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I just finished the LP course a few days ago. I have been thinking about this moment for quite a while as I started this course more then 2 years ago. Not that I get all the missing answers here but maybe some advice from more experienced folks who are already living their LP. I am 25 now and I live in germany. I have got inattentive adhd which made many things very difficult for me like concentration, dealing with emotions and social problems which indirectly also made other things difficult like finding study partners or getting help with emotional distress difficult. So basically I was always an emotional mess/ overtaxed/ semi depressed while getting nothing done and not understanding what was wrong with me. As a result I had difficulties answering many questions in the life purpose course because I experienced relatively little concrete success so far because I couldnt really take part in life as much. I feel like I have got as close to it as what would be possible with my blockades but I feel like the very thing that is my LP is something I cant see right now. I take meds now and it seems like many things are clearing up rapidly but and I do make quite the transformation. I feel more capable but not necessarily upgraded. The stars become less interesting and I see more immediate tasks ahead. I become a lot more concrete instead of abstract. Thats the best way I can describe it. I seem to manifest myself in reality. I was always very reflected and stuff but was like a wave without its own will it can force onto the world. I develop a sense of self now. It sounds pretty unconscious I know and I made the point myself that adhd (at least the inattentive type that I experience) makes you more conscious. But in taking my meds I can deal with reality at least. If I got emotional support/ grounding maybe I could do it without meds but currently I can only do it this way. So this situation is quite confusing atm. In terms of my career so far: teaching: I am in 10th semester of studying math and philosophy for middle school but only have enough points to complete like 4 semesters (you need 10 semesters in total) because of the emotional distress I was always in. I could probably do better with the meds now so it really isnt hopeless. I decided to study teaching though because I did some internship to see what I like and teaching was okay for a moment and I couldnt deal with the pain of being in a situation of uncertainty so I did the best thing I found at the moment which wasn't the most conscious choice. Also there is a bit of buffer as with this graduation I can do other things as well. Teaching isnt directly my Life Purpose I am pretty sure about that. But I would earn a lot of money per hour, can do it part time, have a lot of holidays and a class in school gives you many direct information to observe which can inspire you. A school class is basically a mirror of society, all the kids are just mini versions of what's to come. So that can help me understand society and psychology more which would deepen whatever I create with my LP. I already thought a little and am also teaching 5 hours per week atm and it's an okay job. So it wouldnt be my LP but it would have a good base to comfortable pursue my real LP. acting: Over the last two years I have been doing a lot of acting as a hobby which is a lot of fun but it took a lot of time and I am also thinking about doing this as a career path. It would give me a relatively unstable base though and it would probably just miss my LP. Learning to act itself is incredible fun but it can also be emotionally challenging which I might not be capable to do. My Life Purpose is generally a bit unclear to me. Being a critical thinker is very much part of my authentic self and I have also got a very creative mind because of my adhd. On their own or even combined they dont really give me a life purpose that I find meaningful. For example I always think critically but I dont see where this practically leads to. And I often come up with new start up ideas because as I love the creative process but when it isnt connected to something meaningful I loose interest in it. The closest I could with these two is working on series like Rick&Morty which comes close to feeling like a LP. But I think there is a last component, a last value that is blocked from my mind. Besides these top two values I also care about empathy, goodness, authenticity, but not enough about any of them to make a LP in combination with the two about them I think. I sometimes look in my past to where the last puzzle piece might be. I developed a very profound even mystical happiness as a kid as I think that I had mystical experiences in kindergarden. I really vibed with Jesus in that time as well. I felt like it would virtually be impossible to break my spirit because I was connected to something unbreakable. I even felt like I needed to go through some real shit, to be lost, to come out of it and from that place be authentically able to help other people. I had a feeling of calling back then. Well I am not quite back to my inner garden of roses yet. I did about 20 trips of psychedelics and never realized a mystical experience because I was in too much shit mentally I think. (interestingly never had a really bad trip either though) I formulated my LP rather vague. I couldnt find any formulation that deeply inspired because as I said I think there is some authentic part of me missing. Taking my reflection about my past and moments of reflection I feel like it has to do with healing, bliss, profound love, existential (healing), spirituality. But I cant completely make out if these things interest me because I feel like I have a lack of them (negative motivation) or if it is authentic. To make my LP more concrete I could reformulate it like this for example (but I am not sure about it): - giving people blissful spiritual experiences to make them more loving and conscious. - finding existential beauty and meaning in fucked up situations to make people more hopeful So with all of this I have no clear direction of where to go and I found out new things about myself/ unblock blockades and this is probably going on for months and years to come. All ways would help me move forwards. If I study to become a teacher that would be an acceptable path which would allow me to do lots of other stuff (LP) I am interested in as well but then I could never study to become a serious actor because I would be too old at this point. I would need to become more clear about myself and my values to see what I value most. A side thought is also to experiment with start ups (for money) as I have lots of ideas for them. Right now I am thinking of continue studying while giving myself time to process and I can on the side apply to acting schools. Chances of getting accepted are pretty low anyways and if I get accepted that would be a sign that I am quite talented. Design ohne Titel.pdf

