Yea I've broken through to the other side and don't give a fuck what people think of me anymore. It's so freeing. I'm not gonna cater to protect anyone's feelings anymore or lubricate/preface everything I say to soften the blow of truth bombs.
No more air sirens or warnings. Life is too short. Just say what you mean that way you don't waste anyone's time and they know where you stand.

I think it's caused by feelings of not being able to take on the masculine heterosexual role as a kid and therefore associating feminity with sexual arousal. Got placed in a lot of situations where I could not handle the pressure and that caused me to have low self-esteem, a lot of anxiety related issues. Toilet-anxiety, blushing phobia, insecurities, social anxiety, body dysmorphic disorder, compulsive behaviour. These things alienated me from 'normal' masculinity. Combined with the heterosexual role that I felt I could not take on, meaning that I was scared of girls. Extreme anxiety. and therefore didnt feel like I was worthy of taking on a heterosexual role.
These 2 things often lead to homosexuality. The reason I did not turn homosexual is because I did not get the opportunity of development leading to homosexuality. So when the period ended where you establish your sexual identity, I was left with a heterosexual identity and ideal, but no opportunity.
I think this caused me to associate feminine submissive behaviour with sexual arousal. Integration of a feminine fantasy into myself, because I felt like I was not good enough to get a girlfriend. The feminity in myself doesn't judge, shame, or gives me negative emotions.
This fetish also caused some homosexual fantasies. But I am only romantically attracted to females. Also never would get turned on by a male in real life. After masturbating with these kind of thoughts, I intuively feel that my fetish caused my brain to want to get more and more into this role of feminity and want more stimulation so turned to these kind of thoughts. I only look at girls tho, I feel romantically drawn to females only.
My sexual idenity still corresponds to the identity of when I was a child. As I'm now not an unconscious ignorant little kid about everything, I grew into my masculinity a lot more, and am more secure of myself. I didn't heal fully tho. I am trying. I am meeting people and doing activities to boost my social skills and have made a lot of progress. Also with meeting women. But now I'm facing this issue of not being able to enjoy the fruits of that. Because I lacked so much in this area in childhood, I was really hungry for this, and was obsessed about this goal. Coming to realise that It's actually not that it's not as enjoyable as I thought it would be.
I have definitely been aroused of normal sex, yes, I get an erection without a problem. But I miss the feeling I get from masturbating with fetish fantasies.
That's the issue, I want to be able to be present when I'm having sex, and not be in my head fantasizing about other things. After the sex, I reflect back on my behaviour and I realise that that's kind of problematic.
This is my action-plan:
- stopping porn, thoughts, fantasies, activities that activate corresponding neural pathways
- Emotional releasing
- strenghten neural pathways corresponding with normal sexual behaviour. Trying to climax and enjoy sex in the present moment as suggested here
- Electrical shock aversion therapy: Associate fetish with pain. Read some case studies and this method has good results. 
I hope normal sexual interests will automatically come, because I'll still need a sexual outlet, so I expect it to turn to normal heterosexual relationships with an actual female. I won't turn asexual I hope lol. 

