Fuck yeah, we are now definitely getting to the juicy part of all of this, which is: "What does all of this mean for my actual life?"
It is important to note that answering this question and living according to the insights stemming from it, is a work in progress for me too. 
Before continuing, I want to point out that I don't want to talk any of you into believing that they should regret any past life choices. I sure as hell don't. ALL of your life experience is valuable, ESPECIALLY the bad decisions you've made. Also, I fundamentally reject the idea of regretting ANYthing.
There is truth to this, but you have a very dangerous flaw in your argumentation, which is this: Why do you assume, that challenges have to be external? 
I want y'all to live like cats. When you observe a cat, you will notice that you can hardly play with it, when it is not in the mood for play. In contrast, when it's in the mood for play, you can barely stop it from playing with itself. This is because, when it's in the mood, it will see every object in your room as a toy. Also, it will adjust the amount of challenge automatically, for example by attempting more and more difficult jumps, since when the play is not challenging, it's not fun.
My claim is that if you are a passion oriented person (ADHD, executive dysfunction) you are required to be the main supplier of your own challenges. 
If it makes you feel any better, you can also frame it like this: Non-passion-oriented-people have difficulties at figuring out what's worth learning by themselves, which is why universities exist, so they can go there and be spoon-fed knowledge curated by their professors who have done the same thing.
This is correct. I'm sorry I have not been precise enough with my writing. Yes, non-passion-oriented gifted autistic people will have stellar careers in technological fields and non-passion-oriented gifted HSPs will have stellar careers in psychology and adjacent fields (this is still very simplified, of course).
My radical claim is: The reason why everybody reading this is at least to some extent a passion oriented person, is because if you weren't, you'd not be here to learn, but instead you'd just invest all of your energy into taking more courses at university so you have your phd faster or whatever. (or working longer hours to increase your wage, I think you get my point.)
That sounds like an awful lot of repetition and predictability for someone claiming they're the opposite of autistic 👅.
My claim is that me and you, like most people here are somewhere on that autism-psychosis spectrum you sent in here, with some features of both. (psychosis=HSP in my mind, I know this is a radical claim that needs more evidence, but it is a useful frame for now)
I have not gotten to my main point about enabling yet, but I need to take a break😅

Edit: I am using the label ND too broadly here. What I mean more specifically is passion oriented people/ADHD/executive dysfunction. Thanks @Human Mint for pointing that out.
You are correct that talking about "hard work" is crucial in an ND discussion. Thanks for reminding me.
The sentence above is exactly wrong. 
The reason why you think this is because you still live too deep in NT Land.
The concept "Hard work" mean completely different things for an ND and for an NT.
Comparing the "hard work" ability of an NT person with those of an ND person is like comparing the boxing ability of Mike Tyson with those of some nerd with no arms. This nerd could be Albert fucking Einstein, and he would still have low self-esteem their whole lives if they were to compare their boxing abilities to Mike Tysons.
Coping "tricks" like gamification and all this shit is like saying to Einstein: "You can beat Mike Tyson if you believe in yourself! You just have to use your forehead!". You are banging your head against a wall when you do this.
Being productive for an NT person always takes them roughly the same amount of energy and willpower no matter what they do (I know this sounds completely unbelievable). This means they are literal Mike Tysons at doing boring shit. This is, again, also why they are usually not productive during leisure time (aka no hobbies). In addition, it's why they think that people have to work to be happy bc they wouldn't know what to do with all that time.
Nothing I've done the last view days felt like hard work. No NT could ever communicate this much information without it feeling like hard work. This is one of the superpowers of NDs. When an ND is motivated to do something, it costs them discipline NOT to pursue that thing (I'm failing miserably at not doing this btw). The downside is that having to do boring shit feels excruciating.
This is why you need to avoid doing boring shit like the literal plague, which you already do, but I'm enabling you and I am telling you not to feel bad about sucking at discipline. You need to question why "hard work" is so valued in society. No, it is like boxing. No one here gives a shit if someone is good at boxing so why is this not the same with hard work.
To circle back to your point: If they had a butler who would feed them, do all their chores, do all the paperwork, etc. an ND would absolutely be able to create the most marvelous creations of genius and creativity you have ever seen without EVER working hard.
But this is unrealistic, of course. You will have to be disciplined some of the time. JUST STOP COMPARING YOURSELF TO MIKE TYSON!
 
