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@Buba I edited my last post to give more insight so read that. And the whole point is for you (ego) to cease functioning, and surrendering to the real You (the self). Not gonna lie. It will feel like dying. Like actually dying. But if you just let go, death is bliss. This is all the advice I can give you: Let go.

If you're an individual, then I think it's like a package deal. ? I'd like to have the ego 'al a carte' and customize, but I think if you had to look it as simply as possible, you got two menu options: Love - Comes with the peace of God, a side of joy, your choice of ecstasy or bliss, and all of eternity. Oh, and a choice of side salad or fries. Fear - Comes with a finite existence, a side of misery, your choice of major depression or schizophrenia, all served on top of certain death, lightly topped with mango salsa and creme fraiche. ?

If I were you, then I would have digged the skeletons out of the grave and sniff it for a good 2-3 hours to get a taste of that absolute infinity/bliss.

Hi everyone, I know meditation is extremely important in self development I tend to over analyze everything. I meditate regularly, but i find it extremely difficult to go beyond 10 minutes...(been meditating a while) General thoughts I have: ok watch thoughts, ok focus on breathing, ok clear mind, ok focus on feeling and just try to be aware of thoughts but i seem to always stop, and give into the mind. Should their be a goal in meditation? Im extremely analytical, and my thoughts are wild, I have a hard time being present, and when i have glimpses its pure bliss. I just want to increase the presence and focus in my life on daily task, but my mind influences me in crazy ways. Any insight and criticism is welcome...

Let's spice things up! * Death ≠ suicide in the context of this thread , by Death I mean Enlightenment AKA EGO DEATH Where would you like to die? Most people die randomly on a random day or they kill themselves at home without any depth to it. They end up in an overcrowded hospital and die with a number tag attached to their toe and then they are buried. No Depth whatsoever. Well here i suggest that we make our deaths more deep and that we actually enjoy the dying process & dying and our location and that we actually plan our deaths. This is what true masters do, they plan their deaths in advance and die in a chosen location and actually die in full bliss & peace. This can't be done in groups, this has to be something very personal, this is very intimate. One way to consciously die is to go deep into nature and die with 5-MeO-DMT. Let the image below inspire you. Can you feel the vibration of the entire forest go through you? Your last moments will be so magical that you will be crying at the depth of the beauty, you will physically merge with the entire fabric of reality and become the forest. The cold wind will blow at you as you are sitting in a deep meditative state, and at that moment you will fully surrender your ego and you will transcend reality and become God. There will no more seeking as you will be IT. Peace & Love will be eternal. The trees will become magical , the leaves falling, the wet muddy ground full of life, the sky covered with clouds forming a greenish tint, it is at that moment that you will realize that Reality was truly magical and that you toke it for granted by doing mundane tasks everyday just to survive. At that moment you will truly become alive and enlightenment will be realized. Here below is an illustration / stock photo of how the average person in a civilized country gets to experience death. Full of regrets, regulations & rules , doctor and nurses running around and overall fear, negativity. Your family, if you have one will all come and they will all be sad seeing you in such a state. Everyone will be crying out of fear, the love will not vibrate at the same level and you will die without experiencing God.

@Jack River Again, if by 'self' you mean anything other than your true nature (existence, consciousness, bliss) then I would have to disagree. Also I'm not really sure what is meant by "holistic movement of self."

@Jack River Being immersed in the Self. It means that you recognize your true self to exist, to be intelligent, and to be in bliss. This awareness is constant without there being someone (I) who is aware.

I’ve had active kundalini for about 2 years and I’ve come to know what this divine love is about, bit by bit. It’s been quite slow and a lot of hard realisations but it’s worth it. Major aniexty, depression, feeling insane is a part of the process to heaven. So is heavenly bliss and mania... The more you surrender the easier life becomes, but the less it is your life. @Misagh you got learn about balancing energy and delveloping more healthy habbits when kundalini is active. If you don’t then kundalini will just teach you the lesson the hard way

To me, it feels like seeking energy here. You will not find true bliss in the timeline. It can only be found here and now - in whatever is happening in this moment. That’s just one perspective from an empathic Green. You’ll get many different perspectives here.

