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@aurum It’s amazing to see data-driven methods being applied to health. I really want to have an AI that gives proper feedback about personal health. What really catches me in the interview is his boldness talking about geniuses, doing what no one ever did, going beyond humanity, being unique, going balls to the walls and following your obsession. We need more people like that who are bold, think different and push humanity beyond. We need more alien-humans, unique, rebellious, insane. (Musk, Tesla, Da Vinci, Johnson, Franklin, Ralston).

@Breakingthewall Leo’s style of teaching and Ralston are completely different. Leo goes balls to the walls and speaks all that he wants about absolute truth and even Alien Awakenings, it’s his style of teaching and has a lot of value. Peter has a different style, more conservative. Leo’s style of teaching is more liberal, rebellious, philosophical, artistic.

@SourceCodo That’s the most hilarious thumbnail I’ve ever seen. Looks like the first thing you see when an alien is about to fuck you

A nice post from Frank Yang on Bernadette Roberts (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bernadette_Roberts ). https://www.instagram.com/p/CsJMKS6uNZf/ True No-Self is not the No-Self of no Ego, or No-Person, not even the No-Self of the Unitive States, or "being" a Nondual/Unitive Infinite (mere appearance) Field (that still contains an awareness (a separate self with individuality is having, subject) of an infinite empty nondual field ("object"), for example induced temporarily by psychedelics). True No-Self is the final death (or transcendece) of any form of the separate self, crossing over to Infinite Fully Empty Impersonal Nothingness/Consciousness, or Full Enlightenment. "There is a reality. We are that reality. When you understand this, you see that you are nothing, and being nothing, you are everything. That is all". - Kalu Rinpoche True No-Self can not be understood before fully waking up, before Great or Final Enlightenment, where any reamaining separate self fully dies/gets transcended, Infinite Impersonal Consciousness unseparable of its appearances arising within in. That last deep identity change is not gradual, but sudden. Unexpected. And has nothing beyond it. The dropping of the separate self can not (by definition) be imagined or understood before it finally happening, see the yellow markings above. Because who would do the imagining? A separate self (in whatever version). Which has to be gone to fully wake up. So the separate self can't do the imagining how it "would be like" to be gone. It is the "thing" doing/being the imagining. "Incapable of conceiving its own non existence", see text above. When one walks down the unitive states road to the end, boosted by Psychedelics, one can end up with forms of solipsism, and even further with an Infinity of Gods. A confusion of that with the Absolute, or Fully Empty Impersonal Infinite Consciousness, certain separate self aspects still left untranscended. Which then kill the unitive and nondual state of this separate self/unity-state-identity/God within an Infinity of Gods/Alien/n+1 when coming out of the trip. Necessary for that confusion (some form of pre-trans confusion to use the wording of Ken Wilber) is, among other confusions, to misidentitfy True No-Self: not True No-Self (the death/transcendence of any and all separate self/Individuality arisings, resulting in fully empty IMPERSONAL Consciousness/Nothingness/Absolute) but with some lower forms of "No-Self", like No-Ego, No-Person, No-separate-body-mind (but nondual), No-Self of Unitive States up to a very subtle and empty transparent Witness (already nondual, being the nondual infinite field), but with some Individuality still left. The last dropping/transcending/-seeing as objects arising in ones True Self- of identity, center, localization, any forms of individuality-arisings, very very subtle feelings or awareness OF Emptiness, OF an infinite universe being seen, awareness OF being, awareness of anything is what finally brings this sudden crossing over to ones Real Identity. Waking up, Enlightenment, fully empty and impersonal Consciousness/Reality. And that is where there is nowhere further to go (no n+1, no new Awakenings), final peace and liberation are to be found. In ones True Identity. And that is why stopping short, and declaring that stopping short (New Awakening n+1) as higher as that crossing over to ones Real Identity (Nothingness), is a dangerous pre-trans-confusion, which doesn't lead to ones True Being and final liberation and the end of suffering, but a continued grasping and suffering for ever higher and newer "Awakenings" not into emptiness/Nothingness, but form/manifestation, and how the manifestation/imagining process is structured. And for those not even walking this (psychedelic-) path, but basking in proliferating mere (retold) concepts or stories about this path, ending in Solipsism and Infinity of Gods, it doesn't even deliver the transcendence and beauty that these unitive and infinite psychedelic states bring. But something on a spectrum ranging from suffering to madness. The spiritual path is the transcendence of the separate self, its death or letting go, once and for all. Neti Neti, until fully being everything, because one has become the real Nothing/ness. Not the blowing up of the separate-self to infinite God-like-solipsistic dimension. That would be the other direction, leading not to freedom and love, but to suffering and closing down. Directly into the cycle of merciless suffering and dissatisfaction, being caught in the prison of the claws of the separate self/ego/self-contraction. That is what makes this pre/trans-confusion (at least in the perspective of yours truly) very very dangerous. And now, for those disagreeing, the Bear-and-Empty-Mirror thing (signature link) please Selling Water by the River PS: And to end a bit "lighter": A Samsara/Lila consisting of separate selves necessarily needs continuing Illusion/Ignorance concerning ones True Identity. So for the fraction that will for sure not change its mind just because there is Water being sold at the River (posting above), and still prefers to continue with a certain solipsistic-messiah complex, yours truly would recommend considering doing it with style: Something like the very charming and apparently very attractive for the ladies - style of Russell Brand: Then, at least, its very charming . Less capital letters, less exclamation-marks, less angry criticism, blaming and calling names, but truck-loads of charm, (especially) with the opposite sex!

