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Salvia Divinorum did not reproduce the no-self effect for me as deeply as the combination of being really stoned on cannabis then hitting a large amount of DMT. On that combination I recall now that I literally had no idea that humans ever existed. By no idea I mean truly, I did not even try to remember what a human is because I didn't even know such a thing existed. I did not know that I had EVER not been where I was at that time or that I ever had a name. I WAS a worm, always had been, and I had always existed in this neon green tunnel which I moved through. There was no possibility to be scared and I did not focus on the trip or what was happening, because I had NO IDEA that this was unusual at all. It was like you are a human now but really you're a space alien and soon you will be back in your alien self. We have no idea what's happening now is abnormal so we feel it is mundane. Same thing. A curious experience but ultimately uninsightful. If you don't even know that you ought to be paying attention to what's happening then you will simply miss it all.

@Dodo If you were sober and seeing things which aren't there and thinking you are Jesus being attacked by dark forces, I would suggest looking into the possibility of schizophrenia. There's an actual easy at home test for schiz, involving sipping soda while making a certain facial expression. Connor stops believing he is an alien etc. once he is given antipsychotics. If dark forces are causing you distress, something like Seroquel might make them vanish.

He also says he is a 5th dimensional alien lifeform, that he is the literal second coming of Christ, and all sorts. Have you even seen how unhinged and ill he is? He has been sectioned for psychosis already.

I've just been wondering myself as to how seeing 'aliens' may have originally come about for me 15-14 months ago. I had previously been doing practices that would induce a non judgement, non fear based state. My perception was very clean during the beginning of that period of time. To have perceived what was normal as otherwise 'alien' to my perception could be a real possibility. Although it doesn't explain why intentions were so much more loving and positive than a usual human being.

Yes. In 'psychosis' I had the experience that people were devoid of their humanness. They had different wants, intentions and interests. Completely alien. They would light up, especially the masculine aliens, as a result of these differing internal states. Feminine aliens were incredibly loving, which would also induce the lit up quality in the masculine.

@BipolarGrowth I don't believe this kind of experience is what OP is referring to. That sounds more like a psychedelic delusion to me. @Delis To clarify, are you referring to a state where other people still look perfectly human and normal to your eyes, but rather your mind is processing their form as if for the first time, giving you the perception that you're looking at something extremely alien? If so, I've had this experience myself. Imo it's caused by a disidentification with the usual categories your brain uses to process the world (such as 'person), so you're left looking at the 'raw data' so to speak.

