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  1. Has anyone else experienced breathing problems on 5-MeO? I plugged 10mg of what I think is freebase 5-MeO (was sold to me as such, positive Ehrlich test, dissolves in vinegar but not water, very active at such a low mg range). There was a really strong consciousness enhancing effect, but my automatic breathing pretty much stopped entirely. If I made a conscious effort to breathe, it was not an issue, but I had to constantly focus on it. I had not heard of that effect, so I had issues letting go, fearing that I might have some other substance and might suffocate. @Leo Gura I have not heard you talk about breathing on it, have you ever had similar experiences? What do you recommend I do? Thanks
  2. @Leo Gura I might start a separate thread for that questions but: Do you think the market is oversaturated with personal development / spiritual advice? There is so much, but I feel most of it sucks. Also, almost anybody I talk to seems fucking lost. So even though all the concepts and systems exist, they have not reached nearly enough people. Sometimes I feel like I don't have to offer much, but then I give really simple advice to people and see a significant change in their life. I have gotten so much value from your earlier videos, where you mostly gave your take on a concept that already existed in a book for example. I guess my question is: what do you think could be a way to differentiate myself from all the other "self help gurus" and find a way create something that is valuable?
  3. See, I actually hopped on the porn-is-evil-no-fap-train years ago. It induced lots of guilt and shit everytime I was horny and jerked off, with our without porn. Recently, I did just what you suggest. I went 45 days porn-free and limited masturbation to once a week for the first four weeks. Truth be told, it was quite difficult at times. My results might surprise you though, because there weren't any. Apart from increased horniness, which, if anything, was really annoying. That was quite a realization actually, because I had heard all the tales of superpowers and shit for years. No increased willpower, no increased confidence, same level of brainfog (diet has a much bigger effect on that (for me))... I went back to yourbrainonporn and re-read some of the studies and articles. I noticed that they were always talking about "problematic porn users", so I took a closer look at what that includes. Long story short: I ain't one. My taste hasn't morphed much, I'm still into pretty girls with nice bodies, I've always liked blowjobs, I'm still turned off by abusive scenes. Which is probably why I also didn't get any benefit from quitting. So I decided to stop giving a fuck. Since I've arrived at this through direct experience, my guilt has dropped away. I now have times where I watch porn daily, sometimes I masturbate without it, sometimes I don't masturbate at all. A week ago or so, I had a date scheduled with a girl that I expected might lead to sex. So I stopped PMO for more than a week without any struggle. I had a good reason, because it's obviously easier to show desire when you're horny. That removal of guilt has done more for me than any streak of no-fap has ever even come close to.
  4. I see your point but I'm not entirely sure about that.
  5. @OBEler I had almost no visuals at all, maybe a slight morphing, but nothing compared to LSD for example. The body load was pretty heavy though (just general uneasiness and nausea) and I can not even imagine how someone would experience infinity in that state. I can not imagine how that would be possible at all actually, this entire path has been heavily faith based for me so far.
  6. As an update to this: I have tried the vinegar method and it works like a charm. The substance I had, which I assume to be freebase 5-MeO (was sold to me as HCL but does not dissolve in water) dissolved in just a drop of vinegar after a few minutes. I added some water and plugged it, experiencing intense effects from about 12mg of raw substance. However, my experiences were quite unlike what you guys describe from your 5-MeO trips, so there is a bit of doubt left as to whether what I have is actually 5-MeO. I stopped using it because of that risk.
  7. Looks like I'm kinda late to the party @Leo Gura Happy birthday! I got this last year to remind me of how this crazy journey started. (I'm not doing the cult thing, don't worry ) But this should give you a feeling of how meaningful the change you started was. Love you man, hope you find everything you seek and more <3
  8. I found this meta study which found no correlation between consumption of soy foods, soy protein isolates or even isoflavone extracts (the plant estrogens) and testosterone levels in males: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/19524224 So it seems we are better off with soy protein than with dairy, if you also consume another form of plant protein to get a sufficient amount of all essential amino acids. I have not yet researched the health issues that might come from GMO soy, but you can get non-GMO soy products in Europe. About processed soy foods: I've read that it looses a lot of it's health benefits (like all processed foods), but I have not (yet) found any associated health risks. Especially for soyprotein isolate I've read that it's actually a good alternative to whey protein.
