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@Alien You answered your own question. If enlightenment is raw reality, and reality is infinite, well... there you have it. You can keep exploring it forever.

do, or do not. I'm so sick of trying. Trying to meditate every day for upwards of two years, only to have negative thoughts still get to me. I see thoughts as sensations, and yet, the negativity loves to sneak up and consume me anyway. Trying to be diligent in my daily yoga practice (which usually takes an hour) for the past three months, only to have my body fight back and lock up. My anxiety is insistent and never-ending. My body can't stop holding, as if it's saying, "You're not done yet, JJ. Not yet not yet not yet. Gotta do ____ and ____ and learn as much as you can so you can be a paragon for all to behold." Well, fuck you, body. I'm sick of it. Trying to fit into a society centered around shallowness and denying death. No one really cares what I have to say, nor do I have much of value to say. People value cat videos, not depth. Anything to anesthetize them from the gaping black hole in the center of their existence. Honestly, I envy them. At least they can fit in and live a normal life without having the burden of worrying about all this shit. At least they can have a nice dream. At least they don't have to feel like an alien, like an outsider. Trying to hold a job. I got rejected from a barista job, for fuck's sake. I lasted six weeks as a cashier. Even dog walking, a job that's perfect for my personality - I started to go crazy after six months and have to quit. That happened twice over two years. Trying to be friendly in front of everyone (can't help it - Fe extraverted feeling function of an infj). Putting on this mask for everyone around me, even my family. And the moment I try to open up to them, like last night: "It's all bullshit, JJ. Mind over matter! How could you say that?" This is what happens when I try to take off the mask. I get shot down. I can't be authentic in front of anyone, because it'll just scare them away. Then, fear of abandonment kicks in. Then, fear of not being able to support myself kicks in, because of the last point. So I feel trapped in that sense. Trying to be a friend, or maintain a friendship. I have a bunch of aquaintances that I hardly keep in touch with, and I had one friend for awhile, who I now also barely keep in touch with. So basically, no friends. Too much effort to be a friend. Too much effort to find someone out there in person who I can actually relate to without the mask. Trying to date. Ohhh, man, I could write for hours about this one. I get clingy and obsessive the moment I have a deeper connection, which drives me nuts, and it does the other person a disservice. Then fear of abandonment/rejection kicks in and sabotages due to Fe. Then the relationship turns into this: Full of second-guessing and brutal honesty. Then, the girl ends up rejecting me anyway, because there's no polarity, because I'm too passive, because I'm "too much of a wuss," as my brother says, because I implode and put all the blame on myself, because my body shuts down and I can't say anything more. Yeah. I'm sick of doing that. Makes sense why my body has unconsciously cut off circulation from the waist down. Trying to create stuff. The inner critic often kicks in and tries to filter everything I write. Especially the case with songwriting, though it's gotten better. Trying to make it all work. Because it's not working. Nothing feels like it's working. I feel better than ever in my body, mind, and spirit, but this "adulthood" thing still doesn't work for me.

@Alien Did you have an actual realization, or is it just mental masturbaton with concepts presented to you which might not be true?

@Alien You're from Lower Saxony? Me too! What a coincidence to find someone on this forum who's so close to me geographically, haha. But yeah, Leo's totally right bruh, even just a glimpse of it will completely turn your life upside down, you can be absolutely sure about that. I certainly don't claim to be fully enlightened but I can say that I've gone quite far down that road and let me tell you...pretty much every year post-enlightenment, you will be like "Who was that guy a year ago?", and then it will even turn into "Who was that guy just a month ago?", even though after a while you will always assume to be on top of the enlightenment-mountain because you think to yourself "How could this even get any better?!", but, it does get better continuously - it practically never stops which is the most beutiful thing about it.

@Alien Something tells me you will be extra pleased when you finally glimpse the Absolute

@Alien Well, of course, if you're into this work, that already makes you rather exceptional. My theory is, some people just naturally like to get their mind fucked. Those are the ones who gravitate towards nonduality. I'm like that. With that said, even though I love a good mindfuck, I also love my ego. So a tug-of-war must happen. The real test of how much you love a good mindfuck is: if there was a mindfuck so deep the only way you could glimpse it was by killing yourself, would you do it? The only reason you're gravitating towards it right now is because your mind doesn't really understand the extent of the mindfuck. You like little mindfucks. But you do not like big mindfucks which will totally obliterate you. The big mindfucks will take you totally by surprise, and it's good they do because otherwise you would probably never approach them. The whole problem here is that you are being asked to kill yourself. And of course you can't want that. 3 billion years of evolution are pushing their finger on the scale. But we can sucker you into it by having you believe that it won't be real death, but just like an mini "ego-death" -- which your mind can rationalize to itself as being "cool" and "good". But, then one day you will discover much to your shock -- No, we were talking about actual death! But then it will be too late. You will already be dead. And you will be pleased. But not in the way you expect. In other words, we have to use the mind's self-deceptions against itself to escape itself.

