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  1. https://youtube.com/@dmackler58 I found this channel a few days ago and have watched so many videos. It was similar to finding Leo’s channel for the first time, a true gem
  2. Yup it’s all or nothing. My friend legit made music his life. He works at a drum shop and teaches music to kids, went to college for music, started a band and got with a record label, does music videos, manages all his social media and does promoting through the label. It’s insane and he’s just now starting to see some success!
  3. Recently started college and have my first psychology class. Since I’ve been gorging on Leo’s content for the past 5 years, the class is so easy and fun. I already know so many terms and concepts because of the videos that even if I don’t know something specific, I can usually make a good educated guess. We have a quiz coming up called “states of consciousness” and my mouth is watering ?
  4. Lol I remember a long time ago leo saying that the new elder scrolls game suck and that morrowind was the pinnacle. Understandable if you have a lot of fond memories of it. Mine was skyrim cause I was too young when morrow wind and oblivion came out. Many memories of playing it for days at a time over summer vacation. I got my partner addicted to it last year lol How r u liking it? What race and class do u like?
  5. Hey man I empathize with you because I’ve been wanting to quit vaping (I jumped from cigs to vaping a few years back). I’ve tried cold turkey and apparently I’m one of the few people who get horrible anxiety and mild hallucinations from nicotine withdrawals, so I know how hard it is to jump. I seriously recommend you get some nicotine patches and find something that can occupy your mouth and hands like leo said. with the patches, don’t think of it as another vice. You gotta change your mindset to “I’m fucking ready to quit, no matter what happens”. You need to set yourself up for success, you’ve already tried quitting before so you won’t be blindsided by anything this time hoped that helps at all! Good luck man you got this!!
  6. @Leo Gura is this why I get a weird existential fear when I stare into the sky or space at night? I get feelings of beauty ofc as well but sometimes it’s just this feeling that it’s just so fucking big like how do we just ignore this massive void above us and live our lives normally lmao
  7. I can speak from experience that penis envy is ridiculously more potent. I took what I thought would be a small dose that would be very light and ended up tripping harder than I ever had before lol. I also notice that penis envy has a very heavy cathartic body load
  8. @Razard86 this entire take is just cringeworthy
  9. @Leo Gura just curious, do you have anything to say about dissociation itself? I’ve experienced it many times throughout my life drug induced and sober. Idk if it’s genetic or what but it’s such a strange state of consciousness, it can feel wonderful and calming or absolutely terrifying. Do you think it has any existential dimensions?
  10. Forgot to mention I’ve been eating lots of nuts and oats as snacks. I hope that’s a good start. Ideally I want my meals to be meat and veggies and have nuts as snacks. I’m honestly intimidated by trying to eat healthy because of how many conflicting ideas there are which is why I want something simple and intuitive to my body.
  11. I’m 20 years old and have finally gotten on food stamps so I can afford to buy more food. I’ve been eating complete garbage for over a year because Ive been poor and struggle with bouts of depression I can tell my body just wants good meat and vegetables. I don’t want some ridiculous diet with 3,000 supplements and super foods. I just want good ol meat and veggies what are some good easy dishes I can start with? What are some options I can have so I don’t get tempting to go back to junk food? im open to really most things just as long as it’s not too expensive or hard to prepare (for now at least) thanks!
  12. I finally have the house to myself. But I was getting depressed because all I did today was sit inside. I started thinking about the fun stuff I used to do and became really upset In the midst of all this a powerful silence came over me. Everything was so still. There was a great sense of relief. But then it kept getting more real. I had the sensation that I was seeing what was really there, behind the veil of my mind it was an existential terror that I had gotten from weed many times years ago. But this time I breathed deep and accepted it. When it passed, it was just a matter of fact. My mind was telling story after story and I couldn’t see past it until now
  13. As the title says I’ve been cutting corners at my new job. I’m worried at some point they will have had enough and I’ll get fired. I work as someone in charge of a store’s inventory and boxes. I don’t completely fuck them over everyday by any means. I do my job completely well majority of the time. But there are times where I know I’m bullshitting them or making excuses so I have an easier day. today was one of those days. I didn’t fill the cash register with enough change so they were short, and I didn’t bring enough boxes to one of the stores. It’s not the end of the world because the stores aren’t that busy so they can send someone else if they really need to. But I of course still bad. Feels icky. Made things confusing for someone. I have chronic fatigue from a suspected infection, and I’m seeing a doctor this week. In the moment I know what the right thing to do is, but I’m so fucking lethargic that the idea of doing it is monumental. Some days I kill it at work, others I just want to work bare minimum then go home. Any thoughts?
  14. @SonataAllegro I slowly told her when i first started to work on the problem. She was very accepting and non judgmental. I tried to do it in a way that wasn’t too overbearing. But I’m sure I came off as pathetic sometimes (which only adds to my insecurities lol). But for about 2 months I’ve barely talked about how I feel so I think I do need to just express that I’m dealing with the fallout of what went on
  15. My self esteem has been very very low the past 6 months. I was practically unemployed barely scraping by and I almost never left the house. The cherry on top was when my girlfriend expressed how bad it affected her. It broke my heart and I knew I needed to change or she would leave me. In the past month I’ve made large strides in changing. I have 2 jobs now. I buy her gifts and go out with her all the time. I will also finally start therapy next month. But the past couple of months were pretty traumatizing in a way. I became very suicidal, and didn’t really tell anyone about it. To be clear, I’ve struggled with depression for most of my life. I just haven’t had suicidal thoughts until all of this. It felt like I had ruined all the goods things I had in my life. So even though I’m doing better now, I’m still suffering through all of these feelings of anguish, self loathing, and paranoia. Sometimes I feel better about myself, but other times I feel very insecure. What are some things I can start doing today that will help? Thank you