Note : please treat this seriously. I've spent a lot of time to wrap my mind around the stuff I'm about to say .
I've experienced a radical awakening  from listening to Leo's solipsism video. And I have now perfect understanding of what awakening is and I can clear up your confusions regarding solipsism. Feel free to ask me anything about awakening and I will try my best to come up with a perfect answer. But before that let's give a definitive answer to the solipsism question.
Note:
words like "pov" .. "You" .. "Me" are just for communication purposes to deliver the idea. Don't get too hung up on them .
Am I all alone? Other people are real independent external agencies or dream characters in my world? If I don't have access to anything other than my pov.. How can I be sure others are real?
Well here is the final answer. 
Your pov is absolute truth. Please notice this. You don't know anything else. and whatever you come to know must be inside your pov. So is my pov. My pov is also absolute truth .  How can we have two absolute truths? It's not two ... notice my pov is within your pov and your pov is within my pov. So they are actually one. I exist inside you(your pov) and you exist inside me (my pov) and me exists inside you and repeat and repeat.... So we both are groundless.. For you to exist for me, I must experience you.. And for me to exist for you, you must experience me .. So ultimately none of us are real only to the extent of experiencing each others. 
=me and you the same thing. Get this? Lol.
Another way to put it.... I am nothing but your pov. And you are nothing but my pov. So ultimately none of us are "there" by themselves. We are dreaming each others up. Make sure you get this. This is good for a mindfuck. 
Everything that can exist for you must be perceived and considered by you. Look and see. Anything literally anything is but an appearance in your pov. So even when you are talking to me you are talking to an image in your mind. If you say "no lol  I'm talking to a real person with awareness" .. Then you are talking to this idea that you've constructed. You've constructed what I am and then you are talking to your construction. The actuality is I'm just an an image in your world right now. You are becoming the image right now as you are looking at the text. So yes you are always ever talking with yourself. And of course I'm saying this to myself. It's not a zen deception per say. I have nothing else to do but interact with myself. 
 Hope this ends the solipsism confusion for good. If you have any questions go ahead. 

@neutralempty Yeah imagination is much more nuanced than people realise, memory and intelligence, also nuanced, naturally overlap with imagination and imagination they, but they're not synonymous, this is a geometric interplay, its not as simple as saying its "all imagination", not even that its "all intelligence", although its more the latter its not from the strictest sense because there are things that both memory and imagination do in the context of both one another that are arguably not all that intelligent, though some of those things may still be useful to specific forms of imagination and memory itself.
For the former, level of detail has a bottleneck regarding its utility for intelligence, after a certain point the extra detail isn't going to aid in the context of problem solving but for the sheer value of creating a realistic experience that augments our perceived consciousness it does, and thus may have both pro's and con's for our psychology. The same too for hyperthymesia or "superior autobiographical memory", given this isn't coupled with processing power, its utility is proportionally useless, because of course the more processing power you have the more useful having more memory becomes, while at the same time having at least an average memory is useful across all scales.
Unless you've been socially ousted by your peer group in the 1300's for stealing a loaf of bread so now you'll be beheaded, the less you remember about the incident and the upcoming beheading even during the process perhaps the better off you'll be from a general happiness perspective. This is of course how popular, albeit idiosyncratically typical to a bemusing culturally impoverished society, adages like "ignorance is bliss" came to light. Interpreted properly, its not that ignorance is bliss, its that someone just has an easier time of forgetting the pain, but the pain is still there nonetheless unless they're being cared completely for by social nets.
To the contrary, all things held equal, although it can be a double edged sword, in many instances in light of the suffering and realignment people need to go through, the lack of imagination is most certainly not bliss in these instances, the ignorance (+ capacity) of which often comes at the cost of recovery.
Just as its been postulated that virtual reality can be a form of treating people with various phobias to other so too the harnessing of or building of a powerful imagination for strategic self-interested, self-actualising purposes.

@Annoynymous
An example of ego backlash would be going on a long meditation retreat with lots of deep insight and then coming back home only to binge on watching netflix and porn.
 
It's almost as if you are trying to sabotage your own growth.
The body and the idea of self (ego) is a complex system. Systems dont like to be changed because they want to maintain equilibrium. This is called homeostasis.
This is why you resist change...even if it is positive change. 
Check out Leo's video "how to stop backsliding" and also read the book "Mastery" by George Leonard. 
Personal development must be done in slow and strategic steps...integrating one habit at a time, otherwise, if you are trying to make too great of a change to the structure of your life all at once - the system that is you are will resist it with self-sabotaging actions.
 
Furthermore, enlightenment work will stir up the most "ego backlash" because the result of successful enlightenment work is the complete annihilation of the self. This is the exact opposite of what "you" want. Therefore, you will do anything and everything in your power to resist your imminent destruction. The purpose of ego backlash is to orient your attention outwards. This is so that you do not discover the Truth...that you are a fiction.