B-b-but baby....it wasn't me .... it's alien hand syndrome.... Plus, there is already a significant dogmatic spirituality present, might as well go full on theocratic control over it...right?

@star ark Bicameral Mind theory actually makes sense.. You can also look up 'Alien hand syndrome' 'Alien hand syndrome (AHS) is a condition in which a person experiences their limbs acting seemingly on their own, without control over the actions' There is something called corpus callosum in our brain which connects left brain and right brain. When two hemispheres are surgically separated, it is almost like there are two people in the same body, My left brain can make decisions that my right brain is not aware of and vice versa. Once I read about this, my whole perception of consciousness changed. There are things which are not certain yet. But human beings have a tendency to avoid uncertainty by unconsciously adding their own explanations to fill in the gaps.

Looks like most of the alien entities are targetting the people in the West. I will deal with them if they ever decide to come to East.

You are on the right track... This is the basic criteria for a seeker. People link this with being judgemental.. It is not about being judgemental.. I know these things are traps and totally unnecessary, as far as seeking spiritual enlightenment is concerned.. So this is just a warning in a sincere attempt to help. It is not wrong to be interested in paranormal stuff, UFO's channelling etc.. But there is absolutely no connection between this and spiritual enlightenment. They are actually distractions.. Even if you go through anecdotes and decide to trust just anecdotal stuff, you will still find that all authentic masters discouraged in any interest in paranormal. Go through Patanjali Yoga sutras and he himself says these things are distractions and trap you. Do you need spiritual enlightenment or do you want to fall in love with an alien entity from 500 light years away? You have the choice to choose always! 500 light years is too far away, but your true nature is extremely close... I tend to discourage such discussions as I absolutely know without any doubt that these are distractions and traps for spiritual seekers. But people have their right to get distracted and remain trapped. You have the right to live just like everyone else whose lives are based on beliefs and blind faith alone, no one is stopping. You have the right to delude yourself into thinking that you are highly conscious beings while getting attached to everything that is impermanent and illusory. People have the right to repeat some cliched spiritual quotes to justify what they are doing. No one is forced to consider this serious warning either! It all depends on what you want.

Hi @Alien . I don't see any conflict between photography and Self Actualization work. Photography, as any other form of art, can be done from a place of high consciousness, love, curiosity and intelligence. It becomes a distraction only if you do it for the wrong reasons.

infj laundry list. I acquired a recent obsession with MBTI. Taking this personality test three separate times, I got the same result over and over: INFJ. The rarest, most misunderstood personality type in the world. INFJ males apparently make up 0.4% of the population. Straight INFJ males, probably less. #imaspecialsnowflake #egotrip Why didn't I learn this earlier...?!?! It would have saved me years of misery. Learning about the INFJ personality feels like a spiritual awakening. Looking at my life through this lens explains almost everything about me. It explains why: I feel like an alien Very few people understand me I feel like a walking contradiction I often feel at war with myself due to conflicting desires I am a people pleaser and social chameleon, always have been I can connect with anyone but have very few true friends I used to be addicted to video games I had binge eating issues half a year ago I feel disconnected from my body, ungrounded I've had chronic health issues for years People often mistake me for an extrovert I am often confused because I can envision a million different futures and see the opportunity costs My mind travels a million miles per minute I often get analysis paralysis I love mental masturbation I often get deja vu Life feels dream-like I am highly sensitive to others' feelings and can intuit underlying moods I often know when someone is lying I try not to rock the boat, because saying "no" may hurt the others' feelings, and I have to feel their hurt Until I was eight years old, I cried every day Growing up, my Dad and brother would tell me to "stop crying," or "stop being a little girl," or "grow a pair" As a sensate extrovert, my brother says, "just do it", "stop thinking so much", "what are you so afraid of?" People often criticize me for being "too deep" I feel like my body doesn't cooperate with me I live "upstairs," meaning that most of my "me"-ness resides in the third eye and forehead I am quasi-autistic in front of the opposite sex, because my body feels threatened for its life and shuts down When I finally trust someone, I jump off the deep-end and bear it all, which often scares them away I tend to get severely anxious and severely depressed I gravitate towards nihilism When I say I'll do something, I'll do it I'm extremely disciplined I was a straight-A student in school, without needing to study until college I use lots of metaphors and enjoy puns I gravitate towards holistic systems thinking I like using bullet points I have difficulty expressing myself I've nearly thought myself to death I'm sometimes envious of people like Cypher, who are okay with being ignorant I can't hold a day job for more than six months without going slightly crazy I don't get why people my age go straight into a 9-to-5 career without questioning if they really want to do it or whether it will make them happy I feel like "the system" is not made for my personality I think the conventional route - get a job, get married, have kids, retire - is inherently empty and comes with false promises I feel incapable of providing for a family I want to be like yoda when I grow up I have a hard time being present (1.5 years of daily meditation, and I still can't seem to get in the zone) I am extremely future-oriented I value personal growth highly I quit facebook a year ago I'm overstimulated by bright lights, loud noises, and crowds I hate being the center of attention I can't stand small talk I need time to recharge after social interactions If an activity doesn't align with my higher-consciousness values, I eventually stop doing it People often come to me with their problems People often accuse me of playing the psychologist People often share their deepest secrets with me - even people I barely know Whenever something bad happens in any relationship, I immediately blame myself first I see the potential of a person more than I see the actual person I have a strong urge to help others I am a raging perfectionist who sets unrealistically high standards for myself I am self-aware and admit when I'm wrong I often disappear from the face of the earth for extended periods of time (like right now) I have terrible situational awareness At the same time, I find myself crying of gratitude every other day because of the overwhelming beauty of life I am hell-bent on answering the deep existential questions I feel extreme, tender, compassionate puppy-love towards people and things ever since balancing my fourth chakra I make laundry lists like this, hoping that maybe someone out there will understand, while expecting that the reader will either think "WTF?" or "Too much, man..."

