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1. What keeps everything together? What makes the floor underneath stands? Why doesn't the universe just fly apart right now? Exactly what makes everything "work" so to speak? The rules of physics? What is grounding that? And what's grounding that?...... You get the idea Belief 2.name something that you are absolutely certain of. Like 100 %certain of. Justify why are you certain of it. Isness-beingness-awareness(one word, conveying a sentence) Is there a difference? 4. What is the context of existence? This experience that's happening right now.... Where exactly is it happening? In a computer or in a universe or maybe in an alien's dream? Imagination, or do you mean the raw data? Neither, the visible land doesn't even connect, and shape of water can't be trusted. Define knowledge.... Otherwise, read the data. All data is a self contained bio-feedback loop. If you know how, you can reach for it, whatever you want. (I made that up, and I'll also make up that accessing psychic powers will help. There, enjoy ?)

I’m not grounded in fear. I’m grounded in love. I surrender my fear and I’m ready to embrace love. God is love. DOG is God backwards and Dog, God, Love are interchangeable. It’s basic algebra. Principle of algebra. Western world is dumb in math cuz they don’t embrace both divine masculinity and Devine femininely. Never give up! If you do anything make sure it’s in the name of love! Chivalry is not dead. God is not dead. Autism speaks. Biological chemical organic algorithms. That’s what our brains are. Visual story teller. Senses . Public education is the best education free hand of formation. Fuck the free markets. Cuz we are the renegades of funk lmfao ? I havnt slept in 7 days. Am I psychotic? I’m asking for a friend lol. Na, it’s just me. Authentic me. Minding my own god damn business. Please don’t let Qanan assassinate me or some shit like that. I’m not ready to die. I have a lot of helping to do. I’m a valuable piece in the game of chess. The queens gambit. I speak in riddles. I speak in puzzles. Is it word salami? Or word salad? What is word salad? What is? Basics here. Michael here. YouTube algorithms programmed my brain ? isn’t it grand! It broke down my barriers man. “Sapiens” game changer. Big history, game changer. Story telling. Game changer. Spiral dynamics game changer. Noam Chomsky manufacturing consent game changer Slovaj Zizek game changer. Manipulate the manipulators Manx free love ❤️ learn the lingo of the hippies man. LeRn the slang. Chicago. The best city around. A beautiful ? experiment. An alien experiment. A divine experiment. If you live to dance than dance. Law of attraction. Merian Williamson, learn to think. Neil Degrasse Tyson? Black astrophysicist. He’s a woke ass ? of a bitch. #woke #ForceTheVote #radical acceptance #stop resisting #learn the language of the generation, #zietgiest #23&me #Surveillance and hivemind are not dangerous ideas. #stop corruption through Transparency. #be open minded #respect the other side

Scientists say by calculations that there could be 36 alien civilizations in the Milky Way? Why 36? This statement is not true. Its just a guess, a number or a statistic. Just like people say dinosaurs were extinct 60 millions years ago? How do we know that it happened then? Its just a guess. It is a believable number though because they should be rare and not everywhere. The truth is they exist in Milky Way. I don't know how many but they exist. I am certain that at least one more civilization exists. People tend to think that other civilizations have to be superior and futuristic, but this is not necessarily so, they might be stuck in ancient blue morality, right now as of 2020, there might some world where aliens are building pyramids and shit (not necessarily in our own galaxy). On some worlds they might be like na'vi, tribal and savage. On some other world they are at yellow morality, spiritually uplifted and god-like with futuristic technology. On some other worlds there are no civilizations and intelligent lifeforms at all, just animals eating, moving and evolving. The reason why people believe aliens are either futuristic or monstrous is because they don't recognize that time is a illusion and that physical things are impermanent. In Hindu myth, Kala the personification of time devours everything. Beings play a certain game in their world and when the time is ripe, Kala the gourmet devours them all. A millions years ago there could be a interstellar alien empire, but it faded away. Millions years ago on some world there might have been some El Dorado, a civilization in its golden age, but it faded away too. Only God is eternal. Impermanence is a universal law. There is anthropocentric illusion that our civilization will live forever, but it will too fade away. This is just collective ego. There is a illusion that humanity is exceptional. No humanity is not exceptional. Every world is special in its own way. Just as there is heavy intelligent design on this world there is heavy intelligent design on other worlds. I believe in millenialism sort of, every 1000 years something extraordinary happens. For example 1000 years ago the message of Christ was fulfilled sort of because a feudal and Christian order was estabilished in Europe. A 1000 years after 2000 humanity will estabilsh a full-fledged space empire. This is not about colonizing barren planets, we don't have to do this. The key is communication. Communication is everything. With communication also comes logistics. All space empires exist thanks to communication. This will happen because we are consciously creating our future and because there is overpopulation and need for resources. Elon Musk has a interesting thought. Either humanity will end or we will start making virtual simulations that recreate human life. Imagine that in the far future aliens land on this Earth but humanity no longer exists. All that is left are ruins, fossils and virtual simulations. They start playing these simulations and find out holograms of daily life events or historical events on Earth. They are not aliens like aliens in popular culture, they are denizens of different reality. Reality is just a perspective. They see reality from their own point of view. They are under the illusion of Maya just like humans. Aliens come in infinite shapes - centauroid, reptiloid, humanoid, plantoid, draconoid... When I went into the fifth dhyana I felt the oneness of everything and the feeling that the Cosmos is a giant superorganism. I was aware that other extrateterrestrial enlightened beings exist and they were aware that I exist. I sensed intelligence permeating the Cosmos. The Cosmos is ALIVE. I know so much about aliens because I am fascinated by them. Maybe I was an alien in past life that took the shape of a human since I know much about this? Only God knows.

@assx95 You can take any field and make it low consciousness or high consciousness - you can chose to do with it how you want (to some degree). You can take working in medicine to deliberately kill people just like you can take working at a jail to deliberately help people. You can use finance to finance bombs and guns or use it to finance energy made with magnets, alien-like space craft, mind-bender movies, super cool architecture, affordable housing... you can kinda take money in whatever direction you want.. For "low consciousness vs high consciousness" consider what the phrases even mean - I came up with basically looking at the amount of thinking done, the amount of knowledge/insight/variables known and considered, the amount of perspectives taken on, and the impact of the work. Congrats on making it to how far you have made it in school! Good job! Keep up the good work!

