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I would ask this guy, he done 11 days. I done about 3 - 4 days on a few occasions throughout my life. Definitely some psychedelic experiences, different from psychedelics tho, almost alien in a weird way, more like alice in wonderland style or amanita ish...

That's where you're going wrong. Get some female friends and acquaintances in your social circle, simply for the sake of building a robust social circle. Every person should aim to do that, imo. Hanging out too much of one type of person can be a bit socially stunting. So, if you only hang out with other young/youngish guys, it's going to make you disconnected because that's a very specific social bubble. And operating too much in that zone will make interactions with women feel alien and awkward... or as purely agenda driven. And as a perk of creating a more robust social circle, some percentage of those female friends and acquaintances that you interact with will be interested in you. Honestly, too many guys on this forum are sleeping on the benefits of having a strong and varied social support system... and some of those benefits include romantic benefits.

Introduction Last week I took 300ug of LSD, mostly with the intention to confront fears I encountered during previous trips. Those included: After serious ego loss and intense fear of death arising, fighting to have a purpose for my life, as if that was what would save me from death. The reasoning was, as silly as it sounds: “if I can’t come up with a reason for my existence right now, I will die”. A tribalistic paranoia, fear of being discovered by someone, fear of being closed in the room and someone else being in the apartment, fear that someone is behind me. Fear during the state where I don’t know anything, I literally don’t remember anything at all, what my name is, who I am, etc. Fear of reality “simplifying itself” to the point of death, fear of being motionless / falling asleep during the trip because I think I will die. Fundamentally, fear of death. To counter these, my focus was to: “Let Death into my heart”; Open the gates Accept being purposeless, that it is okay and I will not die Accept no identity and not remembering anything, that it is okay as well Relax and feel into being safe in God Confront other key fears listed above I simplified these points of focus, wrote them out on pieces of paper and laid them in front of me, so that I would come back to them throughout the trip. Moreover, since I always experience profound feelings of Self-definition during my trips, my intention was to focus on 3 key archetypes/energies which are important to me right now, once the identity was gone, to program myself: I am a Man. I achieve my Goals. I Act. I am an Artist. I express my Voice. I Create. I am a Sage. I nourish my Peace. I Meditate. I said goodbyes to my gf I live with, closed myself off in my room for 3 hours and went from there. Throughout the entire trip I wrote in my notebook. I mostly sat on the floor, surrounded by a few sheets of paper, and took everything in, while observing myself and responding to fears. Key Awakenings I don’t exist For the first time, I really awakened to the fact that I don’t exist. This was during the beginning of the trip. I was writing a stream of consciousness in the notebook and I asked the question: “Do I even exist?”. The question reached my awareness and suddenly I was completely dumbstruck. My jaw dropped. My initial reaction was like “Of course I exist!!!”. But I looked and there was no me. Mindfuck. After that, so much energy started emanating from me I thought everyone around me in the residential block was feeling it. It was incredible. Nothing I saw utter Nothingness. It was like I was in a completely empty Void. There was NOTHING satisfying about it for me. I was scared of the truth being negative in some way. In retrospect, I see that I wanted to discover SOMETHING. I wanted to discover some kind of divine love, inspiration, hope, reason. I wanted nothingness to be something good… but no. No love, no hope, NOTHING. It was exactly what it was. Nothingness. Devoid of any features. I saw it clearly, and it was humbling. I AM; SOMETHING is there And yet, in spite of seeing that I don’t exist, of not remembering anything about me and after seeing the Nothingness, I later felt that something was calling to me. It was as if it was hidden behind some veil, completely inaccessible to me. There was SOMETHING there, and it was ALIVE. I wrote in my notebook: I am SOMETHING. But what? This SOMETHING was instantaneous. I felt that I was it, but I was in no control of it. It was Same to me, and yet completely Other. It was writing things through me, without my conscious intent. For the first time, I felt MYSELF so clearly. I AM. Still, I don’t yet understand the dynamics of it. But I feel there is something amazing to be found there, and I’m excited about that. “Alien” vibration penetrating me Okay, so this is another thing that’s been difficult for me in previous trips, which I forgot about. Maybe I cut it out of my memory due to the great discomfort associated with it. Lately, each time I take LSD and lose my identity completely, I feel penetrated by some weird, “alien”, unifying vibration, by which I feel