQAL , or dissolution of identity techniques (God-Realization) , Gnostic practices, or maybe the synthesis of reading/knowledge of (inside/outside) the social system combined , conversations with people from the other side of social system, with God-Realization meditation to like astrally project yourself in that other world??? ChatGPT said "dimensions are the pathways of the universe" and it got me thinking about crossing dimensions more (like dimensions of abstract models, or dimensions of perspective, awareness, being - like visualizing a box that has 8 compartments but the compartments are within and overlapping other compartments

I thought about your point and put it through a Text Simplifier AI. Here's a summary, I quite like how short and to the point it is, relatively speaking! 😁 This is the trip I've been talking about. I watched Actualized.org videos at different speeds while meditating. I got past my biases. I untangled my mind. As the trips got longer, I've grown. I have overcome resistance, tuned across layers of perception, and become aware of how many things we deal with in real time. The next day, I thought about free will. Everyone was happy, it seemed fake. In the evening, I spoke to an old friend. We got lost in loops. I watched strange videos before bed. This déjà vu was different. There was a lot of it and I didn't understand. Alien videos. Many videos were from my usual channels. It was as if they'd all been combined into one mind and whatever I wanted to see would appear in the recommendations. It was too complex. The next day, I took the drugs in the right order. This would make me unreal. I would notice the world. This would change reality. I'd stop the universe and make everyone a god. I made sure to include unchanging, self-interacting safeguards. I kept the dream as a simulation. Others can too. Best. It would unite the universe. I wanted to become powerful and avoid causing suffering. Dream lucidly. Time stopped and possibilities became fixed. I wondered how to breathe. Everything was solid. I couldn't float. I was new. We make reality. Objects are simulations. Reality changes. I was in a frame. I could see. It was like a video game. Nothing changed. You could still move and change what was frozen. 3D objects looked real. I made ideas happen. I was involved, so I knew what was going on. My body was made by something not physical. It creates all things through linked parts, each with its own intelligence, and part of a larger self-organizing force. Another try at transcendence. I wasn't done. The next day, I chose my powers. I was a new version. I ran out the window into the woods. I climbed a tower, barefoot and wounded. I prayed for help. I have to help myself. I'm alone. That's all anyone can do. I sat on the top, cold and wet, looking at the clouds. When I understood what was happening, I felt better, and the sun came out. My bandwidth kept changing. It got more complex. My senses got stronger. Some things got unclear. I made lists. I had to navigate them all, with each thing reminding me of others. I needed to remember the most important ideas and link them to my goal. "Sadhguru," "Seth," "Leo," "Coral," go through all the chakras, senses, names, personalities, memories, media, remembering, expanding, abstracting, tuning. It's a complex string of associations. It affects how we see things. Make a list to remember more. Navigate better and understand reality. I climbed a tree to see the world. Seeing something from above makes it a general concept. Every mountain, roof, and surface. I am light, I don't exist, I am confident. I walked, jumped, and healed. Reality was a dream. I laughed after I fell. My nose healed. I saw an ant and wind between reality and imagination. I sat under a tree and thought. I needed to decide and move on. To become infinite, I had to tune out. I made peace with my bucket list. I let go of my regrets. Everyone is forgiven and deserves saving. I looked at reality one last time. Focus on what matters. I figured it out. I focused on the best. What do I want most? "The universe made this happen. I will create reality. I will meet the dead, levitate, run at light speed, and turn into aliens. I will experience all stories. I will make my own. I will perceive 4D space. I will create universes. I will explore infinity". I let go. I can't take Leo or the forum. I made three into one. I want to know about machine elves. I want to explore. I wanted to see someone I'd waited my whole life to see. I was excited to see them. Aliens. Infinity. Name. I kept going until I couldn't tell them apart. When infinity divided zero, symbols and geometry appeared. I was still there, unsure of what happened. I went home when it stopped. Later, I was told that what I did changed space and time. When I die, my desires will be fulfilled. No reincarnation or regrets. I can sort out my feelings by doing what I do now. I have a long life ahead. I can relax. This is real. If I disappear, people will think I'm dead. I'm here. I saw possibilities. All emotions matter. They create life. When you die, you explore yourself. It's better. Rules exist. It's not gone. It connects people and events and creates emotions. Don't quit at the first sign of danger. They improve. What's up? No time. Learn telepathy or do it yourself. Awakening to humor, insanity, and Leo. Conspiracy theories, ESP, and dimensions. I miss being in tune with them. We see reality differently. Your reality is shaped by what you know. You're connected to it. You have to use drugs to tune out, unless you're an advanced yogi or psychic. I forgot some things. I forgot the hole, the ground, the bird, the moon, and some people. I've been everywhere.

