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Now, I am not saying this in black or white terms, people definitely care for each other sometimes, but it seems to me that most of the time they don't. People do horrible things to each other when they have something to gain. People don't care about inequality, injustice, priviledges, so many people fight to be the source of these problems as long as they are the ones that get the upper hand. I start to feel lonely, like no one cares about anyone. People care about their families if they are lucky to have good families but all the other people , people don't care about them. People make alliances but doesn't mean they really care about those people. People do very moral acts when people are looking, but when they have the chance to do something horrible for some gain when no one is looking , many do that horrible thing. People love justifying doing horrible actions to innocent good people, pretending that the innocent people did something bad. Some people that do horrible stuff don't even justify it, they just don't care, maybe even like it. I feel like we are very bad species. I feel lonely, like it's a hostile dangerous world. How do you feel about all these? what are your thoughts on this matter? Do people care for each other most of the time? Do you feel lonely in a cruel world?

If we found a way that communism works fine, do you believe is good or bad? The way I see it it's good, because it's actually everyone has the same money with other people. Why would someone be against this? I don't know anything about communism or capitalism, I am completely cluless, so I try to understand better. Maybe I am wrong , maybe I am right, I don't know (I want to learn).

I see spiritual people online lying to themselves. Personally I lie to myself all the time, and the paradox is that I became so good at it that I know when I lie to myself and I still believe the lie (it's very weird if you think of it). I am begining to question how ''moral'' spiritual people are. I would say that they are more honest and moral than the average person (probably) but still very selfish and lying to ourselves. Think of it, if you believe everything is One and life is ultimately Meaningless and Infinity is nothing, then you wouldn't be able to function. It would be so difficult knowing that you will experience unimaginalbe pain worse than you have read or seen in movies or experienced in life, that people in Africa get taken advantage by powerful people and they are poor and full of war and suffering, innocent people getting k*lled there all the time and we do nothing to help them while supposedely knowing that we are them. Why on earth you/I don't want to help yourself/myself. And you wouldn't be able to function knowing that (according to Leo) your total experience of infinity is actually zero, that is what we called death, happiness equals suffering , not happiness > suffering. I know that spiritual people say that nihilism means no negative meaning but be honest with yourself, do you function with zero meaning after learning the Truth? I see me lying to myself, I see Leo lying to himself, I see members of this forum lying to themselves. We all lie to ourselves to fundumental aspects of Truth. How can we trust spiritual people when all spiritual people lie to themselves? How can you find a spiritual person that doesn't lie to himself and then to others but also what would be the point of finding such person if in the end I am going to lie to myself anyway and deny aspects of reality that include unimaginable pain and death? Denying, lying, seeing reality as better than it is, it seems to me that we all do that even here. What's the point of believing we are spiritual then? we are just kind of better than average people, nothing more. Do you lie to yourself? How you live after learning the Truth? or perhaps you don't believe the truths Leo told? Do you believe spiritual people are more moral or sensitive than the average person?

If a man is attractive, does the woman try to come in social contact with them or are they just make subtle signals. Obviously I wouldn't make this question if I was attractive. So I wonder what's the experience of attractive men. I mean, I want to know if a woman ever finds me attractive how she will act since I don't like making the first move ever.

@Judy2I have many things that make me happy, but there are some random parts of the day that I really wish I had a relationship. People tell me I shouldn't give up and it makes me hopeful but on the other hand I don't understand what I should do, I am confused, I have no guidance. Normal advice won't work for my atypical brain.

I need to find a solution to my obssesive need of understanding reality. It could be as simple as finding a hobby (assuming that's a solution). Or it could be ''stop thinking these thoughts till they no longer come to you''... I don't know, anything that could help. I really believe I can overcome this need, all I need is guidance

@CredSo how do I understand that a woman is autistic? and how do I interact with her?

There are many things I disagree with in this forum but I am reluctant to express them. I agree with 95% of the things in this forum but the rest 5% I don't. This forum gives me so many good things so I don't want to get banned or disliked for expressing opinions that most people would disagree here. I am like that in real life too, most of the time I used to get misunderstood or attacked after expressing a carefully examined opinion, so I keep my opinions for myself. After all, people label you with labels associated with wrong narratives about you even if you have never said anything to indicate that. Look at Leo for example, he is saying his truths and people label him as a cult leader. You can literally say something accurate with good intentions cause you arrived at a truth, and people will literally demonize you for it. I am probably autistic so I don't understand when it's appropriate to lie or tell the truth and I used to assume that everyone wanted the truth instead of lies.

I have an asocial brain(, probably autistic if the psychiatrists that examined me were right), I am slow thinker, non creative, not smart, not good memory, I am super great at analyzation as far as I can tell but that's all I am good at. All these have serious implications like not being able to relate or talk to others, not having humour, being humiliated in social interactions if a bully disrespect you and don't know how to act. And generally not being able to think quick solutions in daily matters that require fast flexibility. I am short, I can't work cause of autism (i am on welfare that is super low money, although I am greatful for it of course). I was bullied and now I can't function properly (i don't want to remember the painful trauma details). I am also super short 167 cm (5'6 I think). I asked how to have a girlfriend on this forum months ago, I lost a lot of weight although I have a long way to go, but I start to slowly realize that I am not going to have a girlfriend. Hope and encourangement is good but some people just weren't meant to have relationships. I mean, it's a neurological problem, not a matter of self fufiling prophecy and lack of trying. Today I saw my crush with another guy and I felt both relief and sadness. If everyone is ONE then some lifetimes were meant to live this situation. When you have a ton of things to communicate to a person, my non creative mind is blank, it literaly can't find anything to talk about. It's not anxiety or lack of skills, it's an innate biological blank brain. I like drawing and I can't even imagine anything to draw, I don't have aphantasia but it's pretty close to it I think. I don't think I will ever find a girlfriend and that's ok if you know how to cope, but I don't know how to cope that well, I need help. I am kind of embarassed to talk to that to my psychologist but I may will talk about it, but other people's opinions is a good thing. ''Just practice'' doesn't work to me, I know people that give that advice have good intentions and I appreciate their advice but this is not a typical situation. So... how to live without romantic love?

Why not being more dumb and chaotic, this would be more unbiased and normal. I wouldn't like it, I like it the way it is now, but that doesn't mean it makes sense.

it seems no amount of willpower will win an addicted brain.

yeah, I was alone. But I have life purpose now so it didn't hurt too much

My favorite is Lovely Complex, cause it's a great romantic story and a lot of fun

I for example, want to: 1)develop sense of humour 2)be more masculine 3)be more social 4)be more independent 5)become an artist 6)learn Japanese 7)build a good looking body

I was searching about determinism and I saw Leo's videos. I don't remember when, probably 8 years ago. Then I went to deeper topics watching Leo's videos. I haven't done mushrooms or any other psychedelic but when I go to Holland I will do truffles.