I vaped at 200 °C some 0.33 g of very good quality Blue Dream (apparently popular strain among meditators) during about 3.5 hours (in doses of 0.15, 0.09, 0.09g about 1.5 hours apart) last night and made great experiential revelations like those described in e.g. Leo's recent videos and Rupert Spira's teachings. The effects really started to kick in after the second and third dose. I usually make notes during the trip and this particular strain has been the most fruitful in terms of contemplation and introspection as it induces a nice "warm frosty", open tone to the experience and doesn't mess up with my memory too much. I guess the sense of openness is due to that while being very dissolutive it doesn't induce head pressure so it is easier to let go of your "thinking mind" as there is no pressure or intense vibrational energy in the head area that can be identified with. It has the potentiality of revealing the vibrational aspect of experiencing very clearly and assist in removing/seeing through the resistance. The vibrational aspect resembles in some sense that of N,N-DMT (which I smoked 60 mg 7 years ago and that perhaps initiated my spiritual journey). Here are some of the revelations from last night: -I awareness is all there is, there are no others and no you as a character, life in unfolding, there is nobody behind the wheel -life is consciousness in action or consciousness's dream -life is a pong game between the realm of experiencing and experiences or the substrate and the dream and content of the dream: experiencing is total freedom and in a sense total madness (not in a negative sense), the realm of experiences is a roller coaster with ups and downs -all that is needed to enter experiencing realm is to stop imagining that things, people and objects have a reality on their own -when I close my eyes, some part of "the world" literally stops existing or moreover a part of hallucination is replaced with a new kind of hallucination a substrate of which is still essentially the same -although there are no others and you as a character, "best of both worlds" can be taken when bouncing the ball between the realms of experiencing and experiences is learned, that is, the love towards life or all aspects of experiencing is learned -birth and death are an illusion or moreover, they happen all the time at the level of realm of experiences -when experiencing realm is not dominant, all kinds of spiritual thoughts and explanations are imagined. This has an energy or vibration of longing that feels like contraction from the realm of experiencing -when life is trusted, its unfolding accelerates and the reality of real you or experiencing is seen to be behind the experiences of the world -the existence of afterlife is totally dependent on whether experiencing imagines it into existence. It's a free market. Essentially afterlife means that some form of memory is retained after the "death". But this memory might only prevail in the beginning of new form of existence and once this new life gets really interesting memories of the past life start to fade away and the realm of experiences has totally transformed. While if no afterlife is imagined then the realm of experiences is reset at once without "transitional phase". Choose either you like. So, if after this life heaven is imagined (naively) as a dream where the character is some sort of a superhero and world is beautiful with no suffering, it will appear. Or in some form of more or less an alien-like experience (this experience is already alien in a sense). Or if no afterlife is imagined experiencing returns to its "pure form" and a new life without memory of the past lives is imagined or hallucinated.

When I tripped with a FWB, we didn't even fuck because it would've been too weird. We weren't even in the same headspace to do that. Not like the sex would be bad, it's just it would probably look like some weird alien-fleshbody action and it could weird you out. I know someone that it kind of ruined sex for them because they saw it for what it really was.

Convinced me that my entire life was a lie/misunderstood experience, that the people I know aren't who I think they are and that reality isn't what it seems. Cliffhanger of non-existence or being at the center of a grand joke/conspiracy. I was totally grounded and caught up in my life at the time so these thoughts weren't easy to understand. I had to convince myself after the fact that what I thought I learned wasn't real because it was absolutely traumatizing to my young self... I basically blacked out for 10-15 mins and woke up screaming with my face buried in the couch. When I started to calm down and open my eyes, reality was basically draining into a line across my vision. Everything was normal, it was just seemingly folding it on itself in front of me and it felt like it was pulling me into it. It was like gravity pulling me into this distortion in reality (very physical feeling) I had a faint memory of waking up on a bed with friends near me that told me what was going on... But they looked very cliche alien to me. Then I awoke on a couch with other friends. There was another time (20x concentrate) where my body turned into a circus and there were all these little entities moving about within it as thought it was completely normal. Funny to reflect on those experiences with my current worldview.

Israeli space official Haim Eshed, pictured on the cover of a new book called The Universe Beyond the Horizon, claims that the US and Israel have had contact with aliens https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-9029557/Mankind-contact-alien-Galactic-Federation-Israeli-official-says.html

At your age i got into a relationship out of social pressure. I had 0 sex drive and 0 drive for relationships. I just felt like an alien and so i got into one just to cover up self esteem problems. And at that stage i was basically your post. As someone whose been where you were, let me add some comments. These comments are honest. Which means they will grow you, but you wont like them. in covid just don't Your problem here is you're allergic to manipulation because you've got a royal idea of yourself in your head about being the honest, real one. Well you're playing games with yourself, harder then most - sorry. Meditation and yoga are just as manipulating as looking fuckable. You're manipulating reality to get to altered states of consciousness. Your entire life is just manipulation. The entire spiritual path is manipulation. Having an issue with manipulation with sex and relationships, yet being totally fine with manipulation in spirituality, is just spiritual ego. Its double standards. Dont limit your views of relationships to just fucking. Relationships also includes exploring your emotional traumas and shadow work, exploring and mastering emotional intelligence, exploring how humans work, exploring how your energy system works - I.e. spiritual work. You buy your bread or rice from people, you work with people, you buy airline and plane tickets from people, you're friends with people, you learn spirituality off people, you're surrounded by social interactions and people. If you have a fear of people dragging you down, you better watch areas well beyond your dating life.