@Razard86 Man, I asked you about your experience. If you don't want to explain it, ok. I am not saying that I "believe" the alien awakening, I am saying that leo has been solid until now, and that I give him credibility, for now. And another thing: awakening is a change in the frequency, a different way of perceiving the now, not "knowing things". You seem to know a lot of things. do they come from the now, or are they mental creations? I don't know

I already did, you just said it didn't happen but yet you believe in some Alien God awakening, miss me with your bias why would I waste my time. You just contradicted yourself twice. I explained it and you said it didn't happen now you ask me to explain how it was? Contradiction. You believe in some Alien God awakening but don't believe you can walk outside to a world frozen in place? Contradiction. Notice how inconsistent you are? THIS is why you don't have a sober awakening....your mind is too biased and inconsistent you don't know WHAT TO BELIEVE. But hey that is the reality you choose to believe. You can't even make up your mind on Absolute Solipsism even though you LITERALLY TOOK A 5 MEO TRIP....and you saw NO OTHERS!!! It was JUST YOU!!!! But you doubt that too!!! I mean....my GOD how much doubt you wanna carry around with you? Anybody that takes 5 MEO and cannot understand Absolute Solipsism is too afraid to be awake. You literally confirmed that you were the only thing in existence and then you come back and be like....how do I know? LOL. Literally what you experienced on 5 MEO is happening right now!!! It is only appearing that it isn't!!! Let me ask you? Did you see OTHERS? NO!!!! So all you gotta do is realize....everything you are currently viewing is a GOT DAMN APPEARANCE!! But no!!!!! You wanna come back and because you don't have the strength to accept the truth, you come back doubting your own got damn direct experience!!!! Like it doesn't make sense to me!!! It's so obvious its TOO obvious!! How many got damn pointers you want? DO you need your reality to just 5 MEO on its own multiple times in a row and turn back before you finally say..."Ok I get it....there is only me!!! Even though in both instances my awareness was there, the appearance was the only thing that changed!! So I must be that which isn't an appearance!!! Which means all others are completely imaginary appearances!!! So no other exists, just like my appearance of a human body isn't real all others are also not real!! The only real...is my awareness so no other realities exist!!!! It's so simple, it's so straightforward!!! BUT NOOOOOOO!!!!!

Sigh... JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVEN'T EXPERIENCED IT, doesn't make it impossible!! The truth is YOU haven't experienced it. I am really getting tired of people on here speaking on authority on something they are ignorant of. Do you see me doubting Leo's Alien God awakening? No!!!! Besides...what do you think when you go to sleep? You literally phase your entire world OUT OF EXISTENCE!!! Talking about it's impossible. LOL. Nothing is impossible....it's all nothing!!!