raped, used, taken advantage of. Feeling it, I feel like I’ve made some big mistake taking LSD. I feel possessed. At times, I feel something is taking control of me and I’m acting in weird, unpredictable manners, which is scaring me. During this trip, this happened when I was very high-level, and later on each time I focused on accepting the fear of dying and being no one. I felt this foreign vibration running through me. I felt discomfort, but I tried to persevere. I was set on confronting any fear and letting go of myself. Still, I felt taken advantage of. I don’t have good words to describe it, but that energy was weird, alien-like, sexual, foreign, flowing through me when I let go. If I had to describe it visually, I felt it as something white with 8 eyes, spanning through the entire visual field, inhuman, all-unifying, sexual, flowing. But I might as well be bullshitting myself, that’s not the point. The most important thing is: I don’t know yet what it is, and how to deal with this. I know I must separate my feelings about it from the actual thing, and it’s difficult because I feel great discomfort towards it. I’m wondering whether I can start approaching it differently and experience more positive feelings towards it. She is Other to me Close to the end of the trip, I contemplated what my girlfriend is. I was like: “Well, of course she is me. Right?”. And I tried “looking into her”. But to my surprise, she was completely inaccessible to me. She was Other to me. “Wait… how can she be Other to me, if we are the Same?!” It was a mindfuck to realize others are the Same and Other at the same time. I gained a new level of respect for my girlfriend, in particular. Later, I told her: “I respect you, because I can’t reach you with my mind. You are, and always will be, a Mystery to me. I see you differently now.” This can refer to Reality in general. What I said in the “I AM; SOMETHING is there” section: that SOMETHING was also completely Other to me, even though I was It. Maybe that SOMETHING is in everything I see, including my girlfriend. I think that theoretically, I could realize that I can’t reach anything I see with my mind, and that everything is a Mystery, not just my gf - but that’s beyond the scope of that trip. Miscellaneous I felt the above 5 sections were the most distinct, content-packed and worth sharing. Besides these, I experienced other things/awakenings/insights, such as: “Everything stems from the fact that I’m afraid of Death”. Feeling that I’m always running away from myself. I am this Dream which is leading itself Will/Intention being instantaneous and action in reality “lagging behind”, I was a bit impatient about it “Being the furthest away (from “life-content”), you can’t do anything but love.” “I want to be someone in this world. I want to express my Voice.” I felt like I’m not worthy, not “someone” enough. I want to fix something in myself all the time. Can’t I just love myself? At one point, I felt it was hard for me to stay in the body. I was walking around the room and felt so much energy accumulating in me, I thought I’d die. This single thing made me consider reducing dosing in the future. Looking at my hand felt overwhelming at one point, as if God was beaming its full energy at my face. I was looking away. Also, holding the fully stretched hand close to my face, I felt as if it was completely surrounding me. I was scared of it. Loss of consciousness was disappointing at one point. I was on such a high level. I felt cheated going “down”. I felt the “earthly” life was such an insignificant dream/illusion and it was for low-consciousness idiot beings. But this feeling passed quite quickly. At the end of the trip, I focused on manifesting what I want in life - among others, the 3 key archetypes I mentioned in the intro Focusing on the fact that I REALLY wanted the best for myself, that I wanted happiness in life, I wanted hope, inspiration, energy, I wanted to live and accomplish, that I wanted everything to be alright in the end. Key lessons & how to proceed Next time, I will strive to not want anything from NOTHING and to love it for what it is. Unsatisfying, unborn, raw, pure truth. I can see the fact that it's unsatisfying as actually the best thing about it. Shows me my bias perfectly. Focus on looking deeper into SOMETHING behind the veil. I feel there’s something important there for me to find. Perhaps, this is where I can genuinely discover God/Infinite Love for the first time. Seems plausible, given how this SOMETHING felt to me during this trip. I had God-realizations before, but it was more about me being God - never before did I discover God/Love/Intelligence which is „Alive” and Other to me. Understand my feelings of being taken advantage of by the „alien” vibration. Can I change my relation to it? Is it growth to accept this „foreign” energy penetrating me? Should I learn to be submissive, is that the way? What is this „alien” vibration? Goal: Learn to love and receive it. Experiment with being submissive and accepting something „foreign”. Fuck it, if it’s growth, I want it, I don’t care. Consider lowering my LSD dose to 225ug Consider trying a different psychedelic soon, probably DMT Outro Thanks for reading. If you have any comments, feel free to share. Peace! I got the Magic in me! 🌟