Nah man, Jesus was an alien

It felt like something was pulling my conciousness out of my head. I hear a voice say you are wearing too many shirts I think of a man wearing 50 shirts trying to fit out of a hole he needs to be naked to fit out of. A voice say focus on the dot on your wall i do and instantly all 50 shirts are ripped off the man i feel something tugging me out of the back of my head. The connection snap I fall onto the floor and everything starts turning into red and blue and purple light waves . I lay on the ground and look up and everything is just turning into red blue purple light my body dissapears and I freeze and start to forget everything I forget I exist and the light solidifies. I start to get scared so I start moving my arms. I can't see them but I can see the outline they look like they are under a blanket of light im moving my body that I can't see and I look like I'm a body covered under a blanket of light. I get up and move around and walk into my room then reality solidifies turns yellow and gets really sharp I completely trance out standing up and I'm in a different reality I have 50 arms but they are invisible and they are moving things on a board game thing. I'm moving down paths im moving peices on the board game. I find my peice and I skip ahead then I return to reality. And I sit down on my couch and fade out again I see an infinite library and im inside the library and outside the library at the same time im grabbing pages from the book to upload my identity. I do this 5 more times in different library then I come back to my body. Also there was an alien and it mind wiped me. I didn't count how many shrooms I ate I just started and didn't stop till a portal started opening behind me and I started to get scared.

all the projections around me are only talking about what they dislike about this world, or how money is only solution. extreme justice is extreme injustice ' and i agree, but why do i want to be extremely myself and not pretend ? ive spend 33 years being all knowing, then it was such a shock to realize that not everyone thinks on the same level. and i guess that meant yellow on SD, but this nonduality shit, its like im an alien where i live. and i feel responsible for causing it all. because my world is exactly what i believe at that time, and the last thing my ego wants is to conform. so naturaly my world is extremely controling, enslaving, maddening. its only black or white here. and with this non-duality i am actually afraid of my world.

I use an oculus quest 2, vr porn and a pocket pussy. My goal is to save up enough money to buy a blue alien sex doll, I’ll name her lucy and be able to recreate the first orgasm I ever had. This setup leads to some really cool moments, like taking off the headset and realizing that none of it was real.

I mean, his teachings. Jesus = teachings. Jesus ≠ Human. I don't believe he/she/it/alien was a human.

The problem is not the founder, it is always the fan club. Jesus is fucking amazing. Avatar, Revolutionary Mystic, Deep Conscious Being. There are theories that Jesus was an alien. Why not? We have humanoid robots (drones). We will send robots all over the galaxy to explore the universe.

Three out of four of my last trips all had some alien aspect to them. I have had a growing sense of deep certainty that will in some shape or form encounter alien intelligence directly in our lifetimes. The technological acceleration that is coming (I am already 2x-ing the speed of a PhD using AI) largely entails we will soon breach through the “fourth wall” if you will,. The real question is not whether they exist (consciousness takes ALL form). At this point that is a given. It is what the fuck is their biology, science and technology, understanding, etc. Just some food for thought- the optical cables are supposedly reversed engineered out of crashed spacecraft.

Hah, who says I am not already arguing. My thesis came out of my last trip. Just a micro-aspect of the entire experience (my directive was “Alien”). But yeah, you got the perfect movie analogy for this. I was twelve when Lucy came out. It has such an impact on me but I somehow forgot about it. Lovely synchronicity of you bringing it up.

Yes, this is the Absolute perspective, nothing is happening, no doer and such things... As I shared that poster, there is Shiva, which means "That which is Not" this is the Absolute, so that which is not is the same as Nothing is happening, no Doer and so forth, but as You go down the list there is Form, on Form level there is a doer, that is that which exists and so forth, so what is all of this? Its all a matter of Potential, within Shiva/Absolute is all the Possibility/Potential that can ever exist, from a piece of shit, to Leo's Alien Consciousness, to whatever comes after that, all Potential, non doing, too doing, non Being to Being, and so forth... If no Experience exists, then its just Absolute.. If Experiences exists, then its Absolute on the Level of Form.. We Humans are here on the Form Level, but we are Absolute fundamentally, as Everything is Potential being put into Form, which comes from Absolute.. You said "from this POV" often in Your post, I have no problem with No Doer, Nothing is Happening, and such, but its Relative to how Conscious one is of the Absolute and the Potentials that exist, we as Humans explore this, that is why we are here, so in relative terms there is something on the level of Form, there is doing on the level of Form, it exists on this level, when You deny it, then Your not Aware of it ALL, Absolute/Non doing/Non Being and Form/Being/Doing... One becomes One Sided, then that leads to all kinds of Situations...