If he were truly more conscious than average he wouldn't care about Trump/he would speak about him stoically, especially since as a self-proclaimed non-dualist he is supposed to be aware that Trump is a reflection. We want more joy or intensity in general but as i said once again Martin Ball is still busy insulting Trump like a child and stomping his feet in anger, and his life isn't particularly great and he even developed a serious chronic illness a few years ago. What probably happens is since he bases his theory essentially on psychedelic experiences once he’s sober he reverts to being just an random ego at best. Why would you want to vomit all over yourself and end up covered in bruises while on 5-MeO-DMT when none of the people who use it regularly have anything to show for it? Psychedelics in general. A tree is judged by its fruit. Where are the guys who turn their lives around thanks to 5-MeO? "Hey, I used to be depressed, do cocaine, and dress up as a girl. Now thanks to 5-MeO-DMT I’ve become a tennis coach, i eat ice cream and I live in a state of bliss nigga" No it doesnt; I personnaly almost never think about Trump I don't even really have an opinion on him. He thinks about Trump because he is Trump; he projects things onto him. Impulsiveness it seems in this case.

Friday: July 17th, 2026. Jolly by using a molly is distinct from sober bliss.

Suffering is sub-optimal. Allowable but unnecessary. A problem easily fixable. The world isn't suffering. It is the seer of suffering. The seer needs to correct his perception. That is the work. And the miracle is this: when you no longer see suffering, you no longer feel suffering! Why? Because the world is you - tadaa! So now you will abide in peace and not have to go through lifetimes of suffering. You merged back to the whole. Manifestation is now enjoyed, no longer endured. The puzzle of life solved and everyone happy. Everyone will reach eventually. Reality approves of bliss not blight. Drop the blight and see the light. That's the whole game.

It's not ignorance per se that is bliss. It's the lack of thinking. Thinking can make the mind unrestful, which can produce suffering if managed poorly. Being ignorant does not make you happy. It only simplifies complexities, which can make relaxation easier with little management.

Hey then what was all that "ignorance is bliss" crap?

Understand that there is realer better deeper than this. Check out, wake up. No sweat though - take your time. Spin you wheels, lick your lips, build castles in the sand. Ignorance is bliss when that's what one knows.