I’d like to start this off by mentioning that I’m a 40 year old dude who has never before done any substances before not even weed. So this is my first ever experience on a single gram of mushroom, and BOY-OH-BOY !! WHAT AN EXPERIENCE IT WAS !! So I hope you enjoy this trip as much as I did. I should add that I’m a fairly skinny individual; I probably weight around 125/130 pounds and I’m 5’7 - So that may be the reason why just a single gram had this effect on me. Having no trip experience before, I really did not know what to expect. Few other things to mention before I start; and all this is important to give you an idea of where I live (for set and setting) - I live on the 33rd floor of a high rise with large windows with an unobstructed south facing views of the city, with lake Ontario visible far off in the distance. There’s a park directly beneath my building (visible to me) with a few other buildings in the vicinity. I was mainly in the living room of my condo unit during this experience. I have a large 60 inch 4K TV (this too is important to mention) situated a few feet in front of the sofa in my living room. Last thing to mention is that I’m a photographer by profession, that started as a hobby where I mostly photographed in nature. So my love for nature and photography go hand in hand. ----- So I took the 1 gram mushroom dose in tea form that I steeped and drank within a span of 15/20 mins as I switched on the TV to YouTube, and was watching and listening to some clips of Leos (the new short clips, he recently released) on YouTube. Onset: As the mushroom starts to take effect; at first I don’t quite like the experience. I feel light headed, sort of nauseated like I’m drunk, so I sit back on the sofa cross legged with an off white blanket wrapped around me. For some reason I can’t stand listening to Leo anymore, so I use the remote to switch to something else, and this is only because of the dizziness I started to experience on the onset. I did a search for “Nature 4K” on YouTube and clicked on a video of a rushing waterfall in a forest thumbnail that was one of the results that came up. Best fukin video ever!! and I’m so glad I clicked on this one. (I've added the link below) A few mins into the onset and now I’m starting to feel funny. And I literally mean funny. At first it started with a few random giggles that slowly started to escalate into full blown hysterical fits of laughter for no apparent reason. This surprised me. After-all I had no reason to laugh, unless I'm seeing something funny or someone told me a hilarious joke. But not while just watching a 4K nature video play out on the TV. ----- The Magical Forest: The laughter now started to come in waves. I just felt like laughing and so I let loose and just laughed my ass off for absolutely no apparent reason, as I walked through this incredible forest on my TV, while sitting of my sofa with a blanket wrapped around me. I don't think I’ve ever laughed this hard. It was fuckin Amazing !! So I’m still watching this beautiful forest video, as the camera man is walking on this winding path through the forest, and I pretend it's me. There's some beautiful music playing in the background of the video, it's green everywhere with a play of light and shadow, and slowly I'm starting to realize how amazing this forest looks. Almost Heavenly. I tell myself there is no way such a beautiful forest exists on this planet. It's like another world, like a new planet that we discovered recently, with such an amazing blend of colors and greens and light. I could see myself living there, like a woodland creature, and I’d be the happiest person ever, just to be there. The fits of laughter I was having continued, as I kept walking through this Ethereal forest, completely taken in by its beauty. In some of the scenes I was walking through this muddy slushy area of the forest, that I would normally try to avoid these areas if I was actually there, but suddenly it all seemed perfect. It was perfect just as it was. The slushy mud, the toppled down and uprooted trees. There were no longer any imperfections in this forest that I would usually try to avoid photographing. But now it all seemed indescribably perfect, like this was heaven. This was definitely heaven. Such a beautiful forest could not exist here on earth. I kept laughing and telling myself how beautiful it was and I wish I was actually there with my camera to capture how beautiful it was. I was envious of this cameraman who got to experience this first-hand. By now I was laughing so much I had tears streaming down my face. I was laughing at what I was feeling; waves of happy euphoria. I was laughing at how beautiful nature is, the way the sunlight touched the ferns and reflected in a dazzling blend of greens and yellow and wood and dirt and it was all magical and beautiful and ethereal and heavenly. ----- The Grand Chasms: A few more mins in … maybe 30 mins in the laughter started to die down, but the smile on my face stayed on. I was gleefully grinning like a kid on Christmas morning knowing he is going to be opening up his presents. The dizziness I was feeling started to go away as well. But I knew I wasn’t fully steady, so I remained seated on the sofa, and I got more comfortable in my seating. I’m still watching the video, cause I’m completely entranced and caught up in the mesmerizing nature of this forest, when I started to notice that the ground and grassy area of the forest seemed to move and come alive. So I moved my eyes away from the screen for a bit and looked at the blanket that was wrapped around me. This blanket was just an ordinary wooly type blanket that I use when I’m usually meditating daily. But now it didn’t seem so ordinary anymore. Since I had my knees folded up to my chest with the blanket around me, I could clearly see the neatly woven lines of yarn of the blanket that rose up. Normally this is not something anyone would notice, its just a fuckin blanket for petes sake. But now suddenly these stood out like chasms, like I was literally staring into another landscape in another world. As the blanket morphed itself around the curves of my legs, it seemed to take on another worldly quality, like an entire land mass was resting around my body. And as the soft wooly bits of yarn rose up and out of the blanket they seemed like tall trees and land masses with mountains and valleys, that someone like myself could shrink into and get lost into another blanket world. This thought and the clarity of the experience blew me away !! I looked away from the blanket back to the forest on my TV screen still playing the background and paused the video. But as the image stayed paused on this beautiful scene, it took on a three dimensional quality of depth, and it seemed like the video was still playing, like the ferns and leaves were moving. I looked at my ceiling, and suddenly I was transported into another world again. The ceiling in my condo is called a “popcorn ceiling” if you’re not familiar with the term then look it up. I hate how it looks because it's not like a normal smooth plain ceiling, but rough and jagged like someone took some white chunky peanut butter and spread it out across the ceiling. Apparently it helps with keeping noise down between floors. So I look up at the ceiling and suddenly the rough texture took on a whole otherworldly quality. Just like the vast rocky mountains in my blanket, the ceiling transports me into another grand canyon of gorges and deep clefts, and again I felt like I could shrink down into this tiny ant sized human and explore my ceiling for days and I would wander between mountains and valleys carved out between these huge boulder sized chunks of chalk and styrofoam. I kept staring at the ceiling and it seemed to morph and blend into these tiny honeycomb like crevices. This ceiling that I always ignored and disliked, now seemed almost otherworldly and an invitation for exploration. By now I of course figured out that my senses were starting to sharpen, as I’ve read from other people experiences. So I took my hand out from under the blanket and bought it close to my face, and BHAM !! Another fucking world to explore !! ----- Heightened Sense Perceptions: As I looked at my hand, I started to see it in a whole new light. Every ridge of my fingers stood out tack sharp, like I’ve never ever seen it before. I could clearly see the fingerprints on the tip of my fingers, every single curve and ridge and arch and loop, stood out like mountain ridges that ran for miles across my hand and my fingers, like some satellite imagery from space. This was literally another fucking world. MY HAND WAS ANOTHER FUCKIN WORLD, ANOTHER CONTINENT !!! Again I’m blown away by what I’m seeing in my own fuckin hand, like I could literally take a spaceship and fly deep down into palm of my hand and explore another world. As I looked closer I had a sense of aliveness within my hands. Like every single millimeter of it had some form of secret alien life within it that was working and shaping my hand and carving out these lines and ridges and exploring them !! GOOD GOD !! (I started to understand why Leo keeps talking about looking at your hand and experiencing it for what it is) By now I’m completely immersed into the whole experience. I’m smiling, I’m happy inside, I’m experiencing this brand new level of immersion and depth that almost seems dream-like, but so very real, that I was just not sure what to make of all of this. I started to understand now. Finally !!! There's the waking state, there’s the dreaming state, and then there is this strange psychedelic state - strange for me, but I’m sure quite normal of some who have experienced it many times. This was new to me and I was fuckin loving every moment of it. By now I was feeling less light headed, but also excited to explore. It's like anything and everything I looked at with a noticeable texture reminded me of another world. I was literally seeing whole undiscovered regions and continents within my own living room. I decided to get up and look out my window, and oh man !! What can I say? I wasn’t on fuckin Earth anymore. It’s like without realizing it I had walked into a parallel universe that opened up inside my living room. As I looked out my window, I almost felt like crying. Everything was as it was. The buildings were there, the park was there, the cars zipping by, but the play of light and colors, made it feel completely different. I know that it was just my own vision and perception that was heightened, but the way the light danced outside my window, it was as if daylight took shape and form and danced around the buildings and on the park, over the lake and in the distance. Like it was a happy light and it was glad to show off its colors as it reflected and moved through the trees and the buildings and road. I stared outside the window for a while completely baffled and mesmerized by how everything looked. But more important than that was how I was feeling at the same time. I was feeling happy and light-hearted. I had this feeling that everything was going to be okay and I had absolutely nothing to worry about. A storm was brewing in the distance as I was taking in this whole scene out my window and I was telling myself that this had to be the most beautiful storm system I had ever seen in my life. So I pulled out my phone and placed it on the window sill and did a time-lapse video of the event with the camera looking out the window (I still have that video, showing the storm clouds moving across the sky). By now I started to feel some hunger come on. I had some snacks that I thought I’d eat, this was basically some cashews and pistachios. And as I was tasting these nuts, it tasted like the most delicious cashews and pistachios I’ve ever tasted. It tasted the same, but the taste was heightened ten fold. I also had a packet of some left over chips and I bought those out and I looked at this one chip and again I’m seeing the texture of this chip like its a whole continent that need to be explored, and I put this continental chip in my mouth and bit into it and the flavor was so intense, I had to sigh in pleasure. But now I was over an hour and half into the experience and I was feeling that it was starting to wear off, which was disappointing, because I was really enjoying the experience and wanted it to last forever. So there you have it. I realize that there was no mystical experience, as it was mainly visual and experiential in the sense that I was happy as I've ever been in my life. I have some questions that I hope some of you more experienced can answer: 1) I have two more tea bags and was wondering if I should just do a 2 grams, next time (steep both tea bags) - I'm not sure how intense that would be for me, given that I live on my own? 2) How do I minimize the nauseated feeling on the Onset? 3) What else can you recommend I do during the trip to intensify the experience? Thanks for reading YouTube vid I was watching during the trip:

Right... Now you are talking an alien language that doesn't correspond to direct experience. In fact if any.. It's YOU who is imagining God imagining stuff.. not the other way around.

