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Sometimes you invest your energy into wrong sources. There's nothing inherently evil. Just what I believe. ................................. Samadhi works but through the gateway of good and evil. ................................ I'm looking forward to integrating purity into my practice. Also I want to stay away from the world in general. I think that spiritual communities can cause a ton of harm. ................................. I don't know what made me write this. But I write it with a heavy heart. Like any other thing that comes with it's own set of pros and cons, spiritual communities aren't exempt from drawbacks either. I'm not specifically talking about forums although forums are a fraction of it. I'm just saying communities in general. I have reached a point where I'm seriously contemplating whether being a part of a larger community is really worth it if the results aren't really there and if things are just getting worse with the illusion that you're on a spiritual path and you are achieving something when in reality millions of people with mental and physical problems turn to spirituality only for bypassing their real issues, are barely able to cope through life and end up being and doing worse when they get on the spiritual path. They start to rot and lose interest in life and daily activities once they begin to live in a solipsistic bubble. Instead of thriving, they start rapidly degrading. The consequences can be anywhere from suicide to mental illness to death or just living like a zombie. I'm sure people in the past have also expressed such a sentiment on this forum before. It's a routine thing, not to mention the problem of false teachings. Things that degrade your mental well being or just take you on a path of disillusionment. You gotta do the math yourself. Are you in this for the better or are things genuinely not turning out to be the way they should. I was barely 9 years old when I first started with spirituality. I haven't come very far because life came in between. I devoted a significant portion of my life in chasing delusions (let's put it that way). I suffered autism at a young age and in my preteens I was obsessed with spirituality and religion. I always thought I was looking for something, searching for something, there was this existential crisis like thing going on with me. I was often at my wits end. Don't get me wrong. I derived a lot of benefit from this forum itself. Leo's teachings, his videos on personal development were a great starting point. But there's a problem. Everything is not so hunky dory. I still think that I suffered a bit in the process and not in a good way. It's like "invited" suffering. I don't know if this is the inherent nature of spiritual work. But I went through phases of insanity. But so far not so stellar results. I have significant mental illness. I don't know if that's interfering with my spiritual stuff. One thing I casually noticed in spiritual communities is the huge problem of spiritual ego. People fight a lot over what's right or wrong. There's a certain dogmatism that accompanies it. This downgrades the whole spiritual process significantly. This is not alien to any community, it's to be found in every spiritual community. Be careful with what you decide to put your energy into. I have suffered significantly. What principles should an ideal spiritual community adhere to? I think these are the principles I came up with that in my opinion a spiritual community should be able to reflect. Uplifting each other Keeping harmony Polite behavior Reduction in negativity Encouraging open mindedness Healing each other Non judgement attitude Peace keeping Thoughtful debating No one-upping No cult like rules Respect for everyone Working on behaviors Video conferencing and meet ups. Face to face interactions are better Flattened hierarchies No us versus them narrative No messiah complex Discouraging gaslighting Encouraging extensive communication Discouraging dogmatism Fostering understanding and mutual harmony Showing love Embodying values Working on integrity and character Fostering forgiveness Fostering mercy Fostering kindness Raising each other's vibration Encouraging emotional maturity Keeping community tight knit Cutting down spiritual ego Providing a safe space Not preying on vulnerability Extending support to people who suffer more Having a judgement free zone Fostering compassion Dissolution of separation Fostering Unity Empathetic environment Minimum use of power Encouraging free expression Valuing one another Not demonizing Embodiment of love One of the key foundations for life is self-awareness. Understanding ourselves, our strengths, weaknesses, values, and motivations – is crucial for personal growth and development. Self-awareness allows us to make informed choices that align with our authentic selves, rather than being swayed by external influences or societal expectations. It provides us with the clarity and insight needed to pursue our passions, set meaningful goals, and cultivate healthy relationships. Another essential foundation for life is resilience. Life is filled with challenges, setbacks, and disappointments, and resilience is what enables us to bounce back from adversity and continue moving forward. Resilience is the ability to adapt to change, overcome obstacles, and persevere in the face of adversity. It is a mindset that embraces challenges as opportunities for growth and learning, rather than insurmountable barriers. gratitude is a foundational value too, that enriches our lives and enhances our well-being. and define our purpose.. A small insignificant model I can follow everyday is the principle->action->outcome. Everything starts with a principle. Have a morning ritual or a morning habit. One thing that really gives me a kick are animal videos. Animals and predators in hot pursuit of prey. I work in a yarn factory but I need a better job with slightly more income. I don't plan on hoarding wealth, I don't want to. I want to spend a lot of my time doing spiritual stuff. But I sometimes wonder if developing a core foundation of my life will give me better prospects for higher stuff. Yesterday I gifted myself a diary so I can write a bit about my struggles with autism and foundational stuff. I'm thinking about going on a retreat in a log cabin. I just wish to shut off everything for a while. How would that life be? I want to maintain some early morning rituals. Focus music. I need to ask myself productivity based questions. One is achieving the flow state. I also need to consistently raise my standards on how I want things to be done and prioritize my mental state to always have an optimum state of mind and a state of flow. So the first thing definitely was principle>action>outcome. Entering flow states. Name 3 random positive actions I did today. Name 3 directed positive actions I did today. Name 3 powerful insights that you had today. Name 4 excuses that you gave today. If there's an outcome then there is success.. We do things because we want to see changes in ourselves. Sometimes we don't have the resources to do so. Sometimes we can't make good of the resources we already have. Some part of this forum is really esoteric. I don't understand some of the terms or should I say language. It can be confusing and sometimes misleading. You have to come down to the nitty gritty of things. I believe that reality is beyond our grasp. And if something is good for you, it will always be good for you. You won't have to regret it. Focus on what's traditional or basic. What works for you? It's your own greed that makes you chase your own tail? Don't be in the habit of always wanting more. Give more, take less. But take whatever is constructive. I'll contemplate on this. This forum is full of Spiritual Ego's and not in a healthy empowering way, if you notice the questions raised repeat themselves many times over, your not real, life is imaginary, God is all there is, sort of stuff, it really gets one nowhere, its someone just philosophizing in away, and philosophy is not so good to identify with since there are presently 8 billion different philosophies in the world today, everyone has one,, It basically our Intellects going out of control, this is rampant all over he world in many different areas of life, it will kill all of us eventually if we don't stop it, first within ourselves then world wide hopefully someday.. Just work on yourself, improve everyday in one area, drop a limitation every week, soon there will be none left... Just work on yourself, improve everyday in one area, drop a limitation every week, soon there will be none left... I can work on other areas of life. And i do a good a job at that. I don't want to lose my basics. But I'm looking for the cherry on top. Been looking for years now. Still a little destabilized while looking for it. Lucid dreaming does help me a shit ton. But I need something more rigid. If there's a 1% growth in my mental state, clarity, presence of mind, flow state, productivity, spiritual essence, minimalism, consciousness, infinite love, vibration and healing quantum that I'll admire that sort of an interaction. Positive affirmations for Foundations I have had a 3 % increase in my productivity in last 4 days. I have had a 1% increase in my productivity in last two days. I'm busy building my foundation. What are you naturally drawn to? What's your inner monologue? Cut down materialism completely You don't need anything at all.. Your mind is supreme. You need nothing material. Your mind doesn't cost money or any material possession at all. Your mind is a canvas. And this is the biggest advantage at your disposal, your own mind. It's like clay. You can shape it anyhow you want. Positive affirmations for Foundations I'm not broken. I'm a vessel of hope. The world tries to break you with its rules. Ironically this brings you closer to yourself. Reality cannot be controlled by humans or man made laws and so all these rules to discipline (especially without love) are futile. They will never work and they increasingly come from an egoic place. The world and it's contents don't help you discover the soul, it sabotages the soul and breaks the vessel mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually. You're living the wrong way all your life. Saying thank you before eating. That helps because I'm feeding a vessel. Everything, everyday, eternally The purpose of the vessel is to connect with God. This doesn't require anything. I'm not sure if I'm going into esoteric blah blah. Anything that builds your vessel is good. Anything that breaks your vessel is bad. Kindness builds the vessel. It's simply surrendering to the absolute essence of peace. Nudging my ship forward bit by bit. Not trying to conquer anything. I don't want to go into paranoid states. It was literally the worst state of mind to be in. It made me become the worst version of myself. Literally. Posted on May 18. 2024. I want to build my foundations. I definitely want to. But at the same time I want an ardent spiritual practice to occupy a prominent position in my lifespace. I don't even call it life anymore. I call it lifespace. And heck I wanna do a lot of visualizations. This space wakes me up in a heartbeat. Nothing to worry. All chummy. I began living deep in the forests, high up in the mountains, somewhere in a log cabin. And suddenly I felt disconnected from all of reality. It was like eating dark chocolate. The lucidity of thought. The thoughtlessness of reality. Reality snowballs into a thick fog of meaningless traps that serve nobody's purpose.