Before I became enlightened I have wondered if I am a shadow. That the body-mind was not the real me and just a object and that the subject "me" was the shadow. Its like testing the allegory of the cave. So I stood in front of a wall with dim light projecting my shadow onto the wall. So I identified with the shadow. When I got to sleep I had a lucid dream in real space, not imaginary mental space. I saw a ghost sprinting around my kitchen, living room and dining room. This was a real space, not imaginary mental space. My etheric body was seeing his etheric body. He died middle-aged and radiated with high intelligence. I admired his intelligence and was magnetically attracted to him somehow because of that. He looked like a phantom. His etheric body was semi-transparent and shifted in color between dark gray, medium gray and light gray depending on the light. Aside from intelligence, the most striking thing about the ghost were his beautiful luminous eyes which shone like the brightest stars in the sky. He strongly identified with being human, that's why his pure consciousness was projecting and creating the etheric body in the form of a human, although phantom-like, like a embodied shadow or a shadow person. He had strongly masculine energies, I could sense it like a strong perfume. I telepathically communicated with him. I said to him why do you even exist? The ghost said why dont you leave this body and become a free spirit like me? Maybe the ghost sensed my physical suffering and felt compassion towards me. When I woke up I tried to recall the dream. I realized that I saw a ghost. At first it was creepy for a few seconds, but I overcame this quickly without any fear. Don't be scared if you see a ghost, its just someone in spectator mode. In the evening I thought a lot about the universe and my place in it. I thought alot about alien worlds, how the five elements created life, how everything in the universe is alive. This made my consciousness non-dual. I had little meditation in the past, yet I achieved a non-dual state of mind only through self-enquiry. I felt divine cosmic energy permeating through me as if I am submerged in God. Suddenly I became aware of my etheric (ghost) body, my etheric body was shaking. I felt like I was going to die. I felt divine joy in that moment, but I put the hand on my chest and said. Not yet. Not yet. Not yet. I wasn't ready to die unexpectedly. In Buddhism I think this is called the fifth dhyana or fourth, I am not sure. The moment of realizing that you are not just physical matter, is the actual moment you become enlightened. The majority of people realize this only upon dying and forget that after they reincarnate. Immediately after that I had a quantum leap in intelligence and intuition. I realized the illusion of maya. I started looking at the Earth from bird's perspective. Earth felt so cold, empty and eternal. I started thinking about astral travel and reincarnating on alien worlds. I was skeptical about Buddha or Leo Gura saying that you can reincarnate on other worlds and dismissed it as a fairytale, but I was shocked when I found out that this was true. All you need is good karma, courage, determination and of course physical death. But I stopped thinking about this because it made my etheric body shake and I could really die if I let my mind wander too much. I started doing yoga to prevent my etheric body from shaking. The reason my etheric body shaked is because I am a cripple, if I was healthy I believe this wouldn't happen. Now I am doing isha kriya yoga primarily and I am currently stable. Realizing the illusion of the maya I felt like a God role-playing as human. Life felt in that moment like a Truman show. Basically you were taught and socially conditioned that reality is this way whereas reality is much more deep and complex than most humans realize. Its infinity. Most people are lowe consciousness. The cosmos is a dream and we are dreaming our own reality. I stopped viewing humans as humans but rather as a form of intelligent beings in the universe. Even beautiful women can't enchant me because I saw their bodies as illusory objects. Instead I am interested in their consciousness or the subject rather than the pretty body which is the object. A woman can look good on the outside, but evil on the inside. Looks are deception. I don't discriminate someone based on their looks. For example if I am talking to a black guy, I see him as consciousness first and foremost. To me an alien is considered an alien only in reference to Earth. They are not aliens, but rather denizens of a different reality. Most of them are also are under the illusion of the maya just like humans. There are aliens who reincarnated on our world adopting the human shape as well as humans who reincarnated on other worlds. Maybe I am an alien in human form, since I know about this so much I am not sure. I don't want to explore past lives because my mind would be overloaded by unecessary burden and Asperger syndrome seems like a weak proof because it could be just bad karma from a past life. I never understood humans or had a close friend on this planet. I was also heavily bullied, ostracized and misunderstood in school. Because of this I would be labelled as an Aspie or autistic. There is even a website for autistic people called Wrongplanet. The etheric body tied to consciousness can leave Earth because it doesn't recognize physical laws. The proof for this is that you can fly in lucid dreams. Guess what? Death is like a lucid dream if you are sufficiently conscious. I was aware of other enlightened sentient beings in the universe and they were also aware of me. When you gaze into the abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you. Intuition is the missing link between God and man. It is also the awareness that the cosmos is like a superorganism. They didn't see how I look nor did I saw their shape, because the physical shape doesn't matter, for it could come in infinite shapes - centauroid, draconoid, humanoid, reptiloid, plantoid... I started viewing the existence on this Earth as inherently empty. Houses are empty, schools are empty, temples are empty, organs are empty, food is empty, cells are empty, the mitochondria is empty, humans are empty, atoms are empty. Everything is empty. Schools are like factories and we are the product. Most people are puppets and tools of the system. Everybody is just a number with a ID card on this server called Earth. In this 21st century everything is systematized, vivisected and turned into a commodity. Even humans themselves have become a commodity. We have made Earth a prison sort of because of capitalism and governments. A standardized matrix. You see the same stuff in Tokyo, Paris or New York. Same architecture, cars, brands, interpol, regulations... People are socially conditioned from a young age. For example if you dont want to get married then why get married because society tells you so? Its not HUMANITY that is imprisoning you, YOU are imprisoning yourself. Why not work on self-development first and then get married if that is your dream. This is delusional blue morality. Frank Zappa said if you live a boring life because teachers, parents and society told you so, then you deserve it. When you realize that you are a God, then you can't obey society's values and morals. You must transcend them like Nietszche. I would rather betray the world than let the world betray me. Being human is a immense possibility. Its bad to limit what you are capable of because society tells you some lies. I reject modern values and morals but I accept knowledge and civilization. If I said to someone that I saw a ghost and did telepathy they would think I am delusional because I believe in magic and because they never experienced this. So its hopeless to tell anyone about this in person. Being rich is just a means to realize your dreams, it can never be a healthy life purpose in itself. You see lots of people are rich, but miserable and empty inside. Orange morality is equally delusional, striving for success for the sake of being viewed successful in the eyes of others. Its funny when scientists say they know everything. They are like six blind men studying an elephant but missing the holistic picture. A non-educated truth-seeker is closer to ultimate reality than a Phd physicist trapped in rationality. The irony of science! Reason is a prison. The scientists imprison themselves to reason and empiricism. If you value truth by how much people agree with you you will never get to the truth, thats what the universities and laboratories are trying to do. To them the opinion of hundred people is superior to the conclusion of one person. One person's conclusion is dismissed as subjective because it doesn't agree with the opinion of the majority. This is the tyranny of majority. Its not that those who made the education system and top professors are hiding some secret knowledge from students. They too are delusional because they are slaves to reason. Science is still in immature stage and philosophers tend to be more open to the truth than scientists such as Paul Fereyabrend. It will take centuries for science to realize how deluded it is. Just as those in 21st century dismiss some theories of 20th centuries as outdated, the same will happen in 22nd century. Due to enlightenment, I cannot be indifferent to not appreciate how much intelligence was invested in this planet such as cheese, television, dogs, pizza, capitalism, microwaves, airplanes, dinosaurs, tuxedos, castles, trees... There will never be another planet like Earth. Every world is special in its own way and so is Earth. There is heavy intelligent design on this planet. Even the position of continents look as if they were under the spell of intelligent design.