Started March 7th. Two sits a day, started around 30 min to now mostly 80 to 90 minutes each. I'm somewhere in the back half of First Kriya. Yoni Mudra stable at 90 seconds, Kechari, Maha Mudra, Navi Kriya, full Pranayama stack. The first three months were one of the ugliest stretches of my adult life. Nobody told me this part. So here it is. What actually came up An ex I hadn't thought about in months surfaced like she lived in my chest. Grief that doubled me over. A "I am fundamentally unlovable" core wound I didn't know I was carrying showed up around session 10 and sat on me for weeks. Refused to mute her on Instagram even though I knew I should. Dreamt she married a prince and I watched it through stories. That's the level of subconscious sludge the breath drags up. 4am wakings with my heart pounding for no reason. Sleep got worse before it got better. Samskaras process at night. Hulk level rage at my family. I'm talking visualizations of killing people I love. Then immediately the broadcast samskara fired. I went and told a friend the detail because part of me wanted credit for the catharsis. Caught myself only because I was reporting to a coach. Spontaneous body convulsions during Yoni Mudra. Gag reflex from vagus activation. The "verge of exploding and dying" feeling before the bliss door opens. A non-dual experience on a beach where I merged with everything. Woman, dog, ocean, no separation, weeping at the beauty. Followed within hours by a full ego reconstruction panic attack at 4am. I posted about the beach experience on Instagram and texted a friend a screenshot of my own insight before deleting both. That's the loop. Insight, broadcast, identity, pressure to perform, anxiety, shame. It runs in pickup, it runs in spirituality, it runs everywhere. Around session 92 I had a long conversation with a British woman earlier in the day. She left. Hours later I'm standing outside a cheesecake shop in India and she comes back. Says "hi friends," and jumps into my arms and starts weeping uncontrollably. Not crying. Weeping like something inside her had been waiting a year to come out. I held her. Took her to the side. Said "it's okay, it's okay, cry." Started breathing with her, our stomachs touching, for about 10 minutes. She stopped. I sat her down with the cheesecake and said "feel the wetness on your face, the sadness, the sorrow, it's so fucking pleasurable." She broke into laughing hysterics and we ended up laughing together. I walked her toward my place and decided not to bring her up. Gave her a hug. Didn't take her number. Closed loop. And right after, I felt the structural pull of how spiritual leaders become sexual predators. I felt it from inside. Regulated nervous system plus vulnerable seeker plus intense bonding plus projection of divinity equals the exact circuit. I understood Lahiri's rule against organizations in my body for the first time. That's the level of clarity Kriya gives you about your own potential darkness. A few days before session 101 I had another one. Deep conversation, very fast. Dating, sexuality, consciousness, silent presence. She cried during it. I felt the pull, decided not to pursue. Didn't message her. Then a few days later I'm sitting in a cafe working, and she walks in. Says "hey" passing me, sits with another guy. Five minutes later she leaves him, comes over to me, makes small talk about her foot healing for five minutes, says "I need to go, I'll see you again," and goes back to the guy. While she's leaving the cafe she shouts "Bye Hari!" across the whole restaurant. I was sitting with an American friend at the time. My nervous system went into the floor. Day-long fear spike. Mind bombarding with guilt, shame, worry, every possible angle. Sexual energy uncontainable, pulsations streaming up and down my body. That night I woke up hallucinating. My laptop became a boat. There was a crocodile trapped at the bottom of the boat. A lizard popped out of it crawling along the keyboard. Hypnopompic paralysis, couldn't move, just watching it. I didn't message her. Didn't post. Didn't go looking for her. Brought it to a coach instead of acting on any of it. Social collapse. Couldn't look people in the eyes. Couldn't smile naturally. Parvastha bleeding into daily life so much I stopped wanting to talk to anyone. Watching girls on the beach instead of approaching, half witnessing, half avoiding, mostly avoiding. Sloth states after sessions. Lying down "thinking" for an hour. Stopped sessions to write poems. Tried to do three sits in a day. Went over the timer constantly. The mind dresses up self sabotage as creativity, as devotion, as "deepening." Crying as cathartic relief, not pain. That's the good version. The bad version is hell/bliss oscillation inside the same retention. Pure terror, then pure love, every 8 seconds, for 80 minutes. You don't get to leave the seat. This is not a hobby. It's a controlled demolition of the self you walked in with. If you have unfinished business with a parent, an ex, your ambition, your specialness, it is coming up, on the practice's schedule, not yours. The bliss is real. The "I am" state is real. But the path runs straight through every wound you've spent twenty years arranging your life to avoid feeling. Sit twice a day. Don't post about it. Don't make it your identity. Don't join the course. Don't tell people how deep you went. Get a coach or a friend who will call you on your shit. It is worth it. It is not pretty.