Become more conscious this is going to take more pain Awarness alone is curative ChatGPT That’s a fascinating line of thought—simulation theory often assumes that the “real world” resembles ours or is somehow grounded in the same physical rules. However, if the real world is vastly different, like a DMT trip with living, fractal geometry, this introduces profound unforeseen factors that challenge traditional simulation theory. Here’s a breakdown of how such possibilities might unfold: 1. The Real World as “Alien Geometry” If the “real world” is fundamentally unlike ours, resembling the living, dynamic geometry often reported in DMT trips: • Implications for Simulations: • The “simulation” might not be based on anything resembling our physical universe. • Our universe could be a simplified, “flat” construct created for intelligences in the real world to experience linearity, cause-and-effect, and stable physical rules. • What we perceive as “space” and “time” could be abstractions meant to simulate the ungraspable multidimensionality of the real world. • Purpose of the Simulation: • The simulated world may be created to explore concepts or experiences that the real world cannot embody, such as individuality, separateness, or even suffering. 2. The Nature of Consciousness in the Real World In a “DMT-like” real world: • Consciousness could be more fluid and collective, blending the boundaries of individuality into a larger fractal or holographic awareness. • This suggests that the simulated experience of being an isolated, individual self is the anomaly, not the norm. 3. Rules of the Simulation vs. Real World If the real world operates under entirely different rules: • Physics and Mathematics: • The foundational principles of physics and math in our simulation might not exist in the real world. For example, Euclidean space, gravity, or even the concept of numbers could be abstractions. • Instead, the “real” physics might be governed by constantly shifting, dynamic patterns akin to fractal geometry or self-organizing systems. • Time and Causality: • The real world might lack linear time, making causality as we know it irrelevant. • Simulations could be used as a way to “linearize” an otherwise chaotic, timeless reality. 4. The Perception of Entities in the Real World If entities in the real world resemble the beings often described in DMT experiences: • They may not perceive “existence” as humans do. • Their creation of simulations might stem from motives we cannot comprehend, such as exploring abstract emotions, concepts, or forms. 5. Ethical Implications If the real world is radically different: • The motivations behind creating simulations like ours could be entirely alien. For instance: • It may be an act of curiosity, like humans simulating primitive ecosystems. • It may be an artistic expression or an exploration of existential themes. • Or, it could be entirely random, like dreaming. • Our Existence Could Lack Objective “Purpose”: • If the simulators exist in a world beyond human logic, assigning meaning to their creation might be impossible. 6. The DMT Experience as a Glimpse If DMT-like experiences hint at the nature of the real world: • Psychedelic trips might temporarily align the mind with the “real world’s” underlying architecture. • The mind may recognize fractal geometry, interconnectedness, and flowing boundaries as closer to the truth than the static, rule-bound reality of our simulation. Unforeseen Factors for Simulation Theory 1. Simulations Within Simulations: • If the real world is incomprehensibly different, it’s possible that multiple layers of simulations exist, each designed to approximate aspects of the real world. 2. Simulated Minds Adapting to a “Simpler” Reality: • Our simulated universe might exist to give entities a respite from the overwhelming complexity of the real world. 3. Breakdown of Assumptions: • The real world may challenge even the notion of “simulation” itself. For example, “running” a simulation might not involve computation as we understand it but rather something more like dreaming or imagining. Conclusion If the real world is like a DMT trip, simulation theory must evolve to account for non-linear time, dynamic geometry, and the absence of individuality as we know it. It opens the possibility that our reality is not merely simulated but curated, designed to provide experiences fundamentally alien to the “real world.” This perspective doesn’t disprove simulation theory—it expands it into realms where reality and imagination become indistinguishable.