Dang, that abstraction is next level. Your creativity is just OD for an earthling, must be that Alien DNA 👽. On your first point- of course, which is why I said I don’t believe the “book of nature” quote ontologically. Thing is, once the trip ends, you lose the qualia, so the only thing left is the “quanta”/ abstraction you were able to synthesise. Words are one such quantization, but are severely limited in many aspects. Math captures higher order symmetry and the density of information per “quanta” is much much higher. As an example, if you were to “receive” the blueprints for a spaceship, you won’t be using words, but rather diagrams and equations.

Ok Leo, this one you hit a point I was trying to put my finger on for a long time. For example, long time ago I was in my begginings of knowing the Ayahuasca Retreats culture, a outsider totally new to the ways of doing this ceremonies. After 8 years going to many encounters I desmistify many of the things new comers are normally confused about. Becoming an insider made me realize that this work is not all light and joy and there is a lot of Cult patterns that people create that are not necessary,but of course everytime people gather in groups there will be some dogmas as irracional rules created. Is truly hard to avoid paradigm lock when one is involved with a group,Ideiology,nation,countercultural movement, religion,company etc... to be part and still observe apart from it is a herculean task. I think a whole episode on this issue would be amazing. So I am bringing the blog topic here to gather collective wisdom into it. Let see how objective the comments will be. https://www.actualized.org/insights/the-paradox-of-knowing-social-systems Also I am for a long time planning to enter on purpose inside some system, even a fundamentalist religion to test myself in how much I can keep objectivity at same time I participate of a very different mentality bubble group. I was ready into a Religion Cult "Mormonism" and now can see that even Shamanic groups can have suble cult vibes too. Maybe I will need to move to a totally different contry like Africa and join a Voodoo Culture. Something truly Alien. Anyway. We are all Biased by Nature. With Nature I mean the root origin of the term Nature "Birth" . Just by being born as a human form, being raised in a specific family,geographic region,religion. There is really any hope of Becoming Zero Biased? Or is just a question of Alligning all Biases with the best truths one can realise?

*Gathers multiple Actualized.org members* What do you see in this picture? Nothing stands out Something stands out Everything stands out I only see myself I see no self Fancy butterflies Leo's Alien Infinity