@AerisVahnEphelia I tnever saw any trauma in him or longing for dead. It was the opposite. He was probably in a constant bliss state after his ayahuasca experience 5 years ago. since then he was tripping 24/7, had still incredible physiqe, a lot of girls and a mission. For me connor murphy was in a power state all the time and more happy than a normal human can experience in his normal life. And he wanted us to show that through his videos that he is free of all fears, even the fear of death.

Right now, I have no wounds whatsoever. It felt painful before awakening to my true nature and during the process. But those were healed as awareness crept in—I could sense how the pain subsided. I did not have to heal myself—the higher level of consciousness did that for me. And I remember how much pain I was in before starting to meditate: Toxic shame, insecurity, no discipline whatsoever, and unable to keep a basic job. I was addicted to social media, junk food, weed, and so forth. All that had to go away, or my life would have been ruined. While it is true that I sacrificed my ego and other forms of pleasure, that doesn't mean I lost something. Because the bliss of awareness is much more enjoyable than anything in the world or of the ego. I'm not saying that all people should do what I did; I am only saying that force was necessary sometimes, and that it's no easy game to overcome the ego. And the way I see it now is that it's not a tragedy or something bad that happened to me. I see it as a little bit of ego an struggle. That's it. And that's true, Elliott. For some people, because they struggle with heavy mental health issues, they will experience horrible side effects as a result of meditating. But they can be transcended and eventually healed. I went through that because I come from both families with harsh intergenerational trauma. My grandfather committed suicide.

Your brain gets high, then eventually crashes, because your biology isn't meant to stay different from its baseline. (That said, I think most people aren't actually living at their baseline. Anytime you're using drugs or are possessed by memetics or "spooks" (Stirner), you're basically sick and "on drugs.") There is no reason to meditate. It's almost like trying to get high from weed without actually smoking it. Meditation is completely useless. (Then again, everything is, so if you find it fun, go for it. I just wouldn't expect to find a lasting state of bliss that comes for free.) My theory is that your brain enters a kind of survival mode, similar to the adrenaline response during a fight, and after a while you experience a high. It's like the brain injects a survival response into the system because it doesn't know how to process what's happening. That said, there might be a good reason to meditate. The only way to know is to do it and find out.

A glimpse into truth doesn't fix an unstable ego. It can start the process of fixing it. But it doesn't automatically fix itself. A radical experience can leave a lasting imprint and cause what seems like serenity on the surface, and it can also cause a radical neurotic and obsessive bungee smack. Bipolar mania has many of the signs of neurosis and obsession, that you get hyper-fixated on certain things and it seems extremely profound, but there is also a restlessness and resistance. A manic person who is not resisting is just in bliss, their mind is silent, where does the energy go? To create bliss. That's especially how kundalini awakening can either cause immense bliss or immense contraction and not coincidentally mania. You're just upping the energy levels. How you deal with it, how reactive your ego is or self-fueled it is, that's what dictates whether it's chaotic and difficult or calm and pleasant. A subtle nuance is that your mind could probably still be "psychotic" while being in a non-dual state, but that would have to be in the realm of thought content ("thought disorder") rather than immense contraction and the associated restlessness, neurosis, perhaps more in the direction of schizophrenia than bipolar mania (although both see worsening of symptoms under elevated stress and energy levels). Like you could imagine someone who has immense calm but their mind is simply computing things quite differently than other people.