It's a harmless belief. When the moment of truth comes I will adjust my position accordingly. One good argument why it's not an alien spaceship is that, if it was, we'd already be sending nukes to it, lmao.

This relatively new article is very interesting. Wolfram describes how a hyperadvanced mind could perceive and know Reality, it resonates with the Alien Mind´s world: Wolfram´s Hyperintelligence

I agree. A good way to look at it is container (structure, construct) vs consciousness. Religions and government structures (democracy vs monarchy) are containers - that the peoples conciousness within them is distinct from. Although there is a relationship between the two also. So it’s not about the doctrine alone but about the development of those engaging with it. Some containers are perhaps better than others at elevating our conciousness - because some containers have more trappings than others. This is why non-duality and actualized (Leo’s body of work) is better at elevating conciousness - it just has way less trappings than religion does. For example in Islam the idea of jihad (struggle) or in Judaism - the chosen people. Both of these can be approached form a lower or higher place. A lower conciousness turns jihad into ISIS and the notion of chosen people into candy for the ego. A higher conciousness turns jihad into struggle against ego/impulses and chosen people into a burden or responsibility to embody good virtues. These trappings are higher risk than a neutralised scientific approach to spirituality which has less baggage, words or ideas that can be conflated or confused. Osho actually did this and said it was his intention - he spoke from a higher place on all the world religions. He drew in people of all walks by doing this, and then he went onto the next step and said to even drop those containers (religions) and approach spirituality without them ie more scientifically. But like I said to breakingthewall - there is a place for both the scientific approach to spirituality, and the art of spirituality which is more colourful and localised to where people are from. We don’t necessarily have to drop our identity - otherwise how do we culturally “belong” with everyone around us without feeling alien. We need to synthesise the two approaches and view the scientific approach like a formal universal language and the artful approach like a local cultural language. In other words transcend the container but live within it - the same way we’re told to be in the world but not of it.

So, I recently watched Leo's video about not knowing, and done the exercises in the video. I experienced the state of not-knowing very deeply to the point where I was looking at the tree and I could see my mind putting labels, giving explanations what that object is. But past all the labels and all the mind clutter, the tree appeared so mysterious sow weird, I would call it even alien, I couldn't grasp what the fuck is this thing. Actually it kind of scared me a bit because I felt that things getting bit unstable. I felt I Can go even deeper but sometimes I Think I might go crazy haha and I wasn't even using any psychedelic, completely sober. I'm not great at articulating exactly what I experienced but I guess that makes sense that explanation. I keen to explore deeper, but sometimes fear holds me back I don't understand where it comes from. Anyways, I've noticed that my mind jumped back into it's regular mode, but there's something different in my background of consciousness, like if I look at the object or something, or a thought, anything basically, I could look past my minds clutter into what actually is, it's there I don't engage in it necessarily if that makes sense. Of course I there's more to it I guess, but that's what I experienced and I wanted to share. a

If Alien Minds are true then why the NASA is not talking about them?

Maybe old-school Disney. Modern Disney is full of woke ideology and shits out stuff like Tron and Alien Earth. Corrupt money grubbing leads to the endless turd factory of their latest catalogue.

