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You're living in a manifest reality. Yes, it's going to take your participation and influence over reality to mold it into what you want. Maybe your mindset is all wrong. You should approach manifestation with the mindset of abundance instead of lack. When you live in abundance you will naturally attract the people and things to you that you desire to manifest. Try it for a month. Everyday live in abundance and spread that abundence and see what happens.

@Judy2 It was like watching a movie for the first time. Even though the movie has ended, one can still recall everything about it. But as far as the direct experience. I'd have to get back into mantra meditation again to get my mind back into that quiet/focused state that is prime for experiencing transcendent states. *Before when I described consciousness becoming hyper-focused. What I was really describing was a 'Flow state' in consciousness.

It was but it wasn't. lol After that 'transcendent' experience it felt as if I was inhabiting two realities. Like a spirit playing the role of someone living in the material world.

Fear creates the illusion of separation.

I was heavily into meditation for about a year than Leo introduced a new video where he was saying "That "you" that you think you are, doesn't exist". And I just sat with that until the "I" finally collapsed. At first, it gave me the impression I was leaving the body and that spooked me, so I backed off. Then I thought "what the hell go for it". And when I did it was as if consciousness became laser focused and I went with it. The next thing I knew I was no longer aware of my body and the room I was in, and I became something very similar to @PenguinPablo's avatar pic. The laser focused consciousness was the key part though. I never experienced anything like that happening before, but awareness came to a single point like it was hyper concentrated. After that experience I remember thinking to myself "that was very OBE like". *The meditation I was practicing at the time was silent/repetitious mantra meditation. Possibly that played a part in why consciousness became so laser focused as it did when I sat with "I don't exist"? I hate to label it this way because it kind of minimizes the experience, but just to give some idea it was almost like entering a trance state. -Which I never experienced before.

That could explain why I experienced what I did. I was practicing no-self/no-location at the time and something seriously shifted.

@PenguinPablo Your avatar pic fits perfectly with the closest experience I've had as far as OBE's. Just seeing that image bought me right back to it. When you cease being in your head/body, that is what you are.

The "I" nothing more than a memory.

To live again?

As Alan Watts said in his manuscript 'The Art of Contemplation' "You are the aperture through which the universe is aware of itself. These centers are not, as may seem, apart from their surroundings, but stand in mutual relationship to them".

@TruthFreedom I lived with a woman who had very similar traits. She was a miserable/shallow/mean person at heart and misery loves company. Don't let her suck you in. They can be very manipulative and love to mess with your head just to get a rise out of you. Best to just keep your distance. Trust when I say you're not the first person (probably mostly men) she has played her little game with. So, she is well versed at what she is doing. Above all don't be reactive to her negative behavior. That's EXACTLY what she wants. If you mirror her behavior in even the smallest way she will immediately place all the blame on you.

What does it take to become God? Transcending the human form. A day will come when everything becomes perfectly clear.

If Donald Trump was a member here, he could tell you.

If you were born in Disney World and that was all you knew that would be reality.

There is a good story about Nisargadatta and a deciple of his. One day the deciple invited Nisargadatta to come to his home and while he was there and he shown him all the pictures he had on display of all the famous gurus he spent time with. Trying to impress Nisargadatta he asked him what he thought? Nisargadatta replied: "Take those pictures and throw them in the river".