I feel like I’m motivated for other things which takes up most of my day..I think the problem is I haven’t found any sort of higher quality “release” or “play” type of activity I can easily do everyday that has no goals attached to it and is purely for the bliss of doing it, allows me to stay in a higher consciousness level..maybe I’ve just been using lower consciousness releases (mainstream media) but now am looking for better options. I have a project I’ve been working on in alignment with my life purpose but a lot of the work I’m doing rn for it is mundane gritty type of work.

@who chit It should be clear that Nisargadatta Maharaj never identified himself with the I AM. He clearly states that this I AM arises 'spontaneously' on the Absolute. So he, as the Absolute, does not control or exert volition on whether this I AM should arise or not. He remains absolutely unconcerned because he knows perfectly well that this I AM is an illusion and can never taint him a bit. And also nothing can be said about Para-brahman 'state'. It is beyond bliss, union etc whatever you try to impose on it. Nagarjuna's 8 negations of Absolute come here. It is called a state because the lack of a better term. Maybe the only thing you can say about Para-Brahman is that it is! It is the only real thing that is. Even that statement falls short to describe it. It's really futile to philosophize about it.

Since the beginning of the year I have been experiencing some kind of shift of consciousness or at least that’s the term I can produce now. It propably started a bit earlier when I cleaned up my diet, started to consume supplements to decalcify my pineal gland (I had a theory that it would help my migraines). Anyway, then I started to watch a lot of videos about food, TED talks, psychology and I stumbled upon Leo. Then I started my meditation and after the first try I had a weird experience (I wrote about it here on the forum) and in fact it progressed I had my body vibrating in a strange way and then the energy (I suspect kundalini) was filling me up (I don’t think it is fully awake, there was no spectacular bliss or anything like this), I was feeling so big, like I had no boarders, but I had also troubles sleeping, brain fog, bit of nausea and I stopped with watching videos and meditation. I had a backlash and went back to my more regular life. Less Leo more Netflix Now it is back again, I am in my maniac stage and am watching his videos like crazy, the energy has taken over, is not as intense as after the vibration episode but quite constant. It got interesting after the shamanic Breathwork I tried, more intense. Now, my question is what I should do, persevere in meditation etc. or rather calm it down and integrate like the last time? What will happen if I continue? I have a family and job... My family does not know a thing and they would not understand. I am stage yellow mostly. Any advice?

I love to just be, pure be-ing. Doing is a distraction from this pure being, doing is a distraction from resting in infinite consciousness. My awareness goes into a contemplative and a meditative mode without any effort when I don't do anything at all. To just be is beautiful. Concentration and doing is a distraction from the truth and the love I feel when I let the spontaneous contemplation just happens, as it always does when resting in pure being with nothing else to do. My dad on the other hand loves doing, i don't think he has anything going on in his inner being other then the satisfaction over something he does in the outer world. The arrangement of the outer world, like working, cleaning, house keeping, pay bills, wash the cars etcetera, gives him satisfaction. He view me as lazy and I view him as a closed minded person with no access to divine consciousness. I would like him to have the taste of Godly awareness, but that will never happens. Anyway, it's tricky with my dad, but other people who are "doers" that I don't know personally, those people I love, they don't bother me(because they don't know me, hence they don't know we are different) and I love the sounds of people working, the discussions they have, the sound of construction working in action. But I love it only when I'm not part of it my self. I like to blissfully witness it all from a distance, with a cup of coffee in my hand and love in my heart. Those "working-bees" do so much things for me, they build my house, they build my car, they construct all the roads I love to travel. They transport and manufacture all the delicious foods and goods to my local store for me to pick whatever I like. I can't help but feeling some trace guilt in the middle of all the bliss. I obviously like to consume the fruits of society, but clearly, I don't contribute anything myself(I'm lucky regarding economy). The only thing I provide for others are an open mind, kindness, happiness, but no real goods, nothing tangible. Aren't those working-bees right about us to some degree, we are somewhat lazy, we don't help the wheels of society to spin that much, do we? After all, teaching non duality which many of us realised do, has no value for those who can't pick it up, which are most people, nor do they desire it. Only like 0.02% of people both desire AND are able to pick it up and transform themselves from the non duality teachings. And there are by far enough teachers out there to supply the non dual teaching demands from those tiny 0.02 % who wants it. You see what I'm saying here? Elaborate.