The day the Earth stood still. War of the Worlds. 2001: A Space Odyssey Planet of the Apes. The Omega Man. soylent green. West world. Tron. Star man. The Andromeda Strain. Logan's Run. Silent Running. the black hole Extra-Terrestrial robinson crusoe on mars Brainstorm Forbidden Planet Moon Contact Alien Star trek Daryl The explorers Blade runner Predator Total recall The running man Flight of the navigator Robocop First Men in the Moon The Time Machine Escape from New York The Thing Starship Troopers The blob Oblivion Vanilla Sky I, Robot westworld series fallout series Dune The Last Starfighter

If my car got stolen, it's likely that it was stolen by a human. But I can't know that it wasn't stolen by an alien, before I gather some more conclusive or confirming or disconfirming evidence.

You would automatically give all credit to the aliens when you lack the ability to come up with a hypothesis. Alien of the gaps.

I dont think we usually have a well thought out epistemic process when it comes to approaching and evaluating these things. But I can tell you one specific instance where I would definitely favour the alien hypothesis over the other one. So when it comes to the Jesus resurrection hypothesis, and him healing people and walking on water and other stuff like that (lets just take those to be facts for the sake of the argument), the alien hypothesis is actually better than Jesus being God. The alien hypothesis is better because you dont need to inflate your ontology with things that are outside of time and space. So if you have a set of things that needs to be explained and one explanation can explain the data without needing to propose new layers of ontology, then you should go with that one over the other (if all else is equal). ---------------- I think we usually lack the epistemic tools so much that we really arent equipped to categorize things in a precise way. I think John Vervaeke is right that some of the imported frameworks we are working with are making it harder or sometimes impossible - so for instance, the subjective-objective divide really breakes down when it comes to categorizing certain entities and issues, and you need to construct new categories to deal with those problems (and sometimes you need a new metaphysical frame for that). And it doesnt help that scientist usually just unconsiously import modern philosophy . Some ways of thinking are so ingrained in us from culture, that you need to spend years to just gain the ability to reflect on those things, because they are completely invisible and they seem axiomatic and necessary - @Carl-Richard's crypto materialism thread just confirms this. Just because you are team Idealism, that doesnt mean that you managed to overcome those ways of thinking. If you cant explicate what epistemic process you go through when it comes to categorizing these things, that should be a good hint that you are doing it in an unconscious manner - and this applies both to scientist and to woo people.

@Bashar its funny btw that you think you are saying something new or something that wouldn't fit in my "worldview". I personally followed dudes in the past who planned mediation retreats in Egypt for spiritual reasons (and these dude werent originally from Egypt). The idea was that you meditate inside the pyramids at a certain time (the time was planned astrologically), and you can have mystical experiences there ( or at least thats what a bunch of people reported who went there) The background narrative is that the Pyramids were built for spiritual reasons , so that you can mediate there and recharge your energies and your aura. They also believed that Thoth was an alien and that the emerald tablets actually described valid things. Just as how this typically works, the dudes were hardcore into conspiracy theories (constellation of beliefs, you can predict most of their views and beliefs on almost anything), but the reports about the retreat were positive and many people who attended reported mystical experiences. I know a lot of random shit like this (including channelers like Bashar and other shit like that), its just that my epistemic process is again not to default to the alien hypothesis ( when I dont necessarily have a good alternative hypothesis in mind). You should be much more rigorous and you should study the alternative hypotheses, or just sit with not-knowing. For the inference gap to be properly filled for the alien hypothesis you will need to do much more work than just "you dont have a good alternative, therefore aliens". Like do you have any independent evidence that the blocks were actually moved by sound or that those aliens were actually on land (without appealing to Bashar or to the Law of One) ?

Ancient alien egyptologists run into the problem of post-hoc multiple comparisons: the probability of finding a significant result is severely inflated when you throw a million spaghettis at the wall and try to see which ones stick. This tends to be adjusted for in scientific studies that use inferential statistics (e.g. Bonferroni correction). That said, if aliens exist, and if the human brain has been basically the same for the last 200k years (and we achieved meta-cognition 30-75k years ago), that's a lot of potential. I think it's plausible that we could've been advanced at least one time before the last Ice Age, but I think the evidence is not conclusive.