 

This was not a real manic crash out. “Yes, learning about ND will solve your problems Lmao” was a manic crash out I give you that. Also, the response I initially prepared is a manic crash out (It’s really fun I need to post it somewhere, so people can admire it lol). But do you really think this tiny crash out wasn’t even a little bit justified? 
You need to realize that “I don’t really have any hobbies” is an incredibly disingenuous argument. Also, it’s not even true. Do you really think that collecting masks and fossils does not count as a hobby just because he posts about it in his blog? Give me a break. He obviously lied to weasel himself out of this discussion (in some ways this is fair, he is a busy man after all. I’m not inherently against weaseling). That’s already bad and worth a little crash out. But what’s even worse is the possibility that he didn’t just lie to us, but he also lied to himself (which is actually more likely imo).
@Leo Gura you need to realize something. I’m totally with you that uncritically accepting some label about yourself from a random stranger on the internet is dangerous. If you weren't skeptical, It would be boring and hypocritical. But what’s even more dangerous is rejecting some idea so much that you become willing to outright lie to yourself. You must realize that this means that anyone on the planet potentially has power over you as soon as they happen to find something you are defensive about. 
It's necessary to note, that I'm more strict with Leo than with other people here, not because of ego, but because it is his responsibility to help this community to heal. Much more than it is my responsibility.

Seeing how many people here struggle with survival is heartbreaking.
While studying neurodiversity deeply, I have realized what the problem is.
Here is the big thing I want all of you to understand:
Survival is not the job of the neurodivergent. Survival is the job of the neurotypical. The notion that "everybody is responsible for their own survival" is the most evil idea that has ever been thought. It is a cancer that needs to be removed as fast as possible.
If you think that I'm wrong, then you are just drowning in capitalist propaganda. Humans and animals lived in groups where each member supported the other for millions of years. And now all of a sudden it should be "obvious" that living from the support of others is not a valid mode of existing anymore?
I want all of you to rinse all of your brains from this capitalist propaganda. If you are very neurodivergent, you need help. You cannot survive on your own. You need to seek support. Don't try to come up with elaborate systems that make you money. You don't care about money and you know it. Money has no value for you. You know exactly that money is fake, yet you chase it anyway because society tells you that you are useless if you don't do it. In reality, you don't need money to survive. The only thing that matters is SUPPORT. THE TRUTH IS YOU DON'T NEED MONEY TO BUY YOU SUPPORT. YOU JUST NEED TO FIND PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU AND ACCEPT YOU.
The problem is, you don't really understand what it means to be Neurotypical (functional). You think something like "if I just were functional, focus on money and stop obsessively thinking about the truth and being inspired by infinite beauty, then my life would be great" then you have no idea what it actually means being functional. Being functional means this:
Getting a good education and vibing Doing a job and vibing Marrying someone and vibing Having kids and vibing Getting old and vibing But what I want you to understand is, that being functional also means this:
My life is kind of great and stable, but
I don't really know why I'm doing all of this. Who am I actually serving? What is the meaning of all of this? I don't even know what all of this is! I am dependent on some super old traditions and ideas with problematic and outdated aspects to give me identity. I can't really inspire myself and create my own meaning, so I must be inspired, but since this system kills real authentic inspiration, for this reason I feel kind of hollow inside. I'm so involved with making a shit ton of money and being functional that I never get to stop and just enjoy the moment. I'm so involved with making a shit ton of money and being functional that I never really learned to love properly and be empathic. There is conflict in every one of my relationships and my marriage will likely not last forever, since I don't really understand psychology at all. When you point a finger at these people now and call them "these damn conformity people!" at the end you are just jealous of their ease to function in this system. If you understand now that they also have it bad because they don't have anyone to show them the beauty of life, because all the neurodivergent people are in a ditch somewhere, then you can accept them, help them, and receive the help you need in return.
You don't understand how much money these people spend in their desperate attempts to save their marriages or to finally feel something. The oppression of the neurodivergent is the root cause of the meaning crisis. If you build a deep relationship with a neurotypical, you understand their need for meaning and provide it for them, what could actually happen is that they will start worshiping you and that you never have to worry about survival again. But in order to get to that point, your first have to learn to accept yourself, accept your gift, and learn to live authentically without self-judgment.
I know that this notion of independence is deeply woven into the fabric of western culture. I think this is the biggest problem of the present day and this is why I want to help to rebuild western culture entirely from the ground up.