90% of the time I opend a journal somehow someone liked it. I vented a lot more stuff and I just see some patterns that are just not explainable. I've found and listend to some of the dirty, the yellow pill I'll call it as it's more hardcore, some redpill&bullpill distinctions and some gamers, who are quiet serious. Through the last two weeks of shadow work I've gained more clarity, although I'd like to keep these journal briefer. I used to get my needs meet online, I know that without my doing a lot of distabillity has been caused. I loved to share success with people who love to enjoy it with me, yet I've noticed this pattern of disrespect. For a quick review, I've also been more aware of the issues of social contagion, and how I am contributing (that is not new), yet many do not realize how much hope I bring and others simply get jealous. I've been more social as of lately, and I've found mindsets that help me. My game is getting slightly better online, offline also and I've drawn clearer distinctions. I am more aware of pitfalls in the bias of the teaching because of this hope fabric, I am pretty difficult to fool, yet naive at times. It's been an eye-opener to see how empathy is recommended from hardcore gamers, and to think and empathize with women, I noticed how through this military stuff, I've had this blue pill alpha mindset partially installed in me, that I would not have recognized would it not have been for the audiobook I am listening to. I figure to write briefer posts of improvements mostly, metaphysical insights I was working to build that scaffold what broke me I think was not trusting the few connections I had online as I was utterly despised and still am with the human idea of "racism" it's not easy to get it out of me and I notice it everyday that it's mostly status. I notice some patterns that have not been as obvious to me before, yet I am not letting people anymore in my life who disrespect me and I can't have any respect for. That is detrimental to stuff, that means also very close and old friends. The new friends all respect me and help me. The point simply is I notice how much frame matters, and I never cared so that is a frame also. I have a new date on wednesday, I would most likely be swimming in dates, in a larger city as would have more valor. I checked out a pretty hot chick at the gym she enjoyed it moved down her groins, and I presume the 1-3 months of the shadow work integration is happening from sexual shaming, and the military blue pill stuff. It's insane how dumb men are as a collective, I am glad at times to not consider me human, to not fall for all of this folley, be it superhuman, alien etc. I've checked out OkCupid I do think I resonate internally with liberal degenerates as Heartise tells? Would show. It legit opend my mind and that has been a long time, it either has been jailbroken by DMT, and not upgraded by LSD. I see how the lessons over the past year are beign included and I am making more improvements. Principles do take time, it just takes time to hone them. The point is the dig deeper into the abillity to solve problems and see logic mostly as a form of masculine energy. It has been hijacked by my mother for some reason. A lot of emotional damage has been done by my mother the father issues are more collective and this subtle disrespect here, is also an issue. That is mostly it, there is a lot of bitterness thanks to having and sorry for saying this bitter women in my life who project their stuff upon me at times! Not always, and it's socially not allowed to call women bitter, bitter cat ladies etc. It's interesting stuff to contemplate about. I notice other attraction patterns and why I'll kick some stuff of my love map. I was serious about growth and I realized how my mother was correct with material stuff, often it is status that is the relevant issue. --- I'll leave this open after gym sessions, there is still a lot of hatred harbored in my heart against the pig mentality? Of society and I might have hurted some people, yet I did not really intend to I was so lost and mostly only one person I've found believed in me, and that felt very well. Which was my old psychologist. I will never again say no to a synchrodestiny type of experience and synchronicities. As well as conscious moment that surpass my understanding. As well as text and write to more liberal women at times. I do enjoy the flat hierachy and I know why I dislike some stuff, and why I wanted to be a linchpin. I noticed how much I missed this stuff when I was 12-16 years old, as I just did not have any books and or other tools. As well as to many bitter women, I would not date a women ever who disrespects men. I love feminism, I love feminists, I don't enjoy disrespect. I am very respectful usually, to respectful where I see the pain of having to be disrespectful at times. I notice I feel healing, and get utterly into growth when I listen to this frequency, I did this also in China and the flow kinks out all shadow energies without disrespecting the current breathwork hype. The point is perfection notices.... I do notice.... that is what I mean. Posting only on gym days, for dating insights and reflections, trips and at very conscious and very dark moments, if the pull is to heavy for any reason (I did stuff you'd act to much of proud like and I cringe). I quiet. I am working in recovery. Copy-cats be copy-cats I will close down stuff, if I see any copying. This is a lecture. If I see non-originiality I will close this journal, stop all ideas. Remember in America thanks to your work and projections, I am the law. I notice I can integrate the horny dog. I don't enjoy disrespect at all.