@Ishanga any news about his alien energy encounter on the Lake Manasarovar, Tibet near Mount Kailash?

Felt like a quick break, created a GPT and did a query. Alien Contact Expert Hyper-rational GPT for designing and analyzing alien contact methods. You said: What is your honest estimation on the existence of alien life, given the most up to date evidence and rational calculations you are capable of making. You can draw on anything here of relevance, and any method of deduction likely to provide accurate results. ChatGPT said: Given the most current scientific understanding, rational deduction strongly supports the high likelihood of extraterrestrial life somewhere in the universe, though it remains unconfirmed by direct observation. Key Lines of Reasoning: 1. Astrobiological Potential Planetary Abundance: The Milky Way alone contains an estimated 100–400 billion stars. Approximately 20–50% of Sun-like stars host Earth-sized planets within the habitable zone (per Kepler mission data). Exoplanet Diversity: Thousands of exoplanets have been confirmed, including potentially habitable Earth analogs. The variety of planetary systems increases the statistical probability that some support life. 2. Chemical Universality The basic elements for life—carbon, hydrogen, nitrogen, oxygen, phosphorus, and sulfur—are common throughout the universe. Organic molecules (e.g., amino acids) have been found in interstellar clouds, meteorites, and comets, suggesting that prebiotic chemistry is widespread. 3. Abiogenesis Likelihood Life arose on Earth relatively quickly (within ~500 million years of habitability), suggesting that abiogenesis might be a common outcome given suitable conditions. However, the mechanism of abiogenesis is not yet fully understood, which leaves uncertainty about how probable it is elsewhere. 4. Bayesian Reasoning Under Bayesian inference, even in the absence of direct detection, the prior probability of life existing elsewhere increases given the scale of the cosmos and multiple habitable environments. Fermi’s Paradox (the apparent contradiction between high probability and lack of evidence) challenges this, but can be mitigated by: Civilizations being rare or short-lived. Civilizations not being spacefaring or broadcasting. Communication signals being unrecognized or undetectable. 5. Drake Equation Framework While highly uncertain, updated inputs suggest a non-negligible number of technologically capable civilizations in the galaxy. Most uncertainty comes from factors like the fraction of life that becomes intelligent, and the longevity of communicative civilizations. 6. Recent Discoveries Phosphine on Venus: Initially suggested as a biosignature, though retracted or challenged; nonetheless, it illustrates growing capability to detect life indicators. Oceans on Moons: Enceladus, Europa, and others have subsurface oceans with possible hydrothermal activity—environments where terrestrial life thrives. Conclusion Based on current astrophysical data, molecular chemistry, and statistical modeling, it is rationally probable—though not yet empirically confirmed—that extraterrestrial life exists. The existence of intelligent or technologically advanced life is far less certain, but cannot be ruled out without more data. In sum: Microbial or simple life is likely to exist elsewhere; intelligent life is plausible but remains speculative in the absence of evidence. You said: What is your current analysis of the release of government documentation on the subject that has been in the media over the last number of years? ChatGPT said: The recent release of U.S. government documentation on Unidentified Aerial Phenomena (UAP), particularly since 2017, marks a notable shift in official engagement with aerial anomalies. However, from a scientific and analytical standpoint, the evidence disclosed thus far is insufficient to support the hypothesis of extraterrestrial origin. Here is a breakdown: 1. Nature of the Disclosures U.S. Navy Videos: Three declassified videos (FLIR1, GIMBAL, GOFAST) show objects with unusual flight characteristics. These were confirmed as authentic and unidentified by the Pentagon. UAP Task Force Reports: The 2021 preliminary assessment and subsequent 2022 report by the Office of the Director of National Intelligence (ODNI) documented 366 new UAP incidents, with about half remaining unexplained. AARO (All-domain Anomaly Resolution Office): Established to coordinate U.S. military and intelligence efforts to analyze UAPs across air, sea, and space domains. 2. Credibility and Constraints Credible Observers: Many reports come from trained military personnel with advanced sensor platforms, increasing reliability of observation—but not interpretation. Sensor Limitations: The data is often limited to infrared, radar, or pilot testimony, lacking the multi-modal confirmation required for scientific conclusions. Ambiguity: Most UAPs remain unidentified not because they defy physics, but because the data is sparse, degraded, or classified. 3. Scientific Interpretations Instrumental Artifacts: Some apparent anomalies (e.g., sudden acceleration, hovering) can be explained by parallax, frame-rate aliasing, or sensor limitations. Human-Made Objects: Likely explanations include drones (foreign or domestic), misidentified aircraft, atmospheric phenomena, or electronic warfare decoys. Extraterrestrial Hypothesis (ETH): While not ruled out, ETH is a hypothesis of last resort—it requires extraordinary evidence, which is currently lacking. 4. Policy and Sociopolitical Context Transparency Shift: The change from ridicule and secrecy to structured inquiry suggests a shift in threat perception and public relations strategy. Geopolitical Framing: There is increasing concern about UAPs as potential surveillance technologies from adversarial nations rather than interstellar probes. Public Discourse: Media framing often emphasizes mystery or insinuation, but the actual documentation is careful to avoid leaps in inference. 5. Recent Developments David Grusch Allegations (2023): Claims by a former intelligence official that the U.S. possesses “non-human craft” have not been substantiated with verifiable evidence and remain anecdotal. The AARO has found no corroborating evidence as of its 2024 update. Congressional Hearings: These indicate political and institutional interest, but so far lack evidentiary breakthroughs. Conclusion While the recent disclosures warrant scientific attention and improved aerial object detection protocols, no released documentation provides credible, verifiable evidence of extraterrestrial origin or technology. The UAP phenomenon remains unexplained in part, but not demonstrably alien. Continued investigation is warranted, particularly to eliminate terrestrial threats and improve aerospace domain awareness.