I'm writing this hoping I can get some direct communication from Leo or someone else. The name I was born with means "A Vessel Forged to House the Love and Grace of God." I have created my own understandings of love and grace, and have always felt a deep sense of responsibility to the people in this world. When Leo speaks of someone becoming a true god in this world, my instincts scream at me to tell me it's me. I'd like some direct guidance and perspective because with my golden birthday coming up, I'm a little fearful. I've talked to a lot of spirits, but my A Team is Kwan Yin, Loki, Thor, Jesus, Apollo, Poseidon, Hades (We love to talk about musicals, also his threats are really funny), Hermes of course, and last but not least my chief advisors Aidos and Nemesis, as well as other gods that lie outside the formations of our current understandings. Lastly, just because I'm ridiculous I added Ursoc from World of Warcraft and Alien X from Ben 10. It was partially a silly decision, but I wanted a perspective of what love and grace meant from beings outside the societal construct of what's held as real, normal or true. We have little respect for animals in our world relative to what their needs are, and I intend to focus my efforts on that issue. My body has been stressed to the point I can't think straight, and it's becoming a detriment to my artwork. If Leo or another admin with good perspective can message me with their number for an hour chat or so, it would mean everything to me. Sincerely, The Dragonbjorn

Less identification to the body (or, there is more than the body) I read the newest posts from this thread: https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/18958-let-us-see-your-face-?/ Is it conscious to post pics of the person behind the account? Of course. Would I post? I could. Yesterday I was hiking with friends. Perfect day for a hike, even from a judging perspective. Just flowing. Feels good. However interestingly, in the evening I went through the photos of me and there was a strange feel of being alien in this human body. Yes, I know this body, but the person is so radically different from the body. This beingness feels outerworldly. I think Leo mentioned in the JP video the delicate balance between deconstructing and integrating aspects of reality. You can go overboard with it (and yet it is Beauty and Love). Interestingly, the person can be rigid and have an agenda by focusing more on transcendence. Spiritual bypassing. Avoiding life. Seeking a shortcut.

The "your ego's perspective" is an add-in. You are creating that. Notice the framing of "your ego's perspective", rather than "the creation I'm creating that I call 'your ego's perspective'". (And yes, I am aware I am doing the same thing within this construct). You seem to be interested in assumptions, here there is an assumption that there is an external thing of "your ego's perspective". Notice the construct of "argument". Imagine we are hiking together in the forest and I say "look how that hummingbird flies!!! It flies like an alien!". Wouldn't it be odd to say "Your argument that the hummingbird flies like an alien is predicated upon assumptions". That framing is very debate oriented and very restrictive. It is not exploratory. Yet in terms of argumentative structures, EVERY argumentative structure is predicated upon assumptions. In fact, any thing is predicated on the assumption that it is not another thing. This is what I'm referring to as a simplistic construct. Within the construct of an objective, external reality - this is correct. Yet within a relative construct, this is only partially true. The phrase "there is no normal for you or normal for me" indicates a conscious state contracted within objective, external reality that cannot see relativity. It literally say there is no relativity and reveals lack of this awareness. Within the relative construct of "normal" you are creating, that is true. Yet it is not true in other relative constructs of "normal". For example, we could say that deconstructing terms is "normal" - this is true within that relative construct of "normal". Notice how you are saying that your perception is normal and my perception is abnormal. I am saying that your perception is both normal and abnormal. As well, my perception is both normal and abnormal. This is relativity. What is normal and abnormal is relative to the perception of what is normal and abnormal. For that to be true, you would need to be playing like you don't understand things like spectrums, mosaics and relativity. That would be like someone fluent in Spanish pretending they are a begginner in Spanish. That would be playing a game. I'm straight-up adding elements of relativity to what I write. It doesn't get any more direct. If you can't see the relativity elements I'm spitting out, you don't understand relativity. It would be like me saying "Como estas?" and you replying "Say something to me in Spanish". If you could speak Spanish, you would be playing games that you don't speak Spanish. As I've said, I can't give you a personalized reason for you to get the vaccine. A personalized reason comes from within. Imagine me asking "tell me a reason why it should learn freestyle rap". If I'm not internally interested in freestyle rap, there is no reason you can give me. Anything you say, I would dismiss as having no value for me. You could say "Freestyle rap would improve your vocabulary" and I could respond "I don't need to improve my vocabulary". I'm able to give both positive and negative elements of the vaccine. Yet I cannot give a reason for you, because that is relative to you. You create your personal values.

Many enlightened people see through the illusion of love between family members and having children. One important question would be how many enlightened people would reproduce? It is possible that some would be too focused on consciousness to the point that not enough people reproduce. This could be bad for society if everybody were that enlightened. Assuming there are enough people reproducing, I would expect the crime rate to be much lower. Corruption in the government would not be tolerated at that point. Businesses would be regulated enough to prevent white collar crimes. I don't know if a totally enlightened society would keep money or go full blown communism. Sadhguru is a communist. If the society were stage turquoise, then it would recognize the importance of the entire spiral. Space exploration could continue and new technology would still be developed. This is necessary because one day the sun will engulf the earth. We must terraform other planets to survive. An enlightened society across the galaxy would have varying survival strategies. They may be interested in bringing love throughout the universe. This means if humans discover other intelligent species, we may guide their evolution like friendly aliens. I have an optimistic view of alien life. If there are intelligent species that evolved for tens of thousands of years beyond humans, then their morality would be more developed as well their technology. This is why aliens would be interested in preventing humans from blowing up the earth through nuclear war. If an enlightened society existed already, I would guess it is the aliens preventing us from blowing up the earth.

Higher resolution views can provide clarity. I'm not using "low resolution, crude" in that context. Imagine an alien comes to earth and is learning the concept of "intimacy". As examples of intimacy, the alien is shown two people gazing into each other's eyes as they make love and the alien is shown two people gazing into each others eyes as one is being strangled to death. Both are extremely intimate moments. Yet this is a crude view because it lacks the relative nature of "light" and "dark" as perceived through the eyes of the beholder. The alien may want to share intimacy and go out strangling people to death. People then point out the relative nature of "light" and "dark". This brings in another dimension into higher resolution, yet the event is not inherently "light" or "dark", it is both light and dark as well as neither light nor dark. The alien's view will be molded by it's angle of perception. If the alien hangs out with serial killers, it will come to understand the wonderful beauty in strangulation intimacy. If the alien could enter the mind of a serial killer, it would directly experience the wonderful beauty of strangulation intimacy. . . Yet if someone points out that strangulation intimacy is also dark, it will reject that view. Since strangulation intimacy is "light", it cannot also be "dark". It will disagree with anyone pointing out the dark nature because any such conclusion is founded on faulty assumptions. From the understanding that strangulation intimacy is "light", it is true that any conclusions that strangulation intimacy is "dark" is founded upon faulty assumptions. However, this is a contracted view. Imagine that the alien gets to experience strangulation intimacy from the perspective of being strangled. This is also an extremely intimate experience, yet know it would be perceived as a "dark" intimacy. The alien would realize "Ooohhhh, so this is what people were talking about the dark nature of strangulation". The alien would then understand that strangulation is 1) intimate, 2) wonderfully intimate and 3) darkly intimate. However, whenever the alien spoke of the "dark" aspect, those that only understand the "light" aspect would say "you believe that strangulation intimacy is 'dark'. Such conclusions are based on faulty assumptions". . . Within the contraction that strangulation intimacy is light, it is true that all conclusions that strangulation intimacy is dark is faulty. As well, recognizing the relativity of "light" and "dark" nature is still a surface-level view, in particular the *other side* that has been labeled as faulty. For example, we could say "Yea, yea, yea. What someone sees as 'light' or 'dark' is relative", yet the embodiment is much stronger on one side. For example, your understanding and embodiment is much stronger on the "light" side. Even if such a mind recognizes conceptually that what we perceive as "light" and "dark" is relative, the understanding and fluency is much stronger on one side. If one wanted to deepen understanding and fluency on another side, a lot of work and effort would be needed.