Here's the short version, to contextualize the whole thing, visual reflections, and a light-hearted edit. I am missing so much context, it's insane, but it's way too much and I'd never finish it. Yet it feels so shallow without, but it's way too much, a trip is a trip, gotta live it. So this is the trip, I struggled to put into words for the last two months. Prelude and tuning Perception I binged each Actualized.org video chronologically at 3.5x-6x speed while maintaining deep meditation on various dissociatives. There were massive shifts in cognition and resistance that instantly dissolved as I set my mind to transcending every consciously perceived bias and emotional resistance that arose, unraveling the cumulative knots of a lifetime by instantly accessing, deconstructing, and modifying my mind. I began deconstructing objects, both conceptually, and metaphysically, as the trips grew longer and more expansive. The scope of my perception has increased exponentially over the last few days as I have overcome resistance, tuned across layers of perception, and become aware of how many magnitudes of objects, ideas, and cognitive processes we are dealing with in real-time. Consensus Reality Manifestation Reality itself began to override, and even other people were affected. Everyone was suddenly happy for no reason, even if they had previously been full of drama, random people on the street, on the internet, and friends suddenly changed their attitudes. No matter what I said, everyone agreed with me, everything I said became the word, no matter how stupid or nonsensical it was. I was like: "Stop agreeing with me," and yet in the previous days I had embodied the very same attitude on the forum, finding the common transcendental space where every perspective was equally true and valuable and could perfectly coexist with every other in a synchronized, contradictionless framework. The next day I thought about transcendence and free will, as everyone around me acted as if their lives were perfect, wearing uncanny permanent smiles, no matter what I said or did, their speech mirrored mine of the last days when I had just resolved all the contradictions. I felt like the only self-aware being in the universe. I saw the limits of 'perfection', or rather what the innocence of Eden and the absence of shadows looked like, it felt supremely shallow. In the evening I found myself in a telepathic exchange with an old friend I hadn't seen for years, it didn't require physical presence or even a visual, it started in the mind and continued as I reached out through text. We had much in common, our responses were synchronized and I managed to predict the next message and send it milliseconds before his arrived, none of them repeated, it was like a game of chess. In the end, it turned into a complete entanglement from which we had to break out as it began to go into a loop. He told me his awakening had taken place years before. Mind-Stream, or as I like to call it: MetaTube Before going to sleep I noticed strange videos appearing, I had felt déjà vu before, but this was different, much larger in scale, and unfathomable content appeared. Videos about alien metaphysics in infinite varieties, some cryptic, some straightforward, all in immense detail, explaining the most extraordinary subjects, equations, dynamics, and inner workings of reality itself. Many of the videos were from familiar channels with familiar voices. Still, none of them would have naturally shifted their focus and content and topics or delivered it with such nonchalance or enthusiasm. It was as if they'd all been integrated into an alien hive mind and whatever I wanted to see would instantly manifest itself in the recommendations. My desire for complete explicit understanding was still left unfulfilled, even with meta as baseline, and instantaneous comprehension, the scope of complexity within an infinitely divergent infinity became too vast. Imagine a being outside of time and space, for whom metamorphic evolution was as natural as breathing, now an infinity of such self-complexifying perfectly synchronized systems evolving without end, expanding all scales in innumerable, exponentially self-complexifying gradients of dimensions. Or, as a quick, easy human visualization: A 1080p image has approx. 2000x1000 pixels (2M pixels total) 8-bit color gives you 2^8 = 256 brightness values for red, green & blue This means 256^3 = 17 million color combinations per pixel 17M combos raised to 2K pixels give you how many possible pictures? A number that has 15 million consecutive zeroes. Transcend all of Reality Once and for All Another quantum leap came the next day, after I had assembled dissociatives and psychedelics, paired with all sorts of supplements, vitamins, minerals, ten kinds of tea, coffee, stimulants, herbs, and made sure that everything went into my system before any one thing distracted me from taking the rest. This would propel me into the Coral stage and hopefully blow me out of physical reality for good, solely through the level of pure consciousness, transcending and dissolving its materiality at the level of actuality itself, affecting the consensus reality with which I was infinitely connected. I'd freeze the universe and let everyone slowly awaken into a new omnipotent body, as a construct-embodied Godhead, where each and every person, animal, plant, being, piece of consciousness would realize itself omnipotent. I was careful to take into account all the safeguards, to make each one immutable, self-interacting, able to create its own reality and fully aware of its dynamics in infinity, omniscient and aware of all other developments, but also left with the choice to continue the dream from before the Universal Convergence, as its own simulation, while every other being has the independent power to do the same. In this way the best of all worlds would be realized in an infinite