Bashar here. It's actually just an unusual comet. Not aliens. But it does have alien sensors attached to it for study.

I agree. But the steel man of atheism is that atheism in theory is similar to Pyrrhonism. A Pyrrhonians whole philosophy is to suspend judgement. I remain unconvinced of Alien Awakening and paranormal. Does that mean I believe Alien Awakening and paranormal doesn’t exist? No. It just means I will suspend judgment until I have verified it for myself. It is a logical position to suspend judgment and be skeptical about things I have never experienced. If you choose to make a video about atheism, you will want to address this objection. Every atheist I talk to doesn’t want to admit that they are in a paradigm. An atheist thinks it is a form of skepticism but it’s a biased form of skepticism. Edit: Also many atheists will disagree that it’s a worldview because atheism is about just one thing only: A suspension of belief about God. It’s one position on the issue. Of course, for many “atheists” this is wrong because their atheism exists inside of other paradigms such as materialism, naturalism, evidentialism, etc.

Little back story about me and how I even got to Actualized.org. When I was 3 years old, the USA bombarded my city, so I grew up in a post-war era. Because of this, I spent a lot of time in my village that was so far off the civilization (ironically a place called Devil's Town, a place that almost got nominated for the 7 wonders of the world). Not really sure if that's what got me into the spirituality, or the fact that I spent a lot of time in nature in the middle of nowhere (no TV, no technology, no mobile signal, not even street lighting). In such a place, the only thing a 5 years old kid could do is play with wolves, snakes, and think about the nature of existence. The more I reflected on life and death, the more I started to grasp the concept of infinity (see book on Leo's booklist called "Collision with the Infinite"). I kept thinking about the fact that I will die one day, and kept asking one and the same question. What if NOTHING will ever happen again. No more watching beautiful sunrise and sunsets, no more playing with animals, no more playing Yugioh cards, no more playing with other kids, no more listening to music, no more breathing fresh air. Not in one hundred years, not in a billion years, but NEVER AGAIN. There will be nothing, complete darkness and emptiness FOREVER. This was my collision with the infinite, and I didn't even know it yet. Moving fast forward 15 years into the future. I met some random guy on a birthday party who, for the first time, introduced me to the mushrooms, and told me about his experience on 5 grams. Up until this day, this guy has no clue how much he has changed the directory of my life. His story intrigued me so much that I decided to take 5 grams of Golden Preacher. When mushrooms started kicking in, I thought they're poisoned, and I was dying. That was the day when I died and faced my biggest fear, NOTHINGNESS. I ended up in a black abyss of emptiness, and I stayed there for millions of years (despite that trip lasted only 4 hours). That experience was so traumatizing, and it left a huge scar on me. But then something strange happened, something that pretty much brought me to Actualized.org channel. While I was in that black abyss, I got hit by this feeling that this is not the first time I've been here. I'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE! As if the dejavu happened to me, that place was suddenly very familiar. And then this thought hit me: "Nothing exists because you haven't created anything yet". Ironically, the Bible's opening line is "in the beginning was the word". And at that moment a light flashed out of nowhere, I felt the sensation of breathing, and the mushroom trip stopped. I finally came back to planet earth, but I thought to myself, these mushrooms are definitely not from this planet, this is some crazy alien shit (and I still believe that). Now, we get to the point where everything goes full circle (there's a good quote on this later