Hey y'all This is going to be my new journal on my new account. I left the old acc because I didn't like my username. Let me introduce myself first. My name is Sincerity and I'm from Poland. [image removed] ^ This is me! I'm currently ??? years old. I'm admittedly young but I hope you can see me beyond my age, for what I am I've been on this forum for more than 3 years and until now I've (kinda) held my identity a secret. But lately I've had some realizations in regard to expressing myself more honestly and yeah. Here I am, being more open with you. Now you have a slightly better idea of who's behind the account. (Edit: Ironic haha. But it has to be this way. Everything ends.) I've been on the spiritual path for roughly 4-5 years now and I feel like I've had much progress. I definitely have many insights to share. But I'm still pretty much a beginner and I'm on the journey along with you. Try to keep up, because I feel like I'm growing pretty fast (this year has been insane for me so far, seriously!) I've been mulling over my important values for years and this is where I stand right now: I am primarily about goodness. I am about love. I am about bliss, wisdom, appreciation, responsibility, sincerity, curiosity, discipline and humility. I also really value humor and laughter. You might notice I'm often tongue-in-cheek in my posts I don't like posting very frequently and I'm still not sure what I will even be posting here but tell you what, it's going to come from a place of sincerity Love and have a great day ❤️

Very interesting, truly serious in his practice, and his descriptions of states of bliss are accurate and authentic. I'd like to be able to meditate for a whole day (not 5 months 😅), but for now it's impossible; my ego would start screaming at me to stop wasting my time right now. But in a couple of hours I can achieve a level of dissolution close to total. The thing is, automatically, when you begin meditating, your state changes to: there is no good or bad, no difference. Then your entire energetic structure relaxes immediately, and the boundaries of reality blur. You realize that you're creating barriers all the time with preference, which is inevitable and necessary, but it's essential to be able to deactivate this for a few minutes each day, even just one minute. The difference is total. When the barriers fall, reality becomes limitless. Then what is recognizes itself; nothing more is needed, no infinity, no god, no source, just what is. But there can be more, that is, mystical experience. The mystical experience is the opening to power, to the absolute source, to the sacred that vaporizes your psyche and, with just a fleeting glimpse, tells you: purify yourself. humble yourself. align yourself with the sacred. Then a process begins.

To transcend what you want to transcend to pursue what you want to pursue, this is what Leo wants to pursue. He's not pursuing 'bliss'. Ya *The need to accomplish what he's seeking. He's not on roids, studying linguistics, or living on a yacht or in a monastery. *the inability to entertain reactive criticism. Ya It's not normal, just not inherently 'bad' Make a video and post it, I'm sure Leo will study it. Yes I don't think that strategy is viable, because of the motivations and 'purpose'.

Why do you consider the Aghori to be particularly advanced people? They are like homeless monks. It's great to meditate and ponder the mysteries of the universe and bliss out on it and then you come back and you're still living your life. The dudes spent their whole life meditating I would hope they have had mystical experiences and are not super shocked by 5 meo. It's people that are able to take their high consciousness and help transform the world that really impress me personally, like Bryan Johnson. He loved 5 meo dmt so much he got it tattooed and is living his life daily to further humanity and our whole medical apparatus not just sit around in a tent doing nothing.

Drugs will not lead to a permanent state of nondual or unitary perception, known as nirvikalpa samadhi in sanskrit. It can help one to get a glimpse into higher states of consciousness with artificial means. However regular use of them instead of using meditation can lead to addiction to such drugs. Cravings for drugs actually create more vasanas or psychological impressions that strengthens duality rather than creating nonduality. Many crimes have been committed under the influence of drugs. The Nazis used drugs to stifle their sensibilities during their numerous crimes against civilians during invasions, though it is part of soldiering conduct not to harm civilians. The enlightened master Meher Baba stated that " Enlightenment is not found in a pill. " No user of drugs ever in the history of the world has attained the bliss and joy found in enlightenment. The bliss of enlightenment is also of a permanent nature in stark contrast to that of the temporary highs of drugs and alcohol charecterised by painful hangovers later on. Repeated use of drugs can also damage the capacity to meditate. Osho had talked on the nature of drugs ... https://www.oshotimes.com/insights/health/mind/understanding-addictions/ https://oshofriends.com/counseling/25566?__cf_chl_f_tk=RbUE3GRjnZBx7_74tdTc7FUm2O3nUz5CHQCVo.6JTOc-1783311572-1.0.1.1-qC_AAdLDjH0bKueYe61bBXwtWnr92JXMxGiG6uVMGGc https://oshofriends.com/counseling/32474

