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On 2018-11-16 at 2:42 AM, Joshe said:Does anyone ever feel they get signs from God?
I was once tripping on AL-LAD and experienced that everything that's ever happened has happened perfectly, just as it had been planned out. I saw that everything that has happened had led me to that exact moment of me realizing God, like it was a gift I was being given. I was supposed to see it. The only thing I could think was " WHY? Why would you do all this for me?" and I connected with some really strong love and just started crying my eyes out. lol. It was beautiful. But anyway...
A week or so later I was working with some background music on and I became conscious of some problems I was struggling with. I stopped working and said out loud "Why? Why would you do this? What's the point of these problems?" As soon as I finish that statement, the song that was playing said "This is how I show my love" in the song Sail, by OwlNation. Pretty fuckin freaky, But a great answer. lol
I was reading a book a few months back and a family member was watching TV. As soon as I came across the word "coincidence", it was spoken on the TV. This has happened to me about 4 or 5 times in my life.
Was reading a book last night and my thoughts drifted to how I should have told my sister I liked her painting she just did but I kind of acted like it was cool but I wasn't impressed. I turned the page right after that thought and the second word on the page was "paint". This grabbed my attention.
That very night, I was babysitting my nephews. One had fallen off the top bunk of the bed and got hurt and started to cry but stopped his noise so I couldn't hear him crying, I think because his mom punishes them for jumping off the top bunk.
Back to the book I was reading. Two pages later, starting a new chapter, the first story was about how the author and his sister were playing on the bunk bed and the sister fell off and he was afraid her crying would wake his parents so he thought of something clever to take her mind off the pain. So the kid fell off the bunk, experienced pain, and tried to not make crying noise. The same exact thing just happened with my nephews a few hours earlier.
I'm curious about other stories like these or any insights you guys might have on this subject.
I'm not the type to want or look for signs but I can't deny there's something going on either.
Thanks!
What a freaking HYPOCRITE! You talk about these 'signs of god' that you're having, but baited me and get me freaking banned from a sub forum because you made it look like I'm some freaking Christian nationalist pointing out how that event and the luck was on a miraculous level? Screw you're fake AF sounding spirituality BEACH! I swear to GOD I will get divine retribution onto you and those that supported you in this LIE against ME!
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On 2018-11-16 at 6:34 PM, Hellspeed said:I get signs from Satan.
🤣🤣🤣🤣 It's actually great, considering what's happening now.
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On 2024-07-15 at 7:07 PM, Joshe said:Hi @Wizardking
I went through something similar several years ago.
I heard about enlightenment and that you could totally immerse yourself into an unshakeable peaceful existence and be above all negativity and live from peace and love and I was like, man, this is it, I gotta have that!
I probably spent 4 or 5 years half-assing things, exploring theory, teachings, practices, etc., and in that time, my pursuit and desire for enlightenment started to negatively impact my worldly affairs and mental health. Nothing serious but I was putting the cart before the horse. I was shirking other responsibilities and the unfulfilled desire was contributing to depression.
Eventually, I just let go of the desire and when I did, over a span of years, reality would, in its own time, show me things, remind me of things, trigger crazy synchronicities, etc, all of which would contribute greatly to my current reality, and I didn't force any of it, although I think digesting audio books while going to sleep may have had a big impact, but I wasn't engaging in any practices.
The main point is my spirituality blossomed and continues to do so without any effort on my part and it seems like I couldn't stop it even if I wanted to. I now know what spirituality is, I think in large part because I loosened my grip of wanting to know by maybe 90%. I'm becoming more and more spiritual without any conscious effort on my part.
I'm still sort of "floating" in between the linear and non-linear but it seems inevitable that some day, I will enter fully into the non-linear and none of it will be my doing. To be honest, now that I know more about what it is, I would prefer it wait about 10 years before it comes because I need more time to get my worldly affairs in order before I go looking for the ultimate.
You probably know about it but if not, David Hawkins has a good book on "Letting Go".
Dude you should've gotten your 'worldly affairs' in order before all that, and even then all that just sounds like depression or some mid life crisis.
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9 minutes ago, OBEler said:@Leo Gura so Trump will initiate that, risk his reputation because he scammed his own people just to get more money? It's all about money for him?
He risks his life to become president, almost died, he will die in some years out of age or whatever. How important can money be for him in that age. I don't believe he would even think about that. He is not that simple and stupid
But listen here, more important than that Trump thing...HOW IS THIS THREAD STILL GOING?! The user isn't here anymore to even talk about this!🤣
But even more important than all that, I heard there's ATM machines for crypto. Is that true, is it the new thing now, crypto ATMs? Because I did watch some video were a scammer was trying to scam someone pretending to be some old grandpa but it's a pro hacker that heckles and waste their time and exposes those scammers and all that.