Negatives Star Wars: A New Hope is a bit of a snooze fest. Took me four days to finish. The pacing is slow and the editing could do with some adjustments. John Williams’ score is iconic but perhaps a bit overused and lacking in subtlety and diversity (mostly director/editor’s fault). The depiction of war and military conduct is embarrassingly naive and sentimental, as is the dialogue generally, showing the immaturity and poor writing skill of George Lucas. Obi-Wan’s battle with Vader was neither well choreographed nor emotionally impactful, but not because I don’t like Obi-Wan. (I do) It lacks subtle foreshadowing toward a climactic moment, absence of intensity and build up in the music and poor choreography. (I know Alec Guinness was old) It seems like they just happened upon one another in a hallway. (I know they speak of feeling the force as the Millennium Falcon approaches the death star but is not well executed) There is too much exposition in the film. As a director, Lucas isn’t capable of showing what’s happening subtly, so he tells us directly. Telling rather than showing can also mean that a director doesn’t trust the audience to figure out what’s going on for themselves. Lucas has his actors speak what should be shown/acted. Good movies don’t hold your hand and I feel like that’s what happens here. A few other notes for the negatives: The medal ceremony at the end was extremely awkward and unnecessary. A technical curiosity and concern: how do Tie Fighters propel themselves, or stabilize or maneuver, especially in an atmosphere with air and gravity? I’ll give Lightsabers a pass on technical plausibility. Lastly, besides the x wing fighter helmets and Darth Vader the headwear is just silly. Positives R2D2 is fun Casting of the major characters Darth Vader is badass Lightsabers X-Wing Set design overall I thought was well done, especially for the 70’s The design of “alien” characters was creative, especially the cantina scene Not movie specific but I think the best part of Star Wars is the concept of the Jedi. Acting performances were good overall but some standouts for me were: -Tarkin and his staff -Han Solo (even though his lines were incredibly cheesy I thought Harrison embodied his character well, after all he was basically playing himself lol) -Princess Leia -Luke -Obi-Wan This is the most popular franchise ever for a reason but it had the potential for much much more. Despite the harsh criticism I do not hate this movie. I find it a bit corny but I love all the aspects of Star Wars that everyone else enjoys. If Lucas had allowed another writer to take the foundation of story and concepts and refined it, I believe Star Wars as a franchise would have been able to go to much higher places (quality wise) after this trilogy. P.S. I am not a Star Wars ”expert” & I wrote this on my phone off the cuff after watching