Luckily there is no overdosing on bliss...

OK so I've been using 4-ACO-DMT and 2C-B separately for quite a while. Both are good psychedelics, but oh man I was in for a surprise when I mixed the two. OK so I take both of them as it's been a while since I had a good trip. I take them and put on these two songs bellow. I get tried when I take 4-aco-dmt. So I take 15 mg of 4-aco-dmt, and 10 mg of 2-cb. I close my eyes and relax into being. I am melting into the couch. I became one with the music. And my mind was morphing a little. But most of all I felt love like I never felt before. I touched sublime bliss. It was very profound. Any negative thoughts were just washed away with love. My consciousness increased too to encompass a pretty big space. I experienced time dilation. The heart of the trip was only for about 3 hours, but it felt like 6 hours. It was so powerful that I was mesmerized coming down and talking about it with my family. Whiteout & One Half Bear - The Part In-Between (RNM) tyDi feat. Brianna Holan - Never Go Back (Tom Fall Remix)

I decided to sit down, get clear and write everything out. Working as my own business has got me all over the place (I recently made this leap). I love the freedom but it's also challenging because I must spend my time wisely, be good at managing myself and be a professional. Here's my new daily routine that incorporates everything. I'm going to use this as a default template of how my day should run. 4:00 - 6:00 AM Fitness 6:00 - 8:00 AM Accomplishment Project 8:00 AM - 2:00 PM Income Main Source *If I am going out, Get Ready 2:00 - 4:00 PM Income 3rd long-term source 4:00 PM - 8:00 PM Income 2nd source or Bliss project Right now I have 3 sources of income named by most to least (immediately) important. The 3rd source is a more long-term strategy. Each one of them is considered part-time and again I plan to stick to this schedule 7 days a week. I also have a project I called the "Accomplishment Project" which is driven by my need for accomplishment and my love for learning. The "Bliss Project" is my life-purpose project.

@Ingit I understand, we all have things pop up in our mind from our subconscious, face them or don't face them it doesn't really matter which but sure they feel hella real and hurt. That's your state of being right now and it's rough, I get it but it doesn't have to always be that way. The ego self will have seemingly endless energy in keeping us in that distressed state suffering but don't give it the attachment, like don't agree this is 'me' and 'mine'. Just observe without identifying and keep doing it. Sure, we have to do stuff in life to keep living but on the inside, stay observer mode. It may take days or months or years, I don't know, everyone is different it took me years but eventually the ego self will quiet up, lose it's energy and intensity then fade away like smoke. Some might be able to shut ego self down instantaneously but that wasn't my experience, it echoed for some time. Being at peace or joy, fulfilled, happiness, bliss, glee lol whatever you call it will happen if you allow it. It took me awhile but now it be present. Or don't, go ahead, feed the ego self and suffer forever. I can't be it for you, you got to be it for it to be.