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@Schizophonia Yeah thanks for that, all that was just off the top of my head and no weeks or a month of polishing it up. But if you break it down you'll know implicitly who and what I'm talking about.
5 hours ago, Schizophonia said:Ahahah.
I don't understand everything but it sounds good.
Also thanks for an N.W.A rap song, good group in how they started but it's giving me P.T.S.D from later on when Dr. Dre and the others dissed Ice Cube, which made him release probable the best diss track in that time...😂
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21 hours ago, CoolDreamThanks said:I remember writing Leo around 10 messages in a week, and he deleted my account. That's the only way, only he can delete accounts.
Christ it took you 10 messages until something happened? I'm like 50 messages in and NOTHING is happening to correct my tech issues and missing my content tab! Like WTF?! But like I was saying to other user, IDC anymore and have decided am mostly leaving. I may rarely come back but due to those tech issues I won't be wasting time here anymore.
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21 hours ago, Ely Higgins said:Thank you for that.
I don't really care about the forum, or any drama on it. And I don't spend much time here. I just don't want my name on here anymore, and I wish that wish was respected by Leo or whoever has admin control, because I don't seem to have the option to delete my account or posts, or to change my name. Someone tell me if I'm missing something.
If you really want your account to get blacklisted and deleted, look at the forum guidelines, do the opposite. Maybe that get's you forever deleted from here if you're done with this place. Or if you just want a name change then Just keep on messaging the admin to change name, or a mod to change name, or even call tech support and say you want your name changed. Regardless I will remember your name, it's a good sounding name, and this is coming from me a user being beat down by tech issues and nobody cares to change for a year of complaining from me. Didn't work for me, but don't give up complaining until you really exhaust all options to help change your name here.
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34 minutes ago, integration journey said:Beautiful! Where is this ?
In Bali I think.
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@CARDOZZO I bet you won't last being in Indonesia, the place is very humid and hot.😂
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Credit to @Rafael Thundercat for suggesting this video for me to share some body language analysis on:
My first impressions on this is yes, her behavior is strange, and right before she raised that sign she was having this 'dubious delight'(a non-verbal tell of feeling some guilty pleasure) or showing smirking(signs of feeling contempt or feeling moral/intellectual superiority) and looking 3-4 times to her right, to the general direction of where the shooter's at which IMO is strange. I also see that after she crouched like everyone, she immediately raised her hands holding the phone and probably taking pictures. I can safely assume that she values social media and values 'capturing the moment', like she values capture the moment of this event and her value IMO is greater than her common sense and preservation of SURVIVAL, like that's my interpretation.
Now above is all from a hyper zoomed in footage of her, but if you look at the second footage that's zoomed out it makes sense why she's looking to her right-upper right multiple times, she's actually looking at some people to her left and right, and she's maintaining her personal value of social media and 'capturing the moment'. This is my general take of it and all those conspiracies of this women, IMO falls flat. This to me is another example of people too long in social media speculating and theory crafting like conspiracy theorists. This is why it's valuable to give more context to these footages to contextualize the behavior. My personal best guess about her, these are psychopathic/sociopathic traits and behaviors developed because she values 'capturing the moment' and lives for the social media stuff which makes her behavior strange enough for those to speculate this and that, but really IMHO she's just acting strange than the average normal behavior of other people, my best guess.
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@Joshe, oh my gosh! You're such a whiny man bitch! Shit! Hits me up with cancels and censors cuz your sensoria got sore and feelings burned and hurting that much that you felt hate to me deserving? Well, here's me serving this backstory: I was minding me business in a Trump shooter thread, where damn near everyone's just losing their heads and losing to meth, being in bed, fear mongering filling their heads, what the left left them in this red mist despite singing the blues! And yet this green horn hoe felt really offended?!Gosh, I'm not that popular or a star to know this STAN's So upended with drugs and alcohol, that this thing Karens to me, A.I Cap-one! Just look at both @Merkenstein- sorry, @Merkabah Star, that took a star role in my defense than @Merkabah to try and fence in this bossy cu**, meanwhile @strika took a strike outta the cloud -9 which every lefty left stuck in this time! I give'em credit, even if some are biased and cove from red-dit, I'm military based enough to buy us some Jazz Blues, and not Lucy's blue!