Hello guys, last saturday I’ve had my third psilocybin experience. I’ll try to keep it short, while still carefully trying to describe the important aspects of the trip. I won’t go into the unnecessary details, like taking a walk on the beach. Set: Happy me, looking forward to go into the psilocybin world once more – this time, way calmer than the last trip. I was very chill about it, didn’t wait hungrily for the trip to start and just smoothly going into it. Setting: Vacation at the beach in the Netherlands. I was on a weekend trip (ha!) with two of my best friends. One was tripping with me, the other one was tripsitting. We took them at 1:30pm. That’s the only timestamp I will give because a) We didn’t look at the time a lot b) My trip report will be a mix of: the experience I had + the conclusions I made afterwards. I was actually really confused over the course of the whole trip and everything made sense only afterwards. During the trip I realized that I couldn’t make sense of it, so I was just going with it and floating. But you’ll see. It was really mindbending. Dose: We took magic truffles. I had the strongest ones with a 6/5 stars rating and took about 11,25g of it. Unfortunately, I can’t tell what that dose is translated to magic mushrooms. The sort was called “Valhalla”. Intentions: My top intention is always, that I let the psychedelics teach me what they have to teach me. Secondary intentions were resolving my bladder issues (which I will be getting to) and questions around almost every issue you could have with a blocked throat chakra. Problems in authenticity, self-expression, communication, truth, honesty, (self-) acceptance, social anxiety and social blockages. There will also be a short post-trip report from the days after the trip, because my subconscious mind was flushed heavily, and I became conscious of many psychological ailments. To the trip: The first sensations were just that I noticed that the psilocybin was beginning the workings on me. There’s always a certain calmness and awareness that comes with it. But soon, a heavy body load started to emerge. My whole body was starting to tense up really hard. I’m not quite sure whether the tensions appeared because of the psilocybin or because my whole body was actually tense the whole time, and I just then became aware of it through heightened consciousness. It was quite uncomfortable, breathing became a little bit weird and my thoughts also started to twist a little bit. But I knew that this is just a part of it, so I let the tensions run through, without fighting them. Just accepting them. After about 30-40mins, my friend and I said: “Yep. It’s kicking in.” As we walked down the beach, my body started to become really loose and the tensions would vanish. The initial high I had from the truffles made me really social and talking became effortless and fun. The trip was becoming more and more intense, visuals started to appear ever more brightly, and we decided that we better settle down somewhere at the beach near the campground. Human behavior became more and more alien. It was really hard to “act normal”, even though we just had to walk. In an instant, we arrived at our destination. The few hundred meters we had to walk passed by within moments. We put on some music, laid down, closed our eyes and let the journey begin. That’s when the real trip really began. I relaxed more, and more, and more, and more. I was in a state of deep beingness. Eventually, the beings which I met at my last psilocybin trip (30g of 5/5 star rated truffles; sort: “Hollandia”; should estimate between 2.7-3.7g of magic mushrooms; this time I went actually even deeper) welcomed me. Just like the last time, they were dragging me with their hands deeper in their realm. The difference being, where as I interpreted the hands dragging me deeper in, as an “Come, we will show you our world”, this time I understood it as an invitation to higher realms of existence – even without the help of psychedelics. I even received a gift, which would transform my meditation practice. But I’m getting ahead of myself. With eyes closed, I was getting dragged deeper and deeper into Beingness. The beings danced in front of me, overflooding me with joy and love. I welcomed them too with all of my hearts love. I experienced bliss and calmness beyond what I could imagine. Actually, I was leaving imagination. I understood how this “place” was realer than “ordinary reality”. Now this is a key point: understanding. With that Beingness, there came a deep deep understanding and recognition, beyond ego. This is the mindbending part, which I as an ego, couldn’t understand during the trip and can’t understand after the trip. During the trip, my ego tried to make sense of it. I was jumping between understanding beingness and ego. When I resided as the witness, I understood. When I tried to understand it from my ego’s POV it was utterly mindbending and confusing. And that’s the key insight right there. To have an understanding of higher planes of existence, I have to let go of ego, trying to understand. Understanding is not something you have to figure out. It simply comes, when you stop trying to understand and just be. I understood, how that was a part of the ego’s chains around me. I understood that this was the reason, why I couldn’t access those realms during my “sober” meditation practice. I understood that existence and the understanding of it, is effortless. It’s so funny that we, as meditating ego’s and consciousnesses, have to give so much effort into this effortless state. Kind of strange-loopy, right? That was the point where dualities started to break down and ego became more and more confused. We are now getting into territories, where it’s really hard for me to report this “experience”, which cannot be labeled as such. So now, it will likely become inaccurate and gaps of explanation will appear. My ego just couldn’t make any sense of it. And still doesn’t. And probably never will. As I was jumping between understanding and ego, every time ego showed up, I just loved it unconditionally and didn’t criticize it for not understanding, nor did I care to identify with the confused ego. While that happened, I was still somehow able to think of meditative teachings and why one should not identify with ego. I thought of Leo too and thought “You sneaky thing you! I know you told me that it was mindbending! And I expected it to be mindbending! But damn!”. In my minds eye, I just saw him laughing and I was laughing with him. The laugh of understanding and how hilarious ego’s games can be! When ego was like “What??? How??? I don’t understand!! I can’t explain it with words! It doesn’t make sense!” it was simultaneously understanding it’s limits. I guess, that’s why it’s so damn important to meditate beforehand, read spiritual teachings and so forth. During that, I saw the possibility of completely losing the mind in a negative way, not a positive. Fortunately, I shaped my ego in a way, that it can reside when it needs to. Ego me said: “Shit! I don’t understand, but that’s what I’ve heard so far from teachings. Guess I’ll just stop trying to understand it.” Ego had absolutely no frame of reference. Beingness me said: Nothing. Just understanding, loving. So while some of these words may seem like an internal war, it really wasn’t. I quickly grasped what was going on and just surrendered. For Beingness, it was not mindbending. It was just ever understanding and self-recognizing. It was only for ego, that it was mindbending. When I realized the understanding which comes with effortless being and existing, it was so self-evident. I was like “Oooohhhhh hold on. This is nothing which I don’t know! Hold the fuck on! I overlooked this the whole time! I was totally buying into “ordinary reality”. Goddamn, hold on! Did I even look around me, just once, while the veils of ego was all around me?! How could I not see this? How could I be so blind? It was always right here! Right with me! But of course, if I identify as ego, it’s impossible for me to understand! It’s impossible, because I am not ego! Now I see through the illusion. It’s crystal clear and can’t be overlooked!”. In retrospect, it was really practical that I jumped back and forth between ego and a more refined awareness – I could see, how ego is desperately trying to make sense of things, which it cannot. Now I understand on a deeper level (certainly not the deepest) how ego’s mechanisms work. And how literal some of the spiritual teachings are! And how blind I am as an ego! So much for metaphysics (if this is metaphysics). Now, the gift which I received from the interdimensional beings or the psilocybin intelligence, call it whatever you want, is the following: Meditation is tuning in, to what is. That’s it! So simple! Anything beyond it is already way too much of words. Actually, those words themselves are not quite right and rather false, but they are a pointer, which I could understand, and I can now apply to my meditation practice (even though I’ve heard those words before, and I understood them on a lower level, now I can apply this teaching way better). The problem with this teaching is, that it implies, that “tuning in” is effortful, when it is not. When you tune in, there is literally zero effort. It is beyond effort. Now, whenever I meditate, I can take away a huge part of the effort – but of course, ego has still it’s grips on me. It’s practical nevertheless, because when I’m in Parvastha (= after effects of Kriya Yoga which result in Love and Beingness) I can now consciously shut off ego’s effort and go beyond it more than before. Not psilocybin level effortlessness obviously, but I’m getting at it. Currently teaching ego not to interfere. It’s just that shutting off of interference which seemingly equates with the effortful part. It’s also practical, because I can now watch ego more closely, when it’s doing what it does – surviving, making sense. Whenever I lose myself in the blissful after effects of Kriya Yoga, ego catches up, and sort of fishes the awareness out of context-free awareness. Does that make sense? Back to the trip. I just realized that I’m not reporting chronologically at all, but whatever. Not bad. As I was interfering with the psilocybin intelligence/interdimensional beings, I spoke to it/them (the previous time I saw them, I was so blasted away that I was laughing for 45 mins straight, “lost contact” with the intelligence and came back to “ordinary reality” – thus couldn’t speak to them, even though I wanted to address the exact same issue with my bladder!). I asked them: “Now that I’m able to speak to you, why do I have the problems in my bladder, which the doctors couldn’t solve? I’m having these bladder problems since 3 years, turned every stone I could find in my subconscious mind, turned my whole life upside down to the positive, resolved so many psychological issues, but still struggle with my bladder!” *bladder problem appears* “Hey, do you see this? I’m talking exactly about this! Why does this happen?” I received no answer, but in retrospect I understand how the intelligence was communicating to me. Right after I asked the question and opened my eyes (me and my friend were rotating between eyes-closed and understanding mode & opening the eyes from time to time, talking, interacting with reality a bit). I can’t remember anymore whether this occurred when I opened my eyes for the first time, but it would make sense. Suddenly, I had a very strong social anxiety towards my closest friends. I saw how my social interaction was driven to a large part by fear, robotic behavior and inauthenticity. It was not comfortable, but I accepted it. I knew that this was not the time to resolve this issue. This is something I have to take home and work on. So I didn’t fight it. This also really confused my ego, because I began to question “Am I always like this? No this is not how I am. But it is in me. Wait this is how I am. No this is not how I am.” and so on. I realized that the intelligence was trying to show me something – my fears. Throughout the trip, blockages in the throat chakra were noticed in a scattered way. Every once in a while, I saw how Vishuddha is having major blockages (In the sober state, I wasn’t sure, whether these blockages where for real or not). So this was in a way, a very assuring trip: it assured me that I’m on the right path. You have to know, that I’m walking my path with a major insecurity towards the question: Am I really doing the right things? Am I working on the right stuff? (Especially in regards towards my bladder, because the dysfunction there is really affecting my life in a very annoying way). Why was this assuring? (Quick note: as I was beginning to work around the causes of my blocked throat chakra, my bladder issues already started to withdraw a little bit; my psychologist [I see everything as the universe talking to me] also assured me, that I’m on a good way) I asked the intelligence, why I was having bladder problems and it showed me my fears in relation to issues, that come with a blocked throat chakra. Now, the blocked throat chakra is not the problem. The problem lies first and foremost within my deep inauthenticity. Out of that core issue, all the other issues in my life stem: communication, social anxiety, inability to express what I really feel, major emotional blockages, dishonesty and falsity, putting on a mask which I confused for my authentic self and so on. This is actually the post trip part. Today, four days after the trip, I cried for the first time in years while meditating. I experience major emotional releases. Yesterday I realized this issue really deeply. There were events, which triggered this huge emotional release. The pain of inauthenticity starts to grow bigger than facing truth and working through, what I have to work through. It’s a very painful process, but at the same time I know, that it will be hugely liberating. Post-Trip time is still very recent, and I expect more subconscious emotional flushes, but at this point, I’m pretty sure that this is the core issue, which I was looking for in years. There’s just this deep knowing that this is it. When I was working before on my bladder problems and psychological issues, there was this big insecurity whether this will give me the solution I’m seeking for my current level of development. But now this big insecurity transformed into major trust into myself, the universe and everything that will happen from now on. I know that I’m in good hands. I just have to play my part and things will fall into place. Congratulations, you’ve made it to the end of this very messy trip report! I actually wanted to post it in a more structured form, but I feel that the raw, unpolished, probably detail-missing version hits home. So please excuse this potentially inscrutable report! I spare you further stories of my confused ego and disorientation in reality. Now that I write this, I remember that I actually really wanted to talk about the major confusion with dualities and polarities and the mindfucks and the funny things that happened in regards to that! Whatever. Thank you for reading! Much love