Very nice and very true that if you go keto then processed food feels alien and artificial. Where in nature do you find a meal with the amount of sugar contained in a cake ?

We have many religions which have practice of doing idol worshipping. This creates a problem now. This stops people from asking further questions into nature of what God is . And pursuing the path to Enlightenment. There are billions of people on earth who do idol worshiping and thinks god is some being sitting in sky separate from them who made the universe and all humans and animals. This satisfy them and never allow them to ask further questions about what God really is , What I am? What is reality made up of? What I came here to do? Religion function as organized template which stops people from asking question and even validating whether what their religion preach is even true or not. Whether their customs, traditions, rituals are superstitious or not. Their is great sense of attachment to their religion and they take it as faith no matter what is written in the religion. If god is truely inconceivable , infinite, cannot be described using words, languages or forms then dont you think using idol to worship infinite formless god is very against the characteristics of what God really is? And then it stops people from asking further question into the nature of what god is and journey to enlightenment. You see what religion is doing is laying down some mythology for people to believe in which satisfy people's question about nature. They thinks some god sitting in sky separate from them or a being having human features separate from them made this universe and whole reality . This stops their further quest into enlightenment. And why do religions thinks that god looks like human? Why not universe? Why not some advanced alien being? Why their is inclination of people in believing that god is separate from them and looks like human ? And should be worshiped through idols?

Humans have something like masculine and feminine orientations. But to essentialize masculine and feminine and treat them as though they apply across the universe is not correct I think. Some spiritual folk love to do that. As if consciousness is limited to such a narrow dichotomy. A rock is not masculine nor feminine and an alien could be some other thing altogether.

@Consept In terms of my personal experience, basically I noticed the trend is most dominant in people leaving Stage Orange and moving into Green, feeling disillusioned with everything they previously believed. There's a lot of anger, resentment, confusion and disbelief. They're looking for a new "story" or narrative or worldview they can attach themselves to, and often instead of doing the deep challenging inner work that involves being in the mystery and sitting in the unknown, they cling to whatever story arises that explains why they feel the way they feel. For example, that there's an evil cabal of elites harming them. IMO, it's fundamentally a victim mentality that fuels the fire of anger and allows it to be projected outward instead of investigated inward, and as we know, anger is often a cover for grief. So instead of feeling that deep painful grief we turn to rage and project it onto others. It creates a duality of good and evil, right and wrong, awakened and asleep, enlightened ones and sheeples, high vibe and low vibe. It's a strange irony that in the quest for Oneness so much separation can be created. Often psychedelics can help magnify the conspiracy theories, for example, having alien encounters during DMT/Ayahuasca which adds "evidence" that that aliens must be working with Bill Gates to implant microchips in our brains. I had one friend who told me after an Aya ceremony that the medicine told her COVID was an inside job. She is studying to be a doctor and generally is not a conspiracy theory person. Now, perhaps COVID is an inside job, and I believe she had the experience she's claiming she had, but still, it shows how quickly these things can spread because all it takes is her posting that on social media to have all these other people point and say, "See, more proof that COVID is a government conspiracy here to control our bodies!" Things just warp and take on a life of their own. Lastly, because many in the New Age world are so isolated from mainstream society, it creates a bubble that perpetuates the same narratives and prevents outside voices from offering different perspectives. Same shit that's happening with Q-Anon, Trump supporters, etc. We all living in our little bubbles. One more thing, I suspect many New Agers deep in conspiracies are projecting childhood wounds and a distrust of authorities onto "the system." Many in the spiritual world haven't done the deep inner healing/trauma work that one might think they've done, or perhaps they're in the process of working through those old wounds, and so as they arise it becomes easy to project them outward instead of deconstructing them internally. Classic 101 psychology stuff. Hope this helps. Happy to answer any questions about it as it's a topic I've been studying a lot. I also have shifted my perspective on some stuff. For example, I use to laugh at the concept of aliens controlling the human agenda, but now I see how that could in theory be plausible in the astral/4D/subtle realm. If God is infinity, in theory everything is possible, but because I have absolutely no evidence to support or disprove this theory, it becomes something I just don't really pay attention to. Why put so much effort on a hypothetical that, at my stage of consciousness, is completely outside of my control? I'd rather focus on that which I as Tucker in this human incarnation can improve, change, etc. And mostly that starts with myself, hence why I wrote the "I Am The Conspiracy" essay that I did.