@Alien do what makes you feel happy. Your only on this planet once. I’m sure taking some photos isn’t going to be the end of the world!

@Alien Write two columns on a piece of paper; belief and experienced. Write everything you could ever have any question about in one of those columns. It works well if we are absolutely honest.

@Alien It’s the idea of “you” that is at the root of this. Idea’s are one thing, “I literally don’t exist” is a bucket of minduckery. ?

To me he has a certain look that gives him that guru look. That makes him sort of naturally interesting. He looks like an alien. He's so weird looking he must be wise eh? That's what I think is happening subconsciously with people and why he is as popular as he is. And his personality is strange too.

I recently did a guided meditation that was very reminiscent of that image @Alien . It involved breathing in the positive symbol, and breathing out that negative symbol. It seemed rather silly at first, and then I realized how deeply we are connected to these symbols... and how obvious their meaning is to all. In retrospect, from a non-dual perspective, I guess it's a rather fucked up exercise...but that doesn't negate the fact that I felt great afterwards...lol...

I never even knew Bashar has paid content until you mentioned it. The free content is enough to get the wisdom. Judge the content, not where it's coming from.. Bashar isn't supposed to need money, sure, but the argument is invalid, because it's not Bashar who gets the money, it's Darryl Anka, who is not the supposed alien. Goes to show that you are simply with an agenda to try to discredit the guy. Nothing personal, but that's just how I see it. I can't speak about the crystal's functionality, because I haven't tried it. I can't judge something as correct or incorrect if I haven't tried it. Recently I am led to believe that the world is much more magical than I realise, especially when geometry is concerned. Btw thanks for showing me this vid. I already have attempted to re-draw it, so now I have a permission slip hanging on my wall - for free! I'll keep you updated if something happens

@Alien

@AleksM probably, but when it comes to information, it is the same... When we learn physics or chemistry, we learn information and facts... Whatever that alien entity says is probably a bunch of information.. Whether it is true or not is a different thing. But regardless of the truth of that information, it is still some information... That is why I am saying that it is all bit off-topic for people whose main priority is spiritual enlightenment... They have other forums to discuss these things.. :) Anyway, the image is just a joke.. Making sure that the discussion doesn't get serious...

Ok.. then wait! I am hoping that by 2040 or before, we can get an alien being right here on the earth to teach you how to get enlightened.. If it doesn't happen until 2040, there is still hope, so don't worry.. It will be a great way to postpone enlightenment because people can wait for eternity for an alien being to show up and teach them something profound, in such a way that no human being has taught them before...And the probability of that one random alien being to be enlightened being is so unimaginably high!

Yes.. I think we probably need a 'Paranormal' subforum and a 'Mental masturbation' subforum...Even though these two topics have got nothing to do with enlightenment, a lot of people are more attached to these things... But it will be good if 'spiritual enlightenment' subforum is locked for people who post in 'Paranormal' subforum and the 'Mental masturbation' subforum; these two subforums should be locked for people who like to use the 'spiritual enlightenment' subforum. Also, alien life doesn't have to be categorized as 'paranormal' but still, as @blazed said, it is not the purpose of this forum... Here is the bottom-line: Neither the curiosity about paranormal stuff nor any kind of mental masturbation has got anything to do with the spiritual path or spiritual enlightenment. Usually, they are distractions..

@Alien It's normal on the path. You WILL fall off track a lot so just be patient and keep going regardless. The reason why you're so upset is because you're not thinking long term.

@Alien Sounds like the purging process. It's ultimately a good thing, but it can be a complete bitch when you're going through it. Important thing is just to keep coming back to center. This too shall pass and all that.

@Mighty Mouse How do you know if I am being fooled by this? I just found it entertaining when I watched it 2 years ago and felt like posting it here, if I believe if this is true or not couldn't be less relevant in either case. What speaks for his case is that there was a video of him up on turrents that showed him briefing some high ranked military people and also the many videos of people using his alien communication device/app or whatever it was seemed to show results, would be hard to fake that with so many different people in different places, but who knows, I have been looking around for those videos for like half an hour and they didn't seem to end I don't know how many got deleted by now though. There is also much stuff that speaks against him, although if you buy his story it would be logical that there is.