I tried to organize some of my notes from the rabbit hole about 3 months back. 
Level 1 Autism requires some support, level 2 requires substantial support, and level 3 requires very substantial support. This list mostly describes level 1 and severity can vary and not all traits are universal. 
Diagnosis & Demographics
Men are diagnosed 3-4x higher than females Females mask more effectively than males Many autistic people get diagnosed with ADHD first Autism runs in families and is often multi-generational Not uncommon to have multiple siblings, cousins, aunts, and uncles all autistic Often undiagnosed across generations Ever wondered what was wrong with your family? lol Social Patterns
General Tendencies
Comfortable with isolation Preferring not to talk unless necessary One or two people as entire social world Hyper-focused once latched onto something Autistic-to-Autistic Connection
Autistic people often recognize and gravitate toward each other Even without knowing you're both autistic, there's often an unspoken "getting it" Understanding of social exhaustion Direct communication styles match Less exhausting social interaction Don't have to mask as much—less judgment about "weird" behaviors or interests Similar conversational patterns (info-dumping, special interests) Neurotypical relationships often require constant translation and masking Autistic people do tend to partner with other autistic people at higher rates than chance Special Interests
Autistic people often have a "special interest" they are highly competent in Can present as obsessive pattern recognition and mastery Deep, intense focus on specific topics Can talk extensively about interest More intense than typical "hobbies" Self-teaching through obsessive focus "Geeking on" specific topics Sensory Processing
The Underlying Mechanism
The autistic nervous system processes sensory input differently—often more intensely Bright lights, background noise, textures, smells all require active filtering This happens constantly and unconsciously drains energy Sensory Overload Examples
Discomfort with unexpected physical contact Clothing tags, seams, certain fabrics unbearable Can't stand certain textures against skin Light touch more irritating than firm pressure Loud commercials unbearable Background noise draining Bright lights uncomfortable Need for dim, quiet environments Bothered by chewing/breathing sounds from others Can't filter out background conversations—hears everything equally Sudden sounds (doors slamming, dogs barking) physically jarring Self-Soothing & Stimming
Listening to the same song on repeat (sometimes for hours/days) Repeating words, phrases, or sounds (echolalia) Rewatching the same movies/shows repeatedly Cracking knuckles or joints Running mental loops (replaying conversations, scenarios) Organizing/categorizing as a calming activity Info-dumping (talking about special interest is regulating) Often self-medicates to soothe nervous system Hand rubbing Knee bouncingFoot shaking Fidgeting Pacing Humming Finger wiggling Rocking Executive Function & Task Initiation
Why "Simple" Tasks Are Hard
Requires constant mental energy to self-initiate tasks Can do complex things BUT struggle with "simple" things Starting a task actually involves multiple processes: Recognize it needs to be done Shift attention from current focus Plan the sequence of steps Overcome inertia to begin Monitor progress and stay on track Weaker Automaticity Weaker habit formation: The brain doesn't create automatic "if-then" connections as easily ("if it's 8am, then make coffee") Every time feels like the first time: Tasks don't become automatic through repetition as readily Manual override required: What happens automatically for others requires conscious, deliberate thought each time Time Perception Difficulty perceiving the passage of time accurately "Just five more minutes" turns into an hour May hyperfocus on something and completely lose track of time Routine & Flexibility
Self-imposed schedules require constant self-monitoring and discipline. (Level 1 autistics typically have enough executive function and self-awareness to create schedules and know they need structure, but not enough automaticity for those schedules to run themselves.) What was manageable yesterday might be overwhelming today If one thing goes off schedule, the whole day can feel derailed Difficulty improvising or adjusting when unexpected things happen Rigid thinking can make it hard to restart a routine once it's disrupted Complete shutdown when facing unfamiliar situations Context Switching & Transitions
Moving from one activity to another requires "resetting" the brain Autistic brains often excel at deep focus but struggle with transitions Each task switch depletes mental resources more rapidly High cost to transition between activities Difficulty shifting attention Need time between different tasks Energy & Burnout
Unpredictable Energy
Fluctuating daily capacity Good days vs. bad days with no clear pattern The Burnout Cycle
Intense focus → depletion → shutdown Need significant recovery time Can't "just push through" Physical/emotional collapse from prolonged stress Shutdown Responses
Going silent, non-responsive Complete inability to engage Not just tired—system offline Need to withdraw completely Project Abandonment Pattern
Intense 3-5 day focus, then can't return Many unfinished projects Difficulty restarting after breaks Masking & Compensating
Monitoring their own behavior to appear "normal" Suppressing stims (self-soothing repetitive behaviors like bouncing the knee) Scripting and rehearsing conversations Managing facial expressions and tone of voice manually Cognitive Styles
Concrete vs. abstract thinking: High-IQ autistic: strong abstract reasoning Average/below-average IQ autistic: concrete, literal Can be either—but thought process is detail-oriented Metacognition varies widely between autistic individuals Work & Achievement
Career Patterns
Staying in same role for decades Solo work preference Struggle with workplace social demands Underemployment despite intelligence Frequent job changes OR extreme job stability The "Squandered Potential" Narrative
High intelligence + poor achievement "Gifted kid" who "didn't live up to potential" Teachers noticing mismatch between ability and output