Why attack me? Why come after me? Why admin and 2 mods administered injustice? Left impressed defending this Imp pressed man child and give me tech issues?! Do I look like tech9, with 3 issues and 6 remaining lives? Do they want me to unload the 6 chambers of secrets I can Basilisk?! They can't handle this dark depression of which I can send them into Mariana's trenches!! A conspiracy afloat, am I @Schizophonia to think this is conspiratorial? Spiritual delete and distort the beef, good grief, hallucinating this fabricated hatred? When I'm the only sane saint amidst CRAZIES?! How sleety and lazy this lion trying to lie at me not knowing this shits happening, when all I see are dead stars outlining this BITCH!!!
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IMHO this guy's scare reactions are actually genuine, not fake:
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Post and share react videos you found to not be just acting, but genuine reactions and common sense takes:
This one to me is a common sense take on Destiny's outrageous behavior, a guy who also is a Dad himself saying all that to a Dad who died protecting hi wife and child, yikes!
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This clown show is pure entertainment and funny to me. Look they managed to raise donations for this guy:
Who was part of a gang that killed a guy BRUTALLY:
Now I'm built different from that victim begging the public sympathy to find this Jay bird slobber. Fuck that! I think Karma dished out divine punishment and he got what he deserved!
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On 2024-07-18 at 6:18 PM, Rkill3m said:god what i'd give for these two youtubers to meet each other
i feel like they're in the same realm of intelligence
in one of leo's videos he makes mention of how much better the bible would be if the first page said 15% percent of this book is bullshit
well, i feel like in a way jreg demonstrates that beautifullly in his art style he never truly makes claims or states his true opinions ,but rather he uses his style of being wrapped in meta irony to display multiple points (at least of most his videos on his main channel anyway )
you truly can't take anything jreg says at face value but rather you have to think for yourself!
Or you mean this guy?
Yeah he won't likely do that. Leo had bad experiences with Connor Murphy and a few other YT trolls so he'll likely never do a podcast with him.
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@Rkill3m Joe Rogan? I don't think so given Leo's recent blogs and what Joe's been saying:
On 2024-07-18 at 6:18 PM, Rkill3m said:god what i'd give for these two youtubers to meet each other
i feel like they're in the same realm of intelligence
in one of leo's videos he makes mention of how much better the bible would be if the first page said 15% percent of this book is bullshit
well, i feel like in a way jreg demonstrates that beautifullly in his art style he never truly makes claims or states his true opinions ,but rather he uses his style of being wrapped in meta irony to display multiple points (at least of most his videos on his main channel anyway )
you truly can't take anything jreg says at face value but rather you have to think for yourself!
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On 2024-07-17 at 3:19 PM, Nemra said:Also, their confidence and hard work are very attractive.
And for some women's refusal to give up is beautiful too.
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1 hour ago, numbersinarow said:Danioover900 is right for the first time in his life.And numbers sin a lone wolf, row by row in a death row, towing the line behind thinking this thing can dethrone me? Keep mumbling zeroes!
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7 hours ago, Ely Higgins said:Just to say, I would really appreciate if there was a way I could delete my profile and posts, or at least change my username, because I'm not comfortable having my real name on here anymore, and some of the other posts I've made have deeply personal information I only shared because I was in a time of desperation.
But I need to share my story of where I'm at with all of this.
I was once a very exuberant, social person. I had many friends and people I felt close to in my life. When I was 19, I smoked weed for the first time, and had my first proper relationship. This was all positive and I cherish those memories. It was during this time that I opened my heart and mind a lot and grew a lot. But when I did LSD for the first time, I became so open and it was positive, lots of laughter, play and hugs, but towards the end of the trip I became extremely paranoid thinking I wasn't as loved and liked as I thought, I became very self-conscious for the first time in a long time. Smoking weed has never been a positive experience since then, and has always included these same paranoid thoughts and anxiety, and has slowly gotten worse. But still, I stayed close to my friends and everything was fine. But then I had to leave that country and return home (losing connection with all my friends). When I returned, I had a couple of negative experiences which affirmed this growing negative feeling about myself. (My mother lost her shit at me, screaming and shaking with anger). (My old best friend said I was behaving obnoxiously and that if it continued it would negatively affect the friendship). I thought I was just being myself.
Soon after this, I was spending a lot of time alone on a farm. I would smoke weed, and ruminate constantly about the bad things that had happened to me. I became very depressed and I was grieving over the friends I had lost, and that happy, fun version of myself I felt disconnected from. Life became quite meaningless, and my main source of meaning was hoping I would go back to New Zealand and be with all my friends again soon. But I couldn't, because of COVID.