Do you feel live while listening to this? Do you feel more connected? More joy, happiness, oneness, and bliss? Use direct experience always.

dear friend, we must keep our eyes to the stars and dreams, it serves no one to investigate what's unpleasant, our instinct is joyful expansion! yes life is easy,it needs no justification for that, the nature of life is bliss, that's a good thing really, I keep my visor on what I desire, peace, harmony, joy to that I dedicate all of myself, every single cell and every liter of imagination which is why I cannot partake in your exercise growth can only come in my opinion with acceptance of what is, then growth is revealed to be our true nature, infinity, we do not grow because we lack something, we grow out of abundance

it's this weird ego thing where people put a certain figure into positions of divinity then strip them and deny them of their sexuality, in order to dehumanize them and make them match the godly portrait "oh you be damned for not holding upto the divine standards onto which I hold you to!I'm a victim of your folly!" its just plain dehumanizing it clearly shows that ego always causes suffering, whether its when you put someone below yourself, or when you put someone to be better then yourself, it is always ugly all this stems from the very deep belief in spiritual community that you cannot be enlightened AND have fun sex representing the fun aspect, is sex not one of the highest in life? "you cannot have pleasure And enlightenment in the same life" "you cannot be the wise man or wise woman and have your wild sexual escapades and motorbikes and make-up, spa's and parties" well I raise you infinity I'll be damned if I'll end up as some castrated monk sitting all day in "bliss", no offense to the monks I'll have the heavenly wisdom, and I'll have the earthly pleasures, two for one, that will be my bliss, and I hope the same for everyone enlightenment is fun, it is not hard work, it is not serious work, it can be both if desired tho, its all for us to chose, I'll go for fun though, that is my view on it

Unfortunately, this is the exact spiritual bypassing that I was talking about. If a lion is running at you, just repeat these ideas and all the danger will melt away into spiritual bliss... OR you'll be mauled by a lion for not being properly aware of the goings-on within duality. Either way, it doesn't matter because "All is one." You never cared about your life because you're aware that death is an illusion. So, whenever you're being mauled, you will not feel any sense of terror or suffering. You're beyond that... right? Truth is not opinions or ideas. And if you are not abiding in Truth, then you will certainly be effected by negative life circumstances. The best thing that you can do now is be really honest with where you are, and stop deceiving yourself that you're so detached from outcomes. Anyone can repeat these ideas and believe in these ideas. But when the rubber meets the road, you will immediately become aware that these ideas don't keep you safe from harm and that you're not above pain and suffering. Ask yourself, have you ever experienced ego transcendence. If the answer is no, you don't know anything about it. Or truly, even if you have, you are not abiding in that state now. So, duality is likely very real to you.

The remembering of homeostasis is a meditation in and of it's self. Your bad day today is the consequence of your good day a week ago and visa versa. This is probably why Shinzen Young says that strong determination sitting is the quickest way to enlightenment, if you voluntarily put yourself through that level of hellish suffering it's only natural to emerge on the other side in a state of bliss. Furthermore many consider enlightenment to be "the final disappointment" you do all that work, go through all that suffering, just to realize there's nothing to realize "that was kinda dumb" as Jed would put it. But then you get the reward of flowing through life without the heavy burden of all your thought stories. Remember homeostasis.

