Natasha Tori Maru

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@Eskilon I used to watch a lot and read manga (my dad is half Japanese) when I was a kid. I was exposed to Neon Genesis back then! I recently rewatched it and was slightly taken aback regarding how adult it was - depression, shame, worthlessness, oneness, love, lots of nonduality etc. The overall story grabs me, less so single character (I can dislike a protagonist, and like a story). Shinji is a difficult character but a good one, IMO. He embodies shame - which is a very unique feeling as it is one of the only feelings that is also a belief. I haven't met one person who did not have some internalised shame. We just aren't aware of it. So at different stages of self awareness, we relate to Shinji more, or less. In my experience anyway

@UnbornTao Right - it makes me think some are answering in the two separate ways. Lonely is assumed inherent to the human condition? The series Neon Genesis: Evangelion is a great study on this concept. Not just a silly mecha anime at all. Deep concepts. I probably say this as I just finished rewatching it

It might be important to make a distinction here - do we mean 'alone' in the spiritual sense? Or literally 'there is no one else present' Because spiritually 'Alone' is not just solitude - it is pointing to oneness without otherness. When mystics or sages say you are 'alone' they don't normally mean lonely or isolated. It is typically meant: there is no second thing, no separate observer and observed. ALL-ONE - if we want to play with the hidden pun Spiritually I would say this 'being alone' means we stop needing validation from outside forms. That the 'other' is really you in disguise and you recognise awareness as self-sufficient: it no longer depends on company, time, or even a story. This is why this whole concept of loneliness is terrifying AND liberating. Terrifying because the ego dissolves in that aloneness: liberating because there is infinite peace and freedom in realizing there was never anything outside of us to begin with. This also touches on why many people get slightly triggered at the concept of being socially isolated. I do think you need to follow life's normal flow during adolescence and young adulthood of heavy socialization, experience, and contrast to get to the point made above. There is a reason most monks will reject you when you are young claiming 'I will give it all up, my life, for this' They know you aren't giving up shit! You need to go out and forge a life and actualize before you go to real solitude spiritually. Walk before you run. Crawl before you walk

Dr K seemed very held back in this one. I have listened to him quite a bit and he appears to know a decent amount of eastern type spirituality as well as western. He very much let Sadhguru speak at the expense of asking some more probing questions - I was disappointed. This interview is a better example of Dr. K's knowledge, in my opinion: I do have some issues with some of what he says - but I felt the Sadhguru interview fell flat.

Interesting you see OP having had issues integrating the feminine - I see more issues with integrating the masculine from past posts. IE unable to assert ones self without force. Or calmly approach arguments without a lot of heated assumptions and language That points to me that existing from the masculine frame is newer and less integrated.

@Joshe but you haven't seriously looked at the network of corroboration for UFOs. So this sort of falls flat, no? You keep doing this - coming at the topic with no real research. You just default back to 'lol why would you claim aliens as the explanation when I could have farted and it is a more logical claim!' Read the books. Look up US Nimitz. Watch the congressional hearings. Start with David Fraver. Do some justice to yourself! You seem to want to take the time to debunk all of this. So take the time to research. Arbitrary use of time to my eyes.

Are you wanting others - or simply distraction, entertainment? I have rarely felt lonely throughout my life. When I experience a situation as you describe: alone, walking in late evening - I never feel alone. I never feel empty or 'not good'. I feel completely immersed in the experience of reality. The warm spring air, the new grass and flowers. The colours of the sunset as beams stretch out to touch the horizon. The soft birdsong and tinkle of the river. There is so much in our experience - how rich it is. I don't want to miss it. I cannot feel alone with all of this beauty surrounding me. Nothing lasts, so I cherish the moment.... Are you distracted from noticing all within your experience?

I suspect this also. I have known a few individuals with bipolar disorder. A lot of how Jordan and his daughter behave in cycles, religiously looking for the thing that is 'the cause of it all' and then suffering from some nondescript illness? Eerily similar to the two people I know who go into mania for a couple of months and then deep depression. In addition Mikhaila married her current partner after 2 weeks of knowing him. Fits mania. I honestly think their minds are doing this. The depression and extreme fatigue a symptom of their bodies needing to halt everything due to flatlining energy after a period of mania/hypomania. Peterson never seems 100% emotionally stable. They appear to constantly be under 'threat' from something, and it is always outside themselves. Anyway this is just my observation - I don't have a complete picture. In addition - I find it so strange Mikhaila is so so so paranoid about health related stuff like black mould etc - then admits to cosmetic surgery (and I am by no means against any of that sort of thing, women can do as they please. I just personally don't invest so much self into appearance to ever undergo anything). The cognitive dissonance of that alone points to mental strain. Entertaining so much contradiction shows a slightly fractured mind...

I think it is a pointer used to highlight that what you are is not what you think - 'the self' - by calling attention to something being aware of thoughts, feelings, perceptions. I hear it from Rupert Spira frequently, in particular. I think it is just a teaching technique to change perspective and illustrate the lower case self. The 'vast' is probably a way to instil the thought that you are MORE than the body, the thoughts, the perceptions and its 'limitations'.

I think a lot of this sort of a descriptor 'vast' comes from the contemplation that we cannot find a beginning and an end to our awareness. I have heard this dialogue before 'let us try to find the beginning of awareness, or an end. Is there a border?' I take it the term 'vast' is said as 'immense' or 'great extent'

Especially for experiencers! We get shit carded at every opportunity. I do not bother even bringing the topic up or going in depth anymore due to how irrational people become trying to tell me what I experienced. I just shut the fuck up about it now. People come at you with pitchforks and everything they have because something we experienced challenges their entire worldview. What happened to me doesn't make me special. I didn't make it up. It was just some weird shit I cannot explain. Religious folks are probably the worst in this arena.

Well there's a something there!! I don't suppose you have done any additional research into UFOs either, since I raised the US Nimitz congressional stuff in the UFO mega-thread etc? I know its not crop circle related... but it COULD be !

That would be an assumption you are making - I am just having fun. Have you read Leo's books regarding UFO's on the booklist? Previously you have come at these topics touching on UFO/NHI etc with very little research done. It might be nice to ask yourself with regard to this topic: 'What is really at stake for me?' Because you certainly have a bee in your bonnet regarding it - your posts on this topic are very emotionally loaded compared to others

@Joshe Triggered? 🤪