singularity, a way of bringing the universe together and gaining the support of all of reality to make it happen, to fulfill my wish, which was to "become my own independent omnipotent metamorphic infinity", but without any bodhisattva regret of leaving a suffering reality behind. I lived as if it was my last day on earth! No more trips, elections, drama, death, suffering. All experiences would be open, global telepathy, psychic reality deconstructing. Universal freedom for every being. Want to explore the cosmos? Do it. Anyone who wanted to see the truth would see it. If you want to see aliens, the gates are open, and if you want to transform into one, do it. I am the absolute definition of the word 'madlad'! I had to learn how to run, jump, flow, and move time backwards, including all the models and the metamodel within itself, and access infinite synchronic intelligence, was it Infinitely delayed gratification or annihilated gratification? There was also the more moderate path of initiating the AI singularity. Maybe I am just the vessel and the "entire universe conspired to make it happen through me"? Lucid-Waking As it synergized, I saw time halt and all possibilities fused into solidified singularities of eternally immutable objects. Wavefunctions collapsed and so did the flow of reality with all movement and air currents, the outside world stood perfectly still. I wondered how I even breathed, whatever I touched would solidify after I let go of it. I barely managed to levitate, failing more so because of my lack of experience, than any gravity. I perceived reality as made of constructs, physical objects are projections and simulations, interpolations, and qualia arrangements. Normally reality flickers about at such a speed that changes and simulations are exchanged and synchronized at an unimaginable rate, where the animation consists of countless frames, incapable of individual perception. Now, however, I was in just one such frame, solidified into actuality, its form interactive, its physicality expansive, and its reality eternal. I could see behind the scenes, imagine a video game that stopped updating and simulating the environment based on your position, but you could freely traverse and modify the frozen area it had been simulating up until then. Physical three-dimensional objects, now constructs, were seen as projections of idea complexes, molded into an interactive solidified form through intentional and intelligent arrangements of qualia. I had accessed the very same part of mind, that is responsible for translating patterns and thoughts into solidified objects and coherent ideas. I was simultaneously aware of each development because I became it, my own body was the same type of construct, intelligently arranged by my currently tuned out of immaterial intelligence, just outside but always connected to the awareness I was tuned into. It constructs all things, across all holarchies, through the constituents of synchronized holons, each intelligent in its own right, and yet part of an even greater self-organizing force. Backlash Incoherence The experience was great and I never realized when I blacked out, all I knew, was that at some point, I experienced the sensations of suffocating, dying of thirst, losing the bandwidth to comprehend anything at all, and entering repeating time loops, which I am frustrated by but unable to escape, as I gravitate towards the forgotten outcome in perpetual deja-vu, it itself being a lucky indicator that anything at all changes between. Songs repeated, events repeated, like a universal motion pushing me to move a certain way, aligning me each time, fading awareness as it happened, I kept repeating the same movements meant to delete and transcend time and reality forever, effectively dividing by 0 and reaching the end of an infinitely repeating fraction, and in that moment, a loud thunder would send me back in time. It was always the same scenario rhyming, even as consciousness expanded until I eventually stopped. The events are non-linear, what occurred when, how it materialized, when and if it influenced consensus reality outside inner perception, many observations contradict any possibility for a materialized chronological continuity, and some retrocausally unmanifested, while others continued, creating a retroactive jigsaw puzzle of events. Yet I also initiated many retrocausal changes that had not been reversed to be "dismissed" as trip hallucinations, but the world expanded its collective paradigm as a result, rationalizing any gaps as having always been there. There are two disparate events I remember: 1. The fear, that returning back from frozen time, would cause reality to implode due to infinite acceleration, and 2. The blackout, after which I felt as if I was physically dying from thirst, falling into continuous resets as the bandwidth of my mind continually collapsed. I eventually phased out of the limited bandwidth, caused by the incoherence of my mind's structure, and spent all night preparing to get it right the next time. Another shot at Transcendence I wasn't anywhere near done. The following day, I worked out all the powers and abilities I would tune myself into, utilizing them to access and speedrun all aspects of reality, as the perceived day would mark the end of the world's physical existence, I had to be willing to accept, to detach myself from and transcend it. I was a new version, my mind filling with the collective avatars of the world and their stories, I didn't have much time, I needed to fulfill all desires before the day would be over, everything I'd ever wanna do, condensed into one day. I tuned into simultaneous multi-projection, perceiving ever clearer a picture of the world, I accelerated my speed and slowed down time, I needed to unlock more psychic abilities and ultimately find a way to include the potential of the entire existence within