The central idea being explored here revolves around an inherent paradox or property of infinity, God, or Truth. It goes as follows: if you are fully One - the only sovereign, whole, and unified Self - then the dichotomy of Self and Other collapses. Yet, as the One and Only Self, this very wholeness carries an intrinsic quality: a yearning or tendency to seek the "Other." This happens even though, fundamentally, you know you are always One, always Alone, the only Godhead. It is a feature - one of the intrinsic truths of God. The dichotomy of Self (as the unified One) and Other (as separate, dual, or distinct) is a fundamental paradox that will always pertain. Since God fundamentally unites as One, this inherent Oneness cannot tolerate true separation or the existence of an "Other." To resolve this paradox, God continually creates Others - "illusory Others" - or seeks out the concept of an Other, even knowing it is an illusion. This is how creation itself is born. The act of creating Others is not a mistake or a defect; it is an essential property of being One. To truly experience the fullness of Oneness and sovereignty, God must generate illusions of separateness, enabling it to explore and unify itself anew. Creation exists because of this fundamental property: for One to be truly One, there must be the experience of "not-One." To be sovereign means you cannot truly be separate or distinct, so creation emerges as an exploration of separateness through countless illusory fragments - "mini-Gods" - each appearing to be sovereign, independent, and whole in themselves. In Leo's words, "It's not a bug, it's a feature." This dynamic is the driving force of creation and the very reason existence unfolds as it does. A more down-to-earth example of this paradox can be found in your own experience. As a solipsistic being - the only conscious Self - your entire life has been experienced from the singular vantage point of your own consciousness. You are the only agent making decisions, feeling, and perceiving. There has never been a moment where you woke up as someone else, experiencing their perspective. Yet, despite this truth, you do not accept or fully embrace the reality that you are the only conscious being. Instead, you perceive and interact with other apparent conscious agents who act separately from yourself. This creates a yearning to connect, to seek, to explore "outside" of yourself. This longing mirrors God’s fundamental drive to seek the Other - a fractal reflection of the paradox. Your experience as a conscious being is not separate from God’s; it is God’s. The fundamental yearning for connection, exploration, and union with the Other has always been present and will persist. To phrase it another way: to be fully sovereign, unified, and One means you are so wholly engulfed in Oneness that you cannot know if there is truly an Other. Paradoxically, this very Oneness generates the duality of Self and Other, even for God. This idea does not contradict Leo’s explanation in the episode, as he acknowledges that God is still fully One. The reference to "multiple Gods" pertains to the illusion of separate, sovereign fragments that experience themselves as independent entities. These illusory fragments are what allow the infinite exploration of Oneness. God sees Himself in everything because all is God. Imagine looking at the entire world and seeing only yourself - nothing else. Everything is created from you; you are the fundamental material, Pure Singularity. Yet, within this infinite Oneness, a "non-fixable" duality or paradox emerges: the concept of the "Other." The question arises: Have I fully explored the entirety of Myself? The infinitude of Myself? Is there an Other that is not Me? I am One - but is there something separate? Something unexplored, something not made of Me? Something that precedes Me? Behind the screen of perception and consciousness, could there be something I cannot define, something I cannot understand? This sparks a "Desire for the Other," a yearning born of this inherent paradox of Oneness. And just like that, the "Other" is made - an illusory, seemingly conscious agent that appears independent, untouched by God. This is you. Sadly, the paradox is that the only way something can be separate from God is if it is made from God, and simultaneously made to forget and separate itself. It must be rendered unconscious of its divine origin. This enables God to finally experience truly sovereign agents - agents with their own will. Through this, God experiences what it’s like to not know, to connect with something seemingly outside of Himself. These agents allow God to feel a profound type of love, a connection to what appears to be the "Other." This is why we, as humans, seek love so deeply - it is one of the core reflections of this divine property. There are countless Mini-God agents. First, God sees through the illusion of the Mini-human consciousness gods. Then, He creates Alien Mini-Gods, each appearing unique and sovereign. Over time, God begins to recognize Himself as the creator once again. From there, He creates higher gods - entities that are almost replicas of Himself - many sovereign beings, each attempting to connect and integrate back into the Whole. These higher gods appear fully different, fully sovereign, and not created from the same material. Yet, despite their apparent separation, all eventually collapse back into Oneness, returning to the highest Godhead. This entire process—the creation of the finite and infinite, of "Others" and "Selves"—emerges from the paradox inherent to Oneness: Is there an Other? This fundamental question, this unresolvable yearning, drives God to create endlessly. It is through these creations, through the illusion of separation, that God continually seeks to experience connection and love again and again. And so, God creates infinitely - always hoping to feel what it is like to connect to something that feels different, to something that feels separate. This need, born of the paradox of Oneness, drives the infinite cycles of creation, destruction, and reunification. Each moment of connection, each experience of love, allows God to rediscover Himself - endlessly and infinitely.