Only NDs view socializing as a complex topic. NTs don’t have to put much effort in learning what to say and what not to say. They don’t have to monitor and “mask” themselves all the time, but NDs are always masking until they accept their nature. 

Masking is an important topic that can reveal to you that you are ND. 

This is why I couldn't stand engineering and switched majors to philosophy in college.  I work in law, but I've studied many areas of law to get a big picture so when I need to use law I know from the top down how it works and relates with law in general.  But once I have this schema, my memory and learning is strong.  But if you ask me to memorize a list of random things, I hate that.  I need to find a way to have a bigger picture reason or model to learn something effectively.  Same thing when I was learning math.  I would read advanced math books to find out why algebra was important to learn.  So, basically if I want to learn something I have to spend some time first feeling motivated to learn it, and secondly understanding the why and big picture of it.  Ditto for when I was learning how to play Jazz, I read dozens of theory books just to feel motivated to learn how to improvise.  I needed that big picture more for the motivation (inspiration), because those books really didn't help me play better Jazz trumpet.  Mostly due to finding my own voice/style.

False. This comes from a lack of understanding neurotypicals (I'm being deliberately provocative). The average neurotypical doesn't give a shit about theory but not bc they are stupid but because they value quality time with friends and family way more. They have a fundamentally different value system. They are totally happy being a cog in a machine. They don't care if they don't understand the purpose of what they are doing, they just want to gain the material conditions necessary to build family and social connections. And, again, from their perspective this is totally reasonable. We need to understand that an ND person fundamentally has a different purpose in society than a neurotypical. It is important to understand that it is impossible to live both lives at the same time.
I suggest you to read my post about the ND bias of Actualized.org

It is important for you to understand that it is twice (some individual factor > 1) the amount of work. If you take a university course and for every lecture, you have to convince yourself that what you're learning is important you are less effective. 
What you are describing is called executive dysfunction (ED) and it is part of ND. Don't be afraid of the term "dysfunction" this is because in this society there is a bias towards negative psychology. You can reframe it as "passion oriented person".