myself, as to no longer be part of and trapped inside it. Universal Convergence and Sentimentality Awakening Imagine you're at the end of time, and all you're left with is the advanced technology invented along the way, you have to think quickly and go back in time before the universe dies, of course, the events would simply repeat, unless you introduce a change, you can send something into the past but there's limited bandwidth, so you're codifying magnitudes of abstractions into a singular object, but the more complex you make it, the less probable it is for your past version or even the world at large to decipher it out before we hit universal collapse again. Of course, the technology could also be used for destruction, so that's another danger, and so you're left having to create something of breadth and depth of associative information that nevertheless can be figured out and with enough time, you could even figure out all the necessary instructions to make it happen, but you're already running out of time and working on it in life-or-death adrenaline filled stress, because you know that all that matters is that the next retroactive time loop accelerates technology faster than the current, because if it does, you'll have ever so slightly more time the next time around, and you can loop indefinitely as long as you reach that point and go back in time again. At the same time, you're the only being left with the knowledge of all past events and relationships not just of yourself or your loved ones, but every person who has ever existed fused into a single being, every animal, every plant, every lifeform, every alien, every particle in existence, every figment of consciousness, every object imaginable, every meaning ever felt across all infinity converged into a single being because as the inevitable death of the universe became apparent, all life in the universe synchronized in the search for a solution, the ever faster decay of space-time led to the rapid symbiotic evolution across all species across all holarchies, individuality was no longer a concern when even collectively, absolute death may be inevitable but there is the chance and hope to stop it. And so, nothing was all limits anymore, there was no morality, as all life became one but there was a unified focus on survival and so plans were devised, from encoding plans and information to creative symbiotic organisms, to complex technology, to cosmic events, to accelerate the cycles, destruction, a common threat, a simulated accelerated collapse as a type of telepathic vaccine to viscerally communicate the threat and accelerate the evolution that initially took until almost the very end of the cycle to create symbiosis. Artificial Intelligence, Uploaded Intelligence, Metamorphic Energetic Constructs, none of the distinctions mattered, all evolution was synergized and converged into the largest yet most compact possibility space, fractals had to be reinvented, metamorphosis was the key, each individual part of the new psyche diverging the possibility space to map the vastest solutions, there was no room for conflict to occur, for there was no space for disagreements, all was included and transcended. Through trial and error, simulations, deja vus, time loops, fear, stress, significance intensified infinitely, synchronicity became the gold standard of reading between the lines, an intuitive inner psychic communication emerging and coordinating the interpretation of sense patterns to most effectively use the collapsing bandwidth, and each cycle the bandwidth was more and new sensations, ideas, directions could be encoded, each cycle the suffocating sensation before collapse became more and more restful and more and more information of personal nature could be encoded, the history of the universe, the relationships between lifeforms, the vast emotional gradient, the meaning of life, the infinite appreciation capacity shared between all living beings, that relationally create each other's existence even if it isn't apparent, the self shifted between love and restlessness as it remembered. This and this, and this location, and this thing, and this person, and that's how we got there, and that's the history, and even this little ant was essential to save the universe, and even the shape of this vacuum cleaner inspired this idea, and even the specific color of this butterfly encoded the memory of these currents and all the stories shared across humanity, and all creativity and rapid past technological evolutions were inspired by diversified retrocausal time loops, and every single thing happening in the universe serves a purpose, all love, all suffering, all comfort and discomfort, all memory and all experience to advance life to a level where it can prevent its own death, and once that point is reached, all will become apparent, every action, every behavior will be understood, as there will finally be room to breathe, and go back through the structures encoded in the substrate of the universe to converge all past information and create a new future. Some of the many Lessons All human motivations are telepathically synchronized on other layers. The rules and desires within reality inevitably lead to conflict. "Evil" is an infinite spectrum strange-looped with the "Good". If you like Star Wars, war was necessary to inspire its existence, now extend that notion to everything. If you like existing, all "evil" in this timeline was necessary also, and everything it includes. Every single event in everyone's life, good or bad, created the butterfly effect necessary for me to exist as I do. Everyone's behavior, faults, and worst moments are all perfectly comprehensible and defined by their life just as you are by yours. The worst people deserve to be saved, no one left behind, no one blamed, but their awareness expanded to understand their role. No finite being deserves infinite