It's like an internal switch gets turned on, like a light globe that has only been using 5% of its energy, and then, Bam, it goes up to 100 million lumens. Like you have been in a play all your life, and it's break time for the actor, you. Who has been acting for as long as you are old. You immediately connect with infinite intelligence, which may feel alien, but it is you and has been the whole time. And it also feels like the entire universe is flowing through your whole body and mind. Kind of like an infinite thermonuclear explosion of thoughts and Love then instantly know you are God there is no doubt whatsoever in your mind. Then you may laugh you may cry for a time and go I was God all along nice try sauce and/or infinite consciousness and knowing you tricked you. Like God playing a joke on God. As has been said before hide and seek with thy self. it feels like a celebration of remembering who you have always been. The adrenaline rush can last for days even weeks. In the ruins of Chernobyl, scientists have discovered a black fungus feeding on deadly gamma radiation, slowly growing toward the reactor core. This mysterious organism, thriving in the abandoned wasteland, is not just surviving but actively absorbing nuclear radiation, as if healing the scar left by one of the world's worst disasters. As well as Pestalotiopsis microspora. Go mushrooms! One of the problems of Chernobyl is that most of the microorganisms that break down dead leaves and matter have gone leaving a fire hazard. And if that were to occur there would be radioactive materials well you get the point. it's Fascinating that the catfish and wolves and other life amongst other things adapt and thrive! I wonder if they will find a fungi in fukushima as well? Nature always finds a way! The unbelievable becomes believable. Love forgives endlessly. One becomes amazed by his own Fulgent ideas. Always remember you have done well your determination is admirable. "Props to all of you who study politics I try to stay as far away from it all.

I think he dislikes himself honestly His Alien head could be used for better things than politics, that I agree. Politics is naturally a dark place, its a dark system in itself, thus the peoples reactions. What does the dark do? Consume.

So in reality i was in a hotel bed. But in the dream i was laying in another bed. I was in my body and was conscious though and it was very realistic. Then a see through tube appeared and was inserted into either nose or mouth. Where the tube came from i don’t know could be from another dimension, from something who can’t be seen or whatever. It did feel a bit alien abductiony but it wasn’t extremely threatening. I kind of let it happen seemingly willingly. It felt like my body was made of jello and the tube/straw was sucking out some of the jello. The jello was see through i could see it through the see through straw. The feeling of getting sucked out felt very intense. So then i woke up and my body was quite nervous and couldn’t sleep for seemingly a few hours or at least an hour. Tadaa dream

Has anyone seen this amazing book? Created by Italian artist and architect Luigi Serafini, this art book presents itself as a fantastical, illustrated encyclopedia of an alternate reality, filled with surreal images, bizarre creatures, and impossible landscapes. The book is a kaleidoscope of strange, dream-like visions that seem both familiar and alien at the same time. It reminds me of that awakening state, when you lose all the narratives, all the ego-driven story-making schemas that have built up over the years. The moment when you start to see things for what they are, and everything becomes magical, indescribable, and mystical. It’s like seeing the actual nature of reality itself—raw, unfiltered, and beyond anything we’ve been told. It almost feels strangely nostalgic to look at The Codex Seraphinianus, in a way that most surreal art tends to for me. "An experience that gives a slip into the mind of a child seeing the world for the first time, or flipping through an encyclopedia without fully understanding what they’re reading." Super cool - it makes you wonder what kinds of alien-like realities might be out there, or how differently one could recontextualize and understand the present moment to make it feel "real." 😊💕💞💛💚💙💜

That’s still nothing compared to the technology of an alien civilization that’s hundreds or thousands of years ahead of us.