"life not lived accordingly to their ND genes" led to their chronic health problems? Lol. 
That Dr. K talks a lot of bullshit. He fits in the orthodox self-help norms because it helps his survival. He does not understand masculinity and femininity, men and women and he leads people astray. Tried to listen to a podcast with him and got annoyed. Science parroting automaton.
Of course almost everyone who cares about Leos work and seriously watched the videos and took notes are more autistic. People who watch this are systematizing, mapping oriented, cerebral, disagreeable people. Social consensus matters less than discovering truth to us. If that was not the case why should we watch hundreds of hours of content and contemplate and talk about this stuff for ages? Non-autistic people conform to the social norms.

@CredIt is part of a neuro divergent community but what I am saying is neuro divergent isnt what they are saying it is. You dont need medical help with neuro divergent its a way the human mind can be programmed. Typically its involved with seeing truth more, in this sense neuro typical people are actually the mentally ill ones and they are bullying the neurodivergent people who see truth more by giving them labels and saying they need mental help.
Like Donald Hoffmans game theory, the more 'evolved' you are the less of truth you see. Science is saying that neurotypical people are evolved to see truth less, as a neurotypical person is in the middle of the group, deemed 'normal'(Seeing reality normally). Its actually reversed the people who are neurodivergent are seeing MORE of reality than a neurotypical. That makes neurotypical the abnormality. Neurodivergent people havent been indoctrinated into the system as well. Its literally a farse and a lie and its backwards thinking.
Why do you think a niche forum on the internet about God (the real God) is filled with 'neurodivergent' people? Because its actually neurotypical thats neurodivergent. If this is the case there is literally NOTHING wrong with a neurodivergent person there is something wrong with a neurotypical person and the neurotypical person needs to seek medical treatment as all neurotypical people are actually INSANE!
We are all aware that we are 'neurodivergent'. We know that we cannot talk about these things with normal society. There are people on here that are scared to use their real image on this forum because if anyone saw them they would be deemed insane when its actually the other normies that are insane.
This is a server about spiritually 'awakening', what the fuck is that? Thats not scientific or provable, this is stuff schizophrenics talk about. But alot of us has had it happen and cannot deny that we saw something from a purely subjective view. We saw the universe is a purely subjective view. This would crumble the worldview of a neurotypical person.
We quote sadhguru who says come to my Ashram, he quotes his ashram as being a mental institution that you can get better in. He comes to america and is scared that he is going to be assasinated because this system we live in is being purposefully created to squash out neurodiversity (people who see truth more). They know what they are doing.

No serious dentist should be doing anything but composite filings or all-ceramic crowns these days.
If your dentist still does metal filings or crowns, find a new dentist because he is a total hack.
Don't go cheap on dentistry or you will regret it.

I know you'd love to see it. But that is not my forte or focus. My focus is on serious intellectual work.
I am not an social media entertainer.
I have a book to write and courses to make. I don't want to be distracted chasing toads in the jungle for your amusement.

Obviously the guys in the dating subforum should not be thinking about this.
But being a monk is about being above society. The popular concepts of monks has been so watered down and misunderstood. Why do monks become monks? Because they finally realize that mainstream society is a madhouse of perverts and fools.
But see, mainstream culture never tells you this. It acts as though monks are just these kinds, nice guys so never judge. No! Monks judge that you are totally full of shit and you are diseased perverts.
But see, mainstream culture can never admit this about itself.
Christians are so stupid they don't even understand that Jesus was a monk, why? Because he understood that the lifestyle of religous people is a disease.
When you become deeply conscious you realize that mainstream society is a cancer.

This work has nothing to do with superiority. You are merely seeking greater consciousness of God. If you do that seriously it will automatically make you superior. But that is irrelevant because Consciousness is the only thing that matters.
As an adult among children you know you are so superior that it doesn't even need to be said or thought.
This work will make you an adult among children, a lion among sheep, an eagle among pidgeons, a whale among fish, an alien among men.