I don't take it at all.
A hell realm is not for no reason. It's there for the reason that God/YOU wanted to experience it. It's part of Love.
A hell realm is just a bad dream. God dreams infinite dreams, so what is a hell realm to him? Just like a bit of daydreaming to you. Does it bother you when you get a stray daydream? No. It's just a natural function of your mind. You never ask, "But why was I cursed with that evil daydream?"
God isn't so invested in the suffering as you are.

@DoTheWork I don't really disagree with anything you said in your opening post. That's basically how I expect it to work.
Of course God cannot stay in God mode all the time, otherwise there would be no human birth. At some point God has to choose to forget and re-enter the Matrix.
What should you do? Enjoy your Creation. Be the Creator and all that entails.
Of course it's all meaningless in the end. That's what makes it so meaningful!
It's an Infinite Game.
Yes, awakening robs you of a certain innocence. There is a certain bliss to being asleep and clueless. It's fun to play a new video game, getting all excited about acheiving something in it. It's no fun playing a game you yourself designed just like it's no fun watching a magic trick you've deeply studied.

Let's define suffering first before I answer the question.
"Suffering is the resistance of an intense emotion."
In that sense, I do not suffer any more in most normal cases, that would include how I normally feel throughout the day, how I feel if something happens, etc. I still feel positive / negative emotions but I tend to not hold on to them any more. They just go through me because the "suit" is off.
However, there are still limitations to that. If I would sit for long enough in strong determination sitting, I think I would suffer. I don't know, haven't tried it yet. There are probably a few very intense other things that could trigger that naturally like getting stabbed or tortured. You'd need a lot more training for that.
But these are a few exceptions. In most cases if I am subjected to a "negative experience", the mind will sing its song about it for a moment and there will be no reaction in the body to that. And then a moment later the mind realizes that and stops and sometimes laughs because it's so funny. It's like there is a natural sarcasm through that in most of what I do, just a little bit.
It's like you would have a dramatic scene in the television with very uplifting nice music. It just doesn't sells that good any more and through that you don't attach to it in any negative sense which then implicates that it doesn't bother you.
I think though that this is still a phase and that the mind will shut down even more over the next weeks and months because there is no emotional reaction happening any more. It just needs time. Old patterns seem to stay and need time to change. But it's totally fine. I don't care at all about this any more.
If I had to describe my emotional state it feels like "laying in your own bed the first time after a 21 year long vacation far away from home."

About 6 years ago, I came across Leo & Actualized.org. This bald guy and his kinda small youtube-channel, just love at first sight I guess. Little did I know that this scrawny man in his black T-shirt will change the way I looked at things forever. Was it first for those self development content he put out, he later took me on the ride into this beautiful abyss called spirituality. He fed me the red pill. What this means in particular does not really matter. All that matters is what I learned about this community, enlightenment itself and the ridiculous tumors it sometimes gives birth to. It seems to me, that the spiritual journey, is the purest of all hero journeys. What that means though, is that at the end, only a few courageous warriors will gain the real treasure, whilst well over 90% get lost in the swamps and come out worse than they got in. Sounds pessimistic? Well, maybe it does. But I have seen so much bullshit and so little real advice in this community, its not even funny anymore. Most spiritual masters/people lack nuance on every level. Leo, is definitely one of the better ones and thats why I decided to put this here. 
So who am I to say such brave things? Who am I to dare to question the advice of the enlightened ones?  It doesn't really matter. Take the message, ignore the messenger. This is what I wanted to hear when I was stuck. If you can look at things just the way they are, you will come to the same conclusions. Some of you will hate what I have to say, others will like it. This is not about the denial of absolute truth or any other spiritual axiom that is known the be true since millennia. This is about the advice I see popping up basically everywhere in this community, presented in the typical blind leading the blind fashion.