I think he just wants to illuminate what's possible. But the truth is there are no degrees of awakening above God Realization. Alien Intelligence is just a flavor or aspect you can experience. Leo probably mixed some crazy stuff together and his consciousness exploded and he was able to experience something that probably cannot be reached through any conventional methods. This means for you psychonauts out there (be careful) the potentialities you can explore are endless.

He answered this in Curt's interview and basically said "It's all Love", although the answer may have changed after the alien kangaroo mouse awakening. He recently said his alien awakening is the most important thing to him and that all he wants to focus on is teaching that now. My input, Actualized.org's current ethos is probably something like seriously practicing your own authority. Not being loosely swayed by the opinions of others. Valuing truth over all. And having the courage to say that truth, even if it rubs people the wrong way.

Alien Love Awakening is indeed no joke. Imagine the greatest love you’ve felt while being a human. Having a deep connection to your spouse perhaps. Now crank that love to 1000x. That’s Alien Love baby.

"alien consciousness bruh" "alien consciousness is all that matters"

I think at least a thousand people will be interested in his alien God course, maybe he will make half a million from it. and 10000 in his more practical one, that's 2.5 million. but even 3 million is not that much for building a triple-A video game. Maybe he should make an indie game after all

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Matthew_7:16 ... just kidding Leos Teachings hold a lot of potential, and my guess is that soon as they evolve over the Solipsistic/Infinity of Gods - phase (please excuse my humble opinion), and no longer confuse a not-so-empty God-(separate)-self with the Absolute Emptiness of the Absolute/Reality, or the Absolute Empty Abyss of Nothingness of Impersonal Consciousness, the "fruits" (Matthew 7:16) will also be marvelous. I guess there is quite a high chance that that will happen. He is smart and diligent, and has published some awesome videos on bias and self-deception and the like, not to speak of all the other videos which contain really some great stuff. But in this Lila nothing is predetermined or certain. So, as always: Enjoy the show, and Bon voyage! As soon as every little subtle remaining -separate-self-arising/lense/bias/awareness of emptiness/awareness of being/awareness of being God or Reality or Alien or whatever, anything at all/awareness of being anything- is transcended/seen&let go/subject made object/ burned and is no longer colouring the experience of Infinite Reality or True Identity of Impersonal Infinite Consciousness, then "burned by the everburning flame of ones own primordial nature —all ego-consciousness, all delusive feelings and thoughts and perceptions will perish with your ego-root and the true source of your Self-nature will appear. You will feel resurrected, all sickness having completely vanished, and will experience genuine peace and joy. You will be entirely free." - first part yours truly, second part in quotation marks by Bassui (also below). I wish him exactly this genuine peace and joy permanently in daily life that comes along the permanent realization/waking up. Then one is the whole Enchilada, watching itself, being absolutely Nothing(ness)..... and Nothingness never has a problem, only can contain them... moving around in itself like mosquitoes, but then of the slow flying version, easy to splat/transcend/cutoff. Sorry, probably not a Boddhisattva-style metaphor. More on the mosquitoes see below: So, it seems, until then: With every heroic pioneering effort, there is certain danger. Hic sunt dracones! https://de.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hic_sunt_dracones Water by the River PS: The full quote, from Three Pillars of Zen, Kapleau: Bassui: If you push forward with your last ounce of strength at the very point where the path of your thinking has been blocked, and then, completely stymied, leap with hands high in the air into the tremendous abyss of fire confronting you—into the ever-burning flame of your own primordial nature—all ego-consciousness, all delusive feelings and thoughts and perceptions will perish with your ego-root and the true source of your Self-nature will appear. You will feel resurrected, all sickness having completely vanished, and will experience genuine peace and joy. You will be entirely free. For the first time you will realize that walking on water is like walking on ground and walking on ground like walking on water; that all day long there is speaking, yet no word is ever spoken; that throughout the day there is walking, yet no step is ever taken; that while the clouds are rising over the southern mountains their rain is falling over the northern range; that when the lecture gong is struck in China the lecture begins in Korea; that sitting alone in a ten-foot-square room you meet all the Buddhas of the ten quarters; that without seeing a word you read the more than seven thousand volumes of the sutras; that though you acquire all the merits and virtues of good actions, yet in fact there are none. PSPS: The rest of the Mosquito metaphor: .... And by the way, what one thinks what one is if one thinks oneself to be still anything at all: These are the mosquitos/separate-self-arisings (I-thoughts and I-feelings)/lenses/localizations, buzzing around in True You (the Totality), endlessly annoying, but making the hell of a show.... If they are too fast emerging/moving for oneself to easily squat them all at ones own convinience (genereally, keep the useful ones (the functional character) buzzing, squat the rest, the ones with "suffering" painted on them), then there is meditation/transcedence work to do. The meditation/Transcedence gets the bliss flowing by the way, which is like some smoke that slows down the moskitos, makes them easy to squat/transcend.

