Wekz

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  1. I was depressed and anxious and didnt know what to do, so i tried nootropics, armodafinil and l theanine, but they didnt work. At that time i didnt know why, they made things even worse. Then i discovered that i was abused as a child, i reconnected with the experience and that went me flying. Now i tried them again and they work, they realy work. I am far from healed, but since i discivered the root cause, nootripics work. What i want to say is how important it is to find the root of your illment, then you can start to heal it, and that then nootropics work lol
  2. @OctagonOctopus @Apparation of Jack I'll do my best.
  3. @Apparation of Jack its a bad living situation, but its realy fucking hard to go find a job and live on your own when your in a state like that.
  4. @Codrina that im alone, and noone realy cares about me, but it was before i knew i was abused as a child, and it kinda showed me that, maybe now it would be different.
  5. @OctagonOctopus @Codrina ty ill try to accept what is, doesnt answear my question though
  6. Its like my eyes dont work, everything is blurred, and im totaly confused. My stomac hurts, and i feel powerless in my legs. There were moments when everything just cleared up, but then it would just start all over again.
  7. Whatever i do i cant raise my counciousness, nothing helps, not meditation, not medication. Would it be smart to try 5meo dmt? I tried ayahuasca but it lead just to a nightmare trip, so im afraid it would be the same.
  8. The root cause of all my mental problems was and still is, to some extend, the fear of rejection. And it is extrodinary how deeply this fear afected my life. It took over every area you can imagine. It made me depressed, anxious, paralized to do anything. Then again i was raped and emotionaly abandoned by my family members, whitch left a deep trauma and fear in me. But the root cause beneth everything was fear of rejection, and when i brought my averness to it, it imediatle soothened the simptoms. Maybe you recognize it in you, just google fear of rejection and there you can find the simptoms.
  9. @youngshinzen by bringing awarness to when i felt helpless and down, i asked myselve where does this feeling come from, and tried to remember experiences from my childhood, and then it just popped up one day in my memmorie.
  10. @youngshinzen if you have PTSD it is very likely you experienced a major trauma in childhood, but you supressed the event so mutch that you dont even remember it. Try to track your thoughts and emotions and remember if there was something. Then you can work on healing it. In my case i had an abuse trauma, mixed with horror movies and overall bad media, everyrhing uncounciously. Gl, and hope this helps.
  11. After i DECIDED that i can live without the person who hurt me, i litterary felt a vein in my neck clearing up, and oppening up, i assume letting blood flow to my prefrontal cortex again, and increasing my awarness. In fact letting me be aware again. I lived with him, and he wanted me staying in bad shape because he could use me and manipulate me, and in orded to survive in this conditions i couldnt allow myselve any growth. Only after i clearly decided to leave, and left, i could allow myselve councious growth. Hope this can help someone. It can be tough but its the way out of suffering.
  12. After i DECIDED that i can live without the person who hurt me, i litterary felt a vein in my neck clearing up, and oppening up, i assume letting blood flow to my prefrontal cortex again, and increasing my awarness. In fact letting me be aware again. I lived with him, and he wanted me staying in bad shape because he could use me and manipulate me, and in orded to survive in this conditions i couldnt allow myselve any growth. Only aftet i clearly decided to leave, and left, i could allow myselve councious growth. Just wanted to share this, and hope it can help someone.
  13. Why does my stomack hurt all the time? Because im resisting emotions? Or is it something else? Does anyone know?
  14. Incredible what you did, thank you and gj!