Because of all that, I decided to put something out. Something that counteracts so much of the nonsense I read on this boards everyday. This is it.
Inspired by Jamie Wheal, Ken Wilber, and many others, including my experiences/insights in the last 6 years, here are 12 suggestions for life, an antidote to spiritual bullshitting. If you are a new or intermediate seeker, I highly suggest you to take a hard look at those. Please note that I deliberately used the word "suggestion" instead of "rule". Many points are comming from a highly nuanced perspective and not from any absolute standpoint. You might have an allergic reaction to some things mentioned, and thats perfectly fine. Dont be dumb, think a bit. Thanks!


1) Do the obvious
Take all the "biohacking" and "personal optimization" off the table. We literally do so much crazy shit to "enhance our life", yet we most often forget to do the basic stuff. This is the bottom of the pyramid. If you dont have these one in order, your lifes quality will drastically suffer. We tend to forget that taking care of our meatsuit is a crucial basic fundament for any possible growth. So fuck your crossfit, fuck your perfectly balanced diet, fuck your bulletproof-bullshit or Ben Greenfield idiocracy - KEEP IT SIMPLE. DO THE BASICS. 

-Sleep deeply 
-Move often
-Get outside (sunshine/water/trees/fresh air)
-Eat real food ("mostly plants, not too much"- Michael Pollan)
-Bathe regularly (Daily hygiene is a no-brainer - this is more about hot/cold - sauna/icebath. 
-Make and play music
-BREATHE (Our life is only as good as our breathing! This is so often dismissed and not really talked about, yet so crucial.)
-Grieve FULLY (weep, dont whimper!!)
-Make love 
-Have meaningful human relationships
-Be grateful

2) Dont do stupid shit
We have unprecedented access to the world's most potent ecstatic technologies. They always used to be tightly controlled and connected with strict rituals & rules, yet it seems like that our narcissistic, dumb western culture is about to fuck it up for the rest of us. It really grinds my gear when I see people smoke 5-MeO-DMT at a psytrance-festival. How dumb can you be? Use those tools in a respectful and appropriate manner. Dont chase for the highs and the next ecstasy. Integrate what you have learned and keep your hands away from it for some time. This is why discipline is such an important thing in your spiritual journey. 

Dont end up in a: Cult, Body Bag, Jail Cell, Rehab or Looney Bin! 

3) Let the mystery stay the mystery
Dont presume to map the infinite.
If you every checked the accounts of the deepest mystic you will recognize really fast that NONE OF THEM MATCH UP! The reason for that is beacuse every attept is mediated by humans and the prisonhouse of language. Let the mysery stay the mystery. Share your perspective but realize that its just a perspective, not more, not less. When you think you have the answer, you stop seeking - Instead, plant a garden where mystery and strange plants bloom. 
4) Fuck your journey
"Love Keeps No Record of Wrong" - St. Paul

Whatever gets us to the Deep Now is both redeemed as an essential part of our path and utterly irrelavant campared to the exquisite quality of the Moment we are blessed to share. Show us how much you have grown, but please, dear God, stop telling us! Stop being a epiphanywhore. 

5) Do the hard thing
"If you have got to eat two frogs in a day, eat the ugliest one first" - Mark Twain

We all kinda know what we have to do, but we usually dont do it. Do the hard thing and rest of life becomes easier! 
Do what inherently scares you! Ask that girl out, create that business, go to that vipassana retreat, take that psychodelic (CAVE: see suggestion 2)
Stoicism is a great framework for helping with that kind of issue. 
 

BTW: Can anyone make a petition to bring the old Leo thumbnails back?

6) Never lose the One
You can go anywhere you want, and think anything you want, as long as you can reverse your steps and make it back to the last known point of consensus reality - the One. So get funky, tweak it out, freak freely, but be sure to stick the landing. This is such an important point, yet so rarely mentioned. I have seen people getting lost in the spiritual domain, never to be found again. Always put down your string when you enter the labyrinth. 