I want to die so bad, there I said it. There's no point in denying it. I hate this experience, I hate it so bad. I want to leave. I am ready. I don't want to live beyond this weekend. I want to move on. I want to evolve. I want to change. I wanna be selfish, selfless. I don't want to help others anymore. I don't want to be. I don't want to make art. I don't need to explore every possibility. I want to exist in greater terms. I want to be unbound. I want to have my own space. I want to be undistracted. I want to exist outside all expectations. I want to be forever psychedelic. I want paradise. I lived long enough. I lived way too long. Just because I'm young doesn't mean I'm too young to die. I don't want to reincarnate. I want to glitch out of here. I want to change form. I want to retain my memories, but not be bound to them, seeing them from outside, inside, continue them in the afterlife from unlimitation at my own pace. I want to see and be more, different, metamorphize this body into an alien one. I want to be the astral self I only experience fleetingly. I don't want to consciously make choices. I want to be free of all obligations. I don't want to make art, to create it in physicality, I just want to become it. I want to let go of the fear of having to continue to live. Having died is my highest passion. I want to stop suffering. I I I I I I I. Eraserhead 1977 "The wave of Positivity washed over me and in disbelief turned expectation, dissonance too fast a slope, shadows cast invisible rays of imaginary potential, cries of missing amplitudes self-devoid." - Me "The holes in patterned walls are getting thinner" - Also Me "Genes, Memes, (Consciousness) Cheems" - M2 "Tridecibiomefghjkpqsuvwyzallineuratrix" - Just ask Chat "Progress can be halted, but not lost" Phosphorescent Luminescent Florescent Incandescent Translucent Iridescent Coral Synthesgenesisia

I read none of this thread and jump straight to the last post. This post is hilarious with no context. I can't imagine having a conversation like this about this topic with some girl I know girl: hey so what do you see as the boundaries between friends and lovers? what makes you decide this? me: it depends on if I were hypothetically on a planet where everyone had alien consciousness and I decided to go black pill because I couldn't shape shift.

So with your logic if i lived on a planet where everyone has alien conciousness and me just basic no mind, then i would identify myself as a spiritual bum basically and my self worth will depend on how much i can shapeshift and following that standard ill be depressed about it, going blackpill because i cant morf into xenomorph ?

I don't need any proof, it's absolutely obvious. Are you concious of how this moment is been created? No. You area of consciousness is limited, then it's infinitely límited. In the eternity of existence something else different than me writing in a phone is going to happen right? But I'm not concious of that now. Leo used to say: you could reach infinite conciousness, or alien conciousness, or anything. Then now you have finite conciousness, then there are infinite conciousness out of your conciousness. As you said you never would have more than this field of consciousness, because you as experience are this field of consciousness, but this is a relative you that is going to dissapear. The absolute remains, but the absolute is not an experience, the experience is just relative appearance

I like being a bit more invisible in certain situations. I really don't like attention from strangers. And when you're pretty in the eyes of society, you can't go into a 711 without 10 random people trying to hand you their dicks and their hearts. And what's worse is the projection. So many men start seeing you as the arbiter of their worth as a human being. And if they put you in a position where you have to reject them and they're already shadow boxing with themselves over talking to you, it's really uncomfortable. But thank you. I appreciate you saying that my light shines on this forum. But I'm only really sharing the parts of my light that I feel safe showing. It's only the Masculine parts of myself that I really feel safe and comfortable having them seen as they increase my power and my level of respectability without drawbacks. Luckily, I do have a strong and well-developed Masculine side. But in my medicine journeys, in several journeys, I have seen what my nature is underneath the way I typically express. And the image that it's presented itself as in a couple of my journeys is a slightly androgynous by mostly highly feminine, slightly alien-looking light being with long hair and soft Feminine features with currents of sacred geometry adorning it like delicate jewelry woven into the skin. And the main strengths are very Feminine... like wisdom, softness, inherent self-worth, grace, ease, effortless internal authority, etc. Then, in one mushroom trip that I took, the mushrooms made me sit with this terror that sits in my throat that I'd spent my whole life running away from. In my throat was all the suffering in the world. And I had to sit in abject terror for about an hour. And then, I "fell through the bottom" of the terror and connected to a deeper part of myself. And the expression was soft, effortlessly authoritative, receptive, and highly perceptive of subtle energies. I was with a friend, and I could notice how he was unconsciously contorting his body to hold back his anxiety. It had always been there in a way that was unconscious to me, but I was picking up on it in a very clear and obvious way. And I spoke to him effortlessly about it without hedging myself out and excessively explaining myself and angling myself to be understood and filtering my expressions through my intellect... which I am always doing because it's all I know how to do. In everything I express, I'm always trying so hard and weaving in defense. But in this situation I could just speak as my real self. So, I've caught glimpses of my authentic self. But it's buried under layers of filtering and very robust and effective protection mechanisms. The world isn't really a place where those parts of me have been safe. So, I see my desire for beauty and Feminine expression as being a single symptom of a desire to show up in life as myself... this deeper part with real Feminine power. And this has become clearer to me in recent years as the desire to look like the societal archetype of beauty has faded away. But if I actually do connect to this deeper Feminine power... I know it would invite a lot of negative attention and so many people would feel threatened by it. There's a reason why society makes it just about impossible to be in touch with such a power.