When I read threads here I see a few members that are truly great, they seem to know everything and have an aura of enlightenment about them. However, it still feels like they are refusing to make the very last step to finally become fully enlightened, like they hold something back. Like they are 99% enlightened and not aim any higher that that. At very rare occasions though, I see members who are all in so to speak, 100% , I often notice when facing those posts already after reading the first sentence. I can't nail what's special about them, they just are. They just feel so incredible transparent, honest and full of integrity. I feel their words digs in to my body and deliver silence and truth. What I notice about these posters is that they are not interesting in socialising or sharing ideas back and forth, they often just post one single post and that's it, then they are gone for good. In a way, all of those "One post wonder"- members had a dark picture of life. But it didn't felt dark at all reading them, rather it felt liberating to read them. A few of them decided to commit suicide, others have chosen to stay but they know there is nothing to gain in doing so. They just let the lucid dream continue, but for no reason really. The reason why I don't feel sad reading those dark posts is because I recognise how they desire REAL enlightenment in a way. And if you want REAL enlightenment, you can't really desire any aspect of worldly life, not even "enlightenment" within a body mind, and that explain the dark nature of their posts(which paradoxically aren't dark at all). They were not satisfied to reach a point were they saw through duality. They wanted more(same as less), they were not satisfied with a lucid dream within an agent lost in maya, they wanted FULL awakening. And think about it, first you don't recognise reality as a dream, you believe it is real, then you recognise it's nothing but a dream(maya). You're having a lucid dream by now, but that's not really to be fully awake. If you have a dream at night, and start realising you're in the middle of a dream, you might find it fascinating to be in a lucid dream for a while, but after that initial bliss and freedom of realising you're in a lucid dream, don't you want to quit the game all together, folding up to ten and become fully awake? I can't see how you can stay within a body mind and be fully enlightened, even if you don't identify at all with the body mind that carries you around. Can you? Also, at my most blissful in moments in life, when I really enjoy life the most, thoughts like "Nothing could be better then to be physical dead" have come to my mind. Those thoughts only come when I really experience great happiness in life, I think that is because the supreme creator know that I can handle the truth at that time. Those kind of thoughts never come me, when life isn't that good, then I think of a new car, a new carrier, a new girlfriend or anything other superficial. Elaborate.

Be very careful going down this road. use this as a tale of warning. before i came across actualized.org my life used to be so meaningful, and i was the happiest and most optimistic person i knew. i used to enjoy every moment of life in bliss appreciating the wonder of all of the variety. now i literally perceive reality as this vibrating field of oscillation where everything’s is the essentially same just the surface appearance is different and there is no separation and its just this same fucking field and im all of it and just fucking here always this vibrating field. this is literally what i perceive with my senses. it is miserable, all meaning i had and appreciation i had is gone because i see the sameness underlying all of this and my inseperation from it. not to mention in alll leos videos he says, kill yourself, die, kill your ego. so i did that, now at this point why even live? i feel like there is no point to existing anymore. this is enlightenment? this is torture, someone please help me here. I am trying to reprogram my mind to get back to when i perceived myself as an individual that was happy and had meaning in life and was unique and had things that i liked myself instead of this vibrating field that i now am with no real people just these perceptions that are an illusion as i can see "them" being materialized by this field by my very perception. theses nothing special or meaningfull anymore its all this same field just oscillating away everywhere "i" "go". this site is the worst thing to ever happen to me. Please if someone has some techniques to reprogram me to have a separate identity again please let me know. For anyone else going down this road be very wary. maybe this is for some who can't cope with life being a person, but if youre just "curious" like i was and then socially pressured by Leo and this board thinking this is something you have to do and that literally being a person is bad, which i had to struggle with until i was no longer one what i perceived as "my life" was over . this may not be for you. I really want to forwarn anyone following this path that the end may not be what you think it is. imagine reality disintegrating before you , everything you hold as important and meaningful or special to you gone, your own identity as a person gone. in order to even have a conversation with this field you are manifesting as perceptions you perceive as people you have to attempt to fake to the mind that there are other people even when you know its all clearly one thing going on and a persistent illusion. life is now a constant "fake out" to do anything when you know how everything is this generic field here moving around and can literally see this now more than anything. So again I truly warn you that this may not be for you. And if someone has any suggestions to regain an identity and somehow forget that this is an illusion it is much appreciated, any hypnosis or something would be excellent. be careful what path you take before understanding the consequences of your life literally being over to see this.

Exactly, everyones ego in beggining gets like: "I want this, tell me more, I want to reach that enlightement, Ooh happiness, I wan't that too". And then It gets kicked in the balls as It had delusionary understanding of what It actually means to go this route. Then break is needed and until we can continue where we left, only this time - slowly and patiently. It's impossible to unsee all that has been seen and the drive to go deeper will stay, just need to realize that It's all not just beautiful fairytales and that ego is not going to receive infinite intelligence, constant pure bliss and superior state. I honestly believe that ego is what drives 95% of people on this route.