7) Its not that either
No matter how dazzling your latest breakthrough, "download" or insight, its still only a piece of the puzzle.
It may be lowercase "t" true, but the second you assert it's uppercase Capital "T" TRUE, it's become false, just by overstating the claim.
You can no more become fully enlightened than you can become fully educated. Take the insights for what/all that they are and KEEP going! 

If you have found the answer, you didnt. 

8) Dont build on a weak fundament
Honestly, if you are at a low point in your life, then this is not the the right time to start a spiritual path. Its not. Everyone who says so and doesn't tell you about the dangers/difficulties that come with going on this journey is lying to you or has no real knowledge about it. Its basically sending a soldier who suffers from PTSD back into the war zone. Dont listen to anyone that who tells you otherwise. Most often you don't really know what your psyche can bare and what will trigger a heavy psychosis. If you are in a deep depression right now or have any other psychological/physiological difficulties, give yourself at least 5 years to fix them. It doesnt mean that you cant use tools out of the high conciousness toolbox. Psychodelics, after all, are propably the best thing to battle depression with, right now (in the right setting of course). Just be careful and take care of your needs. Take Maslows hierachy of needs as orientation. Maybe your lack of sexual intercourse is going to bite you in the ass later, you never know. Build on a strong fundament and you will be far more likely to succeed. This is so freaking important, yet talked about so rarely. 

9) Be from this world,, but not of it
Do you live in unity with everything? Maybe after some DMT or heroic dose of mushrooms - but not now.
Life can be difficult and cruel. No conceptual philosophizing about how "good and evil" don't really exist will help you with that (Even though its valid from an absolute perspctive). You cant talk yourself out of a depressive episode. If your best friends dies, you will be fucking sad. Yes, this is a movie and you are the thing, that light and the projector itself. But as long as you just know this on a conceptional level, with a glimpse of "being" the projector light here and there, it wont change much. Its true for almost all people who will read this: You will remain in a relative world for 99,999% of your time. So yes, improve your consciousness. Take the psychodelics. Meditate. Do some weird astral projection shit. But don't forget that there are situations where you act from absolute and other where a relative perspective is the way to go. Its a paradox, understand and embrace it.

10) Wake up, grow up, show up

SHOW- UP:
"Barefooted and naked of breast,
I mingle with the people of the world.
My clothes are ragged and dust-laden,
and I am ever blissful.
I use no magic to extend my life;
Now, before me, the dead trees
become alive." - 10th Ox Herding picture



11) Play
Go out there and play this game. Its all about the game.
Use spirituality to enhance the experience. Become the player, not the character.
Dont let anybody tell you what "low conciousness thing" you better shouldnt do.

Experience life fully & conciously. 

Follow your desires but realise them for what they are. 

12) "Above All, Be Kind"
Dying words of Aldous Huxley, famed philosopher and man of letters, while holdind the hands of his soul mate Laura (under influence of 200 mcg of Sandoz LSD 25). If its good enough for Aldous, its good enough for us. After all, if we skip this part, does any of the rest really matter?

Love,
undeather

PS: 
Thanks again Jamie Wheal for your amazing teachings (Some points directly taken from him)
https://www.flowgenomeproject.com/

Thanks Rebel wisdom for giving that guy a platform
https://www.rebelwisdom.co.uk/
 

@Not me Most right-wing politics is very reactionary and grounded in fear.
But when the left-wing gets totally out of hand, then right-wing politics will have some value.
For example, if true communists take over the government and call for totally abolishing private property, then right-wing ideas will be an important countervailing force to bring things back into balance. But we are nowhere close to that yet in America. We basically have zero truly communist political leaders here. Not sure about how things are in Finland.
The right-wing loves to portray moderate Democratic socialists like Bernie Sanders as radical communists. But that's just their fear reaction, not reality. Hell, they called Obama a Muslim socialist, LOL!
People don't appreciate what true socialism is: it's the abolition of all private means of production. Almost not country has that and almost no leader calls for that. Because it's not practical. Even China and North Korea don't have true socialism.
A highly conscious person will not be right-wing, but she will also be wary of the excesses and dogmas of the left-wing. Left-wing is predominately stage Green, and stage Green definitely has some important blind spots and limitations. You cannot have stage Green run amok without any countervailing force or there will be problems. But the right-wing tends to over-exaggerate this threat.