Just my humble opinion: Every thought/concept emerging in ones mindstream is not created or chosen by "oneself/ego/person/body-mind". But by the Totality of Absolute Reality, infinitely intelligent. That Absolute Reality manifests a Universe that clearly develops, and grows to more complex forms: atom, molecule, bacteria, plant, animal, human, ... , Alien Mouse, Alien anything, (sorry, just kidding), up to Intelligences govering whole Universes/Void Universes. That is called a Buddha-Field in Buddhism by the way, with a really Buddha/God governing its Buddhafield (manifestation of a Universe). There is an infinitude of Buddha-Fields/Manifestations/Gods or Buddhas governign/running Buddhafields. So a long career path if you like.... If you are interested in that, check out the Supreme Arrray Sutra: https://psychedelicsangha.org/paisley-gate/2019/5/8/the-supreme-array-scripture-a-psychedelic-stra-for-buddhist-psychonauts-pp3zz Or: An Infinity of Gods/Buddhafields, described in 3rd/4th century CE. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Buddhāvataṃsaka_Sūtra Just maybe, if one conforms to what the Universe is doing anyway...... which is getting itself to grow, develop, and wake-up (self-realize its True Being in as many beings as possible, once the capacity is in place), and helps it waking up once one has woken up onself (which is the base of the Boddhisattva-vow: Once you wake up, not to keep that Awakening and its resulting bliss for yourself, and live happily ever after, which by the way is the easiest thing to do then, without the minor annoyance/effort of "helping" "others") telling "them" about which paths up the mountain actually work, which just circle around the mountain without ever getting closer to the top, which paths stop at 95% of the mountain, and which just rack up loads of bad Karma or drop off a cliff to start at place zero or pretty low again. Or at least ones own experiences of the path up the mountain. and promises to do something like (Boddhisattva-Vow) that once one has woken up (better not starting before, because that tends - not necessarily, but tends - to be an ego-show. And not go off to the cave happily ever after.... and overall, at least be compassionate and nice to "other" beings while on the path, as much as possible. .... Ones own Intuition and Intelligence (which is governed by the Infinite Intelligence of Reality/Totality anyway (or do you choose which thoughts/concepts emerge in your mindstream? "I" don't...) is helped by the Totality in any way the Infinite Intelligence of Reality can? Since the Totality wants to wake up, or has a tendency to do so? That can take an intuition (or feeling drawn to) of choosing working paths/methods instead of not-working ones. That can result in nice and balanced success on the relative level of live (Friends, partner, job/business/financials) making the right decissions in life having luck in ones decissions a lot of energy and motivation in ones endevours (intellectual, business, financial, any aspect of an integrated life) As Nisargadatta once said "Winnnig the grace of ones True Nature" that is at least my experience. Coincidence or not, I am happy about how things are in my life. And for the postponing ones Enlightenment/Waking Up until saving them all: That is in large parts Buddhist folklore and myth. You can not really help others beings without being awake yourself, at least not to wake up fully. Its like in an airplane: If masks drop, put on your mask first before helping others put on their mask. Because if you don't, you can go unconsciousness (and the "other" too), before you can help anyone. Like every Religion for the masses, in which Buddhism also takes part, there are some nice background-story that are maybe a little bit to rosy and naive. This one probably belongs to it. Help yourself and wake up (put the mask on), then help others put the mask on. But be nice and benevolent to "others" while putting on the mask, don't kick them out of their seats on your way to the mask, so to say. Then, who in his right mind wouldn't choose to make such an agreement/"deal" (Boddhisattva Agreement) with Reality? And of course honestly and authentically, Infinite Intelligence already knows all of your mindstream, cause it IS that already. And Reality listens very openly to ones mindstreams, its intentions and prayers, and can respond miraculously to it (for example in the emotions is manifests in the mindstream: Loving or annoyed for example). Because the opening of ones mindstream and consciousness, its emptiness and its emergent thoughts, is already are direct link to the Universal Mind of the Universe and Infinite Consciousness already, by definition. There are not two "consciousnesses" anywhere..... It is literally the same. Of course its all a dream, an Infinite Universal Mind imagining a dream. But at least yours truly prefers a nice dream to a nightmare. So who in his right mind would say its all a dream, its all imagined, and ignore the laws of Karma (of which the Boddhisattva-vow forms a large part) and life a miserable life ignoring cause and effect ever after? Well, you guessed, only a confused ignorant separate self under the spell of illusion.... “My realization is higher than the sky. But my observance of karma is finer than grains of flour.", Padmasambhava That means nothing else than although one keeps the Absolute Perspective of its all an arising in Infinite Consciousness/Absolute Reality, one is not so stupid to think that this Lila/Dream has a very consequent structure, is very coherent (different than dreams at night), and if one shoots oneself in the knee (Karma-wise, or literally), one is going to be hurting/limping for the rest of ones life.... And knowing about the tendence of the Universe to grow towards more complexity and awakening, and ignoring that, or not taking some kind of Boddhisattva-vow (the wise/intelligent form of it), is similiar to shooting oneself in the knee, at least in a certain perspective. And a "round-out" from the Absolute Side of the Street, to keep it balanced ), courtesy of Francis Lucille - "Ignorance is only a bad idea from the perspective of ignorance. From the perspective of [Absolute] Consciousness: Who cares?!". So either way, its show on! Bon voyage! Water by the River