In English there's two general categories of happiness: 1) "Acclaim" - this is the feeling one has when a beneficial story the individual has crafted for themself comes to fruition such that it's undeniable, "written with fire in the sky", for everyone to see. Example: designing a house, and then feeling happy when it is completed. 2) "Joy" - this is the feeling one has when a malevolent story the individual has crafted for themself flips dramatically such that the malevolent has become benevolent. Bad has flipped to good. Example: getting on a roller-coaster, slowly going up the big hill, dangling over the edge, then... whoosh you feel like you're flying not falling. Acclaim is a satisfying feeling which settles the mind-and-heart ,the psyche. Joy, in stark contrast is an arousal which unsettles the mind-and-heart, the psyche. ok Because these stories are open-ended, it's challenging to encounter either acclaim or joy. 2 ways that work for me: Transmute the anxiety into wonder. They're distant opposing extremes of the same underlying cognition. Either one can be derived from its opposing partner. In this modern world, with instant access to facts and knowledge, wondering has become discouraged. Most people don't appreciate the unknown. Unknowns are outside of their locus of control. Modern people don't like that. They want to know. Knowing makes them feel powerful. Instead, embrace the unknown as a source of awe and wonder. Find pleasure in the unknown as a source of surprise. This technique is useful because the inner-story telling doesn't need to change. It naturally cultivates joy when the unknown potential for harm/losing is replaced by unknown potential for help/gaining. Another way involves chopping up the inner-story into bite-size chunks which have distinct endings. Then, do the work to map out how to get to the endings of these bite size "side-quests" for lack of a better word. Look for opportunities to flip the script on the harmful/losing outcomes. And do the work to "stack the deck" in your favor to accomplish the helping/gaining outcomes. Specifically how? My vote? No. It's the opposite. Happiness necessarily is attached to outcome. Detachment brings stasis and a form of bliss which is like returning to the womb. Many people are seeking this due to trauma, frustration, and bafflement. But, it's not a panacea for everyone. Those who seek detachment religiously, and are devoted to it like a god, will say it's the **only** way. And it's true for them. It is the **only** way for them. Agreed. This is the distinction between happiness, in all its forms, and bliss in all its forms. Detachment is an inward-journeying. Embracing the unknown as a path towards enlightenment ( literally en-lightening the burdens of life ) is called by many a "Fool's Journey". It's out-going. It's the opposite of detachment. It's integrating/connecting. The Fool is the unexpected hero of this story. See below, in a spoiler to save space on-screen. The story is included in the Tarot pantheon/construct, but, the purpose isn't foretelling the future. The purpose is to find the Hero-Fool as it exists within oneself and others. Once it is found within the heart-and-mind, it can be called on in response to life's events, connecting them to opportunities instead of defaulting into void.

The only problem in the world is interpretation. We see bad. We should say, this in my mind tricking me. I don't know what this means. I am ready to see differently. This ushers in a miracle. Everything gets reinterpreted. Your box is my bliss. Nothing can touch me. Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists. Herein lies the peace of God.

I did 20 ceremonies taking full doses of Bufo Alvarius as well as dozens of microdoses on my own. Sometimes I felt totally connected with divinity, tasting my existence, contacting the deepest part of my soul, feelings of terror and bliss. But there was no long term affects, such as deconditioning or “cleaning”. I now believe that drugs can’t do this. This has to be done over the longer term through yogic practices that have been around for thousands of years. You can’t force spirituality with drugs. This is a materialistic notion.