You might find interest in this part of my story. The Grays - My Story of ET Contact I kept it out of the original post as it adds even more esoteric or generally unaccepted themes. The point in the video isn’t necessarily that the content or conclusions made at the time are 100% correct, but even in a much more stable mental state over six months later the correlations are still astounding. The progression of this phenomena went in the long sequence of events described below. Many significant events are left out of this rather long account. To anyone reading, I’m not promoting the mixture of psychotic mental illness and psychedelics/spirituality. This almost cost me my life and did cost me tens of thousands of dollars, friendships, reputation, employment status to name just the main things. It’s a high risk, high reward approach which wouldn’t be wise in relation to most people’s goals. The key thing to note is that all of these questionable causes (mental illness, alien abduction, psychedelic use) which could be simply explained away as productions/delusions of my own mind actually resulted in drastic changes to other people’s direct experiences which are not capable of being explained by this same “it’s all in your mentally ill, drug-ruined mind” mentality a skeptical materialist might use. First feeling of “clairsentience/telepathy” in 1st or 2nd grade for a brief moment > Hyperrealistic alien abduction dream fueled by fear of aliens (with significant sensory experience outside of dream making the event feel undeniably real to an 8 year old) > Lifelong fear of aliens comes as a result > Brief experiences of “clairsentience” occur during teen years and early 20s, still wholly unaware of what this sensation might be > Bipolar disorder type 1 diagnosis at age 18, first glimpses of higher consciousness states occur as a result of manic episodes > First “spiritual experience” outside of extreme mental health states occurs at 19 in a 1 on 1 meeting with the leader of my childhood church, this leader gave me a first direct experience of God’s love > Spiritual seeking begins at 19, find actualized.org videos at age 21 > A few manic episodes happen from age 19-22, becoming more spiritual and higher consciousness in nature than previous episodes > Try magic mushrooms at low dose, first psychedelic at 22 > Manic episode two - three months later triggered by rigorous spiritual practices & self-improvement in diet, exercise, rapid spiral dynamics evolution > Mental health stabilizes a few months later, heroic dose mushroom trips begin > First experience of God Consciousness/Realization, far beyond any experiences to this point > Manic episode triggered one month after as consciousness raises due to Realization > While hospitalized, on two separate occasions, “nonphysical/telepathic” emotional transmutation occurs with two separate individuals — see video in above post “Are you a bipolar empath” for more context > First endogenous God Consciousness experience occurs during this episode & first instance of perceptible inner brain changes occur > One year goes by without manic episodes > 10 tabs of LSD awakening to God Consciousness, radically more potent than prior GC experiences, results in manic episode after the trip > A few months later I go to my first ayahuasca ceremony, a fellow bipolar person at the treat discusses their benefits from stopping bipolar meds after their previous ceremony > I stop taking medication, within a two days I become manic > I get the intuition that I should attempt to make contact with ETs related to childhood abduction, the fear of these entities which far exceeds my own fear of complete ego death is now confronted > I find a lengthy video about these aliens and how to initiate/allow for telepathic communication with them > Within three seconds of opening myself to this communication following the simple singular step given in the video, the same “clairsentience/telepathy” sensation experienced earlier in life comes to a degree which is as intense as any psychedelic or manic experience I’ve ever had. It lasts for three hours. This occurs without the use of any psychedelics or substances which would produce such a strong effect for me at the time. It is an incredibly intimate and positive connection. A key thing to notice here is that I faced my single greatest fear. I believe changing this fear into love for these entities had a lot to do with awakening this capability for telepathy to such a high degree. As time goes on, this capability exists regardless of mental instability, psychedelics, or even higher consciousness states > I continue to have telepathic communication with the same ETs. It begins taking a new form as I not only feel the clairsentience sensation, but I also feel the physical-seeming sensation of my brain literally folding into itself and moving within my skull. I begin to experience the clairsentience/telepathy sensation with other entities like deceased humans > I have severe manic episodes on and off for the next four months experiencing things which literally put space, time, and the laws of physics into question, this stuff is so radical even the most open-minded person I could ever expect to meet would likely not believe me. Picture driving east on the highway at 108 mph (max speed of a Prius ?) for three hours to then find you have not moved more than a few miles from your initial location among similarly ridiculous things like the physical teleportation of objects or charging your phone without an electricity source from 5% to 100% accidentally during meditation with someone there to witness it > One point roughly a month after the first ET telepathy experience, I’m asleep in bed next to my girlfriend who is awake. I sit up, while fully unconscious, and say to her something like “5424, we are here for you as well” before laying back down without any conscious control or awareness of myself or body. She immediately is sent into a psychedelic trip without consuming any psychoactive substances and tells me of what happened as I wake up > I have a joint clairsentience/telepathy experience with my girlfriend’s mother while we are spending time together who has had mild psychic abilities for quite some time (this event was sparked by following an intuition — following intuition is a key theme that has been present in many of the early clairsentience/telepathy experiences) > By January 2021, four or five months after the first ET telepathy experience, I’m very mentally stable and on a great balance of meds. The clairsentience/telepathy sensation has become relatively dormant although it still comes sparingly. I do not yet have much conscious control of generating this. It appears clear that the manic state acts as a catalyst for this phenomenon. > March 2021, I have my most significant and intense clairsentience experience as my girlfriend’s uncle dies from a seizure hundreds of miles away. I lived with him for half a year, saw him frequently, and knew him well. It’s clear to me that he found the ability to communicate through this mode within minutes after his physical death > My clairsentience sensation comes daily ever since > I have the intuition to see a psychic/tarot reader > The day that I decide to get the reading done, I have strong clairsentience sensations for three hours leading up to the reading > I meet a woman who does this. My only question for the reading is “what is the sensation?” (I exclude all backstory before asking in hopes to get a less intellectualized response). She pulls 10 tarot cards. A traditional deck has roughly a 50/50 split as far as what may usually be thought of as a bad card vs. good card put simplistically. All 10 cards she pulls are blatantly positive cards which is quite improbable. As I describe the sensation and my experiences, she tells me that she was exposed to the same clairsentience sensation roughly a year ago as it became more prevalent over time. As I feel the sensation during the discussion, she notes as she feels it at the exact same moments as I do without me saying that I’m experiencing it at those times. I describe a memory of a positive spiritual experience I had, and as I’m describing it, I have the identical emotional feeling of the memory. She describes how it feels to her as I’m feeling it, and her description is spot on. As I leave, she tells me that I should try to hold onto the clairsentience sensation and prolong it whenever I feel it > Now, in May 2021, I have developed significant mastery over the clairsentience connection compared to before. I can now generate it most of the time at will whenever I desire. I’ve even shared it with my mother while we were on a car ride. She’s felt it before plenty of times, and it likely has a unique feeling/manifestation for her. She describes it as the Holy Ghost within her personal spiritual context. After years of mental illness, high dose psychedelic experiences, and interactions with ETs, I can now experience a spiritual bond with my Mormon mother which transcends the division between her faith and my spirituality. How ironic and cool? Thanks to whoever read this in full ❤️

Say one was going to the moon or mars... Pretty much, my question is: Is there any chance alien life manipulates our thoughts too? If I'm in a community guideline. I'll have thoughts that are so similar to the norm and required to adapt my own that follow. Surely there is a tunnel sort of effect that reaches other things that can mimic the sound... Things that make you go hmmm...

Leo is an alien.

I think that presenting a teaching as being channeled avoids some of the projections that people make on teachers. Sometimes it's necessary to make a separation between the wisdom and how it resonates for you and your perception of the character and whether you trust them or not. Channeling is not a big deal, you channel all the time, it's just that you're not always conscious of it or clear and intentional about where it's coming from. In my opinion the whole channeling an alien thing isn't any different from Buddhists shaving their heads and wearing robes.

On some real shit though, I’ve experienced one of my higher manifestations which is a cephalopod goddess with infinite capabilities in nonphysical forces like telepathy. Being able to alter the course of existence... This is probably 7th density kind of shit. She lives inside me always. One of my spiritual guides. We’re all far more powerful than we think when we consider things such as spiritual alliances. At least I am, and I don’t think I’m all too different from everyone else. We all have powerful beings watching over our development. The life of a 3rd or transitional 4th density being is so interconnected to truly vast forces in the universe due to their impact on other beings both on their level of consciousness and others. I’m sure the Love experienced between myself and this aquatic, alien-like goddess meant very much to her as well. These beings have a vested interest in us. People are far too unaware of the fact that the right practice could give them the ability to connect in spiritual-bliss telepathy with any being that you love or appreciate. Jesus, God, your grandmother, it’s all well within your reach. It’s your birthright. We are all infinitely connected. This is the only reasonable conclusion. Even science shows this. And we’re to believe that our imagination cannot alter reality. That’s funny.