You're coming back to this report quite on time! Yesterday, I wrote down a note, which I want to inquire in coming meditations. With meditation, it is always talked about witnessing, staying as the witness, awareness, observer, whatever. "The problem" I found with that is, that terms like witnessing make me feel like I'm something which is sitting in the middle of my head, looking out of my eyes. When I tried to find the observer, I couldn't "find" it. And I always always always stay as the witness. So, the note, or rather the question which I wrote down was: "There is no observer?". Maybe there is no such thing as an observer. Or what I think of as an observer. Maybe I have to give up the idea of an "observer", a seperate identity you might say. Now I don't want to jump to conclusions with this question, so we'll see what will come out of this inquiry. "OMG did I just say that? I will never say something like this again." "I hope I didn't say anything wrong." "When I act like this, maybe they will like me." "It's not okay, that I am like this." "Let me fulfill myself through the means of others." "What do they think about me?" Well..who am I even talking about? Me, right? Yeah.. It is so crazy, that within just a few months of time, the behavior of the bladder normalizes back to its regular way of functioning. What's even more crazy is, that thoughts like the one above, stick far less on "me". Reading my old notes about my insecurities feel so alien to me. These self-destructive thoughts (literally blinkers to self) are really dying out. Coming back to this thread, I realize that a lot of processing has happened in the last few months. Your help was just as therapeutic as the psilocybin, as well as the ego-self, striving to better itself. You are not a friend, not a teacher, but a stranger. But at the same time, you are a friend, are a teacher, and not a stranger. Don't want to downgrade you, don't want to put you on a pedestal. I don't know you, but somehow "your" teachings are in front of "my" eyes. Actual teachings - HERE. Thank you. ? Damn right! Don't underappreciate what peeing feels like. It's amazing when you're standing there, effortlessly peeing. Peeing ehhh being yourself is so nice! And @abrakamowse @Zenrool thank you. Always humbled if I can act as a stepping stone.

Yeah sure, nothing wrong there Yes, the infinitude of the experience can be used as a cop-out for why - here as Ethan - I’m unable to provide proof in this particular moment. No, that doesn’t mean it can never be proven. Giving the tangible infinite experience to you is how it’s proven directly. That’s a good extrapolation but there’s still an assumption laced in there. Just because I speak through Ethan doesn’t mean that “my” infinitude is held in the memories of his brain. I’m happy to explain this more if that’s wanted but to give a very crude example, a TV can display content without holding that content inside itself. The content channels into and flows through it from outside broadcasts. At this point, you may have the tendency to ask, “if you’re dialed-in enough to this world to know the basics of how TVs here work, why aren’t you dialed-in enough to know everything about the subject matter?” The answer: dialing-in isn’t just a black-and-white activity of either “I’m dialed-in” or “I’m not.” It’s infinitely more nuanced as there’s degrees to how much I’m dialed-in on each particular thing. This also leads to the infinite diversity of experiences. “Isn’t this another cop-out?” Yes, it could definitely be used as such. So yes, Ethan has been given access to the experience by “me” but as explained previously, that doesn’t mean it’s held in his brain. It’s a constant feed-through. Haha how did you correctly guess about my Writer-app Notes? Yes, I go in and keep adding to that list every day. It’s great to know that I’m now dialing-in enough here to sound normal! You’re the first person in this life who hasn’t called me weird, bizarre, an alien, inhuman etc. I’ll drop the annoying third-person talk and say my mom and dad (instead of Ethan’s) always make half-jokes about how I’m an alien and not their son. Even in childhood, these jokes were being cracked around the family Lol Yes, very true but you’ve got another assumption laced in there. Through this video and Ethan’s mouth, I’ve only articulated the nature of infinity. Who said there isn’t more? I certainly didn’t. There’s far more beyond the boundless! This is obviously illogical and contradicts the very nature of infinity, by definition. Yet, just as you said, the broader stuff can’t be properly articulated. So your assumption is that what I’ve articulated here is IT. It is not.