  9. In "How to shop for healthy food" Leo told us to avoid five foods: sugar, wheat, corn, dair and soy. I've researched all of them and found the downsides in all of them except for soy. It seems like there is some smaller studies that found issues with it, but if you look further it seems like a pretty healthy source of protein.
  10. I absolutely agree, but that expression just made my day
  11. Thank you for your advice! What I have done so far is mainly just being there for her, listening and giving her a hug. I already suspected that she would have to work this through on her own and you guys seem to share that opinion. I don't know him personally, so I definitely can't rule out that possibility. However, I see her crying and generally suffering. I'm also not claiming that he is a bad person or anything. From what she tells me, it seems like he also just experienced some difficulties in the past and this is his way of dealing with his insecurities. In the end, I'm still trying to understand the exact dynamics of abusive relationships. Lots of girls seem to just be glued to guys who treat them like shit. So there has to be something deeper going on. Thanks again! I will post updates for anyone interested in how this turns out.
  12. Hey Actualizers, One of my friends is suffering from a toxic relationship. The guy seems really unconscious and is projecting his insecurities onto her (going through her phone, extreme jealousy, making her feel guilty and so forth). I tried to ask her wether she wouldn't be better off without him longterm, but she is not open to the idea (yet). Says he's the only one and so on. How would you handle the situation? Is there a way I could help her realize that she is being abused or is it just a process that she must go through until she is ready? Thanks
  13. What is your age, gender, how did you find Leo's videos? 22, male. I don't remember if I specifically looked for it, but 4-ish years ago I stumbled over the legendary "How to make a girl squirt". It was very well made, so I checked out a couple more of Leo's videos. I basically got hooked when I started watching the enlightenment videos (at the time just out of curiosity, while making pancakes lol). What are your biggest pain points in life, and which are your greatest strengths in spirituality? There is two pain points really. The first one, which is not as severe, is that I'm still not grounded in my Life Purpose. It's something among the lines of "I use extraordinary communication skills and spiritual insights to help people actualize their full potential, raising humanities collective consciousness". Sounds great, but I'm not living it fully. Which leads us to the second point. I'm quite unsatisfied with the spiritual progress I'm making, which is a result of my lack of investment. I somehow just can't motivate myself to go all in, build a proper meditation/yoga/self-inquiry habit, although I intuit that it is the absolutely most worthwhile thing to do. I think I just lack the direct mystical experience that would motivate me to actually pursue this stuff seriously. I'm quite experienced with psychedelics, and I think that they played a huge role in getting me to where I am right now, which is honestly not to bad compared to the average human. But even there, my trips have mostly been completely recreational to half serious, almost all of them with friends. However, I've recently started using them more methodically and seriously, hoping that this practice will yield some results in the next few months. I'm also addicted to porn, but not severely My greatest strength is probably my natural curiosity and strong theoretical foundation. Since I've been exposed to the topic from a young age, I've had tons of time. I intellectually understand pretty much everything Leo talks about (at least I think so), but I lack direct experience. I'm also mostly calm and detached in my daily life. I rarely get angry and would consider myself mostly stage yellow, looking for understanding instead of aversion for 'negative' people and events. Genetics also blessed me with what I think is high intelligence, which is really cool, but I can't take credit for that. From the outside my life is actually quite nice, everything just always seems to happen exactly the way that I want it to, I'm incredibly lucky. Most of my (even older) friends somewhat admire me and frequently ask me for advice and stuff. I guess from a self-help point of view, I'm doing more than fine. But I don't give much of a shit, I want Truth and deep insight. Which thoughts or feelings that don't feel good are most repetitive in your experience? Self-doubt mostly. I feel like I should make more spiritual progress. I'm not satisfied with the effort I put in. What do you currently do for spiritual practices? What are you working toward in life, or what is your greatest vision or goal? Like I already mentioned, I'm planning to methodically take LSD every two weeks from now on, but only the first of these trips has happened yet. Next week I'll go on a Vipassana retreat. I struggle to keep up half an hour of Kriya Yoga practice every day. Almost no contemplation, sometimes I do some half-assed self-inquiry. But I do read a lot, could be more, but I think I'm okay on that front. My ultimate goal is to be a badass sage, enlightened and with deep metaphysical understanding of reality. I pass my immense spiritual insight onto other seekers, multiplying humanities consciousness. I lead a fulfilling relationship, raise/raised amazing, beautiful children, make some music... Sage stuff basically Do you have an idea about what is holding me back? Some weird shadow/belief/attachment that I have? You effort is really appreciated <3