So I waited for a year, and in that time I was exposed to many new perspectives on human emotion, connection etc. I was exposed to spirituality for the first time, and in my search for meaning and fulfillment, I latched onto it pretty hard. But I didn't go super deep with it. I read Joe Dispenza's 'Becoming Supernatural' and watched Alan Watts videos, among other things. I spent a lot of time that year comparing myself to who I used to be, and worrying if I would still be just as loved and liked as I was before when I eventually returned to NZ, as I had vowed to do. And Inevitably, from the combination of my insecurity and exposure to spiritual ideas, I developed the 'spiritual ego'. I thought, "It doesn't matter what happens to me, or if people like me or not. Fuck them, because I am in possession of the truth and they are ignorant, shallow people anyway". This was my safety net.
Eventually, I had the opportunity to return to NZ, so I immediately booked my flights and I was filled with Joy and excitement that I would see all my friends again and be happy again. When I arrived, I was greeted so warmly by everyone, and I got back together with my girlfriend straight away. But I couldn't shake this overwhelming insecurity that had festered in me in anticipation of my reunion with everyone. I was too psychologically ungrounded to hold a connection with anyone, apart from my girlfriend. We were blessed with a pure connection that cut through all of that. So I had to live with the pain of not feeling connected to my friends there like I was before, and I foolishly started smoking weed again with my girlfriend, which made it impossible for me to brake through my fear and get out of my head. I gradually saw less and less of my friends, because it brought me more pain than joy to see them, until it was only my girlfriend who I spent time with.
This was when I discovered Actualized.org, and I gluttonously consumed Leo's content for 9 months, without being even remotely ready for it, or mature enough to handle those truths about Self, Mind, God, Love etc. I was so mentally fragile, and I tried to ground myself using the concepts in the videos, but it had the opposite effect. I knew it wasn't helping, but I kept thinking I would find the 'one video' that solved it all for me. And I was already so in pain that I would foolishly be open to any ideas. I become so mentally unwell that I had to leave my girlfriend and come back home to my family in England, where I would try and rebuild myself.
I would make a big push of super healthy-eating and exercise etc. but I would just spiral and fall every time because I could never find that paranoia-free connection I wanted. I feel like I'm stuck with this mess of spiritual concepts in the back of my mind, on top of all the other trauma, and My body and mind are now burnt-out. The weight of regret is so heavy.
My relationship to other people and how I see them has changed so much, I feel cut-off from the world and others, and I feel like I'm slowly dying. My heart is closed, and my mind is a twisted, dark forest. I'm drowning in the mess of my own mind. How does a young man navigate this in society? Why can't I let go of this shit? I wish I could go back. If I could do things differently I would never have smoked weed or done psychedelics. And I wouldn't recommend them to anyone, there are plenty of other ways to be joyful which are much more meaningful and grounded.
Yeah I can relate a bit here. This is why you should take personal development, the basics, seriously but slowly apply them over time, and try to limit your time in this forum. Here's my little story of my time here: For the past 4 years of join here I have been plagued by technical issues, started with connection issues, then progressed to missing buttons, to posts and threads disappearing, even getting signed out every 5 minutes or every couple of minutes was very annoying to deal with. What's also annoying was whenever I made threads some users here troll and hate, no different than other social media sites, and I always found myself in somebody's freaking drama, especially over at the politics sub forum, getting a series of warnings and false reports. It's honestly was tiring to deal with because most of that all was them doing it to me, until I had enough and just stopped getting into them, and reducing my time there and I felt happy that I did. That is until one little drama in that sub forum, which was the final straw, and that got me kicked out in that sub forum.
My advice: Don't participate in that politics forum, even the spiritual sub forum, mostly limit your time to the personal development one, maybe the business and life advice one, and the journaling one. That's about it, and don't get dragged into drama, just ignore them and carry on with your own life. It's only part of your life in this forum, a tiny part, you have way more life that's out there and not here. Make that your priority and not this place at all!
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At 3:24-3:27 Destiny thinks Alex O'Connor mispoke when he said 'I didn't mean to equivocate you-' which in Destiny's perspective he thinks Connor meant to say equate. However, this IMO as I'm body language analyzed his tonality and word choices in Jorden's podcast with Alex, I think this is a big red flag, a big Freudian slip or self snitching moment from Alex here because he ACTUALLY is being equivocating here, trying to set up traps for Jordan to fall into in his own argument. I find it telling that Destiny wouldn't word or say that, but try to downplay that slip up from Alex when IMO as I've seen the original podcast it's clear he wanted to bait Jordan into a deeper mistake.