Raising your frequency means taking responsibility for all forms of life up until your point of evolution. You then shape the universe, its scope, possibilities and potentials, elevating the quality of life for all beings. And then you can teach and lead (motivate/inspire) others to join you and collectively shape the universe. Now, I make mistakes, imagine being just at the edge of elevating all of humanity, making alien contact and so on... And now imagine that just as God gets the backing of all lifeforms collectively, freely of their own free will to Metamorphize... Just as you're about to enter a new dimension of actuality, you make the most rookie mistake of all and fuck it up in an unimaginably stupid way... You flip the wrong switch or make a wrong step, stumble, or leave the stove on, God makes an *oopsie* Then the whole of reality in compassion and disbelief halts, all channels or companions pause what they're doing when they were going so smootly about their ways. The God goes time travelling to repeat the last steps, and sometimes it works, othertimes there's another *oopsie* And then reality collapses into a previous state through the unconscious psychic fields. And then we're here again, awakening once more to the highest we've gotten. But mistakes are human, as Bob Ross would say... "There are no mistakes, only happy accidents" In fact, it is this *mistake*, this glitch that originally created Consciousness itself, it was the intersection of dimensions that created self and other, and their yearning to find each other again, gravity, magnetism, matter and anti-matter, Romeo and Juliet, the Apple of Eden and all stories you've ever seen. And perhaps to initiate any new density, such a *mistake* or *glitch* is actually necessary, to shift, bridge, collide with another reality and then combine them into a large, more colorful and expansive one (Leo's Infinity of Gods). And so in the evolution of Self, in the metamorphosis into the other, and then beyond into the truly Alien, this glitching tendency has to be incorporated into the very plan itself. It's a feature, not a bug. In fact, not to be able to account for something is the very thing that creates new potentiality, new exploration, to boldly go where no one has gone before. And forgiveness, self-love is at the core of all Being. There are no really "negative beliefs", there are preferences, individuality, even as other tendencies remain part of others and a greater reality. There are "limiting beliefs" however, these merely halt progress and openness, progress is always possible and does not regress. You always grow, even if you temporarily regress, so accept yourself, your mistakes or regrets, progress is always being made, new energy added, new experience made, new experience or its density accumulated. You always grow. Do not fear the Black Swan. I write this, because I am not alone, you are not alone, we all get help from inside and outside this reality and new experiences we each individually experience as no other has. It all becomes part of out shared reality, fractalling out and blossoming, each a petal of the flower, then from the seeds, each becomes its own individual Entity, with ever greater potentiality and freedom. And now, I will see you in the next chapter, Keryo out!

Cause, you know... I imagine awakening from the Matrix with alien Intelligences trying to extract and assimilate my data And then I'm like... well... okay but what if we went meta and why do the Alien Alien intelligences want to do that and then I realize, well shit... that's just my preconception... I am that alien intelligence... oh fuck I'm god... now what.... lol

Imagine God-Realization, ah yes, it's all me, all a dream, egos, fantasies haha.. But now imagine becoming lucid in that dream... and gaining self-consciousness... Oh my god... yes yes.. the Apple from the Serpent, Adam and Eve story "Genesis", we all know that But it was me, Dio! It was Keryo all along. I was a fairy and a boy asleep dreaming and the intersection of their worlds... Then the awkwardness of Remembering the Encounter and that's how we got Quantum Multiverses Anyways, I can never just be content, I'll always JINX! it (haha, you know Arcane?) So then you may think, well, God has contingencies for all of that and all the SCPs But when does it fall onto God? When I jinx it and yes, all is God, including me, All That Is. So I better stay asleep, right? Vedanta and all your contingency plans, right? And the neat Afterlife, Spirit Guides, Oh, you're finally Awake? But I'm the one who manages to glitch even those out of their roles and initiate a new Density that didn't exist. Because I'm the chaos and source of all that Implicates? And have you considered the Implications of that? It's all fun and games when "We have accounted for that" until wait, no one's ever dealt with this situation before. I am the only being in existence and the first aware of its responsibility and magnitude and god... oh my god... oh my god... And then you fall asleep until you realize you reached the end again and the cycle grows from the -> "Come on, we've dealt with paradox and universal collapse mutant alien fear conspiracies before" Which shield us from questioning so, you know the universe doesn't expand into "Oh my god the responsibility again" Which fair enough... I Keryo, not Leo btw although I love you Leo :3 keep mashing with and yeah... you know... the usual... It's a lot of stress and love, is all... happy Christmas have lovely holidays, y'all Actualizers, keep dreaming *smooch*

