Julian gabriel

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  1. indeed do that indeed
  2. I had my first awakening before even knowing about spirituality whatsoever. I just thought the word "spirituality" was basically the stupidest thing in the world and I was a regular atheist materialist. Idk how common this is it seems like most people begin with theory then they have their first awakening when they put that theory into practice. Anyone else have their first awakening before knowing anything about spirituality/ and if so how did it happen and what was your interpretation of it at the time?
  3. It's just for research purposes of course.
  4. Anyone know a fairly simple way to make ayahuasca, or any other similar psychedelics at home?
  5. The similarities between the story of Harry Potter and the journey of a truth seeker are curious. He realizes that in order to kill the devil (Voldemort) he himself must die. Then he gets transported to another realm where the wise man (Dumbledore) says: "of course this is all happening inside your head, but why should that mean that its not real" Then he is able to return to the land of the living but he is different and no longer holds a piece of the devil in him, because the devil himself killed it by being idiotic and unaware. It sounds so similar to my own process of awakening that its almost creepy. anyone else notice parts of the story of Harry Potter which are very similar to the journey of awakening?
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  7. I was just looking at my room contemplating how I am constructing it, and I thought back to what I think is my earliest memory. The memory is of very hazy shapes, sort of like a less vivid version of what I see now when I look at building blocks of some kind. Has anyone had any insights into how you are constructing reality from its roots? it is simple imagination of course but it has a complexity too it also. I feel like there is something right under my nose which I'm missing which would give me a clearer view of how I am creating this moment. It seems like right now I am doing what I "did" as a young child more vividly but the vividness has lead me further away from grasping the complexity of how im doing it.
  8. Thank you so much for that that was awesome. I’m also feeling the same way (the “haha” way) but no need to apologize for laughing, also no need to not apologize for laughing. Therefore the laughing is perfect. Love u ✌️
  9. yeah ik, thats y I said it almost definitely won't happen.
  10. Sometimes while meditating I feel like I could accidentally mahasamadhi the fuck outta there. (I realize that this almost definitely won't happen but it feels like it could) I have heard that some Yogis wear metal bracelets to keep themselves grounded. But I haven't heard of any other methods and I don't even know much about that one. Anyone know how to do this? (After further thought on this I think it was pretty stupid of me to think I might accidentally perform Mahasamadhi. But its fun to discuss anyway.)
  11. When I look into someone's eyes I feel like I'm looking at a sort of honesty which can't be expressed through words. People seem afraid to look others in the eye, as if they'll accidentally fall in love and/or feel some kind of intimacy which would threaten their sense of self. Seeing Eyes appear all over the place is common while on various psychedelics. there's nothing in the world I find as beautiful and hypnotizing as the eyes. Do you also find eyes to be beautiful in this way? And if so why do you think they are so beautiful?
  12. @Consilience Is it only about LSD? Or other psychedelics.
  13. I have recently discovered Kilindi Iyi and now I'm very curious about the topic of Mega dosing mushrooms. But I can't find anyone else who really explores this. Does anyone have any sources of information regarding mega dosing? (megadose as in 10 dried grams plus)
  14. Sometimes having egotistical fantasies can be quite enjoyable, lol. Yeah that’s probably as good an answer as any. Yes exactly. But nowhere is where I was looking to go, so it worked out I guess lol.