Thursday: July 2nd, 2026. Overflowing with a positive emotion is distinct from authentic bliss.

Lately, when I watch a movie, I actually watch it. That means that I become the movie—I’m not an ego looking through eyes to see the screen, making my own judgments about the characters and plot. No, I’m actually being all of the characters, the plot, the themes, with no ego. The crazy thing you realize doing this practice is that Consciousness has insane variety, and it includes both the good and the bad from a human pov. Movies allow biased humans to expand their limited frames and peek into universal Consciousness. The funniest thing is that they mostly aren’t aware they’re doing this. Directors think they’re making a movie, getting actors, thinking through everything; really they’re participating in Consciousness. Most people don’t realize the insanity of movies because they don’t allow themselves to be touched by them. The ego constructs a protective barrier so that the contents of a movie will be experienced from the ego’s perspective rather than as Consciousness, which reduces the impact. This is why people are able to watch horror movies. They protect themselves—they aren’t actually watching the movie. This is the reason why children aren’t allowed to watch horror movies. They haven’t fully built up the ego, so the contents of Consciousness communicated through the film enter into their mind. Then they get nightmares and things like that. To actually watch a movie as Consciousness, it takes an exceptionally strong human. Only consciousness watches consciousness; a human does not watch consciousness. A human cannot experience being possessed by a demon inflicting terror on a victim and being the victim at the same time. It’s actually mildly traumatizing to watch a movie like this. But there are also good sides to movies (of course from the human POV because it’s relative). Many movie are more upbeat and jovial. These are more pleasant for the human, but still the human cannot take in the grandiosity of Bliss or Love. Every movie is a figment of Consciousness representing archetypes. The theme is CONSCIOUSNESS. I can only assume this would be extraordinarily amplified on psychedelics. I think this is what Leo was talking about with “integrating himself as the spider queen.” For those who don’t know, he talks about it in Reading a Poetic Description of God-Consciousness. @Leo Gura @Davino @Inliytened1

There is one spiritual festival here in Finland. It’s relatively popular. It’s literally just conformity. You can’t talk with them about anything authentic, cuz they are all high on their conformity bliss. The more we niche down into serious spiritual events and retreats, the creepier it gets to go there to approach people romantically. And finally, in these more serious spaces, there is virtually no one I find attractive.

Thursday: June 25th, 2026. Reality as a fun playground is distinct from ignorant bliss.

I am experiencing a shift in my baseline consciousness, and came here to tell a simple thing yet profound thing. As you get more and more aware and do the work, you WILL become detached and playful over ANY experience. Laughter, sadness, rejection, approval, acomplishent, joy, bliss, a hot girl, all these things and more, will come and go BUT YOU WILL BE THERE THROUGH ALL OF THEM. There's a profound sense of sameness in every experience, the observer or the "thing" watching does not change. When you truly start to examine and become more aware of You, you start to notice that you cannot lose anything EVER, because in the first place you never actually have anything other than being aware -- check this, this is undeniable. You cannot lose anything, nor gain anything, you are there, and that's it. Suffering then, comes from your unawareness of yourself in difficult experiences, such that you get lost in the experience and forget that you are OUT of it because you are OBSERVING the whole thing. If, you truly are aware of yourself or are in the process of deepening of your awareness(which is me btw) you will be crazy detached and playful because the identification and the hypnosis of the experience will lose it's grip on you -- you are AWARE. You can only be attached to something, if you think you will lose it at some point, if that illusion breaks, you are detached, and not through effort, it will just happen. This brings such a freedom and playfulness to everything, when you really start to groking this, beyond intellect, you WILL be detached and playful. Enjoying everything, but with freedom, nothing holds you, nothing binds you, you are there, and that's everything that is to it. Be aware and WATCH everything, you will be fine. Transcending suffering, detachment and playfulness is just a process of becoming more conscious. BUDDHA, YOU MFER. WHAT A MINDFUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!