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@Opulence i see what you are saying. Don't you think that romance is the best thing ever though? I am beginning to think I will focus on art instead of relationships since no woman likes me. But I doubt art will be better than relationships. Maybe I am wrong.

@CARDOZZOI can't be funny and learn social skills. I am autistic. I am sorry for being pessimistic but it's true. All I can do is become 10% body fat and it will take some time (years). It worked before, I hope it works now. Well I can become better at social stuff but there is not much improvement cause of autism, I definitely will try though, thank you!

@CARDOZZOI can't do looksmax, I am 167cm (5'6 i think). All I can do is become 10% body fat which will take many years. When I was a teen and was thin many women couldn't take their eyes off me or approached me to talk about something irrelevant and stuff like that. Some were (way) taller too. But that is the past, i don't know if the same will happen when (and if) i reach 10% body fat.

@Tenebrosoif what you say is true then I don't want to be with a relationship with a woman. I mean, I want, but there is no point since I am not 1%. I am really confused. Is this red pill myth or normies not accepting a truth. It could be both, how do i know? I just can't understand it. I am so confused .

It doesn't matter if it is 1%, 10%, or 30%. The point is there is a myth (or a fact) that women are only genuinely attracted to a minority of men and they only settle for the rest, even make families with them. Is this true or not? I belong to the bottom 5% according to my estimation (maybe even less) in terms of attractiveness so I really have no clue what's true or false.

I am desperate for a relationship with a woman. But it doesn't seem that women feel the same way for men. I always believe that truth is better long term than lies so I want to know the truth. Maybe it's a me thing, so other men aren't desperate, but let me tell you , as a man that never had a girlfriend, there is an emotional need to be connected with the opposite sex, to be desired, to come with contact. But all I see on the internet is women don't need men, don't like men, and they definitely mock men's issues or completely ignore them. So I have suspicions that women weren't meant by evolution to feel deep love for men like men do, they were meant to be independent when survival meets were met, while men were made by evolution to need a woman in order to feel very beautiful feelings. I am ready to accept the truth even if it hurts, I finally want to know even though I was afraid to know the answer. If the answer is that they actually do love and need men the same way men love and need women, that's awesome, if not I am ready to accept the reality I denied. There is no reason to point that no one ''needs'' anyone. Yes the word need isn't exactly right but to be fair it feels like an emotional need even if you can survive without the love of the opposite sex. You still feel bad without this need met even if you can survive.

You make your own meaning. Ok. So what's your meaning. What's the point of life for every person? It must be something more than eating bananas or watching the sunset. These things are wonderful but they aren't really enough, are they? What are some possible meanings in life, what's the point of it? Socialization, making a family, helping others, art, hobbies? I can't think of something else. Is this it?

I saw an anime called ''ghost in the shell'' and it made me think that we are not different than a machine yet we can feel and it can't. What's the difference between a machine and a human? The human can feel cause of electrical impluses (of course metaphysicaly that's wrong but to the relative world it's real) but the machine can't? why not? we have hormones, so if you put hormones that become electrical impluses in a machine why it can't feel? What I am trying to say is we don't know how conscioussness works. I am not saying AI robots can feel, I am saying who knows, maybe they do or they may will in the future. Or maybe not, I am open to both possibilities.

I don't know if it's abuse or not but I do know that it was a very bad situation for my life. I wasted decades of my life believing things that made my life worse than it would have been. On the other hand religion gave me some hidden advantages so it's not all black and white. When I was religious my life had so much meaning, but also it surpress every natural emotion and you can't communicate with others cause you are living in a different world than them. Also Christianity says things like turn the other cheek, forgive your enemies and have empathy for them, or don't do any sin cause you are going to hell, don't masturbate, pray instead of solving problems and the list goes on and on. That's really bad things to say to kids. I remember I couldn't sleep cause I was scared of devil and when I slept I saw horrific nightmares, that's too much for a kid. My mum is still christian but I don't believe in any religion any more. Not even hinduism or buddism although I tend to believe that reincarnation is real

What romantic animes you like the most?

I know a guy that I would describe him as sociopathic sadistic criminal. He tried to bully me sometimes even showed me a hammer and I and my father called him on the phone and told him that we would go to the police if he bothers me again. He agreed and told us that he would stop bothering me. Some days ago after 6 months from the hammer incindent I saw him and he did a quick ironic laugh. That was enough to trigger a panic attack although I tried not to show it. I doubt I can go to the police or a district attorney and tell them that this criminal laughs ironicaly when I am near him, especially in my country that doesn't bother that much protecting citizens unless it's clear that very bad things have happened. Not only that but this question isn't a legal question, it's about how do I relax, it's like I have PTSD from him and from my past bullying experiences as a teenager. I try meditation but it doesn't seem like great solution in this instance. I am really scared of this criminal, I think about mma moves all the time just in case he tries something. I live in a small town so I am definitely going to see him again some day and although I am planning to move abroad it will take years (I won't move abroad cause of him). We have talked to a police man and told us if he bothers me then I we should go to a district attorney and show them my diagnosis that I have mental problems like autism cause it helps with the situation if he ever tries to do anything. I have 2 appointments in 8 days with my psychologist and my psychiatrist and I am going to tell them, but till then I don't want to bother them. I told my mother and she told me that unless he does something worse then ignore him. How do I relax? How not to let obssesive thoughts and PTSD take over my mind. I understand this forum isn't about talking about these stuff so I understand if this question gets deleted but I hope it doesn't. What to do to cut these obssesive PTSD thoughts, how do i relax? Thanks in advance.

@Osaid @caspex @LastThursday Thank you all, I didn't expect so much understanding and acceptance. Thank you.

@Hojo @Adam MThank you for your answers. It seems I am not the only one thinking like that or at least I am not percieved as completely weird person. I feel better , thank you.

@Natasha Tori Maruthank you for answering this question. So there are other men like me out there? I can't explain it what having fun like a woman means. But it seems to me that women are light hearted, like they know the meaning of life is to have fun with friends, not to be brutal like men. They create deeper connections and care for each other. Also society lets them be more expressive and have fun. I really wish I was a woman, both because of their biology and the way society let them be free.

@Monster EnergyCan I confirm this about reincarnation in any way? @Carl-Richardis this a joke or it's real situation? sorry for not understanding if this is humour, I am autistic, I have trouble understanding this stuff.