In order for me to recount this experience accurately I must first give some necessary context. Roughly three weeks prior to this trip I began to notice a subtle yet extremely profound shift in my perception of life and reality. I cannot exactly pinpoint when or how this shift occurred but all I can say is that since about mid to late December I have not perceived life through the bounds of an ego structure. Instead I have been perceiving and operating from a place of fundamental permanent unmoving beingness. Every aspect and event that this body mind experiences I have perceived as a reflection of who and what I am fundamentally and existentially. For the past few weeks literally everything I do, including just existing feels simultaneously like the most profound thing in all of existence as well as simply a normal mundane happening. The person known as T.R. just feels like a character that I am contently playing as in this experience of life. Occasionally at times when I have deeply felt into this permanent fundamental beingness it has resulted in tears and I have found myself spontaneously saying, “It was in my face the whole time”. “The most obvious thing (non-thing) in all of existence and the most profound thing (non- thing) in all of existence is right here and has always been right here”. This fundamental unmoving beingness feels like the “basal substance” (again it’s not a thing) from which all forms of existence arise and form from and fall and dissolve back into. My favorite philosopher and spiritual teacher Ken Wilber has referred to this as the “Ground of all Being” or the “Simple Feeling of Being”. It feels surreal and almost dreamlike but very grounded and mundane. I feel much lighter and more free, nothing matters but everything is sacred. I am almost reluctant to share, as I do not want to fool and or delude myself in thinking that full liberation is now my perception in life but I feel that my experience may benefit other people in their journeys and thus I am sharing this. Now with that context being provided I will get to describing the events of my DMT trip experience. During the week leading up to this experience I prepared for it in the following ways. I took my existing meditation, mindfulness and shadow work practices and ramped them up three fold. I did my best to stay in mindfulness for as many hours as I possibly could each day, as well as meditating about two hours each day. Additionally I kept a vigilant watch of my internal landscape and every day I wrote at length on any and all aspects of myself that were out of alignment with my True Natural Self and the ebb and flow of the Totality of Existence. Additionally I observed the excitement within the ego structure in the days leading up to this experience. On the day of the trip I began final preparations about an hour before. I meditated and listened to Gregorian chants as I normally do before entheogenic experiences. At around 2 in the afternoon I weighed out approximately 50mg of N,N-Dimethyltryptamine and placed it into the vaping bottle which I would use to inhale the substance from. As I placed the DMT into the vaping bottle it was as if my whole body was aware of the profundity that was about to occur. I sat down at the edge of my bed, sparked my lighter and began to vaporize the DMT. A thick white vapor filled the container and my body and mind were simultaneously filled with reverence, anxiety and awe. I thanked every being both physical and non-physical who has helped me in this life in allowing me to cultivate this experience. I then exhaled my lungs as completely as I could, unfastened the bottle cap and took in the largest inhale of my life. In a matter of 3 seconds or so I inhaled all 50 milligrams of the DMT vapor in a single hit. I held it in my lungs for around 5 seconds or so before slowly exhaling it. The first thought I had was, “I wonder how long it will take for this to come on.” Before the thought could even finish within 3 or 4 seconds my vision extremely quickly exploded into a mandala of infinitely beautiful fractals of first hundreds and then thousands of colors. Simultaneously I heard the iconic intensely loud humming ringing in my ears. Additionally I began to feel what I can only describe as the feeling of my whole body dissolving, becoming less and less and less relevant to my experience of existing. In the few seconds left that I had any awareness of a physical world I quickly put down the bottle and laid down in my bed. By now, perhaps 10 or 15 seconds into the trip I was essentially blinded by billions of infinitely beautiful mandala fractals and deafened by the intense humming that had now taken on a very technological almost synthesized sound as well. As any and all awareness of having a physical body or being in a physical world continued to dissolve I felt the most nauseous I have ever felt in my entire life and felt a tremendous urge to vomit even though I had not eaten in almost 24 hours. At the same time the concept of having a life and of ever being born was quickly fading away into the sea of infinity. The body high became so intense that it felt like I was quickly melting, as if my body was being deconstructed and broken down at a cellular level. With what little bodily awareness I had left I reached for my vomit bucket and pulled it closer. However by the time my arm pulled the bucket closer to me all notion of existing in a physical world was gone. The now infinite sea of mandala fractals as well as the intense synth like humming ringing had entirely engulfed my entire sensory perception of reality. All memory of my personal life, who I was, Earth and the experience of life was now gone and the only existence I knew was the infinite realm of the infinite menagerie of forms that comprise the totality of phenomenological existence. The last thing I felt as my familiar individuated consciousness before blasting off was complete relaxation, warmth and Love completely wash over my entire being on a sub atomic level. In the few seconds that it took for all of this to happen my consciousness was blasted out of the body mind structure at a speed and intensity several orders of magnitude beyond the speed of light to a place beyond the totality of physical existence, beyond all universes, multiverses and all realms of existence. As my consciousness was being transported at this unimaginable speed I perceived all of the realms of existence that I encountered. I saw every alien species in all of existence, every form of technology, the history of every civilization in all of existence, every form of information relay, all of the deepest darkest most horrible and hellish realms of existence and the horrid entities that resided there and all of the highest most beautiful and heavenly realms of existence and all of the wonderful entities that resided there. As this profoundly powerful travel of my consciousness continued I perceived what appeared to be this small mischievous extraordinarily loving very playful entity. I knew this was a Tryptamine Jester. The projection I saw was short, thin and somewhat humanoid. Its body was comprised of technological light energy and was a mosaic of thousands of colors all tessellated, interwoven and oscillating with each other. The energy I got from this being that was traveling with me was almost childlike but I knew this being was also extremely wise. Our energies interacted and it showed me how the basics of the physical spatiotemporal realm of existence works. I saw the same torus energy fields in all lifeforms in physical existence similar to what I saw on a profound LSD trip 3 years ago. I was also shown how critically important the law of conservation of energy is; specifically in keeping the totality of all of the multiverses in the relative realm of physicality in balance. Additionally while I was traveling with this Tryptamine Jester I was showered in this infinite Universal Love that completely pervaded my being. The same Infinite Universal Love that I had experienced in April of last year. All of this profundity occurred in what felt like seconds or it could have been trillions of years. From my perspective it did not seem to matter as time was no longer relevant. Eventually me and this friendly Jester parted ways. My individuated consciousness eventually traveled beyond all of the realms of existence that could possibly manifest; beyond all realms of form. I went beyond the pretty light show of the phenomena existence and thus I was no longer enamored by the infinite light show of phenomenal existence. And now there was only the Void; the infinite unmanifest Void. It was in this non-place of absolute transcendent and immutable nothingness that my point of individuated consciousness was completely obliterated shockingly quickly. There was absolutely nothing left. Any semblance of an individuated me or any personal life was entirely gone. There was never a T.R., there was never a human organism who experienced a multi-year long spiritual journey of awakening. There was only the awareness of The Totality of All of Existence. And that totality consciousness is the absolute purest form of what all of existence is, what I am and what we all are. With that obliteration of illusory demarcated consciousness there was a Grand all-encompassing merging with everything in all of existence. In a single femtosecond my individuated consciousness was entirely obliterated and assimilated into the totality of all of Existence. I was Home. This was the Godhead. This was The Ground of All being. This absolute Unmanifest eternal nothingness was the Ultimate, the Truth; God. However, this was simultaneously and paradoxically nothing special and absolutely the most holy thing. It all felt very familiar and it was literally the most obvious thing in existence. I was everything and I knew everything. I was the infinite mind of God. I (pure unmanifest totality consciousness) was the ground of all creation in existence I was the foundation for all forms that arise and fall eternally, and infinitely. And simultaneously I the ground and foundation for all forms in infinity was also imbued within and manifested as all forms in the totality of myself. I resided as this infinite unmanifest absolute nothingness for a googolplex number of years eventually until I wanted to do something else. So I decided to create a part of myself as a few billion realms of existence and imbue those realms with forms of life all the way down to oversouls, souls, spirits and all manner of individuated consciousnesses. And eventually I found my small particular individuated consciousness and I decided to play as it, and to experience through it. And so I thus began the process of pretending to forget that I am the unmanifest ground of all being and the totality of all of existence. I continued to pretend forget things until I was only experiencing an individuated consciousness on a journey through a strange realm of existence. Now that I was again perceiving as an individuated consciousness I also began to return to the realm of form. But something was different. My existence was potentiated and I still remembered some of my creative power. So I decided I would like to talk to someone. So I created a realm of existence. Even though I was now only an individuated consciousness I still had an incredible amount of creative power, enough to create a sea of multiverses. Extremely tiny and minute compared to what I was capable of as the totality but it was still more than sufficient for what I intended to do. And so I continued to create this strange tryptamine realm until I deemed it to be sufficient and then I went about a second recursive process of pretending to forget enough so that I could dive into this realm as an even smaller individuated consciousness. Once I did this I felt more familiar more like how I was a googolplex number of years ago. I navigated through this tryptamine realm I had created until I came to an infinitely complex geometric fractal room. I phased through the outer structure of this room and inside I encountered two of the Tryptamine Jesters. This time however I primarily perceived only their energies. One of the Jesters was the same one that I had met from before. They were