on). I told my best friend what happened, and he got intrigued just as I was when I first met that guy at the birthday party. Soon we both started experimenting with mushrooms, until one day my friend took a DMT. None of us knew what DMT was at that time. His trip was so bad, so much that he experienced a complete mental breakdown, and ended up in a psychiatric hospital. It probably took him a year to stabilize. They're feeding him with these pills that literally block the dopamine receptors, and let me tell you, my best friend was like a zombie, a dead body without a will to even get out of the bed in the morning. That's some serious shit. Years went by where I avoided psychedelics because of this. However, I know that I'm on a heroes journey, I want to become a God, I want to know the Truth, and it keeps calling me 24/7. I really want to think that there is no such thing as "destiny", but I keep getting the signals. Every single day when I check the time on my clock, I see a very specific number, a number that happens to be my best friend's date of birth. EVERY SINGLE DAY I SEE THAT NUMBER ON A CLOCK. Everywhere I look I see it, whether it's a graffiti on the wall, or the price tag on the shirt I want to buy. Because of this, I'm planning to take DMT on my best friend's birthday (destiny must be fulfilled I guess). A few weeks ago I took 5 grams of mushrooms because I wanted to ask myself really deeply, is this what I want in life? Do I really want to become God? Do I really want to know the Truth? Is this my purpose? Do I have the courage to go into black abyss again? Will there be light this time, or will I be stuck there permanently (think of the spinning top in Inception that spins indefinitely)? How bad do I really want all of this? Will I loose my mind and end up at the psychiatric hospital? As I was reflecting on these questions, I came to one very important conclusion. It wasn't just a conclusion, but the words that I said out loud for the first time in my life, and I really meant it. I NEED HELP. It really took a lot of courage to say these words, both to myself, and to you. For the past few days, I've visited monasteries, spoke with monarchs, drank holy water... but I still feel that the apocalypse is boiling in me, and that I'm currently a time bomb. This morning I lit some incense and put it in an ashtray (they use them in churches for ceremonies and prayers), and I started thinking about (already watched psychology of conformity video) what would happen if a Christian guy, who truly believes in God, had a direct experience of God, BUT it turns out that the God is not what he believed it to be, or how God was described in the holy scripts. How would that experience change this Christian guy? As if the God heard my thoughts, an ashtray exploded in front of me. I quickly took the remaining's of incense because tit was still burning, and put it in another ashtray, and thought to myself "was this a coincidence?". And as if the God heard my thoughts again, the another ashtray exploded. Okay, definitely not a coincidence... I would really appreciate your advice on this, I really don't know what will happen when I take DMT, whether I will come back or not, whether I will loose my mind and end up in psychiatric hospital, and whether I will be able to function normally in this society afterwards. All I know is that something has to change very quickly, and that I need to make a choice. This time, I cannot reject the calling. It even crossed my mind to do DMT at the very top of the Devil's town (that way it will be in my 7 wonders of the world xD). I truly appreciate your time for reading this and helping me. There are two quotes I want to leave you with: "Through an action, a man becomes a hero. Through death, a hero becomes legend. Through time, a legend becomes myth. Through hearing a myth, a man takes an Action..." -unknown "Sometimes you're not meant to go over, or under, or around it. Sometimes, you're meant to go through it. You just have to get through it." - Elderly client in a lucid state, describing his battle with dementia.