I’m very familiar with a state of confusion, “not knowing”, feeling detached from my thoughts emotions and surroundings, and the sense of “nothing makes sense”. In a way my default state is an existential crisis, the vast majority of my life has been a mental fog , and as soon as I feel like something makes sense, my mind immediately starts to doubt it and feel like it’s artificial and I distance myself from it and automatically revert back to this familiar state of “not knowing”. Lately I’ve been sort of distancing myself from this state too and naturally started to question it. I’ve noticed how I somehow feel that this foggy detached state is more accurate and “true” than the state of feeling certain. In my head I have some idea that most people walk around feeling certain and “sucked into life” and how that is false and they are deceiving themselves. I look at people in my surroundings talking about things with passion and certainty and my mind somehow sees it as alien and mysterious and not true. “how can they be so certain”, my mind automatically thinks. I feel how this belief is starting to break down in me. Naturally these questions arise: How do I know that I can’t know anything? How do I know that uncertainty is more “real” or true than certainty? If everything is meaningless, then what is the difference between walking around feeling certain vs uncertain? Just something that has hit me lately. It’s weird because it has been so deeply ingrained in me that you have to question everything and that nothing is knowable etc but it just came to me this awareness of how these things are in some way just ideas I hold dear, and how this foggy mental state I’ve been in so much is in a sense my own version of certainty. It’s like my own security blanket that I hold onto.