Self-transcendence is just the final step in Maslow's pyramid. One step above self-actualization.
Don't make self-actualization and self-transcendence at odds with one another. They work together.
In the end, to fully actualize yourself you must fully transcend yourself.
The first half of this journey you spend actualizing your human self.
The second half of this journey you spend actualizing your God Self.
#1 leads to #2. And then #2 undoes #1. It's hard to undo #1 until you do #1. Most people need a lot more work doing #1 before they can even entertain #2.

Do you feel grateful for what you’ve learned? Do you feel grateful for your individuated, illusory moment of living this lifetime of nexusoflife?
Your awakening process seems to lack love and gratitude for what God, you have done. Love and appreciate what it is you have done. You certainly have reached levels of consciousness 99% of humans havent reached, at least that’s what your post makes it sounds like. But it can always go deeper. And particularly deeper into what Existential Love is. Total absolute acceptance of what is. Total acceptance of form, acceptance of formlessness, and reverence and gratitude for all that exists or doesn’t. 

Unfortunately I don't have any book recommendations, but what I've started doing during my meditation sessions (I do 1 hour per day) is the first 45 minutes I will exclusively focus on my breath, but that last 15 minutes, I let my attention expand into awareness while simultaneously allowing the feelings of gratitude and love to unfold. 

It's interesting, my background with spirituality is totally intellectual. I only stumbled into Leo's content because of a deep intellectual curiosity into the nature of consciousness. For better or for worse, Leo's content has always been more intellectual  for me. It's almost like his work and videos act as a way for me to "open my 3rd eye" so to speak. However, on my first LSD trip I was shown infinite love and infinite gratitude, and what was so astonishing was not only did the LSD show me these things, but I had the insight that it was my mind which broke my connection to these things. I had finally started to "open my heart chakra." The very nature of reality is one of total, complete infinite acceptance, love and self gratitude, which is wildly unexplainable to the logical mind. It is the human mind, the human ego which clouds consciousness, or God from seeing this fact and yet nevertheless these facets of reality persist. For anything to Be requires Being to fully Accept what is. 

In terms of recommended practices: Actively practicing gratitude inside and outside of meditation is huge. Practicing acceptance of whatever form is arising too. This acceptance will eventually snowball into love. And finally, contemplating the nature of Love, Gratitude, Reverence, and Acceptance while on psychedelics.

I hope this helps <3 And also, thank you for sharing your journey thus far. It was an incredibly interesting read  

Well, What else might help is to finally realize that there are no forms at all. Apparent physicality and borders are of The Spirit. Actually they are Pure Love. Like Everything else. 
There are no arising forms at all. 
Think this might help in loosening up that core deep beleif You might hold. This will bring You peace and Love with everything That IS. 
Actual Truth is way past Buddhism. 
Entire path is of You by You for You. 
It really is funny. So What it is to Deny or not allow. 
Joke. 

In my experience suicidal thoughts arise when you are in a deadlock position in life. It seems that you cannot move forward, you can't get back and the present is fucked. Then the ego fascinates about not being here any more because it's a way out of the present moment that actually preservers it for the time being. If you really are in a deadlock, the ego fears to be detected and fears to be really killed by awareness. That's why it has to play the "joker" (going meta) and fascinating about death which normally either freaks the individual out or calms the individual down because it sees a way to stop the pain the ego manifests in the deadlock.