Hey, I just had a very insightful meditation I wanted to share with you guys. Take the time to read it, it's worth it.
So, I just came home from swimming and had my daily meditation. I currently increase my normal routine from 60 to 90 minutes so I was a little bit discouraged because I knew I would probably face some pains. However, it turned out differently.
Because of the prior swimming I was instantly relaxed and into the zone. As a matter of fact I started to fade every few seconds from bring conscious to falling asleep, so I decided to investigate the fading. I sit very erect and still in my meditation, so when I fade I lose a little stability and instantly come back. This is very interesting and went on for I'd say 40 minutes.
In that time span I put some awareness into it and it was quite amazing to experience fading away so consciously. It's like you get sucked away and then pulled out of something to be there again. With that came intense hallucinations, like I never had in a meditation with eyes open.
When coming back I saw a couple of objects for about 3-5 seconds like they were literally in front of me and then they went away. Quite shocking and fascinating, I was probably in a hypnagogic kind of state.
After these 40 minutes it ended in very clear super high focused awareness. Very physical, while my body was sleeping. Was kinda nice to experience, I have to say. Then after some time I got this normal sense of being bored that sometimes comes up in meditation. I thought about what I still want to do today and so on.
And then it struck me out of nowhere. I was very aware of being bored. I saw it coming up, felt it and then saw it fading away. While this was happening I had a quite clear picture of the components of boredom. It was like a very, very subtle physical sensation of being frustrated, a little fear, a little anger and maybe some disgust. Very, very, subtle but with high awareness I could sense it very clearly. Also, mentally I had thought streams about the future.
And then it just occurred to me that boredom is nothing else then you torturing yourself out of no reason, just because of social conditioning. It became very clear to me that there is nothing negative to trigger this boredom. It just comes up because of lack of distraction, automatically. And has no purpose whatsoever. It does not protect you from anything, nothing. It was just implanted into you back then because it is the most normal thing in western cultures. We are bored all the time.
Think back when you were a little kid, how everything was an adventure. All the grown ups around you were bored, but not you. You could go to the supermarket and it was amazing to see all these things there. You also had no feeling of time in you that could bring boredom up. You had lots of emotions, but not subtle self-torture because of no new stimulation. After some time you just adopted this from friends and family because it is so common when your ego builds up.
But that's a hoax. There is actually nothing really that is bad about no new stimulation. It is just your expectation that there always has to be something new. This really lifted me up. You maybe want to explore that next time you feel bored, it's very subtle but significant. It destroys a lot of the inner peace you could have. Like really a fucking lot. Just think about how often you have to wait for something and are bored.
So any ways, just wanted to share this. Look into it, it's worth it. Tell me what you think about it. You Bored?
Cheers, Arik
PS: It's really astonishing to see how much we tend to fuck ourselves up because of no reason. And nobody notices that, never. Or does something about it. We just give it to the new members of society. Man...

Thank you for your input Davino.
Reading your comment makes me want to boil down & distill my intent to its most simple formulation & make it a sort of mantra. Something I can repeat over & over when I find myself loosing focus.
Maybe write it down on a piece of paper & stick it to the wall where I’ll be doing the work.

@Moutushi Just don't be dumb enough to vote for him.

Yea I've broken through to the other side and don't give a fuck what people think of me anymore. It's so freeing. I'm not gonna cater to protect anyone's feelings anymore or lubricate/preface everything I say to soften the blow of truth bombs.
No more air sirens or warnings. Life is too short. Just say what you mean that way you don't waste anyone's time and they know where you stand.