Sigh.....the structure of reality is not complicated. It's nothing. That's it. What is there to not understand? Reality is nothing. I'll give an example so you can understand. Close your eyes, create an image of a unicorn. That is the structure of reality. THATS IT! Reality is appearance, that appearance is nothing. Because it is nothing it can turn into any type of appearance. But that is it. It's only an appearance. That appearance is aware. It is aware that it is appearing. So its appearance and its awareness are the same. If it doesn't appear it doesn't know what it is. So it has to appear as something to be aware of itself as something. This nothing, that is appearing, is love. It is intelligent, and it is wise. That's it! There is nothing else to discover. The alien thing that Leo is talking about is just more content in the dream. Leo needs to do SOMETHING to entertain himself so he creates the game of "I'm the most woke, and alien intelligence is the highest awakening." LOL. There is nothing wrong with any of this because this is how he chooses to amuse himself in his dream. Next he might become an alien planet and tell you alien planetary existence is the highest awakening. Then maybe he will exist as a solar system and tell you solar system awakening is the highest awakening LOL. But if you think there is something to discover beyond what I said then you don't understand. THERE IS ONLY SURFACE APPEARANCES!! Infinite surfaces forever. This is what it means by its only an appearance. This is why Science is laughable because reality can just keep creating more surfaces, more appearances for infinity. At a certain point you need to realize that relying on the study of appearance is a trap.

It's odd contemplating my existence I wanted to visit the guy, briefly before I left my hometown he just suddenly blew up, yet I was injured I could have never gone to this and train a bit like a shaolin monk, it was simply not possible. Went to the gym today, was able to hit some pr's with the current machines, my back has to be growing in some sense, as I don't notice to much of stuff. I don't fully watch this, it's odd to see how odd my hometown is it's like a double 8w7' type existence with choleric tendencies like Andrew Tate & I can digest some stuff of this, I did also not dig deep and self-discipline. Selbstbeherrschung is one key concept that definitely fits with my hometown, as it's soccer club even has a devil icon, you won't see more self-disciplined fk*ed stuff than in this town. Military, A.I institutes, 8w7' culture legit it's like an alien rock. Still a lot of beautiful nature... a lot!!! --- It's also impossible to get the liberal out of me, and I see at times why the arrogance is there, as there is a deeper yearning for truth. The point is americans just vote based on emotions. It's funny how rational animals are still the better hamsters. Let's see it's interesting to notice how online opinions sway even in small sub groups. I am approx at 70% full capactiy of what I can do I am buying some practical things, at times the mindset I have is the biggest issue. It's also good to have a stronger political middle section here, the game group I am in is less toxic at times than this forum, they are tough biased by Orange&blue development. When I am built they either are enforcing their centrist ideas, and turn more slightly liberal or they just turn completely I dunno hope I can just get some muscles in etc.

Every time I take a high dose of any kind of tryptamine I experience this incredibly weird, brutal, alien feeling during the climb. But I never remember, is it possible to remember and rediscover/"handle" this substanceless state? Perhaps with meditation? Always been too lazy to practice that so I don't know what it's worth.

The new fad on this forum is... everything is alien consciousness!

@dorg You can be limited and/or unlimited. The universe isn’t an arbitrator deciding which state is the ultimate truth. Of course, expanding consciousness is all of our goals here. However, since this goes on infinitely, how can we say that any state is fundamentally limited? Wouldn’t all “limited states” be as “reality” as a “superhuman alien state”?!

I’ve experienced this on ketamine and cannabis. (I also take stimulant medication for ADHD if that matters). It’s definitely a higher state than ego consciousness, no doubt about it. The ego state cannot comprehend this at all. It’s pretty much elevating your consciousness to embody an alien mind. You can identify as another being, or even expand to identify multiple beings simultaneously. For example, two years ago I experienced something similar to this Star Wars scene while on cannabis (a high CBD dose with barely any THC interestingly enough). This scene pales in comparison to actually experiencing the suffering of a million beings simultaneously, but it’s still a great metaphor that the human mind can grasp. The actual experience the shit out of me, but I was able to also telepathically communicate with an angel who saved me. [I don’t plan these experiences in advanced. They happen spontaneously. I’m still learning how to embody those higher states with less fear/resistance gradually, since I still have a great deal of attachment to being a human.]