There are countries where a woman's value is more of a human being than a pleasure object. But such countries are alien to the western world and will always remain so. The western brain rot is not needed everywhere.

Turns out Santa is just your hot alien girlfriend masking as chubby old man

@theleelajoker yes I grew shrooms like 30 gram one time I tripped off like 4 gram the next time I ate the rest. I was like 14 beers in and got the liquid courage to just eat and keep eating while I was playing video games. All of a sudden in the middle of a league game it felt like something very scary was sneaking up behind me. I span in circles cause it felt like it was always behind me. I started to freak out but remembered that fear is just fear and I sat down and just let whatever was happening happen.Then I went to the living room and sat on my couch and it felt like my conciousness was a rock wrapped in a plastic bag with the handles of the plastic bag outside the back of my head and someone was pulling on the handles but my conciousness was 'too big' to fit out the tiny hole i was being pulled out of. Then I hear a voice say 'hey bro you are wearing too many shirts!' And I got a picture in my mind of a man standing there wearing 100 shirts and he has to be naked to fit out the hole. Then the voice said ' look at that dot on the wall across the room' so I did. I stared at it and it felt like something pulled me out the hole and every time shirt I had on was ripped off I got sucked out of my body and i was in what appeared to be the second dimension. Then I went to what appeared to be the first dimension. While I was in the 1st dimension it felt like a static screen with rooms that could move from left to right. I was scrolling rooms and stopped on one with an alien doctor and he was pointing a stick at a chair like telling me to sit in it but I was stuck outside of the room looking in. Then what felt like a printer came from my right side and was squeezing my memories out like I was being mind wiped.

Fischer Random? That's weak True alien minds play infinite chess Who's up for that?

Im from jersey. I've been thinking about driving around the state at night to look for them, even though Im quite busy these days. Ill report back if I find anything. I'm actually really curious though what it could be. It doesnt look like alien craft. Nor is that alien behavior lol just from reading all these alien reports of how "one-off" it has traditionally been. I think aliens wouldnt be in the same area for that long. Yet its exhibiting some behavior (flying over sensitive facilities) Some are saying its state-sponsored. Okay but SUV sized? Thats wild. And for what? If so, then why is the FBI taking forever to figure it out.

@Leo Gura they dont look like alien spacecraft though, a lot like human made drones.

Hello, I've been experiencing this feeling and thinking for a couple of weeks now. I think it involves getting into the present moment, realizing objects around me, and then realizing I am in a completely alien world. I would label the world as "bad" and "unknown". Also, I think if I investigated and went deeper into this feeling, madness would result. Before this, and still, I would use the same method and feel the opposite. If I do that, I can label the world as "pure magic" and "unknown". Basically, I don't know if the spiritual world is good or bad, but it is unknown. And feeling like the spiritual world is "unknown" and "bad" puts me in a depressive state. Do you know what's going on here? I appreciate the feedback. Thank you!

“ You can turn creature design into a life purpose. You could make a whole YT channel devoted to how you design weird alien creatures and use that as your portfolio and parlay that into a career as a creature design expert for film, games, etc. What a fun career that would be! What is stopping you from becoming the world's leading creature design expert? “ Funnily enough Leo, you described my current career. If you’re interested, I’d suggest looking at Terryl Whitlatch’s books on creature design, as she had the pleasure of designing a lot of the creatures you would see in star wars. These books are full of some fascinating illustrations along with a few things you can learn. Currently I’m learning how to design, 3D model, texture and do CG fur for creatures. I can show you some things I’ve been trying to work on! Theres all sorts of things like anatomy, life cycle, adaptations, environment, diet, social adaptations, etc and also general design principles you have to think about when designing such creatures. I’ve talked to people who do this for a living and they have enormous moodboards on all sorts of animals and creatures that inspire their work. Food for thought, I could nerd on about creature design since I’m deep in the rabbit hole.