I think it's caused by feelings of not being able to take on the masculine heterosexual role as a kid and therefore associating feminity with sexual arousal. Got placed in a lot of situations where I could not handle the pressure and that caused me to have low self-esteem, a lot of anxiety related issues. Toilet-anxiety, blushing phobia, insecurities, social anxiety, body dysmorphic disorder, compulsive behaviour. These things alienated me from 'normal' masculinity. Combined with the heterosexual role that I felt I could not take on, meaning that I was scared of girls. Extreme anxiety. and therefore didnt feel like I was worthy of taking on a heterosexual role.
These 2 things often lead to homosexuality. The reason I did not turn homosexual is because I did not get the opportunity of development leading to homosexuality. So when the period ended where you establish your sexual identity, I was left with a heterosexual identity and ideal, but no opportunity.
I think this caused me to associate feminine submissive behaviour with sexual arousal. Integration of a feminine fantasy into myself, because I felt like I was not good enough to get a girlfriend. The feminity in myself doesn't judge, shame, or gives me negative emotions.
This fetish also caused some homosexual fantasies. But I am only romantically attracted to females. Also never would get turned on by a male in real life. After masturbating with these kind of thoughts, I intuively feel that my fetish caused my brain to want to get more and more into this role of feminity and want more stimulation so turned to these kind of thoughts. I only look at girls tho, I feel romantically drawn to females only.
My sexual idenity still corresponds to the identity of when I was a child. As I'm now not an unconscious ignorant little kid about everything, I grew into my masculinity a lot more, and am more secure of myself. I didn't heal fully tho. I am trying. I am meeting people and doing activities to boost my social skills and have made a lot of progress. Also with meeting women. But now I'm facing this issue of not being able to enjoy the fruits of that. Because I lacked so much in this area in childhood, I was really hungry for this, and was obsessed about this goal. Coming to realise that It's actually not that it's not as enjoyable as I thought it would be.
I have definitely been aroused of normal sex, yes, I get an erection without a problem. But I miss the feeling I get from masturbating with fetish fantasies.
That's the issue, I want to be able to be present when I'm having sex, and not be in my head fantasizing about other things. After the sex, I reflect back on my behaviour and I realise that that's kind of problematic.
This is my action-plan:
- stopping porn, thoughts, fantasies, activities that activate corresponding neural pathways
- Emotional releasing
- strenghten neural pathways corresponding with normal sexual behaviour. Trying to climax and enjoy sex in the present moment as suggested here
- Electrical shock aversion therapy: Associate fetish with pain. Read some case studies and this method has good results. 
I hope normal sexual interests will automatically come, because I'll still need a sexual outlet, so I expect it to turn to normal heterosexual relationships with an actual female. I won't turn asexual I hope lol. 

Note : please treat this seriously. I've spent a lot of time to wrap my mind around the stuff I'm about to say .
I've experienced a radical awakening  from listening to Leo's solipsism video. And I have now perfect understanding of what awakening is and I can clear up your confusions regarding solipsism. Feel free to ask me anything about awakening and I will try my best to come up with a perfect answer. But before that let's give a definitive answer to the solipsism question.
Note:
words like "pov" .. "You" .. "Me" are just for communication purposes to deliver the idea. Don't get too hung up on them .
Am I all alone? Other people are real independent external agencies or dream characters in my world? If I don't have access to anything other than my pov.. How can I be sure others are real?
Well here is the final answer. 
Your pov is absolute truth. Please notice this. You don't know anything else. and whatever you come to know must be inside your pov. So is my pov. My pov is also absolute truth .  How can we have two absolute truths? It's not two ... notice my pov is within your pov and your pov is within my pov. So they are actually one. I exist inside you(your pov) and you exist inside me (my pov) and me exists inside you and repeat and repeat.... So we both are groundless.. For you to exist for me, I must experience you.. And for me to exist for you, you must experience me .. So ultimately none of us are real only to the extent of experiencing each others. 
=me and you the same thing. Get this? Lol.
Another way to put it.... I am nothing but your pov. And you are nothing but my pov. So ultimately none of us are "there" by themselves. We are dreaming each others up. Make sure you get this. This is good for a mindfuck. 
Everything that can exist for you must be perceived and considered by you. Look and see. Anything literally anything is but an appearance in your pov. So even when you are talking to me you are talking to an image in your mind. If you say "no lol  I'm talking to a real person with awareness" .. Then you are talking to this idea that you've constructed. You've constructed what I am and then you are talking to your construction. The actuality is I'm just an an image in your world right now. You are becoming the image right now as you are looking at the text. So yes you are always ever talking with yourself. And of course I'm saying this to myself. It's not a zen deception per say. I have nothing else to do but interact with myself. 
 Hope this ends the solipsism confusion for good. If you have any questions go ahead. 