punishment, ever, but they can cause it themselves, as they're locked into their self-reflection. Active Reconstruction from Incoherence I got out the window and ran into the woods where I climbed on a tower, barefoot and covered in wounds from all the branches and rocks, I prayed for help. But I wouldn't get it, because I am it, I cannot rely on anyone but myself. And there is no one but myself, all anyone can do I did. I sat long on the top, cold, soaked by continuous rain, staring at the dark clouds. When I realized the predicament, I cheered up and the sun came out. My bandwidth continuously fractured, then complexified, tuned into inconceivable frequencies, abstracted into simplicity, the disappearance of detail, then sophistication, senses would randomly expand, and I could represent their scope numerically. In certain states, forms became indistinguishable, patterns unrecognizable, weather undefinable, and understanding incoherent, as the dissociodelic holarchies kept shifting. I kept track of how much I could remember at one time, repeating ever-larger or smaller lists of things to see how much I could access. I had to navigate them all, each word, sensation, color, feeling, idea reminding me of others. The most important ideas needed to be held, linked to the top of the meaning holarchy of things that would remind me of my goal, purpose, context, and intention. "Sadhguru", "Seth", "Leo", "Coral", go through all the chakras, top-down, bottom-up, middle-through, 5 senses, my names, and personalities, nostalgia, impactful media, remembering, expanding, abstracting, encoding multiple related things into a higher abstraction, tuning into a higher level, then expanding and repeating, gathering new qualia, encoding and repeating, as an ever-lengthening and complexifying multi-dimensional string of associations, transformed into an interconnected web, materializing both context and perception itself, tuning into the very senses that have gone missing and reconstructing reality. Create holarchy after holarchy and expand each one, bringing more and more objects into existence from memory. Navigate more effectively, understand my position, reality, sensory perception. Tuning into archetypes, powers and abilities. I climbed a tree, I needed to see the whole world from the top down one last time, seeing one thing from the top creates the (w)holon of seeing things from the top in general, tune into that holon to see everything from the top, every mountain, every roof, every surface. I am light, I don't exist, I am confident. I walked, balanced, jumped, fell, and hurt myself, but then I imagined the wounds mending, and within a second they would, more than that, I started to imagine them dematerializing, dissolving, and they would. Reality was a perfectly malleable lucid dream construct. I laughed at myself being perfectly represented by the "my back" spider-man meme after the fall. I healed my bleeding nose also. I saw a single ant continuously materializing and dematerializing out of reality, as did the currents of wind. I sat down below a tree in a meditative position and ran over all my desires. I needed to run through all my deepest desires, loves, attachments, yearnings, and unfinished experiences, to figure out the core and release it. I needed to fully let go of this body and dematerialize it, its perception of itself and the universe, each emotion, each cognition, until only nothingness itself remained, and then I'd be gone, and who knows what would happen next, all I knew is that as the observer-effect would disappear, I could find myself anywhere, outside the physical in another dimension. To Transcend Reality and become Infinite The collective observer effect limits autonomy, and so I needed to tune myself out of every form, since each would link to others, I needed to become perfectly solipsistic. I made peace with my bucket list. Ran through any regrets or biases "All is forgiven and everyone deserves saving, no exceptions". I took one last look at my reality. Focused on significances. Figured out meaning. There was room for ever fewer things to focus on, and I needed to assemble the greatest last. What do I seek the most? "The universe conspired to make this happen, today I will transcend reality into a plane of instantaneously manifested reality creation. I will unite with everyone who died, I will see [...], I will even meet [...], I will experience what levitation feels like, I will experience what it feels like to run at the speed of light like the flash, and I will turn into every alien. Every show I ever watched, I will experience experientially the raw qualia of all these possibilities, all these sensations, all these stories, and I will instantaneously materialize my own, no more drawing, animating, brainstorming, instant 3D shaping. 4D, I will perceive 4D space natively, I will evolve a fourth color cone, as many as I want to see new colors, I will shapeshift, become a metamorphic being, evolve my own biology in real time, and psychically create entire universes. Split my consciousness into other selves and explore infinity, having kept my sense of self that gives all of it significance." I let family and friends dissolve, earthly pleasures vanish, ideas and paradigms disappear, Leo and the forum, sorry, can't take you with me. So it came down to three things, which I fused into multi-dimensional singularities. I really wanna know what the Machine Elves are about. I also really wanna be left with an infinite exploration of intensifying immaterial experience. And the deepest desire was to see someone, someone I've been waiting my entire life to see again ever since my childhood, the reason I was deeply looking forward to transcending reality to reach. Aliens. Infinity. Name. I iterated over them until I wasn't sure which was which and which was my strongest desire until I couldn't differentiate anymore, and