Hey @ShinThanks for the post!
I am 29, started jerking off in a daily basis since my 15, 14 years of almost non stop consuming of porn, so stopping for 1 month gave a biiig contrast on my sexual desire, in the first 2 weeks I got limp dick, zero desire for sex, but after 2-3 weeks, I am becoming a sex freak, wonder what happens after 1 year!
I started doing nofap like 1 month ago, It just made me more lusting for sex, zero fap since then and still going.
There's a restaurant I buy food everyday, all the younger chicks flirts with me, not sure if nofap is actually influencing this.
Another funny thing, I became so horny in some moments, that I wanted to go out and get some chicks, I just don't because I have a girlfriend and I value trust extremely. I get much harder boners with gf and I can last long during sex!
 

This large post leads to some final questions about what Killindi lyi said. After watching the video I was interested to see to what extent the existence of historical masterpieces could really be explained with mushrooms - in the video Killindi lyi goes through all sorts of historical things pointing out mushroom references, and I tried to extend this to Gaudí. This post is in part my logical verification as to whether it may or may not be true.
Obviously, as Leo said before, it is necessary to 'bite the bullet' and see for ourselves. I think that also the theory is important and extremely interesting.
 
@Leo Gura I spent the rest of today researching Gaudí.
His work shows a fascinating, subtle link between various historical architectural styles of Spain, connecting many dots. It is topped off with beautiful, original structural and decorative features; much of it organic in nature (a potential link to the organic singularity idea of Kilindi lyi).
Unfortunately for this thread's topic, I cannot imagine, nor find evidence, that Gaudí (a religious man who grew up in 19th century Catholic Spain) would have been a psychedelic explorer of incredible mushroom doses. Hence, my earlier post circling those 'mushroom heads' in Park Guell is probably not a real reference to mushrooms.
However, one thing that I did see was that he was a sick child, causing him to be a 'reserved' character. When he was older, perhaps due to this, he became vegetarian. Following hygiene theories of the time, and in-part due to 'religious beliefs', he subjected himself to 'prolonged fasts'. So much so that at the age of 42, a fast caused him to fall gravely ill and nearly die!
When reading up on critics, one described Gaudí's act of building of such stone masterpieces as like an 'attempt to quench a spiritual yearning', with many similarities to a Japanese architectural style of mixing spirituality with buildings.
Therefore, despite my doubts that he accessed universal consciousness through psychedelics, I am drawn to the idea that the man accessed this (or a) spiritual realm in some way. For many spiritual figures, notably the Buddha and Gandhi, extreme fasting, almost to death, seems to have been pivotal in their growth. Whilst not exactly a spiritual leader, Gaudí's fasting is a similarity, and I am awestruck at the transcendental, other-worldly nature of Gaudí's work that seemed to pop up out of nowhere in an era of strict artistic rules and schools of thought.
He is said to not have drawn out plans, but instead use his imagination to directly make models. He would then realize the imagination to the most minute, decorative detail. Or, even more impressively, he would 'improvise' as the buildings went along! Here is an image of one of his planning models of La Sagrada Famillia, pictured in a previous post:

SO... While Gaudí probably never used psychedelics, I am led to this question: "Could he have somehow accessed this mushroom-realm consciousness, the place from which the likes of the Egyptian priests copied the pyramids, in order to copy ideas for his masterpieces?"
I am not trying to start a conspiracy theory of a trans-cultural high-dose mushroom cult of the historical greats, in which people like Mozart, Shakespeare and da Vinci (and Gaudí) all simply recreated their masterpieces by stealing cosmic information.
These people (I assume) did not use psychedelics. But Mozart is said to believe he was 'remembering a melody' that nobody else had thought of before. Likewise, Thomas Edison's claimed that his creative process consisted of finding ideas that were 'in the air'. These people often claim that their creative work is not theirs - and this is perhaps a link to Kilindi lyi's mushroom-realm.
My final question: "Are these mushroom-realm ideas (like the pyramids) exclusive to the mushroom technology (as Kilindi lyi claims)? Or, is the mushroom realm accessing a simply universal bed of cosmic knowledge, that can be accessed by some non-psychedelic (or even non-spiritual) people like the historical greats I have mentioned?"