This is what I think, prepare for some out-there stuff: Aliens, especially benevolent aliens in our galactic neighbourhood (think possible the Pleiades), have been trying to uplift humanity for a long time, possibly millennia. This isn't a hands-on interventionist thing though, it's a more subtle influence of sending out positive psychic energy to guide us in the right direction even if we're not aware of it. Now, of course, since this is happening a lot of people pick up on it to varying degrees (including this Israeli guy), but because they haven't fully grasped the true nature of their own psyche or what the form of alien influence takes, their ego co-opts whatever first idea pops into their head ("Israel and the US are in cahoots with the aliens! The governments will let the world know when it's time!") when these things wouldn't really make sense on closer inspection. I mean, why would advanced aliens care about which specific earthling governments to help? They don't recognise our own arbitrary national distinctions. They want to help all of humanity, not just one country or another. Besides, people in governments are just as undeveloped and deluded as anyone else, so I don't see why they'd contact governments specifically. I think humanity is just slowly being made aware that we're not alone in the universe simply as part of the natural evolution of the universe. Odds are we're nearing the point where our evolved neighbours will deem it acceptable to contact us directly in which case we'll become a full-fledged member of interstellar society, or at the very least, we're closer than we were even just a century ago. It could still take some time.

I've recently been rewatching Star Trek: The Next Generation, and I've noticed just how good of a show this is to deepen your understanding of how SD works in "real-world" situations. You might think, well it's just a show in the end, can't be that accurate of how civilizations and societies would act in real life. But as @Forestluv brought to my attention recently, the producer of the show Gene Roddenberry was rumored to be aware of Clair Graves' work. So if you've studied the model or something like Integral Theory, then this can be a fun way to keep exploring and thinking about how different stages behave and how they resolve all kinds of interesting dilemmas. Of course, it's not perfect so go into it with your own authority and knowledge to try and notice how complicated it can be to live in a universe with all these different world-view species. And notice how similar it is to how the world operates today, these different species could be looked at as if they were nations in today's world. The federation is prime time yellow in their approach to most conflicts, yet have an orange view of exploration for science, hence, "To boldly go where no man has gone before". They solve problems with an "above" judgmental tier 2 approach and follow the so-called Prime Directive wherever they go, in which states they're not to intervene with an alien civilization below a certain threshold of cultural, scientific, and technological development; a very yellow approach. This is done so they're not to impose their own values and ideals on them, as this can severely mess up the development of their society. In the episode "Who watches the watchers" it is seen how severe of a consequence it can be for a civilization to come in contact with a stage Purple society. After witnessing their medical powers and beaming technology, they were convinced that captain Picard was their god. And so they started to worship him and it took a great deal of effort to convince them that he bled just as they did. Some of my favorite episodes are where the character Q appears. A stage Coral being who could be seen as god (with god-like powers) in human form. The Q member which is most often presented, one of many, has what could be seen as extreme trickster archetype characteristics seen from stages lesser than Coral. Yellow still does not understand that "death" and the wiping out of a whole civilization could be seen as god's highest form of love. Yet it is not known if Q does this out of amusement, which seems to be the case, or if he's doing it out of love but unknowingly, which would be weird because apparently he's omniscient. Despite if he does this out of amusement or love, it's still nonetheless done out of love because all of reality is love-driven. The most evil and vile things are pure perfection and beauty. Here's the list of species/planets ranked by their stage: Purple: Mintaka III Red: Klingons(Red/Purple), The Borg (Red/Blue/Beige) Blue: Cardassians, Romulans. Orange: The Ferengi, Vulcans(orange/blue) Green: Rubiicun lll (Extreme green/blue) Yellow: The Federation Turquoise/Coral: The Q Continuum, Betazoid, El-Aurian. Please correct me if you feel otherwise.

Supposing this alien business is true, which I reckon it might be. It seems as though national governments have been taking the approach of slowly dripping more and more info and hints about aliens into the populace, so that it is slowly normalised and grows in the unconscious, so that everyone isn't as shocked whenever it's confirmed. Because let's be real. How many of us will think "eh, I kinda already knew" when all of this gets confirmed? Whatever information we're given about aliens, it's being given very slowly and gradually. It makes things less exciting and dramatic when they do this strategy of very gradual acclimatisation and hints.

More than just some guy's word, even a high-ranking official. We've been through this with Bob Lazar. Couldn't someone take a selfie with their alien buddy? They are in bed together.

Lmaooo If I'd be an alien trying to make contact with humans, I'd leave little breadcrumbs of evidence and see how humans react to it. Also, there are many people that claim that they have worked at government facilities and that they are hiding something. The book posted here seems to be by some Israeli official. The question is not just about evidence, the question is also about what evidence you are willing to accept.

If you want to think of it as a simulation, there is nothing wrong about it. In a way it is. But, not in the form of machines simulating this with algorithms. Even if it were to be simulated through machines. Those entities who are simulating it should still be conscious cognizant creatures, right? So, since cognizant consciousness still being the primal reality which even gives existence to those alien overlords who are simulating us, would still have to be explained right? Not only some simulating aliens. Even if the reality is thought to be created by some GOD. Still that GOD has to be conscious & cognizant first,before he/she/it can create anything. In all cases, which ever way you think about it, consciousness is the thread that runs through all of these various scenarios. That's why Without Consciousness Nothing Is. With Consciousness, Everything Is.

You can call your experience a simulation, who knows, our biological bodies and perceptions may be a product of alien computing, but reality itself can never be equal to simulation.

Borg doesn't map cleanly onto the SD-model in my view, similar to how you wouldn't map an AI on to Spiral Dynamics. Unlike a lot of the other races which are meant to be rough analogues of various Earth cultures, the Borg are meant to be, well, Alien. Borg arguably doesn't have what can be considered a Culture, though thematically there are some interesting parallels you could draw to ideas like Utilitarianism, Communism, or Capitalism taken to thier logical and horrific endpoints, but throwing an SD meme at the Borg is a pretty big stretch.