extremely happy to see me and invited me in. So I came in with them and even though I was a disembodied consciousness I sat down with the two Jesters at the table like structure they were at. From there we had a very long talk about everything. We communicated energetically telepathically about every question I could ask and about every subject that they were interested in. This conversation might have lasted for fifteen minutes or for a few thousand hours again time was irrelevant. Here is some of what we communicated about. I am God, so are they and so is everything else in all of existence. Before incarnating into the physical realm of existence I chose to do this life thing and come to this planet called Earth as this exact point in the evolutionary history of its biosphere and live a life as a human. They told me that this realm that we were currently in was the realm I was in before I incarnated into physicality, and I did indeed recognize this place, it all felt so familiar. The Tryptamine Jesters told me of the intricate energetic complexities of life. They also explained to me that the experience of being born and living through a life and dying is just one option of experiencing that souls have in order to, learn and grow from. There are literally trillions of other options like Life but different that other souls choose in order to grow and learn it’s just that I chose to do the Life thing because that was one of the more involved, one of the more intricate and most excitingly one of the more challenging options to experience. They told me that I never was born and can never die. That I created the totality of all of existence and that this is just a game that I am playing with myself pretending to be infinite lifeforms as vectors of my own consciousness forever and forever. As we communicated we also talked about how strange we thought it was that lifeforms take life so seriously. It was so ludicrous to us; it’s just a game how can anyone take this seriously?! The three of us had a good laugh at this. Eventually we got around to talking about my human organism avatar and my experience of living a life back on Earth. Both of the Tryptamine Jesters clearly told me that my individuation is already doing well on the path of Truth and Nondual Realization. They also kindly commented that my individuation has already done thousands of Earth hours of psychospiritual work for the purposes of developing itself and showing up in its earthly life as its most true, natural and authentic version. In fact they were making it so abundantly clear that I had done well in dedicating myself to awakening that they started joking about it and at one point they jokingly asked something along the lines of “Dude why did you even smoke this stuff?” “You’ve already got it, you didn’t really need this to wake up and fully remember who you are, but were glad you’re here anyway.” We continued to speak about the intricacies of existence, how everything is god and how I created all of this game to play with myself forever. And they kept repeating over and over again, almost to the point of annoyance on their part, “Yes you’ve already got it! See you already know this!” At the end of our conversation the Jesters told me that they would allow my individuated consciousness to bring back this experience and information to the memory centers of my physical body’s brain when I returned. I then thanked the two kind playful Jesters. As soon as our interaction concluded my consciousness was shot back to my body with a speed and intensity several orders of magnitude beyond the speed of light. I saw all of the physical realms of existence again on the way back and I was forgetting so many things the closer I got back to my home universe and the closer I got back to my body on Earth. I remember having to first reconstruct my body from consciousness initially and then from the physical elements (oxygen, carbon, hydrogen, nitrogen, calcium, phosphorus, etc.) This felt like a very long and involved process but also very intuitive. When my consciousness did return back to my body it was very fast and intense. My whole body felt like it was vibrating and my ears still somewhat had that humming ringing. Immediately upon being back there was still no familiar personal sense of self, only an undifferentiated mass of experiencing through sensory perception. I knew nothing. I did not know what I was, what this place was or what anything was. At this point I also began to reconstruct my psychology in totality including things like memory and language. In a few seconds I went from an undifferentiated mass of experiencing, to infantile consciousness, to childlike consciousness, to adolescent consciousness back up to my 24 year old conscious awareness. At this point I had reconstructed myself sufficiently enough so that I could properly interface with the world again. Upon opening my eyes my vision was still coming back as if coming out of some sort of extreme tunnel vision. Upon waking up I noticed that my body had not moved a single centimeter throughout that entire experience. I decided to move. I slowly began to raise my fingers one at a time in order to familiarize myself with my neuromuscular system again. After 10 or 15 seconds of this I began to make bilateral symmetrical yogic positions with my hands, through little volition of my own, feeling as if my body was a conduit for an intense form of energy. (every time I have done a psychedelic this happens) While making these strange yet beautiful and blissfully relaxing movements I uttered these words slowly at first. “Thank you… for… this… experience… that we call… life.” I then repeated this over and over until it became a mantra while I continued to move my arms doing this bilateral symmetrical yoga. After a few minutes of doing this there was then a short intermission. There were no thoughts or actions only simply existing, only being a part of the whole of existence. All I could say repeatedly at this was “wow, wow, wow, oh wow!” Then the flood of insights began to pour in. Here are some of the most significant insights that came in. 1 Accept your godhood show up as much of yourself as you can in this life. God wanted to be this version (this specific individuation) of God. Upon realizing the implications of this I hugged myself and began to cry some. I deeply felt and realized how important to existence I am and we all are. That without me, you and everyone and everything else in existence that infinity can’t be infinite. This is why it’s of the utmost importance that we show up as our most authentic true natural selves and be our best and highest version of ourselves in life to the best of our ability. I was also washed with love upon this realization. 2 I then remembered back to 4 years ago when I first had the desire to do psychedelics and visit all manner of strange realms of existence and speak with all kinds of aliens. And it became extraordinarily and abundantly clear that there is nothing mundane about any of this experience here on Earth in my everyday life! This place that we all call home that seems so normal and mundane is one of those strange profound weird realms of existence! 3 Existence is absolutely unequivocally perfect. Existence is so perfectly organized that it cannot possibly be anything but infinite perfection forever. Of course this includes all of the heavenly and awe inspiring aspects of existence. And this also includes all of the hellish realms of existence, all of the wars and suffering that the human species has seen and all of the most difficult and painful events that I have personally experienced in my life. 4 We just play a game of pretending to forget who we are. We are God in totality. Every microcosm contains the totality. Every part contains the whole and thus contains the knowledge of the whole. And in containing all of the knowledge in existence we just play a game of forgetting who we are in order to experience various types of limitation for the purpose of infinite experiences. Being God, we never learn anything in life; instead we just reveal and remember stuff that we were pretending to forget for years, lifetimes and eons. We pretend to be human through a process of self-imposed limitation through forgetting our True nature. There is no absolute reason we can’t do anything. For example I (and everyone else) can manifest a water bottle next to me right now but I am pretending as God that I don’t know how to and I am pretending to limit myself as a human being, as a body and as a mind. And these limitations serve to contain what is relevant for us in our incarnational experiences. 5 Life is so easy to navigate when we accept our Godhood. When we realize what we truly are as Totality Consciousness and when we then show up in life unequivocally as our True Natural Selves, as the unique individuation of God consciousness that we are in every way, our experience of life becomes a game that we can finally play joyfully. And none of it is taken seriously in an absolute sense anymore. We only think that we can’t do or have things in life due to our own self-imposed limitations. You create your life the way it is every second based upon how you are choosing to show upon in this life and you have the power every second to create your life in the way that is most reflective of who you truly naturally are. After this I thanked God the Totality for all of its Love and Infinite Perfection. I then got up and continued my day in the afterglow of the experience I just had. In conclusion I will say that this was the most intense experience of my entire life. It was so fast and rapidly paced that it was difficult to derive anything from it and I am thankful for the Tryptamine Jesters that helped me to bring back this experience into my memory. It was so hard for me to believe that I had only been gone for 15 minutes but that only makes the fact that time is an illusion that much more abundantly clear. I felt like I already knew much of what I experienced though through my existing meditative, mindfulness and shadow work practices, while extremely profound this experience was not extremely transformative for where I currently am at in my journey.This is why I think the two Tryptamine Jesters I communicated with kept telling me “you already know all of this.” While this was an extremely important experience for me to have and I am forever grateful for it, smoking DMT felt somewhat redundant in a sense because of the shift in my consciousness that I had occurred some three weeks prior. After this experience I thought of the quote by Ramana Maharshi, “That which is not present in deep dreamless sleep is not real.” Being that for the past few weeks my perception has been operating from a place of fundamental permanent unmoving beingness I now know irrefutably at the core of my being that all phenomena in existence no matter how mind-blowing or profound is illusory. Thusly Absolute Truth is not a spatiotemporal experience of any kind. It is not any phenomena. It is simultaneously transcendent and basal to all phenomena. It is the unmanifest Ground of All being that all phenomena in the totality of existence arises from and falls back into. Therefore I know that only part of this profound trip was Absolute incontrovertible Truth; that was when I was obliterated and subsequently became the One, the unmanifest and undifferentiated Godhead was Truth. The rest was illusion, however all valid, extremely profound and very important for me on my journey. I loved this experience and I love DMT and I will most likely smoke it again in the future. However right now I feel like it will be a while before I do any more psychedelics. I need to integrate this entire journey and really rest into what I Truly am (and what we all are). I feel like this DMT trip was an extreme confirmation of everything I already know. It felt like the final straw to this 7 year process of awakening that I have gone through and the shift in my perception in the past few weeks from primarily ego identification to simple ever present beingness was massively potentiated by this DMT experience. In a sense this experience of DMT felt like a final indispensable component of acceleration for my awakening process.