@Markus What you are describing sounds very much like 5-MeO-DMT. I definitely felt it open charkas and moving kundalini in a powerful way.
Kriya yoga is also great for that. A classic technique which def works.
What Sadhguru teaches is also opening of the crown chakra.
But this whole process is not just about opening one chakra, you need to open them all in a gradual and progressive manner. A person with an open crown chakra but closed heart chakra will become an unbalanced Zen Devil. The lowest chakras especially need to purified, otherwise you get these yogis who go around sexually or financially exploiting people, etc.
Yoga is a very technical and precise art and science. You have to be very careful with it, or you will screw up your energies.
Rather than looking for a get-enlightened-quick method, you wanna have a gradual and steady yoga practice which will ensure a balanced development.
Kundalini awakening can be very traumatic for some people when done improperly. So be careful. All yogis warn about this. The nice thing about Kriya yoga is that it's supposed to open up all your chakras evenly and gradually, without shocking the hell out of your body. The Kriya yoga book in my book list is really a gem.

Watch banking on bitcoin on Netflix. It will answer your questions on bitcoin and virtual currency the push behind it and the problems that are going to arise as the government tries to restrict it.

@phoenix666 All just smoke and mirrors. There is no happiness in materialism. It's fundamentally impossible.
There is no such thing as a happy Devil. Of course the Devil will make it appear like he's happy, but that's just more of his lies. All that "happiness" is a house of cards which will implode sooner or later.

You have to remind yourself of your vision, and that these low consciousness people are actually deeply suffering inside. They are just so unconscious they don't know it, and they don't tell you about it. You don't see it because it's hidden beneath a thin veneer of petty materialism and success.
Whenever you see a successful person, remind yourself, they are no more evolved than a heroin addict. They just have more money, and perhaps some better technical or social skills. As they age, these fools will suffer enormously. Eventually, on their deathbed they will realize they wasted their ENTIRE life.
You, on the other hand, will die the most profound death imaginable, if you keep up with this work.
The effort is proportional to the rewards.
You have no idea yet how epic the rewards will be if you stick with this path.

@Hardkill you still need to go through a LOT of suffering until you decide to stop using people.
stop being a vulture. stop being a vampire.
meditate more. reach your deepest pain.

@Anna1 Ayahuasca and 5-MeO retreats are done in Peru for example. Totally legal and it's a very healthy shamanic sort of thing. Part of their tradition and culture for over 2000 years.
If you tried it, you would totally change your mind.
5-MeO is also legal in Spain.
The illegality of psychedelics in the USA is really a violation of the Constitution. It's a freedom of religion issue. But our government is just too ignorant and corrupt to understand this yet. They lie with propaganda against psychedelics all the time. It's scientifically proven that psychedelics have medicinal uses.
https://www.actualized.org/insights/the-despicable-war-on-drugs
In the next 10 years, in the USA, we will see the legalization of treatments using some psychedelics, because they are too effective to deny much longer, costing thousands of needless deaths each year from depression, anxiety, and opioid addiction.
5-MeO and Iboga are the two most effective cures for hardcore heroin addicts.
MDMA is the most effective cure for PTSD, anxiety, and depression.
Mushrooms and LSD are the most effective form of psychotherapy, which has been clinically demonstrated.
Ayahuasca and Peyote is also legal in the USA as part of Native American rituals and the Santo Daime church, which you can join and go to.

@Vladimir The point is to align your passion with your career. If you separate these two things -- like 95% of people do -- then you will be miserable 8hrs every work day. And after 8hrs of work, you're not gonna want to do anything else but crash and watch TV.
Raising your own consciousness is fine. But how you gonna pay the bills? Working at McDonalds?

@TJ Reeves If you're writing a serious book, it's probably best not to publish chunks of it on a public forum. You'll want to maintain copyrights and all that. Just an FYI.