This ended up being a raw, unbaked confession of how I felt on this forum and why my activity is about to significantly decrease or not be present at all for a long time, if not forever. I've tried to fit into this forum for the past few months. I tried being compassionate at the beginning, to being more straight forward, to taking on more of a student archetype, to being more of the sharer archetype, to trying to be the archetype that reveals people's blind spots on here, but it just isn't working. The compassionate archetype seemed to get a positive response on here, and I felt some value being added, but then after later inspection I think the positive reaction was short lived as people didn't really take the advice on board. The straight forward archetype was ignored more often but more effective, yet ignored too much. The revealing people's blindspots archetype didn't really work well because people just got defensive. The student archetype didn't work because I already know everything. There's nothing I can learn here anymore, on every subsection, especially the consciousness one. The sharing archetype doesn't work because what I share is too advanced for people on here and they are into lower consciousness stuff. This forum is feeling like I'm scraping at the bottom of the barrel. There's no more insights to extract from here. Everything in the consciousness section I've already traveled through. And I can't help because they don't get what I'm saying as its too advanced. There are definitely some really powerful posts and insights and ideas here and there, but they come every blue moon. Its more effective for me to just look here passively once a month. The dating section is the same. The stuff I know is just too advanced for the people on there. Its not necessarily how good I am with women, but my level of thinking is just totally out of wack with people on there. I feel like I've been where they have been, but bloody 6 or 7 years ago. Lots have changed since then. I've tried to share this higher level thinking(my posts of tantra and how to approach women in a different way), only a couple of users get it though. The health section is a little bit useful, but I find that to solve health problems you need to really go deep yourself into it, and not ask people on the forum for advice. Its a great place to get ideas from and see whats new in health though. Even the environmental section... I am really bad at politics. I've probably read 10 books in total in the last 3 years, and half of those were spiritual books, and the other half were books for my career (startup entrepreneur). I've read absolutely no books on spiral dynamics, or politics or economy, yet even then I when I read people's posts in the politics section I can instantly point out where they are being deluded, or maybe not deluded but limited, or mixing up the context, or something like that. I can point out a better way basically. And when I point it out to them, they have no answer! Again feeling like I'm on a different wavelength... which is just disturbing, because I'm at around orange/green. I'd like to feel like people can out wit me again. I love that feeling because it means I can grow. I don't learn much from that section either. There are a couple that I love reading from like ep75 or something and forestluv(I forgot to add, for the consciousness section I get lots of value from Nahm and Mandyjw till recently, they are still awesome but after the recent realizations, even those conversations are getting old, that's why I'm so hard on psychedelics, humans are just getting too limited), but even then there's still lots of areas I can point out where common sense isn't being applied, they are thinking a bit limited, or something else. Forget this place for psychedelics, the people on here are serious noobs compared to face to face people and people on dmt-nexus and shroomery. I know people using datura to radically improve their life. I plan to follow them. The people I talk to face to face who do psychedelics tend to know alot more about spirituality, and I resonate with them a lot more now. They tend to go beyond infinite love just because psychedelics show you so much, so much more then what a spiritual path could. You literally get an alien brain. Its amazing, the psychedelic groups get spirituality so much better then Ananda, Ramaji, buddhists, you name it. I think shamans know more about infinite love and consciousness then the buddha after my experiences with psychedelic and shamanic groups (both in asia and my local home country). I am really feeling a strong strong strong urge to get deeper into psychedelic circles to advance my spiritual path. I want to get into datura, 5-meo, shamanism, and psychedelic research. I want to dedicate my life purpose to building machines that alter people's states of consciousness, I'm feeling super passionate about that. The realization of infinite love is not the end of the spiritual path. Its 0.01% of it, and I realized this without psychedelics. I realized it sober, so just imagine how big the spiritual path really is. My infinite love awakening that happened 4 or so months ago was a realization that the entire spiritual path was just designed to increase how beautiful realizing the world is love, is. And there was no I, the path went through itself. Which was the amazing part, it was like the world was a movie the entire time. Fast forward to now and after having some realizations such as the present moment doesn't exist, deeper realizations of infinity, deeper realizations of what's beyond the 1st person perspective, like infinite love awakenings that included realizations of every single being on the planet at once (which wont make sense to anyone on this forum) realizing that solving my trauma requires me solving sociological traumas like world war 2 and the vietnam war(because world war 2 is behind the eyes, and gives you suffering) I've come to realize that infinite love is just 0.01% of what can be realized in this universe. And going deeper into that requires psychedelics. These days I get far more insights just looking at a brick then I do reading books or doing meditation techniques. Really the only way forward is psychedelics. I've gotta try my hardest to go in that area. That's why I'm super passionate about making altered states of consciousness machines. Like neuralink. I see this is how you get from LOC 1000 to LOC 2000, LOC 3000, LOC 30000, LOC 9000000000, etc. Its about transforming the human brain to an alien brain. This is how you turn humans into machine elves and revolutionize science, health, art, everything. I completely and utterly disagree with people who think the spiritual path ends at infinite love. Those people are just simply fools. It goes way beyond that. They are completely out of touch with machine elves and forms beyond human. They don't know that machine elves are born with infinite love, and then go along the spiritual path to get to LOC 10000, and its possible for humans too through psychedelics or machinery. Infinite love awakening is still relative to the human experience. Its looking at the infinite through the finite mind. But that infinite can be seen totally differently depending on the finite mind (as psychedelics show) and I've also experienced (sober) experiencing the infinite through the infinite mind, which is so profound and radical that I will just not explain it here. I feel like I'm reaching the end of what this human mind is capable of. I just cannot seem to increase it through meditation or yoga or psychedelics that easily. I actually upgrade it or it's baseline consciousness just increases at a steady rate if I do nothing and just live my life like normal. I get insights from everything, from the shops, other people, the sun, plants. Its like I can look at an object and look past the veil and see an explosion of intelligence. And this process is far more powerful then meditation or anything else. How do I get higher then this? I've gotta manually modify the brain through psychedelics or machines. And thats why this is definitely my life purpose. I definitely don't resonate with people on here, not because I don't understand them, but because they are at a level that I was at years ago, and I can really feel that. And then the ones that are at my level, have no desire in continuing the path. So there's virtually no one on here with the same interests as me, or they do, but not in the same way as me. They are into LOA or stuff that I have no interest in. This forum is feeling like I'm at level 20, but I keep messing around at level 1. And its just getting boring, and so I'll be leaving and maybe revisiting casually. Having said the above, I also acknowledge that there were some really powerful and juicy lessons I learnt through being here. I certainly didn't always feel this way. Being here I really did feel like there was lots to learn and people knew more then I did. And that was a great time. But now that time is over. And this is another reason why I'm not feeling it to stay here much longer. My patience for people who aren't serious about spirituality, are too afraid, too scared, aren't willing to put their money where their mouth is, is running super thin. And for the first time in a while, I couldn't help myself and said what I've been thinking a while to this guy: The universe is infinite love for fucks sake. What in the fuck is the worst case scenario if you get psychotic or schizophrenic a little? And FYI don't you know what increasing your baseline is? Its getting a little schizophrenic or psychotic you idiot! That IS the later stages. What else could it be? You think increasing your baseline is all sunshine and rainbows? Fuck no! The entire universe changes. This isn't just limited to this steven guy, its loads of users on here. They can't take it when you get a little bit serious with them. Mention just a little schizophrenia or psychosis or insanity, and the most spiritual on here run like little juvenile kids. Actually my honest opinion is if you're not permanently psychotic, then your baseline isn't that high. I was refraining a lot with that comment.