@nexusoflife Thank you, brother. Your share is so beautiful and insights are very profound. Appreciate you. I had somewhat similar experiences and learnings during a one week ayahuasca ceremony recently. The first night the takeaway was "THIS IS IT." Basically what I'm experiencing right here right now is Everything. The Universe is creating Itself one Thought at a time, for Infinity. This "knowing" came with rapture and ecstasy that I can only describe as repeated Cosmic Orgasms. The second night I (meaning Consciousness, not Tucker as Tucker was gone) was hanging with a couple green alien friends as they were looking at all these monitor/TV looking devices that basically showed all the infinite worlds simultaneously existing. They/we started laughing at how seriously humans take this Life thing...it felt almost like how people giggle at cute puppies - "look at how adorable these humans are!" They then showed me a monitor that had the life of Tucker playing on it, and the message was clear, Tucker is just one drop of sand in the infinite sandbox of Existence. So in a sense the two sittings showed me the opposite ends of the same paradox: Everything is This right here right Now. And at the same time, the Universe is Infinite, and what I as Tucker am experiencing is just one microscopic aspect of God. I'm wondering if you have any reflections on this, both if it feels on-point to you and if there's other ways of seeing/communicating this that might be helpful. Thank you, good sir!

If they do exist and had in mind exterminating us and taking over earth it stands to reason that they would have done so when we were in the bow and arrow days. They certainly wouldn't wait till we have intercontinental ballistic missles armed with nuclear warheads. That is why it is called a UFO: unidentified flying object, meaning it isn't known what it is. It could be anything. Much uneccessary hyperbole occurs because anytime someone says they saw a UFO everyone takes it to mean alien spacecraft when all they are saying is they don't know what it was ie., unidentified.