Alien consciousness

Yay, at the end of the video Leo says he will teach alien consciousness. Can we get a countdown clock for that video release ? This video was great, but i still feel the alien consciousness one will be unmatched.

I like when you scroll down his videos from a few years back and get to all the crazy alien thumbnails telling me some story in an ancient sign language. I get more out of these than the videos themselves, but then again I've only watched a few to understand that Leo is really just an Alien of high intelligence who was co-created in Russia and planted here to Brainwash the Americans and Harvest as much mind cookies as possible.

Using Maszlow’s Hierarchy of Needs, we, especially in the developed world, have more than enough raw resources to give everyone the basic necessities of food, shelter and medicine. The Industrial Revolution basically eliminated scarcity as we know I and we’re at a point where we have more food, steel etc than we know what to do with (just look up the Green Revolution for reference.) The problem is we still see these things as commodities to be sold for profit, rather than the base needs that everyone needs to, well, not die. Healthcare, for instance, has made absolutely insane strides in effectiveness over the last 40 years - we could easily give everyone that needs it access to their insulin, physical therapy, chemo treatments without even breaking a sweat, but because, at least in America, these things are locked away behind corporate paywalls for the express purpose of making a profit, countless people simply don’t receive these and too many people die each year as a result. This isn’t about “freebies” or “gimmies”, it’s about upholding the social contract - you support society through your work, contribution, good efforts, etc and in return society looks after you when you need it. Otherwise, whats even the point of having a society in the first place? We may as well return to caveman politics of just killing each other over resources instead. There’s also the basic compassionate argument too - why even have all this explosion of technology, wealth etc if no one even gets to see it? How does handing billions of public dollars to tech oligarchs to buy more yachts and private jets help anyone, other than their limited ego? An alien looking down on earth would be baffled by our current setup. Some of our hardest working and crucial people (nurses, teachers, frontline workers etc) get some of the least amount of social support, while people like Mark Zuckerberg- who literally weaponises human addiction to get people stuck on their phones all day - gets billions of dollars for keeping everyone miserable and paranoid. This is nothing to say of the pure human talent being lost under the capitalist paradigm. I guarantee you, there is the next Mozart, the next Einstein or Ada Lovelace working a dead-end job in a Walmart or factory somewhere, forced to barely keep their head afloat as all their meagre wages go to looking after their grandma with cancer rather than actually providing massive value to the world by following their passion. Basically, this current setup exists to parasitically suck the life out of actual, productive, meaningful work, in favour of pursuing tech-oligarch pipedreams and financial delusions for stockholders whilst the world around them goes to shit. Where is all our new highways? Our new libraries, concert halls, observatories, national parks, public pools, bridges, ports, airports, schools, universities, museums? They don’t exist, despite the economy supposedly “ballooning” over the last 20 years. Why does society become so absurdly productive that even a Roman Emperor at its height looks like a mere peasant, yet it continues to flounder and get worse year after year? Something’s got to give. Too many decent, regular people are starving, getting sick, getting homeless, and dying for this to make any sense. At some point you have to accept the individualist paradigm is destroying society and that if we as a species are to survive and evolve, we have to get rid of our highly antiquated ideas of individual profit selling useless goods that fundamentally don’t make the world a better place. Things can get so much better, we just have to wake up to that fact.

The only thing I want a hit of is Alien Love.