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On 2019-07-03 at 3:56 AM, Joshe said:What is the point in us not knowing we are God?
I would assume people would answer "because God wants to know something other than itself". But if that's the case, there are plenty of people these days who know themselves as God. So it seems acceptable to God to know itself as God.
Or would the answer be "because God is infinite, it must know itself "not as God" and as "God"? But then the question arises - Why are so few allowed the truth? The balance is way off. Maybe something to do with "metaphysical evolution"? Not sure if that's a term but it is now.
Why is the truth uncommon? Why is it hard to get to? Why are so few people privileged to it?
1. Because that's too much responsibility for you to bear, that's why you're you and not that whole thing.
2. The balance is way off because of 'metaphysical' evolution, and overtime there was a mass extinction of empires that were spiritual or non-dual that just die off faster than those that can survive and fight better. Case in point the Spanish settlers and the Mayan empire, Mayans were non-duel and an empire, yet they couldn't survive and failed to adapt to the superior weapons technology of the Spanish, the measles and chicken pox they carried on some of them, and even the Mayans made enemies out of other tribes nearby for their human sacrificing ritual. Really it's just evolution and even warfare that does this.
3. Because you have a life, have bills, taxes, debts, societal obligations, family and friends, you have a life you are preserving. That takes priority over some truth or spiritual stuff that might be profound, but will lead to your destruction. Personally I don't care, go and be more spiritual. Maybe you'll repeat human history, and like all those forgotten non-dual spiritual empires, you'll likely die off just as fast.
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On 2024-07-08 at 1:33 PM, Joshe said:@Keryo Koffa That gives me a lot to ponder. Thank you for elaborating.
I know this is off topic, but if you don’t mind, maybe you could expand my understanding of what pride and shame are. What are your thoughts on this:
Two people are in an intense argument and things are heated. Both people deeply want the other to see their own position is right and the other is wrong. Eventually, one person delivers a line of reason that completely nullifies the other position. In this moment of victory, pride or something arises in the victor. But is that pride-alignment or pride-shame or is it even pride at all?
Excluding the very advanced, nearly everyone would experience some sort of positive emotion in that hypothetical, just from the tension being relieved, and I think that could easily be misidentified as pride when it might not be. I can even see in some situations it being closer to love than pride. For example, when a teacher who has been struggling for some time to get a student to see something finally has a breakthrough and she witnesses the moment the student realizes the teaching. There’s a positive emotion that something good has happened. If I were the teacher in this scenario, the pleasure I would feel would come from something good happening, not from the idea that I was the one who made it happen.
Imagine the detriment to the person who is not experiencing pride but rather, a desire for good to prevail, but that person misidentifies that in them which is inherently good as something that is inherently bad and needs to be worked on or removed. It could be the case that it just needs reframed. Just thinking out loud. The ego is tricky so maybe all this is bs, but maybe it’s not.
You said that you, even as a child, always acted on good faith and it became clear that the majority did not. This seems like a battle of good and evil and evil has the numbers. There are more of them than there are of you. This creates anger and resentment at the injustice of it all and one wants it resolved. In the resolution, one might think their negative emotion stems from something broken in them rather than a right frustration against that which tramples upon good. Again, just thinking out loud.
Seems like a slippery slope but maybe there’s something there.
First off arguments in it's foundation are not about wanting the other to see you as right, but rather making your view and your position the right one, more right than the other, and in some case to humiliate the other's position by persuading and convincing. To do that you have to have a position on some conflict of interest between you 2 or more sides to a resolution, then you argue and list your reasons why, and provide evidence. That's a bare bones as you get with arguing, plus you're ability to string together fallacies and convince more people to side with you is what really matters. The emotions and feelings come second.
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This is a great video showing 2 type A personalities and arguably very skilled sales people go at it in this podcast, and also suggest the original for longer body language observation.
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You're kinda right, the promise of crypto and it's true nature sounds like an extension off of communism, or that anti capitalist movement, like we can eliminate the middle men, the banking system, and it's just a direct payment between buyer and seller and no corrupt guy or system is between that. Of course in practice it's different like you said because most influencers have massive crypto pump and dump and other schemes related. It's like they don't understand it's just like the wild west, and the apache/commanche wars along with Texans just vying for what land should we get? Which is why crypto must change at it's core from being some ultra powerful unregulated currency into a moderated regulated currency.