@neutralempty Yeah imagination is much more nuanced than people realise, memory and intelligence, also nuanced, naturally overlap with imagination and imagination they, but they're not synonymous, this is a geometric interplay, its not as simple as saying its "all imagination", not even that its "all intelligence", although its more the latter its not from the strictest sense because there are things that both memory and imagination do in the context of both one another that are arguably not all that intelligent, though some of those things may still be useful to specific forms of imagination and memory itself.
For the former, level of detail has a bottleneck regarding its utility for intelligence, after a certain point the extra detail isn't going to aid in the context of problem solving but for the sheer value of creating a realistic experience that augments our perceived consciousness it does, and thus may have both pro's and con's for our psychology. The same too for hyperthymesia or "superior autobiographical memory", given this isn't coupled with processing power, its utility is proportionally useless, because of course the more processing power you have the more useful having more memory becomes, while at the same time having at least an average memory is useful across all scales.
Unless you've been socially ousted by your peer group in the 1300's for stealing a loaf of bread so now you'll be beheaded, the less you remember about the incident and the upcoming beheading even during the process perhaps the better off you'll be from a general happiness perspective. This is of course how popular, albeit idiosyncratically typical to a bemusing culturally impoverished society, adages like "ignorance is bliss" came to light. Interpreted properly, its not that ignorance is bliss, its that someone just has an easier time of forgetting the pain, but the pain is still there nonetheless unless they're being cared completely for by social nets.
To the contrary, all things held equal, although it can be a double edged sword, in many instances in light of the suffering and realignment people need to go through, the lack of imagination is most certainly not bliss in these instances, the ignorance (+ capacity) of which often comes at the cost of recovery.
Just as its been postulated that virtual reality can be a form of treating people with various phobias to other so too the harnessing of or building of a powerful imagination for strategic self-interested, self-actualising purposes.

@Annoynymous
An example of ego backlash would be going on a long meditation retreat with lots of deep insight and then coming back home only to binge on watching netflix and porn.
 
It's almost as if you are trying to sabotage your own growth.
The body and the idea of self (ego) is a complex system. Systems dont like to be changed because they want to maintain equilibrium. This is called homeostasis.
This is why you resist change...even if it is positive change. 
Check out Leo's video "how to stop backsliding" and also read the book "Mastery" by George Leonard. 
Personal development must be done in slow and strategic steps...integrating one habit at a time, otherwise, if you are trying to make too great of a change to the structure of your life all at once - the system that is you are will resist it with self-sabotaging actions.
 
Furthermore, enlightenment work will stir up the most "ego backlash" because the result of successful enlightenment work is the complete annihilation of the self. This is the exact opposite of what "you" want. Therefore, you will do anything and everything in your power to resist your imminent destruction. The purpose of ego backlash is to orient your attention outwards. This is so that you do not discover the Truth...that you are a fiction.

I don't take it at all.
A hell realm is not for no reason. It's there for the reason that God/YOU wanted to experience it. It's part of Love.
A hell realm is just a bad dream. God dreams infinite dreams, so what is a hell realm to him? Just like a bit of daydreaming to you. Does it bother you when you get a stray daydream? No. It's just a natural function of your mind. You never ask, "But why was I cursed with that evil daydream?"
God isn't so invested in the suffering as you are.

@DoTheWork I don't really disagree with anything you said in your opening post. That's basically how I expect it to work.
Of course God cannot stay in God mode all the time, otherwise there would be no human birth. At some point God has to choose to forget and re-enter the Matrix.
What should you do? Enjoy your Creation. Be the Creator and all that entails.
Of course it's all meaningless in the end. That's what makes it so meaningful!
It's an Infinite Game.
Yes, awakening robs you of a certain innocence. There is a certain bliss to being asleep and clueless. It's fun to play a new video game, getting all excited about acheiving something in it. It's no fun playing a game you yourself designed just like it's no fun watching a magic trick you've deeply studied.