I'm pretty sure this area of myself is in stage red and I want to ask how to get myself out of this rut. 
Basically, the problem is whenever I'm insulted or disrespected I feel the need for revenge always. I don't need to kill them, but at least equivalent or more. The stress that is caused by these grudges is unbearable, I carry around lots of anger inside of me. I also place heavy emphasis on loyalty (also stage red), which is seldomly reciprocated because I grew up in a green city and now am at an orange college. I'm sick of feeling this way and don't know how to rid myself of these feelings.

🍄 Actualized.org on Psychedelics 🍄
• Blog post on How To Research Psychedelics.
• PsychonauntWiki is a good resource for research.
• VIDEO:  How To Plug Psychedelics - Nov 2018 - (Summary is here)
 
            Must Watch Episodes
Ep 268. How To Use Psychedelics For Personal Development. (Summary)
Ep 434. How Psychedelics Work - Making Sense Of Psychedelics.
Ep 483. The Top Dangers Of Using Psychedelics. (Summary)
 
            Substance Reports
Ep 267.  Magic Mushrooms:  The Amazing Power Of Psychedelics - Leo Does Magic Psilocybin Mushrooms!
Ep 275.  5-MeO-DMT:  5-MeO-DMT - The Magic Pill To Enlightenment & God.  (Summary)
Ep 298.  AL-LAD:  Trip Report - A Powerful Tool For Consciousness Work.  (Summary)
Ep 312.  2C-B:  Experiencing Physical Death.
Ep 492.  5-MeO-MALT:  Introducing The Other God Molecule.  (Summary)
Ep 507.  Ketamine:  Lessons From Ketamine - Is Ketamine Useful For Spirituality?
Blog Video. DPT:  The Other God Molecule.  (Summary)
Blog Video. Salvia:  What it’s Like to Smoke Salvia Divinorum.
            (Leo says Salvia is very dangerous and does not recommend doing it)
 
            Blog Posts: Safety and Psychedelics  ⛑️
• The Top Dangers Of Using Psychedelics - Oct 2017
• The Antidote For Pre-Trip Anxiety - Aug 2017
• 5-MeO-Always On An Empty Stomach - May 2017
• No Trip Sitters - May 2017
• Why You Should Never Do Salvia (6 mins) - Aug 2017
 
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• Psychedelics Safety and Protocols Mega Thread
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            Enlightenment & Psychedelics Episodes 🤯
      • Almost every episode in the Enlightenment section of Leo’s Blog Videos.
Ep 283. Interview With Martin Ball - Using 5-MeO-DMT To Become Enlightened
Ep 347. Enlightenment Experience Explanation & Key Lessons.  (Summary) (a response to ep 346)
Ep 437. Outrageous Experiments In Consciousness - 30 Awakenings In 30 Days.  (Summary)
Ep 495. Leo's Worst Bad Trips - Psychedelics Gone Wrong
Viewer Compilation 🥳: Incredible, Powerful Concepts on Life & 5-MeO-DMT
Blog Post and Video on Mapping Consciousness With High Dose LSD
 
            Tripping in Real Time Episodes
Ep 346. Enlightenment Experience Happening In Real Time - LIVE! 🛋️
Ep 431. Total Awakening Live In Real Time - Part 1. 📦
Ep 432. Total Awakening Live In Real Time - Part 2. 🛋️
 
            Misc Episodes
Ep 329. Correcting The Stigma Of Psychedelics - Part 1.
Ep 331. Correcting The Stigma Of Psychedelics - Part 2.
 
More Blog Posts on Psychedelics
            Trip Report 🧳
Jun 2017:    Psychedelic Visions
Jul 2017:    More Serious Than You Ever Imagined (note) 🤯
Sep 2018:  Salvia Trip Report
Jun 2019:   Dissecting The Psychedelic Experience 👽
Jun 2019:   Who Are The Machine Elves? 👽
 
            Research 🔬
Feb 2017:    Alexander Shulgin Documentary - Psychedelics Chemist (note)
Oct 2018:    Psychedelic Receptors 📄 🧷
Mar 2018:   Breaking Convention YT Channel 🤯
Mar 2018:   The Origins Of Mind—Thomas Ray 🤯
Aug 2019:   Psilocybin & Personality Change (note) ⁉️
Aug 2019:   Microdosing Research ⁉️
Jul 2020:     Legal MDMA Therapy Almost Here! (note)
Jan 2021:    Hyperbolic Geometry of DMT Experiences 🤯
Jul 2021:     Ketamine Klinic (note)
 
            Miscellaneous
Jan 2017:    Drunk On Mushrooms
Feb 2017:   The Despicable War On Drugs
Mar 2018:   Dark Room Retreats & 5-MeO-DMT
Mar 2018:   A Society Built On Psychedelics—Bwiti Tribe
Sep 2018:   Your Brain On LSD
May 2019:  Denver Decriminalizes Mushrooms
Apr 2020:   Timothy Leary (note)