Why would that be weird? We are so used to it, but our own self is fundamentally, infinitely, a mystery. Sex, for example, is a weird thing. If you take away all of the conditioning and all of the concepts that we're used to that lock in our way of understanding this thing, it's a mystery. If it's in another dimension, they imagine human beings, 3d things with euclinian geometry, having the irresistible urge to rub and make weird noises. And they laugh/find it very weird like these videos. And I don't know why, but seeing these videos I feel an "alien" feeling. Maybe a memory of ancestors in weird dimensions like that. lol

I made this same basic post to a spirituality subreddit, but I also wanted to ask this here too. I feel like I've lost myself in some sense. I am an endless fractal morphing from the source of which is unknowable. All axioms boil down to paradoxes or contradictions. Chaotically morphing infinitely and definitely from the set point of my form. What I am is as unknowable as what I will become. It's like I've been inhabited by some alien force which is simultaneously me. What is there to become? What is there to do? Everything and nothing. Endlessly a decaying body which cannot die. The universe constantly collapsing in on itself, and as the moment of oneness approaches it simultaneous fragments and the cycle starts over. Have I gone mad? I know I don't have schizophrenia. I'm not hallucinating. But I tried to explain in best terms what I think the world is. I'm not suicidal and I am not on any drugs. I'm just horrified. But although I am disturbed, I also have everlasting peace simultaneously. Even the things that bother me don't bother me.

I just wanted to share this quick story to emphasize the importance of going into these experiences with the proper mindset. As far as bad experiences go, I'd say I got off pretty easy compared to other trip reports I've seen, but it was enough to make me realize that I need to reevaluate my approach moving forward. My previous trip was 3 weeks earlier and it was my most intense and difficult so far. So that experience made me go into this one with an expanded understanding of what these substances are capable of. Before, I was a bit naive and thought these substances were just a way to access interesting insights, mystical states, and sensory experiences, but I didn't realize their capacity to radially transform reality to a possibly unlimited degree depending on dosage. This caused me to go into this experience with more fear and apprehension than previous trips, but I thought that I should be courageous and force myself to do it anyway. I see now that it was probably a sign that I should've waited until a different day. What was strange about this experience, is that for the first 4 hours, the effects were very mild despite me taking a larger dose than last time. I usually feel full effects by 2 hours in, so I thought that this was because I used a new batch of harmine hcl which was less purely extracted than the previous batch. So maybe I wasn't fully mao inhibited despite weighing out 230 milligrams. It was after midnight at this point, so I fell asleep for about 20 minutes. I woke up in a memory wiped daze and realized I was tripping hard. It caught me by surprise, so I ended up resisting a lot. I was blasted with a cacophony of electronic alien noises of all imaginable sorts and felt like my mind was possessed by a pure trickster energy. My mind was scrambled, basic things no longer made sense and I was made aware of many of my neurotic tendencies in normal life. The sheer strangeness of it is a bit baffling to me. These effects lasted for about an hour and a half and wore off at around the 6-hour mark, which is strange, because by 5 hours in the effects are usually over. I now believe that the harmine was still fully effective, and the first 4 hours were me resisting the effects. With other substances I've taken, it seems like I'm locked into the expected effects of a given dose for the full duration, but ayahuasca confuses me to the extent that I seem to be able to almost completely shut down high doses by not surrendering, although I imagine there would be a dose where this would no longer be the case. I definitely think it was my poor mindset that caused these negative effects and not the substance itself. I'm very conflicted right now, because I am interested in accessing these expanded states of consciousness, but I'm terrified by how radical and strange psychedelics can be. This causes me to enter the experience with a very manipulative and self-contradictory mindset, wanting to dissolve boundaries and expand my awareness in some ways, while wanting to preserve my identity, and sense of reality in other ways. So, I guess I'm imagining a very specific type of experience that I think will benefit me and trying to force it to be that, instead of being open to whatever it has to show me. But this is the one area of life that isn't supposed to be about ego manipulation and survival agenda, so I can't imagine bringing my human toxicity into this mystical state would go well for me in the future. So probably I need to take some time off to reflect and decide firmly how seriously I want to take spirituality and how far I'm willing to go with psychedelics. Part of the problem is that with the state of the world becoming more uncertain, I've been feeling an increased sense of urgency to make quick progress, as I don't know for how long conditions will remain stable for. But this process cannot be rushed, and it won't conform to some timeline I try to impose on it. I'm still fairly young and have a good deal of mental immaturity to work through, so that may hold me back for awhile. The aspect of this work that's most difficult for me is giving up control, probably because I had issues with authority figures growing up and a sense of control is very important to me. But accessing the deepest levels will require giving up control, so I don't know exactly how I'm going to do that.