Just wanted to share a tiny part of my personal journey on the spiritual path. Since about 4-6 months ago, started getting spontaneous ego deaths sober. It use to occur twice a week, now its once a week. With sober ego deaths, you never know whether you've poisoned yourself, overdosed on something, having a life threatening disease or whether an insect or animal has injected you with venom. Or on the flip side, whether you're just having a psychological phenomena (which has been every case so far, otherwise I wouldn't be here, I would be in the hospital, or reincarnated into a different universe/dream). Even though its just an ego death, because its sober, you can never tell the difference between ego death and physical death. On psychedelics I guess you can make rationale that its normal and you'll come back, but sober you can't do that, because you never know why its happening. The littlest things trigger it, and they occur at the most inconvenient times. It occurs when I'm feeling the energy of a sort of food, the feeling and how it reacts to the stomach just causes waves of energy to rise, exponentially increasing dissociation and am. It occurs when I'm feeling the inertia of the elevator coming up and down. It occurs if I eat lots of berries or take too many supplements, it occurs if I sniff too much cleaning products or solvents, it occurs if I'm getting too angry at something, it occurs if I'm getting too relaxed, or sometimes it occurs for absolutely no reason at all. Sometimes it occurs when you're driving or in a meeting with your boss. The process is always the same. Energy starts to raise in your body, sometimes it comes in waves, sometimes its gradual. The waves are the worst because there is more suspense. The first wave comes, then you've got time to relax when it settles, but from experience you know another wave is going to come, and the suspense kicks in. Then that second wave hits, that's when you're seriously feeling that existential terror, that amnesia and loss of knowing what the universe is, what maths is, science is, your family is, etc. And that dissociation from the body kicks in hard. you start to feel a bit of a swaying or sense that space is jumbling up a bit. Then the third wave hits, surrounded by amnesia and dissociation, you're seriously contemplating the possibility that you'll never see the dream that you're in ever again. Did you poison yourself? Is this God's way of saying that's it for this dream? You never know. For me personally, most of what I care about is knowing how reality works, and the universe has a way of giving you what you want. And knowing how reality works means bye bye to the universe, so you never know whether God is fulfilling your wish on this particular ego death. After the ego death its beautiful, no dream, just white everywhere, complete amnesia, and complete love. Yet even though you may remember this, doesn't make the ego death any less frightening. You can accept ego death more and more, but you never get rid of the terror, nor use to the impracticalities of passing out while doing stuff like shopping or work. And most normies and even people on here would think that this is abnormal, but its only abnormal from this time period. Tribesmen had to accept the possibility that they would die at any day due to the harsh realities of conflicts with other tribes, diseases and misshaps with hunting, or your own tribesmen turning against you. Just a few decades ago, 19 year olds had to walk every day with the possibility that they would step on a mine. The song "I was only 19" and the verse "A four week operation, when each step can mean your last one on two legs" really illustrates that possibility and mindset. And ironically, despite the melancholic vibes, such ego deaths emanate your bones with humility, acceptance, and connection with the human race, especially humans in the past. Its a beautiful irony that having ego deaths every week isolates you from the human race of today, yet gives you a deep appreciation for humans of the past... a much bigger time period then this narrow slice of peacetime. When I'm listening to war songs, I join in with them with the singing, we all get each other. The generation of today have no idea how good they got it. The empathy is unparalleled when this happens to you. You see a Chinese guy on the street fearing for his life, and you totally get it, especially the part where no one else knows what that fear is like because they are so god damn lucky. But the generation of today also have it really badly, because without the possibility of death at any moment, means no possibility of accepting the worst case scenario, and a hidden trauma of always protecting and chasing after avoiding your worst nightmare. Its a locking yourself in a cage. Its a fabrication of delusion and arrogance. After such ego deaths happening regularly, you can't even pretend that you're macho. Because it freaks you out every time, no matter how enlightened or advanced you think you are, or how much progress you went through. What both you, the almighty enlightened starseed alien, and the stupid, foolish military soldier normie both share in common, is you're both freaked out by death, no matter how many near death experiences (or actual ego death) you have, but both of you know that your only option is accepting the fact that this dream may be the last moment it will exist, sucking it up, and getting on with it. Both of you know what's worth it, and what isn't, because any day could be your last. I'm not sure how many "spiritual people" go through this. Doesn't sound like much based on the reports from this forum, and talking to spiritual people face to face in my local country. I'd imagine that lots of them are too enlightened to go through such things. They have already had ego death, nothing scares them anymore, they are in heaven already, and know everything. Unfortunately that isn't the case for me, my brain works uniquely where this will stuff happen till mahasamadhi or at very least till the body and mind gets hit with a bus. I find connection and solace with the humans of the past. It sounds depressing, but that wasn't the point of this post. I think existential terror, possibility of never seeing this dream ever again, deep dissociation and amnesia to have a beautiful sort of charisma to it, the side of the coin that's neglected by us because we're too busy chasing manifestation and insights and increasing baseline states of consciousness, and realizations, yet its no less beautiful. Its the compliment of all of that stuff. All of the former is what separates us in a sense, while the latter is what connects us all together.

One of the things I came to terms with recently was how relative truth actually is. Every spiritual teacher has a different take on what's going on, even though this is meant to be the same because its the absolute. You can justify such things with maps like LOC or someone being more enlightened then the other, but its more complex then that because the order in which you can realize different facets of reality varies between people, and some people have access to states of consciousness that others will never have access to. Psychedelics are a super cool area of research because it literally changes your brain chemistry. Which means your brain turns alien on it. Your hardware changes. And all of this is within the paradox that brains are imaginary and don't actually exist. There's a strange loop between our imaginary brain and the truth we realize, and that strange loop is an amazingly mysterious mechanic of reality. But that strange loop is definitely real. So my take on this stuff is the following: Its actually a lot more varied then that (due to infinity) there can seem to be a 'you' and then a realization that there's 'no you', but aliens (or people on psychedelics) can experience things beyond the you vs no you duality. Stuff that you can't comprehend. Stuff that's totally alien. And such variations can be explained through accessing different states of consciousness, but a more practical answer is perception. You could say, in one context, that we might all be seeing the same thing, but having different perspectives of what that thing is. For you, a phone is a device to call people. But what is that phone to a shaman? A monolith? A spirit? A machine elf? And considering you've experienced infinity before, I'm sure how you can see that your perception of a phone being a phone, is no more real then the shaman's perception of what that thing is. IME the ego never goes away, even after an infinite love awakening (LOC 1000). And for many spiritual teachers who claim they are enlightened, the ego never goes away for them too. Your perception of what that ego IS, changes. This may be too tricky to realize just through this post, but when you had that no self realization, its not like the ego disappeared, its that your perception of what an ego is changed. It changed from something that's absolutely true, to something that is a dream. Its still there, but as a dream. You didn't lose an ego (ironically because adviata vedantans pride themselves on no ego) the ego just got recontextualised as being not absolutely real/true. Just like how 'others' aren't true, yet there are still there, you're still talking to people. I find the adviata vedantan you vs no you duality too crude. Its either there or not. When the reality is something in the middle. Its not true but its there as a dream. It is possible to fully loose an ego. But that's nothing like no self realization. That's complete and utter amnesia. When you sleep every night, that's what its like to completely loose an ego (if not lucid). When you reincarnate into those sleep dream characters, you've completely forgotten who someone here is. The no self realization is different to that, you still know who someone here is, its just been re-contextualized into a dream instead of absolute truth. You've seen emptiness and now cannot be fooled into thinking truth is ego instead of emptiness. Every awakening is an integration or recontextualization of the ego. It never goes away until you reincarnate (body-mind dies). Knowing what happens when you get hit by a bus is hard to understand without psychedelics or advanced sleep dream work. But that's what you want to aim for if you want to see what true "no self" is

@LastThursday Alien posing as a welder would be a good cover, wouldn't it? I like @Keyhole's answer though ?