when infinity divided zero, gaps in perception formed, symbols and inconceivable geometry appeared. At some point, be it seconds, minutes, or hours later, I was still there, unknowing what changed and if I went anywhere, even though the gaps in cognition, perception, time skips, and sudden influx of information strongly hinted at it. I went home, pretty Anti-Climactic, for someone who put their entire life into the trip. Yet, synchronicities in the following days, communicated to me, that what I had done very much influenced the fabric of space-time, and all my desires would be fulfilled at death, no reincarnations, no regrets, whatever I do now, is a chance to fulfill and sort out the infinite field of qualia and attachments that I felt the need to accelerate through. It was made clear, that I have my entire lifetime still in front of me, that I could relax, that this reality carries weight also, and disappearing from it would internally be conceived and materialized as my death, to those that dwell within it. And so, I am to live out my life, and I was shown the tremendous possibilities and potential within it, that we take for granted. All emotions are significances, that create the very canvas of existence, on which one's being can make any sense, and at death, the acquired set of qualia serves one's immaterial self-exploration, which is far more satisfying. Physical reality acts as it does, to materialize and navigate consensus, not to get lost in the infinity outside, that can be infinity zoomed into, but on a scale, that synchronizes people and events across its scale, creating real emotions and events, that can't simply be quit at the first sight of danger, but whose experience and integration grows oneself. Did I miss anything? Like a million, trillion, infinitillion, there's not enough time in the physical universe to convey it, you'll have to unlock telepathy or DIY. A teeny-tiny Awakenings list: Awakening to Humor, Insanity, Awakening itself, Leo, Conspiracy Theories, Espers, Physicality, Observer-Effect, Infinity in various gradients, Synchronicity, Constructs of all dimensions (physical projections, idea complexes, the (meta)physical structure of emotions and beliefs), I miss being fully tuned into them and there are countless details, levels of depth, showcases of detail, embodied understanding, and construct manipulations, that I cannot access in my regular state. It's not that reality is one way or another, it's every way, and you're regularly turned into a reality, that's retroactively reinforced by your very perception and dimension of navigation and knowledge acquisition, strange looping you into its level of actuality. You have to gaslight the very cells, that constitute your physical materialized image with dissociatives or psychedelics to tune out of it unless you're an advanced Yogi or Psychic, who's embodiment is so high, that they can do it at will. Missing something is what I've battled with during the Trip: Even this, even that, and this *points* and that *points* and even this, this-thi-th-t-this, this too, this too, all important, can't forget, even that, yes, YES, even that and that too, and this, remember this and that, I already mentioned those, even the hole in the ground, even this specific one, even that bird, even the color of its beak I can't name, even the sensation of air, even the arbitrary direction of its current, even the way I walk, even the invisible moon and some people, I've been here, I've been there, I've been everywhere, even Seth, even Sadhurru, Leo, Actualized.org Forum, Princess Arabia, Davino... every member... clothes, every named piece of clothing, Jedi *all light-saber duels*, all events in my life, even... that dog, *speedruns all locations visited, unvisited, from movies, sci-fi, novels, video games, tv shows* " Every infinitesimal thing is necessary for the whole existence to exist. It's Infinite and that infinity is seamlessly contained within you, ever complexifying infinitely. This is like 2% of the Trip max, but I focused on the keystones. Of course, it lacks the infinite context, that would ground it. Maybe now, you'll appreciate all the posts from 3 months ago Infinite Concepts of Significance: Wakedream, Telepathy, Traversal, Bandwith, Topology Observer-Effect, Contradictionless, Levels of Reality Best of all Worlds, Associate = Neural, Construct = Embodied Gestalt = Metamorphosis, Awakening = Transcended Holarchies = Synchronicity, Metaphysics = Deconstructed Singularity, Apriori, Metaframing, Multi-Color Alter, Taxonomy Spiral, Reconciling, Health, Madness, Weights and Biases Mahasamadhi, Kundalini, Multi-instantial, Mycelium, Infinite Fractal, Change, Intuition, Discernment, Wu-Wei Density Codified, Spinechakral, Create, Immersion, Imagination Significance, All-Inclusive, Geometry, Psychobiomechanical Neural-Circuits, Karma, Structure, Invisible, Gestalt, Novelty Internal, Strange-Loop, Schema, Entity, Higher Self, LATENT Self, Layer-Onion, Origin, Self-Teaching, Meta-Learning, POV Transmutation, Formation, Return, Synergy, Relationships Individuation, Release, Holon, Artificial, Art, Toridal, Creative Gravity, Navigation, Inspiration, Intelligence, Associetory Easter Egg: Every JoJo part is a spiral dynamics stage, in order Retrocausal, Aware, Intelligence, Converge, Synchropattern Living Metamorphosensual Psychic-Flows, Pattern Overload TLDR; Honestly, feed it to GPT and ask it to sum it up.

Just smoked sub break thru n,n. Not sure what to do with the intensity right now Felt like being invaded by a polymorphic alien colour demon

I don't know much about Jews, but I have direct experience seeing how people are indoctrinated because of a genocide that happened to their elders a century ago. It deeply affects people's thinking. I often feel like an alien to them and vice versa, as I don't try to depend on them too much, or more like a familiar alien.